Be 13 year old me

Supergrass
Supergrass

be 13 year old me
literally able to hyper focus at will
insane amount of concentration no matter any distractions around me
actually unlimited amounts of energy, great quality sleep
chad of high school, bitches, sports captain etc, living the good life

Now:
be 21 year old me
unable to focus no matter how hard I try
never feel the same amount of concentration, literally any distraction kills me
feel infinitely dumber and unmotivated to do anything
was able to concentrate like before for 2 days last summer
decided to take some tests (reaction time, visual memory, auditory memory among others)
scored higher than literally 95% of the rest of test takers
remember those days as the best days of my life in the past few years
take test a few days later when I don't feel the same and the hyper focus has left me
literally worse than 50% in almost all categories

Please give me a scientific explamation of how this can possibly happen? How can the human brain degenerate into this?

askme
askme

Literally bumping.

lostmypassword
lostmypassword

Your parents were slipping you Adderall in your drinks

Snarelure
Snarelure

@lostmypassword
I did drink an insane amount of coke. But I think I'd developed a tolerance, so sometimes I did felt a rush but I was able to sleep literally immediately after drinking it.

It wasn't something related to any medication or whatever, it was natural.

Skullbone
Skullbone

@Supergrass
Have you gone through a breakthrough since you were 13? On the other hand, have you not gotten any pussy since you were 13? What about drugs, alcohol?

StonedTime
StonedTime

@Snarelure
I think we found the problem. Don't do drugs, kids.

TechHater
TechHater

@Skullbone
Uh, my last girlfriend was about 4 years ago lol. I tried exercising, it made a difference but still didn't bring me back to the previous level. I drink like once every 6 months, 0 drugs.

I do jerk off a shitton, tho. I feel like that might be messing with my testosterone in some manner, causing me to become like this? Is that possible? I tried no fapping for like 2 weeks, didn't feel much different, so I stopped that. But no fucking other than that.

eGremlin
eGremlin

@StonedTime
Coke = Coca cola. Jesus.

JunkTop
JunkTop

@Supergrass
shit happens just keep going

whereismyname
whereismyname

@JunkTop
This is not living. Or at least that's what I'm telling myself. I can't live being this shit and unable to do anything. No matter what I try to do, I know I'm not at a 100%, and that becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, and I feel even more dejected to try.

Emberfire
Emberfire

@eGremlin
caffeine is a drug

Boy_vs_Girl
Boy_vs_Girl

@Supergrass
I'm in the same boat, OP. There's no solution in sight. You just have to keep your brain occupied like it was before (socially too), and hope that the production catches up with the demand. That's what I'm trying, but unfortunately I get burnt out pretty easy

haveahappyday
haveahappyday

@whereismyname
if you cant go on living like that, then kill yourself. it seems the only option open to you

Nude_Bikergirl
Nude_Bikergirl

@haveahappyday
Death is too final. Life is full of possibilities.

Crazy_Nice
Crazy_Nice

@Nude_Bikergirl
then just shut the fuck up about it.

did you really make this topic *just* to cry about how tough your life is? fucking hell kid

Booteefool
Booteefool

@Supergrass
You are what you do frequently.

Sir_Gallonhead
Sir_Gallonhead

@Booteefool
I'm not your mother user.

Soft_member
Soft_member

@Crazy_Nice
Not even OP, but why are you so salty? He's not offending anyone, just asking for a solution for his problem.

farquit
farquit

@Soft_member
because it's teenage angst the thread.
this is /r9k/, /adv/, /soc/? fuck if i know,
it's just not Veeky Forums

happy_sad
happy_sad

@Supergrass
Real shit been thinking the exact same fucking thing. Even the time frame is same here op. Uncanny.

Bidwell
Bidwell

@Supergrass
Photoshop a clover over that TV, user.

Poker_Star
Poker_Star

@happy_sad
What are you doing/trying to fix it?

I've tried meditation, blood tests to check vitamin thyroid levels, exercising, socializing, studying... everything. It's not happening.

TreeEater
TreeEater

@Poker_Star
are you depressed?

Sharpcharm
Sharpcharm

Same situation here: up until I was 24 I could concentrate and keep up with everything going on around me or block it all out and laser focus for hours on a single thing.

Now...I still keep a job and a social life, but it takes work and I'm exhausted by everything.

It seems to me like it may be stress related. It takes at least two days of vacation wherein I'm unconcerned with any of my responsibilities to get the old me back.

