Me 5"9 28yo manlet

>me 5"9 28yo manlet
>no sex & no gf for 5yrs
>start lifting
>6 months.. beginner gains
>Tonight is my night.
>in club
>catch girls eye
>THIS IS MY TIME
>she walks up to me.. "hey, whats your name?"
> "c..ca..carl" (Club is too loud)
>she leans in and kisses me
>wotishappening
>she takes my hand and leads me through the dance floor
>I'm shaking.. playitcool.jpg
> I can do this. Be alpha.
>we get outside
> "Where are you from?"
> "uu..uurr..rummm... n.noorth london."
> "y...you?"
>her friends walk over
>Spaghetti-geddon
>somehow she still asks me to come back inside with her
>"uhh.. ok.. b..but let me tell my friend..."
>Leave
>post on Veeky Forums on the bus home

I started lifting to improve my confidence and get women.

Women find me attractive but I'm still beta.
Can a beta become an alpha or is that a meme?

Should I stop lifting and accept my beta life?

You can indeed gain confidence. Keep training. Keep reading. Talk to a therapist about your life and the shit that bothers you if your insurance covers it.

why didn't you get back inside and order some liquid confidence ?

Did you go by yourself? I've debated it.

>I've been lifting for a few months and was at a blink-182 concert a few days ago.
>Cutie and friend switched seats with person next to me.
>She keeps bumping me and getting my attention.
>Continues for a few songs and I act natural but spillin spaghetti inside.
>Concert ends and I haul ass out of there. Friend needed me for ride but if he weren't there I would have done things differently.

You're not alone user. This newfound attention is hard to accept.

I went with a friend, but I text him I didn't think she was hot so i left
he saw it all happen

>paying to talk to someone
the most beta thing I've ever read my man

does this really happen? i thought youd be too beta to say anything and get basically sexually assaulted aka laid.

Once a girl is interested in you, maintaining conversation is pretty easy. Especially if you're with your mates. Just ask them some open ended question. People LOVE to talk about themselves.

i've noticed that talking is the least attractive thing to do when women are looking for casual "fun"

at least dont talk about anything personal, women get triggered

stop watching porn and masturbating. you'll get more confidence and your test will be so high as soon as she kissed you you'd bend her over right there

why do my knees shake when I meet new people?

because you're too self aware what others think about you

you should try to be more selfish

I came to terms with the fact that girls find me attractive through an ongoing internal monologue of ironic self-deprcation

>I look like shit, fuck it I'll go out anyway it'll be funny when nothing happens
>she's making eyes at me, I bet I'll look like a total asshole going over and talking to her
>I'm probably gonna say some retarded shit, that'd be hilarious
>oh she wants to go home, lmao I can't wait to see the look on her face when I can't get hard
>I have no idea what I'm doing fucking this chick, I bet I look ridiculous lol

sex really isn't anything special and the next day your life is exactly the same except now you have a girls phone number who you might message back and forth over the next week which could lead to more sex, or not

thank you man

I was no fap for 3 weeks until 2 days ago
I don't think I learned how to talk to women when I was young and now I've missed the chance

If I keep lifting I'll just have more chances to spaghetti and I think i'd rather die.

I've listened to self help audio books

>tfw got fit but i still have the hyperhidrosis and anxiety sweat
>tfw got fit but shave head now cause hair was thinning like a mad man
>tfw 5'9 bald spic manlet

Man i got more pussy when i had hair and was tubby.
Life is suffering

Minneapolis?

Detroit (clarkston)

Whoah your story can't be real. I don't believe anyone can sperg so much. I mean it wasn't like she was asking you to marry her. You should've been like fuck it lets have fun.

How do I be "fuck it let have fun"
what do I say?
I thought in the moment I would boss it, I've watched alot of PUA stuff and I tried to act alpha but my autism was showing, I think i said the right things but not in the right way
everyone was confused

You don't need to say much. Just have fun. It's not that hard.

Btw I DJ. I watch people dance have fun all night for a living. PUA ony works if you're charming or funny with how you interact with people. You dot have to be neither.

stop thinking about things so much and do it breh

>only have confidence to go out to bars by myself when hammered
>whiskey dick

It's fucked up bros

Op here.
I've read too much MGTOW propaganda and I think all hope is lost.

All the women I've ever know have given me nothing but stress.

I thought I could just bang sloots without caring but really I'm just leaking spaghetti and using MGTOW as an excuse.

Next time I lift I'm going to use straps.

u post modern cuck

You get used to it just keep doing it

>wanting to improve your life
>beta

nope

>north london

top kek were you out in Camden by any chance? Easiest place in the world to pull.

Last time I went out there I literally had to peel this chubby chick off me who just came and hugged me and wouldnt let go, without saying a word to me at any point