Tfw adderall

>tfw resting heart rate of 135 bpm.

>natty

>be me, college sophomore
>finals week, big paper due
>roommate has Adderall scrip but can't into drug dealer mode
>gives me fistfull of adderall for my Qdoba burrito
>heregoesnothin.jpg
>Decide to check Facebook before working on paper
>when does it kick in?
>fast forward 6 hours later
>reading Facebook updates from 2006

Shit's cash.

shit makes you super focused for hours on whatever you do
it's up to you not to get focused on mundane shit

I wish I had some shit like this. I've got adhd and that shit makes me feel like a fucking zombie. I don't laugh. I don't smile. It fucking blows.

I have visual snow from a 72mg dose of ritalin I took 6 months ago. This shit is permanent and the only things that cure my visual snow are xanax and mdma.

I just got prescribed adderall and venlafaxine. Tbh I only went to the psych for an adderall script but she recommended I take both, I dunno if I should tho I've read some nasty shit about the antidepressant

Interesting. I can't remember if there was a time when I didn't have visual snow, but the one time I took some ritalin it greatly intensified it. I more or less spent the next 7 hours nauseous, disoriented, and feeling as though I was on the brink of some kind of seizure. Certainly didn't work for me either. Think it was only 20 mg. This was years ago.

Never tried either of those, but phenibut, that also binds to GABA-A, kind of reduces its intensity. Kava reduces afterimages and trailing off objects. Nothing cures it.

Do you also see the spiral shape in the sky? A rotating haze of dark waves shifting their shape, that converges to a center point. Moves with your fovea.

adderall literally a drug
abuse it and have fun

Fuck antidepressants. Completely superfluous and might as well be a scam.

"muh vague "chemical imbalance"".
"Muh meds. Muh I "have" depression. Muh labels."
"Muh genetics. Muh broken for life. Muh not thinking about the reasons the machine is working the way it is."

I take 40mg a day because I have severe ADD. I don't actually get this high people talk about because this shit just makes me function like normal people that can pay attention to something for longer than 2 seconds.

I do get a stimulant effect like having a cup of coffee, but that's about it. I wish I didn't have to take it, but I struggled my entire life not taking it and failing at everything and didn't start taking it until I was about 28 and has been the only thing that kinda works.

Pretty much what this guy said. I don't get super high or anything off adderall I've tried it before to me its like having a coffee that lasts the whole day and helps me focus on things normally. What worries me is the anti-depressant the psych prescribed me since I wasn't expecting to get an anti-depressant at all. I honestly only planned on taking adderall when I needed to get programming or school work done not every day or anything

Look into food allergies. Your problem could be high endogenous histamine secretion.

Don't believe me, look into the role of histamine as a modulator neurotransmitter, and how it relates to the levels of other catecholamines. I know personally it'll fuck ya up hard. Alternatively you just need to learn how to use your brain differently, but underlying physical problems will cripple and inhibit these endeavors.

>I don't get super high or anything off adderall
take 5 times as much. you can't die from speed.

makes you unstoppable. makes you feel like you're gonna explode from all that energy inside you. best feeling in the world.

>you can't die from speed.
Uhh....

Sorry but I'm not ready to leave humanity behind yet

i've been snorting tons of this stuff in my time and i've never died.
i know people that have done waaaay more of it than i did and they're also still alive
i think it's pretty safe.

I'm not a junkie I just want to be productive and graduate

It's not.
High doses increase the probability of brain damage.
Excessive thermogenesis can be dangerous.
It'll greatly increase your blood pressure.
LD50 is ~95 mg/kg, but this isn't the only relevant factor.

Also isn't there some Serotonin syndrome or something that happens if you take too much?

I don't remember. Serotonin is synthesized using dopamine as a precursor, but there are rate limiting systems. Also, dextroamphetamine has a fairly low affinity for most 5-HT receptor subtypes, to my recollection.

Serotonin syndrome is an issue with MDMA mostly.

Oh, I guess I'm mistaken I saw it mentioned when I was reading up on anti-depressants. You probably know more than me anyways this isn't my field at all and I'm just parroting shit from the internet

Sorry, I'm remembering incorrectly. For some reason I head phenylethylamine in my head, and tyrosine, and then that got blurred together with tyramine / tryptophan. Serotonin isn't directly part of the synthesis chain, it's (nor)epinephrine that uses dopamine as a precursor.

