Sometimes, when I'm not in misery, I wonder if my Anti-Natalist world-view holds any water.
Sometimes I get scared I'm killing another human being by sealing off reality when all it would take is a will and a desire to bring them into this life. I feel that I am god as I exist, and it would be horrible for me to not bring another human being into this world because life is fundamentally a good thing.
I think like this, and then I go outside and see the modern world and the destruction it has given to the people that live inside of it. I can't go for a walk without seeing a noose under a highway and dead animals littering the road.
This life foils the natural free-will of human beings. I picked up a pine-cone and split it in half in the woods the other day, and it was one of the only times in my life I've ever directly impacted the world around me out of my own volition. It's sick to put more people through such a thing.
This world wrests all of the freedom from your hands, and it's wrong because human beings need to be free.
My father told me that he brought me into this world because he believes that all suffering is provisional, but I see that adult life in an industrialized world is nothing more than a perpetual hum of low-level misery, so why bring a person into a world that is ultimately destructive and painful?
I walk the streets and wear a smile so as to lie to children so they live in hope of the future, but I know there's nothing truly good coming for them.
A job is "wage-slavery", and it's all very unstable.
You jump to the clap of another human-being, or you will starve and lose everything.
Why bring life into a world with hierarchical structures so cruel? It shouldn't be that way, but it is.
You suffer and escape into media to try and get away from the harshness of life, but why live in a world you must run from? Why not accept that "love" can only come from a closely bonded tribe that no longer exists in an industrial world?
I feel that the human species is perfect in an imperfect world that has cheapened and acted as a destructor toward human-life.