CouchChiller
CouchChiller

@Poker_Star
All of those, save for the blood tests, which I am highly curious about trying. I was also suspicious of having a parasite too. I have reasons to suspect, but it's still most likely not the cause here. I'm just baffled at how similar our situations are. Even sex life and drug usage. I was actually going to try no fapping as the only correlation to when I started to feel this way is the fact that I started heavyish fapping then. Much lighter now, however.

Skullbone
Skullbone

@Sharpcharm
Yeah actually, it really could be stress related. Stress is a huge factor which many people don't think much of.

farquit
farquit

Bumping.

BinaryMan
BinaryMan

If it helps, this year I started keeping track of when and how much I masturbate throughout each semester. And I've found that whenever the deadlines start piling or I find myself in a bad place emotionally, I wank more.

So yeah, I think those anons saying that it's largely stress-related might be onto something.

ZeroReborn
ZeroReborn

@BinaryMan
Scientifically fool proof way to kill/ reduce stress?

StrangeWizard
StrangeWizard

@Supergrass
You probably lack minerals. Get Vitamin C, Zinc, Magnesium & Vitamine B Complex as supplement. I promise there will be a huge improvement!

Illusionz
Illusionz

@Supergrass

Maybe you killed your brain's motivational centre with excess extreme reward-centre stimuli.

Spamalot
Spamalot

@Supergrass
(OP)
OP probably down-regulated all his dopamine receptors with years of caffeine and masturbation. Stop drinking caffeine for a month. Do a circadian reset. (stay awake 24 hours) Try nofap for a month and exercise more often.

@StrangeWizard
5htp, l-dopa, and l-theanine does have a huge effect in the sort term

girlDog
girlDog

@Bidwell
this guy knows what's up

Evil_kitten
Evil_kitten

@Spamalot
circadian bullshit
believes in nootropics as a healthy option

Please ignore everything in this post

lostmypassword
lostmypassword

Were you traumatised? Had depression? Undiagnosed ADHD? Because that sounds like me and I have experienced all the above? You can get to 80% of your original brain by: working hard and studying to rewire those synapses, eating healthy, exercising and taking some bacopa.

TreeEater
TreeEater

@Illusionz
/thread

PackManBrainlure
PackManBrainlure

@Evil_kitten
circadian reset can upregulate dopamine receptors
and I wouldn't recommend noots as a permanent solution but if you're literally too depressed to help yourself it can give your brain a little jump start. So long as use responsibly and don't rely on them too often or too long it should be safe.

Skullbone
Skullbone

@Supergrass
What's your sleep hygiene like OP?

Firespawn
Firespawn

@lostmypassword
I was raped at a young age, but I'm over that. I don't think any trauma like that has that effect on me desu, but I might just be lying to myself. Also, other people without the traumas have had similar experiences to mine.

I agree with the rewiring synapses part, and that's what I've personally been trying to figure out as well.

@Skullbone
7-8 hours of sleep daily on a set schedule.

TalkBomber
TalkBomber

@Firespawn
It's not your fault.

TurtleCat
TurtleCat

@Firespawn

I was raped at a young age

third worlder confirmed

askme
askme

@TurtleCat
Irrelevant. Bumping.

Crazy_Nice
Crazy_Nice

@Spamalot
Stop doing caffeine
Take noots instead

w8t4u
w8t4u

@eGremlin
coke is no good man, its designed by the jew to turn you into an effeminate male.

PurpleCharger
PurpleCharger

@Supergrass
s-same

Illusionz
Illusionz

@Firespawn
As someone who was raped silly my whole childhood, I found a serious addiction with distractions and being completely unwilling to just sit alone and be with my thoughts through my whole adolescence until I was 26. I barely got through school and into university. I'm not on hyper focus level but at least I can finish my programming projects within a legit amount of time these days. One of the things that helped me was learning about the flow genome project. I heard the guy on the Joe Rogan Experience once and it was inspiring as fuck. Your problem won't change overnight but it will get better.

Methnerd
Methnerd

@Illusionz
Flow states are actually exactly what I had absolute control over at the younger age. Did you figure out a way to control this?

I feel like whenever I try to approach something with the idea of understanding it completely, that's a time when I'm in flow temporarily. Or just extremely interested in something too.