I'm tired enough that I'm seeing ripples in my screen and still images appear to be moving. With these kinds of deep errors I think I probably ought to sleep... because somethin' isn't working right.

what's visual snow? pls explain more this sorta stuff gives me a boner

its like having the snow from one of those old tv's a bit

I'm pretty trashed at the moment and on the brink of going to sleep. Here's a general description:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Visual_snow
Also, the spiral form constant I described seeing in the sky resembles this:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Form_constant
The two are probably related via some sort of fixed function filtering and mixing stage for sensory input, that isn't working properly.

Otherwise, in short, you see a lot of static in your visual fields. Like film grain, or an old TV reading an analog source. For me lighter surfaces receive dark grain, darker receive white. Sometimes there are aspects of colored grain, or flashes of color splotches (usually blue or pink) on objects. On areas of high contrast and hard edges I can see hundreds of black dots moving around as though they're tracing and bouncing around the edges, then remerging with it. If I am very tired, as I am now, I can look very hard an eventually see that these things are made of billions of tiny yellow, blue, and pink moving around. Like a white glob separated to its base colors.

You readily see negative afterimages easily. Trails off moving objects. Certain fluorescent lights have yellow trails that go everywhere as I'm moving. Ears ring a lot.

The grain isn't experienced as though it's in your eye. You see it on what you're looking at, like a blanket. There's the heat wave effect I described. There are flashes and bright clouds that forms and move around with your eye closed, sometimes they form complex patterns. I always assumed everyone saw this part, and still sort of do.

There's a lot to say and I'm too tired to say it. Obviously spans multiple systems. I don't really think about it much otherwise, maybe in the future research will address my old glutamate upregulation hypothesis.

>tfw no one to hook you up

My internet is being weird and I keep getting a 502 error but does anyone wanna hear about the time I broke my jaw and couldn't eat for seven weeks all the while binging hard on adds?

It's working now
So here's a story from the worst part of my life to date. I broke my jaw by rolling out of bed and hitting a dresser drawer on the way down of the 1.5ft fall
>No one believes this story but it's true
>dad and I get kicked out a week after my jaw is wired shit. I can't eat solid food l, even applesauce was too thick and subsidies on boost nutritional shakes and McDonald's shakes
>waste away to 150lbs from 180 at 5' 11" in just four weeks
>get addicted to Adderall have access to shitloads of xrs and standard pills
>literally slip adds behind my wisdom teeth or crush and drink them because my mouth doesn't open more than a couple millimeters
>do several benders days on end
>fall into worst depression to the point where my hs tells me to take two weeks off, get my life in order and forget about even taking mid terms
>winter 2013, -11F for a week straight, constantshivering.helpme
>stay up for four days with a grand total of eight hours of "sleep"
>fourth day
>can't stop thinking about how I'm a literal Faggot and hate myself, come out of the closet to first person ever after driving around for hours hallucinating deer and swerving and calling suicide counsellors
>slept for 27 hours and somehow drift through Christmas after my sister's bf (we were living with then) got a dui

The guy later went to prison for armed robbery after we moved out

I've got more but this was the worst

That sounds awful user

Bullshit, Serotonin is synthesized from l-tryptophan, dopamine from l-tyrosin.

I'd take it or leave it. It was a cautionary tale I was able to live and I can honestly say my life has never been that bad since. There were some ups to Adderall though too.

>came out of the winter running track stopped adds for a while
>became xc and track captain the following year
>run best 5k on it 19:00 had visual distortions in the final stretch and twenty minutes afterwards as described here:
>ran track as distance
>came within five seconds of best mile time and had a sensation that I'm not sure has been mentioned yet

During the 4 day bender or was bad when I would freak out, the sensation would become over powering as my sorrow and hysteria came in waves.

