What works of Iiterary merit will make me stop wanting to be a girl?

The only thing that will keep you from wanting it is living it. Be honest with yourself and love your fate.

You have never admitted it is all.

Being a girl is just the least gay way of getting fucked you could come up with.

>Being a girl is just the least gay way of getting fucked you could come up with.
Whenever I go outside I don't feel attracted to men, I feel intimidated by some, I feel indifferent to the rest. I only ever feel attracted to girls, sometimes I even follow them around.

Why do you want to be a girl?
What about it seems appealing to you?
How long have you been having these feelings?

>sometimes I even follow them around.
lel

>Why do you want to be a girl?
Because all my traits and failures as a man would be forgotten, I wouldn't have to be assertive I could just exist
>What about it seems appealing to you?
To be lead instead of leading
>How long have you been having these feelings?
I think I thought about it first when I was around 8 and felt sad when I didn't wake up as a girl a few times but then I forgot about the feeling till I was around 17, in the years between I just got off to ballbusting and verbal humiliation (20 now)

>sometimes I even follow them around.

>Because all my traits and failures as a man would be forgotten, I wouldn't have to be assertive I could just exist
That's only pretty girls, and only until they're 30.

>sometimes I even follow them around.

go on

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>I wouldn't have to be assertive, I could just exist.
>To be lead instead of leading.
>I just got off to ballbusting and verbal humiliation
Have you ever considered you might just be submissive?

Between 17-20 I mostly got off to self inserting as the girl in regular porn. I wouldn't look at the guy I'd just focus on the girl and imagine I was her.

>To be lead instead of leading
Plenty of guys are followers. Find a job where you'll be under a good manager. Find a girl with a good dad. Other people will happily manage your life for you if that's what you want.

>ballbusting and verbal humiliation
Stop watching porn -- especially femdom. This is why you're having these stupid feelings.

Sounds like you have autogynephilia from self esteem issues. I'd recommend stop watching porn and going to the gym. Maybe do some outdoor activity like sports or hiking as well.

>Why do you want to be a girl?
>Because all my traits and failures as a man would be forgotten, I wouldn't have to be assertive I could just exist
You've had failures. Your psyche requires some sort of rationalization for this, because honestly accepting that you are flawed is unacceptable. Among your flaws are a self-perceived lack of assertiveness and masculinity. You make no effort to change this, it would be too painful. You follow girls around, you're clearly interested in them, you're physically a healthy male, but you don't have the guts to talk to these girls, or any. Failure is the scariest thing, so to avoid failure you mustn't try anything new, which means you can't be allowed to change the slightest bit from what you are mentally. Your ego seeks ways to maintain the status quo. So you construct a fantasy to escape. Now what does this accomplish, exactly, you being a girl? It allows you to say, I could have a perfect life without changing who I really am on the inside, mentally, it would just require rearranging some things on the outside, surgery maybe. That means the problem isn't you, just your circumstances, the body you inhabit. This is all a self-defense against change, against making an effort to be more assertive, successful, whatever. You actively do not want these things. You're sabotaging your chances of ever being these things. The only way for you to find happiness is to change, not to change your body, that's largely superficial, but to change your mind, your psyche, your patterns of thought. I guarantee that if you got surgery and became a passable tranny tomorrow you would still have all the same issues you do now, plus a few new ones. "I wouldn't have to be assertive, I could just exist." You cannot find happiness by just existing. The best you can find is ennui. The only way out for you is to take the attributes of yourself you perceive as failures and improve them. This requires effort, many tries, and a lot of failure. You won't do this, because you're a pansy. That's why you'll still be crying yourself to sleep three years from now after masturbating to the same porn.

>Tfw been ascetic for the past 5 years
>tfw Veeky Forums nearly broke me by posting all these saucy succubi

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Interesting user, I think about being a girl for the opposite reasons. All my female role models were very strong personalities while the men were more laid back, and so growing up in a culture where that kind of passionate intensity is valued over calm sobriety, I think I naturally started wanting to be like them, as if being a girl would make me more assertive and less detached from life or something like that.

>You won't do this, because you're a pansy. That's why you'll still be crying yourself to sleep three years from now after masturbating to the same porn.

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who is this fat mope?

mathew fox

Orlando

Have you guys ever had girlfriends? It seems like you have extremely inflated opinions of women. Women are great at putting on an air of desirable traits but this is mostly an illusion for social and mating purposes. When you actually get to know them you realize they are (more often than not) childish and shallow creatures without true passion for anything and worthy more of your pity than envy.

