Mental Health Thread

Try this for me guys, post all the things you normaly want to vent to someone (insecurities, problems, issues,stresses, things you're worried about etc...) in this thread (and I mean everything) then go out tomorrow and see if you sperg out even half as much then report back. Simple as that!
>so come tell uncle Piana all your problems

Sure. I'd rather fucking kill myself than be confident.

I don't know what's wrong with me, but there's that.

i want almost every black person i see dead.

>in film class today talking about the nature of humor or something
>italian looking guy describes how through the collective experience of laughter can bring people together
>i attempt to illustrate this idea with hand choreography
>i gesture to my head as if i am grasping a bulbous object attached to it
>with my other hand, i grip another imaginary bulbous object in the vicinity of his head
>i move my hands in a circuitous motion, slowly, yet meaningfully so that the bonds of laughter can be observed to pass between us
>my hands are like moths floating around the lampposts of our souls
>"what the fuck are you doing?" he asks
>"i am just fucking around," i say
>i lock eyes with the teacher, who is at the edge of her seat
>"sorry, please continue" i say
>the class continues

I act confident and people always point out to me that I'm always in a good mood, but as soon as I get home I can't help but feel lonely. I think I've become a literal case of >tfwnogf despite not caring for the rest of the day. Only when I'm home.

thicc posts have made me develop ssbbw 500+ pound fetish, gonna pay a ssbbw escort to act on my desires

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im 21
im 6''3 205 lbs.
i can 1/2/3/4
7.5/10 qt gf
done, 3 years of college and scored a sweet job in june making 80k a year.
i live in canada.

Why am i so fucking bored?

I think I have social anxiety, what should I do, how do I fix this.

fake it till you make it

I refuse to do my job because I'm no longer confident I can do it after years of being sick.

Someone I would consider my one of my best friends constantly acts like he's better than me and I have a creeping feeling deep down that he doesent like me as much as I like him since he constantly gives me shit and passes it off as banter and won't tell me half the stuff he tells other people, I'm on the verge of wanting to beat the ever loving shit out of him (whitch i could BC he's just a fat peice of shit) but I cant because then out entire friend group would fall out with me

Another lad I'm "friends" with Is just a drugged up piece of shit who I realy could beat the fuck out for the same reason of he just acts as if he's better than me and i realy could fuck him up good but again same scenario I would loose all my friends if I did

I had feelings for a lass out who im friends with and the way things were going I think i had a chance but I screwed up by telling one of the guys in our group when he was drugged up and he went and told top druggo (or top druggo over heard) and then one of them told the entire group as well as the lass and just made things auquard as shit so today I just spent avoiding her and going to the gym every hour to make myself feel better but whenever I try and get to sleep i end up just getting pissed off thinking about wanting to floor whichever one did it

When I get stressed I buy things I dont desperately need but want and keep considering buying roids if this constant shitty patheticness keeps up because I idealise that for some reason they will help because ill be so fucking huge people will have to respect me

I come over as alpha as fuck for the first few days of meeting someone then when i get comfortable around them I go full on sperg mode for some reason and I have no idea why I do it and end up comeing across as pathetic and whiny and needy

Im running 3/0 With grills i've tried with and have already run out of options since every grill I know is taken or un interested or i've already fucked up with

The "Banter" I have with the lads has slowly became more and more harsh and its realy starting to grind down on me to a point where today I walked off mid conversation and am starting to have thoughts about just cutting all contact with them and going cocoon mode however I know this would just make shit worse for me

I went an entire day without having any actual discussion with any lads (just more shit banter), only people who talked to me were grills and while that should be a good thing it just made me feel like they were trying to make me feel better and not actually interested in what I had to say

Im the only one in my friend group who hasn't had any experience with a grill but thats not what pisses me off, its that talking about sex is about half of our conversations and I just feel left out of them to a point where im thinking about just making stuff up for the only reason of its something to talk about yet I know this would back fire because everyone would know I was lying

I act super confident and happy and have even been asked how im so energetic and bubbly all the time but I dont know how much longer I can manage it for

I keep saying my fucked left arm is what is making me feel down but realy its the way people keep treating me as if im less than them not an equal but I dont know how to say that without comeing across as a whiny fuck

I have a mock exam tomorrow and I know Im going to fail it but I have to pass or im thrown off my course (currently using my break to type this up)

Ive done various stupid things just like everyone does but weather I ignore it or not people just wont let me live it down