Basically it felt as if I were being shook violently, as if tectonic plates were sliding against each other under my skin or if I were vibrating

>happens during final lap of my second fastest mile (5:05), nearly overwhelmed me
>coupled with my heart beating like crazy
>apathetic acceptance of a potential cardiac arrest in my near future
>nada
>run fastest two mile I've ever run at 11:45 had the sensation again
>No myocardial infarctions to date

It should be noted that I never used instant Adderall for races I used extended release (xrs) and waited at least an hour before I ran to take them. Dangerous as hell I'm sure wouldn't recommend for sprinting at all

I have a couple more I'll check back later to see if anyone wants em

>i use adderall for an aphrodisiac
>i would always prep by eating a big meal and going to the store and buy lots of gateraid.
>once i would start i would just do a lttle bit a time starting at around 10 pm and within a few hours i would be a full crazy..what i called the frenzy..
>i would always become super obsessed with a look a girl would give or maybe a moment when her ass would shake..
>and would watch it over and over and over and over again and again..
>this would really go on for hours and hours...
>you can never really get hard, but it sure is fun trying..
>i would get off after like 12 hours of pulling and it was always a load for ages...
>then the after affect..needless to say raw dong..hurting shoulder and that magic sheen of pure nasty you have from getting crazy of speed and beating it for 12 hours..
>take a showed lay in bed for next 48 hours thinking im going to sleep...

Whenever I am sleep deprived (after about 26 hours) I see a wave pattern than I can only describe as, the reflection of light on the ceiling in a swimming pool. Anyone know what I'm talking about?

>used to have a dex script
>stockpiled and binged
>would take like 15-20 5mg pills and chew, keeping the goop in my mouth for half an hour so it'd be absorbed by the mucous membranes as it's more effective (if you haven't tried it, amphetamine tastes very bitter and very disgusting)
>shivers through my entire body, eyes wide open like an owl, chewing and clenching my jaw until I'd get mouth blisters, a sore and damaged tongue, and jaw pains/cramps
>feet and hands ice cold
>finger- and toenails and skin bitten down, looked like a dog had been chewing on my finger tops
>speedbumps, rashes, blisters, especially in my face
>reading fucklong technical/scientific wikipedia articles, posting on imageboards, re-organizing my furniture, sorting screws, tinkering with (and destroying) electronics, making themes for computer programs, obsessively doing pointless robotic tasks for ten, twenty, thirty, forty hours on end, ending up confused and losing track of what I'm doing, or what I was doing before I started doing what I'm doing as a sub-task of doing something that I interrupted doing something else for as I was....
>several 15-20 hour wankathons, downloading tens of gigabytes of the most weird disgusting porn imaginable (piss, beast, scat, tranny, w/e) and wanking until my dick was glowing red from sores and friction burn or spending hours building home-made fleshlights
>losing appetite and not giving a fuck, going down to 100lbs at one point
>being awake until I had to cover one of my eyes to be able to read text, hallucinating and being so paranoid about neighbors and cops that I didn't dare to listen to music even in headphones
>countless horrible comedowns breaking me down into a sobbing pathetic little man filled with regret and anxiety
>binge drinking, smoking weed and taking pills to ease the comedown
>turning weekend binging into daily habit, becoming a weirdo shut-in loner junkie

I'm very happy that I quit that shit entirely.

Did I miss something? Is this the board to discuss your crippling speed addictions?

Life according to Jimmy, try harder faggot.

anybody got tips on using it for cutting?

to be honest im not entirely sure what the guy sold me back then but he told me they were e's
i took them while playing league with friends and they started working after about 20-30 minutes
i couldnt hold still for 0,1 seconds and ended up constantly moving, spamming emotes and jumping back and forth between the game and firefox
played league for about 5 hours and couldnt sleep until 4AM
i would love to do more of it but i already do stupid/crazy shit while drunk and i dont have a source anymore

did anyone ever go lifting while on drugs?

Hahaha, that takes me back. You've just found your limit son, make a mental note, and judge where you think your tolerance is. If your taking more than whats prescribed to a 5 year old (and not recreationally)... Your taking to much. Just don't do it again OK.

Your/You're grammar check

how to buy adderall? it is legal?

Google intermittent fasting. You want like a 16-24 hour period of not eating.

so like sleep for 8 hours, then pop addy, you won't want to eat anything for maybe 10 more hours, bam you just fasted. Addy is literally the ultimate natty cutting tool

>adderall
>natty
bruh

it's as natty as preworkout or coffee