Tried lots of drugs (pharma and recreational), therapy, socialization, sex, none of it seems to have a lasting effect on me. Normal people are in crypto so they can make it big, realize their dreams and have a happy amazing life. I feel like the only reason I want to make it is so I can quit my sucky job. After that... I can't even think of anything worth spending my money on. Travel, nice shit, a qt gf, none of it is going to make me happy, I know from experience.
Like, if a normal person's happy-o-meter runs from -10 to 10, I feel like mine runs from -10 to 0. And I'm just trying to get rich so I can remove the shit that's dragging me down from 0. 0 is the endgame. Just a cessation of discomfort and undue obligation to others. If I ever 'make it' I know I'll just sleep 12 hours a day, play video games that I don't find fun, and shitpost on Veeky Forums (which I don't find fun either) every day for a few decades until I die of heart failure. That's what I'm looking forward to.
Wondering if anyone else is in the same position here. Trying to eliminate discomfort, but have given up on having happiness.
Christopher Sanchez
Sorry bro but this is just not the place for it
Jason Thompson
Tried fat lines of ketamine?
Nathan Price
This op. Fucking do it.
Nathaniel Bell
> (OP) >Tried fat lines of ketamine? What's a good daily micro dose psychedelic? Like seriously? Im getting some time off I want to test it
Jace Young
If you're rational and willful, CBT can teach you to brainwash yourself into someone into someone who doesn't spend every waking moment twisting the knife. Supposedly ketamine can work for people who don't have personalities that come with decaying moods.
Jaxon Phillips
tried exercising?
John Hughes
K and shrooms. Copious amounts. You'll be okay
Joshua Morris
Opiates
Austin Turner
>implying anyone on here exercises
Anthony Baker
Does anyone have experience with LSD? I'm similar to OP where nihilism runs in my veins - would LSD be a bad idea?
Jose Powell
You should meditate
Gabriel Green
I get you op. I’m going to start microdosing shrooms weekly soon. .1gram starting
Bentley Scott
I think microdosing is 80% placebo, if not try an lsd analogue that’s easier on the mind...
DYOR
Jaxson Lopez
i have done it. short-term fucking great. it can be a great catalyst for change. but, if you stop and you kind of just drift back into your old routine. well... you're kind of back to where you started.
Michael Scott
Are you addicted to Porn? Srs.
If you have been and have been for years, you’ve exhausted your receptors. Stay pmo free for 3 months. I bet you can’t.
If you do, your life will change.
John Hernandez
it'll basically be this image but the background is "Touch Fuzzy, Get Dizzy" from yoshis island
Ian Ramirez
You obviously haven’t looked into it.... stimulating nerve growth factor is powerful shit
Isaac Clark
the only time im happy is when im spending money.
i go on trips by myself, talk to strangers, buy food for the homeless cats. im amazing. then i run out of money and have to come home. where i wait my life away. til i can save up to do it again.
im a shut in that just works out and sleeps. getting long winded.
last night i had this dream i had just killed someone and i was cleaning up when a maid came in and acted like she didnt see the blood stained sheets. she left then a nice, kind of jamaican overweight older lady came in and was kind. then this black man came in and took out a hunting knife and stabbed her leg...then he started fucking the stab wound. she was sad but it's like we were in purgatory and she was just trapped there.
i dont want to go to sleep tonight user
Oliver Long
I'm in a similar position OP. My depression started around a year ago, and I was so close to offing myself that my doctor put me on Zoloft, which I took for around 8 months. During that time, I was diagnosed with an autism spectrum disorder. But my old self never came back after I stopped taking the meds. None of the words I say, hear or read have any kind of impact anymore. Sure, before I couldn't name my emotions, but atleast I felt some kind of connection, and I like to think that I could have gained more knowledge if I wanted to. Now, I'm barely a human being. I'll be meeting with my doctor soon and I hope she finds something that can restore my capabilities, or atleast make me forget that I lost them.
Blake Williams
drink a litre of whisky and you wont have to
Christian Cox
Everything you have ever thought is an abstraction of the electrochemical state of your brain. "Happiness," is when you are able to coordinate your ability to fuck, find shelter and food, etc. to the point that the modifiers in your brain (that govern your subjective "success," usually based on early childhood social interactions and current societal impressions) reach an arbitrary point.
This point changes based on time and experience within an individual and on genetics and possibly other factors among a population.
Modern society does you no favors to develop a healthy neurochemical profile which in my opinion should be based on building communities and, mercantile and industrial enterprise.
I would start smoking weed and not giving a fuck about anything study buddism and start a business to help accelerate your path to early retirement. You have the right idea trying to approach zero on the scale of happiness even if you don't think you can go any further.
Good Luck.
Jaxon Jones
Seek God. If you're not the mystical type you can try and start with classical philosophy.
Lincoln Campbell
yes i feel the same. You need to stop spending 10hrs plus on a computer or phone. Humans are not meant to be living life through a computer screen. That is why you are depressed. You are not living and your subconscious knows it
Camden Miller
We are the same I'm just broken and i don't even stress it anymore
Ian Hill
You would be amazed how quitting a soul sucking job will improve your life. I thought I was memepression but turns out it was just the job.
Henry Young
Learn a new language. Helped stimulate my brain, also start a small business. You wont make much money on the side but it is rewarding. For example get a gold plating machine, learn to use it and advertise on Craigslist and do your own SEO for google and make a basic website. Youll get an extra $500 a month you can spend on hookers when you go to Tijuana
Alexander Davis
>treatment resistant depression >I do something every day that I don't like