Instead just kill yourself and see if it fixes the problem

Im getting realy tempted to fuck someone up just to prove a point that I wont take endless amounts of shit from people but I dont know if it would do more harm than good

I havent slept properly in months because of stress and I can't get sleeping pills of any kind

I keep on helping people with there own problems (relationships, family, friends) purely out of the fact I enjoy helping people and I dont expect anything in return for that however it annoys me when people ask for my help and I do yet they dont return it when I need a favour or someone to lean on

I have a bad habit of not copying exactly but picking up personality traits of people I like or have respect for, and im not sure if they notice but I think it puts them off

I dont expect anything to come to me and I wholeheartedly believe that everything I want needs to be earned and that problems you have must be solved by your own hand but It hurts and tires you out when you're trying your damn hardest and dont seem to be getting anywhere. but Im a stubborn mother fucker and a runner to top that so im not allowed to stop and just give up I just have to keep moving forward no matter how much it hurts

>extremely insecure although have been told I'm easily 8/10 by everyone i talk to and have 7 1/2 dick
>lifting to train for mma but aims are low and if i don't start seeing gains soon ill probably back out like the bitch i am
>gf fucking hates me for my insecurities and is most likely going to leave me for someone else

nah, niggers are niggers.

Lot of shit going wrong, I've got bad luck lately

Ex broke up with me a few months ago, sent me into a deep depression, mostly out of it now
Uni started back up and has been exhausting so far
Bought a new car, has a shit ton of problems and the hood flew up on me while I was driving and cracked my windshield
My grandma also got very sick and almost died, she's better know but probably on her way out soon

There was this girl I was very interested in, I liked her and thought she liked me, she was very friendly to me and always hugged me, even though we haven't known each other much, thought my luck was turning around but it turns out she has a boyfriend, which is a pretty big disappointment for me, though I probably shouldn't be in a relationship anyway. Only consolation is she's with her boyfriend from high school, so it'll likely crash and burn sometime. Gonna keep an eye on her to see for when her status changes

>back in college for comp sci this year, left back in 09 because depression/anxiety/mental breakdown
>been lifting for over 2 years now, lost about 80lbs, down to ~225lbs at 5'11"
>still virgin, but have had 3 hookups since march, which are the first in 6 years
>dad stressing me out all the time about paying the mortgage, yells at me when i dont go to work because i need to get school work done, but then tells me i better be getting A's
>sister is taking nephew that ive been raising since birth to live in louisiana with her and her deadbeat husband, that kid saved my life btw
>all my friends are done school and have jobs, theyre all going to canada this weekend without me because i cant afford it
>feel shitty when we go out and they buy me drinks all the time or food, i feel so embarrassed

at this point at age 26, im starting to wonder if any of it is even worth it anymore. i feel like ive already wasted too much time, and that by the time i actually look decent, finish school, have a job and my own place, that everyone will still be miles ahead of me. i want a wife and kids someday, so much, but all the best girls will be taken by then, otherwise why is any girl, or guy for that matter, single after 25-30? theyre either damaged goods or a loser like me.

i just hate my dad so much for raising me the way that he did, and the divorce. hes an alcoholic and a hardcore roman catholic, even now he doesnt let me take girls home. last time he caught me on purpose with my last gf back in 09 and then kicked me out. never had one since. even came home a couple weeks ago with a female friend at 7 in the morning after shit went down at a party and we needed to sober up and leave. i put her on an air mattress in my room because i havethe only AC in the house. dad wakes up and knocks on my door yelling at me to gtfo. i hate him.

ive been thinking about killing myself everyday for the past week or so. everything is coming down on me at once. i just dont want to exist anymore.

i cant even fucking read these without green text god dammit, its like my brain just refuses to read it

People still tell me to read the sticky so I'm just getting a personal trainer and I'm super depressed

LOL

Moved states for college. post grad. it's a great oppurtunity. feel lonely as shit all the time. girl ive been chasing for years is finally in love with me but i think i've fallen in love with my neighbor who ive spoken to maybe 3 times now. depressed because i feel like i'll never amount to anything.

You probably won't believe me since I'm not good at encouraging people but suicide is not the way.

I'm guessing you're not religious even though your dad is. He doesn't sound very good for a religious person though.

Anyway point is, you don't need a girl to feel better and even though you have other issues besides that suicide isn't the way.

Sorry if I'm not much help.

tell your dad too fuck off then.

