Be me

>be me
>age 9
>parents divorce. My mom starts eating shitty food
>live with her and eat the same food. Get get as fuck
>be me now. Losing weight super slowly
>lowest weight since middle school now
>summer comes
>eat five eggs. Four plates of Chinese. A bottle of whiskey. A bottle of wine over 3 days
>rapidly lose weight the following days
Why do I lose weight when I eat more. I usually eat under 900 calories a day and struggle to lose weight

>>eat five eggs. Four plates of Chinese. A bottle of whiskey. A bottle of wine over 3 days
this is a vague value of calories, doesn't really sound like much for 3 days
And if you usually eat under 900 calories a day, you'd be knocking on death's door.

Well that's in addition to my normal meals. And I do eat about 900 a day is this why I can't lose weight?

>I usually eat under 900 calories a day and struggle to lose weight
No, you don't.

I often find this to be the case with me too. When I'm tracking calories, I don't lose weight. When I'm not, I do, even when I eat like shit.

I think it's that being aware of my caloric intake causes me to eat more. I see I have 300 calories left for the day, so I have a big snack, even if I'm not that hungry.

But when I'm eating fast food, I eat until I'm no longer hungry, throw the rest away and then often won't eat for the rest of the day because I'm just not hungry anymore. I don't even think about the calories, and so I wind up eating very little even though what I ate was a calorie bomb.

I think the best thing to do is a mix of the two. Try to eat healthy while not stressing yourself out about it.

Right now I only track food to make better choices for the macros, I try not to even look at the calories.

900 cals a day is starvation. You're actually burning fewer calories a day at 900 a day than if you eat 1500-1700 like you should be.

>be OP
>blame parents for becoming a fatfuck
>thinks he is someday going to make it
kys faggot

Here's a tip from someone who's already lost almost 15 lbs in under 2 months from calorie counting and exercise: having excess isn't an excuse to eat in excess.

My calorie intake allowance for a day is 2250. I can eat UP TO that much and still lose 2 lbs a week. This is not an okay to ALWAYS eat that much. If you have 500 calories left over at the end of a day, and aren't hungry, don't eat. You aren't going to die by not eating that if you've consumed the healthy amount already (about 1700 for men).

>kys
Confirmed 18 years old at the most

I think I am starving myself. For 4+ years as I child I would wake up. Eat pop tarts. Go to school. Not eat or drink water until I got home at 3. Eat dinner. Sleep. It was really bad. I'm used to being super starved I wouldn't say I have an eating disorder tho