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>sometimes I even follow them around

Stop doing this. People like you are why people get scared that transwomen will touch their kids in the bathroom.

woops meant to reply to

I'm I admit I've never had a girlfriend, but I don't think your criticism applies solely to women; the lack of "true passion for anything" strikes me as much more of a societal ill than a gender-specific one. In fact I consider myself one of the worst offenders in that regard because beyond a kind of vague interest I cannot muster much enthusiasm for anything, which is why I was saying I think about being a girl because of my specific influences. I can guarantee the women whom I mentioned as role models are not "putting on an air of desirable traits" because they tend to have combative personalities and probably would have been a lot more successful and well-liked if they were better at sucking up.

I suggest "Tell your dad so he beats the living shit out of you and smashes your laptop for your own good"

If you were over 30, you'd realize most adult men do not read at all and their only "passions" revolve around idiocy like pro sports and video games. Most of the women I've known, including my wife, are much more educated, genuinely interested in learning, gregarious in tastes, and better company regardless of sex appeal. Sure, lots of women are ignorant airheads, but dumb men are so much worse. They're aggressively stupid, and even pretentious without the slightest knowledge or justification. Women read much more than men, keep publishers afloat, run virtually all book clubs and groups, and smell better than men.

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According to your logic Americans have the best culinary taste because they eat the most.

"Getting a girl" isn't really as great as you'd think. Some people actually find a really special person, but most just settle. I've settled into long term relationships in the past with girls that I though I liked, but it always turned out to be settling from loneliness. Once you get used to being in a relationship, that haze of "I found someone!" begins to wear off and you start to notice that she doesn't do dishes, has shitty bathroom habits, says annoying things, doesn't share interests w/ you, etc.

I'd just recommend avoiding putting the pussy on the pedestral rather than finding a literary work.

But definitely Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert.

Keep your illusion of men reading all the great literature while women read romances and trash if you like, but aside from history and biography, women out-read men in ever genre, every category.

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You have scapegoated your masculinity as the reason for your supposed failures because you have been conditioned by media from an early age to believe in a certain ideal of masculinity, all concomitant negativity that certain groups attach to this, and all concomitant expectations that their enemies likewise impute. I have the same problem, but I get off on hard femdom instead of ballbusting.

Just do something that you enjoy, man. Anything. Take up an instrument, write prose or poetry, get Veeky Forums, learn backgammon, it doesn't matter so long as it makes you feel comfortable in your own skin. I picked a lock so one of my friends could get her dab rig out of her room, it's one of the most productive things I've ever done and I'm proud as hell of it. This is sad objectively, but nourishing subjectively.

Further, you will never "be a girl," and this is something you have to come to terms with in your own way. Just as you can never be the "real man" you feel others think you ought to be, you can never be the "real woman" you feel you want to be. As soon as you break the fixation on one idea, the other follows closely.

>autogynephilia
Go to bed, Ray

who keeps spamming these threads and what do they hope to accomplish

That your wife? Would smash.

P.S. Nice digits famalam.

I hadn't noticed. Trips and dubs, indeed. Yes, she's sweet. She did her M.A. thesis on Eliot.

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too late, contra

>being this uxorious
at least Veeky Forums is good for a laugh, sometimes

why are you posting pictures of your wife here? are you a cuck?

>You cannot find happiness by just existing. The best you can find is ennui.
Nietzsche, of the characteristics of the "savant":
>Eighthly, a dread of ennui. While the true thinker desires nothing more than leisure, the professor fears it, not knowing how it is to be used. Books are his comfort; he listens to everybody's different thoughts and keeps himself amused all day. He especially chooses books with a personal relation to himself, that make him feel some emotion of like or dislike; books that have to do with himself or his position, his political, aesthetic, or even grammatical doctrines; if he have mastered even one branch of knowledge, the means to flap away the flies of ennui will not fail him.

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Honestly op, this guy is right. I've had similar feelings like the ones you described. I had to really challenge myself and face my failures. I still have to face some of them daily, but they diminish over time, and I feel like I'm becoming who I truly want to be. You'll probably relapse quiet a bit, I did for sure, but over time it'll happen less and less until it doesn't. You'll be happy and feel good and have no reason to go back to your old ways.

I just started by working out and eating healthy, if you stick to it you'll get in shape and you become more confidant. Exercising releases dopamine in your brain and your physical body feels good. Literally no reason to not be exercising at least three times a week. As you begin to feel more comfortable in your physical body it becomes less frightening to challenge your negative emotions.

Start by doing some push ups, pull ups, air squats, and dumbbell bicep curls in your room three days a week, throw in a 15 min run or two. Move on to barbell lifting after a few months of building up some base strength. Eat more vegetables, especially dark green ones like broccoli, chard, and spinach. Good luck dude, you can make it but it's gonna be hard and take a lot of determination.

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>ascetic
>posting from his phone
lmaooo