i woudlt even tell you this but i feel connected after hearing your story, i wonder if i lost my family home how sad i would be. would you ever want to buy it back for the nostalgia?
for the first time in my life i had to apply for unemplyment at 27 because i only have 400 dollars to my name
and about 20k in credit debt
im starving.
worse is seeing my skinny as fuck little brothers be so hungry. and i have too much pride to go on food stamps. but will have to if i dont get another temp job soon
i injured my back in 2015 and didnt know how to take advantage of the system. which led to me become in debt
i have been applying everywhere,
i get to interviews and never get hired
i have been able only to survive from minimum wage temp warehouse jobs. with hard work and long hours for the past year and a half
when my assignment is complete they never hire me, i dont get it.
in so much debt.
i feel like a loser since i know my little brothers must not look up to me
i try to cheer them up tho
last night i made them warm pancakes because its pretty cheap. and it keeps em happy i think.
i think about killing myself like my dad did,and i notice over the years these thoughts get more serious, i start to care less about how my little brothers would feel to lose me, but my little brothers need me and for some reason crypto gives me some hope.
and honestly typing this out made me feel better for some reason.
so thanks who ever reads this
what i learned is that this can happen to anyone and has humbled me.
i used to make 40k a year. comfy and cozy. i didnt even spend my money on stupid stuff, just supporting my little brothers and buying food. medical insurance for them
i sometimes regret it. i should have let the GOV support them. i wasted all my money i should have been saving for myself.
i think im doing a shit job supporting my little brothers and i dont expect them to ever help me out in the future.