Evilember
Evilember

AMPHETAMINES

Spamalot
Spamalot

@eGremlin
implying caffeine isn't a drug
Caffeine withdrawal was harder for me than percocet withdrawal. It's bad for you, bruv.

hairygrape
hairygrape

@Spamalot
Caffeine withdrawal was harder for me than percocet withdrawal
Damn, I thought I was alone. I literally cannot afford to go through caffeine withdrawal right now. Ever just trrying to ween off of it is hell for me. Just as bad as xanax withdrawal IMO

PackManBrainlure
PackManBrainlure

@hairygrape
I decided to stop smoking and drinking caffeine last week so I took my last whiff and my last sip on Thursday. The withdrawals were really showing by the weekend, but I allowed myself to eat junk food and do mindless shit since the trade-off seems to be worth it. Haven't touched either since.

Emberfire
Emberfire

@Crazy_Nice
Caffeine forces your brain to use up more dopamine which can deplete you over time. Those noots increase dopamine in the brain, which can help temporarily but over long term will deregulate dopamine receptors in the brain.

TreeEater
TreeEater

@Emberfire
This. This is why i dont do anything i enjoy, out of fear the extra dopamine will disregulate muh brain

PackManBrainlure
PackManBrainlure

@Supergrass
See: Mental plasticity

There are drugs that will induce it again but those come with a serious risk of schizophrenia. See: Psychedelics

In short, the bar for what deserves heightened effort/attention has been raised as you've entered a period of life that typically works out better with lower risk tolerance than youth.

Basically after adolescence your brain decides what's good enough to handle life as you know it and conserves attention for what works over learning rate and fluid intelligence.

Burnblaze
Burnblaze

@PackManBrainlure
i think your brain might be a little too plastic, friend

SniperWish
SniperWish

you fluid intelligence maxes out at around 14, you'll probably never be as sharp again, but you can compensate by learning. read books to fix attention span, stop coming to Veeky Forums and take some speed i guess

Firespawn
Firespawn

@Snarelure
Yuck.
Those refined sugars will catch up with you like that. I started eating vegetables, whole grains, cutting out carbs etc. and I feel great.
But I'm still retarded

BlogWobbles
BlogWobbles

It's because of smartphones and computers in general. When you were 13 they weren't ubiquitous like they are now and they are proven to destroy your ability to concentrate.

Evil_kitten
Evil_kitten

@BlogWobbles
Going cold turkey on technology for like 2 weeks didn't change shit for me.

TurtleCat
TurtleCat

@Evil_kitten
That's cause the damage was already done.

whereismyname
whereismyname

@TechHater
I do jerk off a shitton
Stop dehydrating yourself if ain't via exercise. Drink more water too.

Fried_Sushi
Fried_Sushi

@Supergrass
When you get older you'll realize you choose whether or not to focus on something. The reason you probably aren't focused right now is because you aren't entertained by whatever you are studying or find other things equally as (or more) entertaining with significantly less effort. Or like other user said your liquid sugar addiction kept you high energy.

If you took an online test I'm sure you scored higher than all the thousands of 10-year-olds who are interested in said online tests.

FastChef
FastChef

@whereismyname
reading "I restrained myself" in Mike's voice.

Nojokur
Nojokur

When you're young everything is new and for a smart feller it's undaunting. You don't realize how much effort some things are so you just take it step by step while hyper focusing.

If i picked up quantum physics today to really learn it, a) I'm aware how fuckin confusing it all is yet b) it's still just another subject to learn. Age is mostly in your head. If you can get back to where you were, which you can't really do entirely, you would have better access to that state of mind

Inmate
Inmate

I think it's cause you watch porn.

Quit porn for 2 weeks as an experiment. If you regain your brainpower, you'll know that was the problem. If you don't regain your brainpower, at least you've eliminated one hypothesis.

PackManBrainlure
PackManBrainlure

@Inmate
Nofap is literally placebo and just a meme

eGremlin
eGremlin

@Nude_Bikergirl
t. Tyrion

Burnblaze
Burnblaze

@Supergrass
Has to do with excessive smartphone use. I see the same thing in myself

BlogWobbles
BlogWobbles

@Supergrass
Those betas you bullied developed an extraordinary work ethic as a means of survival while you "naturally gifted" fags got used to being on top and turned soft. The Beta uprising is coming.

RumChicken
RumChicken

@Inmate
@Burnblaze
idiots. go study psych or some other bullshit if you just want to guess at shit and pretend it's true

op is just a dumbfuck with no attention span and no passion. he should become a janitor or something

Stupidasole
Stupidasole

bump

Snarelure
Snarelure

@Supergrass
You have Hepatitis.
Enjoy.

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