My family is a mess

>dad is a beta whipped by my mother
>dad has severe anger issues
>threatened to slit my throat because I didn't wash the dishes

>mother is overly aggressive and excessively naggy
>the type of woman that will have the last word and keep on going
>woke up one morning to her nagging about how my dad wasn't helping and how he was useless
>he offers to help
>NO I DONT NEED IT
>he helps anyway
>she nags away at him instead of thanking him

The best part

>sister is a literal asexual bisexual (both) tumblr feminist SJW loser at 26
>to the point she throws literal shouting tantrums and storms out of the room if she happens to hear anyone talking about politics
>has an online fat dyke brony gf in California
>has a huge ego and hates doing favors for others and spends all her time playing video games
>ie. I was sick with a flu and she drove me to the doctor to make an appointment
>when I had to go back, she refused and didn't feel like it so I had to drive myself
>asked her to take a picture of my back to check for scoliosis and it turns into a huge production because she literally can't be bothered to pick up the phone I put at her side and take a picture
>ask for her help in taking a picture of me for an art class where I have to physically recreate a portrait
>keep having to redo it and beg for her to help because she nonstop half-asses it

>I'm doing minoxidil for beard gains, working on physical appearance, getting confident, getting buff, and want to get fashionable
>she hates on all of it and tells me to "love my body as it is"
>mother also tells me how I shouldn't worry about that and should instead just worry about getting good grades and how everything magically happens after that
>dad just uses me to take his anger out on

I wish I had someone to give me a second breath of life but even despite all this crap I am not depressed and am very optimistic.

How does one get out of cocoon mood?

Talking to people seems pointless because they won't even bother giving me the time of day and if someone talks to me, I immediately assume they are up to something and shut the conversation down. (ie trying to humiliate me.)

Sounds like you're handling the shit pretty well.
How long until you can get out?

Hopefully at the end of this school year. I'm finishing up an associate degree in business and then transferring to get a bachelor in architecture.

I kind of wish I had a girlfriend for companionship but at this point I want to be the person I want to be first and get a girlfriend second.

Fucking hell wtf. Explain this again user this sounds hilarious

take this shit to this is not fitness. no sad DYELS from tumblr allowed

I so lost I don't even have life goals sometimes I want to run away, also I can't hold healthy relationship I always keep my distance and feel trapped, yet I crave for someone who just accept me and care about me, kill me.....

girlfriend of the 3 months told me she loves me. i said it back. am i fucked?

>wanting to beat your friends
??? Get help

Have you read the sticky though

Yo man let me know if you need to talk to someone. I can send you my email addy or something. Either way hang in there

Kinda reminds me of my family when I was younger. Mother used to be pretty much how you described. Parents broke up because mom cheated on my dad. Can't really blame her because their relationship was pretty platonic for as long as I remember.

What was a game changer though was me sitting my mother down and having a talk how I don't want to be treated the way she treats me. I explained how she isn't going to get her point across by nagging or calling me names. Told her that the way she behaves is alienating me from her. After that talk our relationship has improved a lot. Funny thing is that nowadays she asks me for advice on what she should do with her life and relationships, on renovatig the house and shit.

But you seem to be faring well for yourself, just felt like sharing.

>What was a game changer though was me sitting my mother down and having a talk how I don't want to be treated the way she treats me. I explained how she isn't going to get her point across by nagging or calling me names. Told her that the way she behaves is alienating me from her.
tried exactly that and it didn't work

>>still not quite over the young ex-landlady and the times we had in her bed while her husband was away
>>haven't seen dad for 15 years since he threatened to kill the neighbour
>>one half sister mentally retarded and mentally ill, now arrested
>>other half sis is pregnant for the 3rd time and couchsurfing

>>dad is a beta whipped by my mother
>>dad has severe anger issues
>>threatened to slit my throat because I didn't wash the dishes
>>mother is overly aggressive and excessively naggy
>>the type of woman that will have the last word and keep on going
>>woke up one morning to her nagging about how my dad wasn't helping and how he was useless
>>he offers to help
>>NO I DONT NEED IT
>>he helps anyway
>>she nags away at him instead of thanking him

M8 you just described my mother and my father. Since my father is dead, my mother bitches with me.

My sister is a spoiled retard who can't take responsibility of her own acts. There's always someone else to blame.
Also she mocks me for loosing my hairs.

I believe women don't have real ambitions and just want to do nothing and expect men to do everything.

Yesterday I brought home about 50kg of apples I picked up, when I asked for help to prepare apples to make applesauce they said no.

It's laughable because they always brag about how much they've done and shit.

ages?

>It's laughable because they always brag about how much they've done and shit.

that's exactly what they do.

>I believe women don't have real ambitions and just want to do nothing and expect men to do everything.

I think the reason my dad is so cucked is that he actually believes a relationship is an equal partnership. Whenever someone thinks that, the man gives an inch and the woman takes a mile and doesn't respect or see her husband/boyfriend as a real man.

I remember last night he was getting really upset because there were a couple of dirty pots and yelling to the point of spitting and one of the pots turned out to have been made dirty by my mom. Guess what he did. He washed it calmly for her.

Fucking hell dude, fucking hell...
I wish I could disappear

The problem is that you guys let these people push you around. I tease my wife, mother, mother in law, sister in law, all my exes and so on, all the women in my life. I push them around, I tell them what to do, I make sure they know their places as women and I know my place as a man, and I don't take shit from anyone. They all love me. Hell, my mother in law cooks me food for work and she doesn't even do that for her own husband and kids. Show some confidence and strength and the world will treat you well.

>gf has been depressed since march
>goes off the deep end with drug use
>break up so she can get the help she needs but support her.
> she turns suicidal and obsessive calling me 30 times a day and sending me threats to hurt herself
>decide to take action and she gets sent to a mental health facility
>3 day hold turns to 5 days turns to unknown
>she calls me everyday sometimes to yell why I put her there, ask how my day is, or to repeatedly say I love you.
>try to go out do anything to get her off my mind.
>I can't enjoy myself anymore doing anything
>I can't believe the woman I loved turned into this.

>The problem is that you guys let these people push you around
That's fine I'm recovering and getting better by the day.

I have a thought.

You know when there's a really really ugly or obscenely short person or a person who is socially retarded and people just treat them like a welcome mat because there is no threat of retaliation?

I think women have a lower standard as to what qualifies someone for that treatment and if a man is weak or effeminate, they just treat them however they feel at that moment.

You know im in a weird spot m8s. Got out of a 3 yr relationship a month or so ago and just had the time of my life with a girl I barely knew from high school who was in town for a wedding. We hung out for 3 days straight and fugged a ton and now she's back on the other side of the country and it kinda bums me out. Making me not even want to holla at other girls and just improve myself.

Its a weird sort of feel. Like I know I can definitely be just caught up in my rebound but fuck im super into her.

I feel empty. Lost around 30 pounds in the last 6 months and it all feels so fucking pointless. Can't look my mates in the eyes anymore. My closest friends just tell me to keep doing what I've been doing and that things will get better but I just cant see it from where I am.

Bro the sticky is garbage, but if you can afford a personal trainer you can afford a copy of Starting Strength and a book on proper nutrition.

Good attitude. You'll make it.

It will my son. Life is a long journey, and establishing a healthy lifestyle goes a long way in improving it.

girlfriend and I just split up about 15 minutes ago, feel free but feeling weird.

Hoping you guys are having a better day than I.

Honestly man if you're confident in yourself and what you want to do its fucking great. Sure getting new girls to fuck takes a little work but if you have fun with it you'll be in for an awesome time.

I have SO much going for me in my life. I'm tall, good frame, decent dick, and a future as a military pilot lined up. But from the neck up I'm just blatantly unattractive and it makes everything good in my life seem pointless. My future is so bright but I can't stop obsessing over something I can't even change right now, and it's going to get in the way of my future. Fuck, brehs

Im sort of developing a cocaine problem the passed two weeks but ive slowed down drastically. Only at night. Im going to stop but god dammit for quality stuff. Ive opened my mind and became less judgemental though. I'm cut as hell though because it's hard to eat. I have a natty 8 pack. Can't argue with that. And them facial gains.

I promise you that being attractive won't make your life better. I've modelled here and there and have a solid face and while it has its perks it doesn't give you purpose, security, direction or love, and they're the things that really matter. Carry on doing you and you'll go far as it seems like you've got it in the bag on the things that count.

I just started college and I'm trying to be more social/friendly/less autistic. But I feel like for every good thing I do I have 2 fuck ups.

I really don't want to be that fat angry and alone kid that I was in high school. But I feel I'll end up alone for the rest of my life.

Sorry for the rant

Fuckkk bro, I don't normally speak on here but I felt compelled too as I'm in pretty much exactly the same situation and maybe more (Just got dumped yesterday by someone I considered wifey material). Just keep pushing bro, your situation will improve

btw you sound like your from the UK from how you type, lol

I'm laying on the ground trying to let heroin painfully leave my body when I should be lifting weights.

I don't have a friend in the world.