Tfw Kissless virgin

why don't you start with small steps user? first things would be improving your daily life. do you have means to get your education? you could find a job and take night school (I don't know if that's a thing there, I suppose so). In the meantime, lose weight by counting calories, you just need a 10$ foodscale for that. You will make friends at job and school if you are inclined to that. Your parents will be happier if they see you sort this shit out. you could even meet a girl. come user, do it

>do something about it then.
>complaining about it but doing nothing to better yourself is pathetic

I've been trying to make money.

I have saved up $35,000. I have tried lifting but joint pain is rly bad, idk what to do. I'm statting to feel like I'm just not capable of making it

My health is fucked up

I suffered a brain injury that screwed me up

1.start a GED program
2. get a part time job (it will get you out of your house and meeting new people)
3. with the money you make buy groceries and cook your own meals so you stop eating like shit

or you can do none of those and continue feeling sorry for yourself

I'm just upset man

I was working on myself before the injury but since then I'm just questioning whethee it's worth it all

My brain is fked up and I'm retarded and I don't have a single friend to talk to.

The only people I speak to semi regularly are the guys at my gym, but sometimes if my joints hurt a lot I try to avoid them becauss I'm embarrassed

>but sometimes if my joints hurt a lot I try to avoid them becauss I'm embarrassed
why? it's literally something you have no control over. if anything they'd respect you for working out through the pain.

I look normql from the outside

It's not like I'm in a wheelchair or some other physical handicap.

I.don't know man I want to move out but with my health I just don't know. I have $35k as I said, but even that feels not enough

it could be worse man, you're going to the gym so you're trying to better yourself. you could be staying inside and doing nothing. i'd say focus on yourself, set a small goal and accomplish it. then move on to bigger ones.

you got this

It just seems so fucking bleak

I want to become someone great and inspiring but instead I have to work 20x as hard just to be "normal"

Go to /r9k/ faggot. You're not a special cornflake.

That's just reality for the vast majority of people though, most people are completely forgotten in 3 generations. Be the best person you can for yourself, not for anyone else.

You legit don't need a single fucking employable skill to be management material, you just have to be good at talking to people and that is based entirely off experience.

See a traumatologist for your injuries and shit.

>tfw fucking a girl and she can't stop commenting on body
>tfw she says "please don't be a one night stand, at least fuck me once more"

Keep lifting until someone loves you.

lmao good luck getting anywhere as a highschool drop out
stop giving him false hope
qualifications like diplomas and degrees serve only one purpose - they get your foot in the door as proof to someone who knows nothing about you that you're not a complete fuck up and they can trust you with a job

>>Tfw fat
I think we know the root cause of all of your problems user.

Kill yourself but make sure to kill your parents first as punishment for bringing you into this world.

I had sex yesterday, it's not difficult

Stop masturbating and see a doctor about the joint pain. Start tracking calories and a basic body weight routine to build some foundation of strength. Slowly build your discipline over time and start something like SL when you're ready. Get your GED and get into a community college in something you're passionate about. You seriously need to start journaling and reflecting on your thoughts. It takes conscious practice to change your attitude; id also advise reading neitzsche, he probably went through everything you're describing. One small step at a time, user, we're all going to make it.

You don't understand dude

My brain is super fucked. I have terrible memory, I can't remember anything I read. I read tje words but it doesn't go anywhere

I don't know how to learn.

It's not to late OP! Watch the roast of rob lowe and listen to Jimmy Carr's words of wisdom to ann coulter!

RAA RAA RASPUTIN

Look into nootropics, there's plenty of stories of people going from difficult-to-function level to better-than-average level. Better yet, talk to a psychiatrist first

Atleast you have the gym

I really hope you're not that dickhead Australian guy that posts nudes of himself

I guess ill try...

I've looked into nootropics but they seem kind of dangerous and too experimental

Get the fuck out
Cant you read retard
This is not your pity board go back to your own board >>/r9k/

Just do a bunch of research first, there's whole communities set up for this kind of stuff like Erowid and huge articles like gwern.net/Nootropics

I'd also seriously advise seeing a neuro specialist or psychiatrist and see if conventional medicine can't help you first before you turn to nootropic help

Had sex with an Indonesian queen

He moaned so loud because my dick is long

Thanks ill try

idk if there's an conventional medicine for my problems though

You know you can just hide threads you dislike right?

I just want some help, go post in the sipping threads or something

>idk if there's an conventional medicine for my problems though

You never unless you try. Conventional medicine has medication like Modafinil and Ritalin that might improve your circumstances. Getting real medication from a doctor is 100x better outcome than trying to treat yourself. Good luck

Not him but you could make a thread asking for help instead of this pity shit

OP let me give you good feels

>kissless virgin until 19
>lost virginity to a whore in Prague, she laught at my performace
>severe depression, prozac didn't help at all
>start lifting
>all the repressed frustration and anger made me look like a greek sculpture
>start getting basic bitches everywhere
>still feel empty inside
>fell in love for a girl who used me and manipulated me to inflate her ego
>same social circles
>stopped caring for her to protect myself, I was digging myself in a hole which was really hard to get out of
>she started verbally abusing me
>little did she know that years of verbal and psychological abuse from family made me extremely reselient
>then she started flirting with my friends every time we hung out, making it obvious that it was awkward because I was around
>at this point I was a greek god, bitches mirin'
>but still, can only think of the girl who did everything to hurt me
>fucked up my tendons and my back for lifting as hard as I could, 6 days a week
>I started abusing drugs too: molly, cocaine, lsd, you name it
>I was losing myself
>locked myself all summer, forced myself to be with my thoughts
>some days I was borderline suicidal
>still, I endured
>finally started doing what I really loved. Music, drawing, hiking in the woods, dancing
>my need to go to the gym to get out my frustration stopped
>her constant tries to hurt me stopped hurting
>it was sad to see her degrade herself, but I can't be carrying everyone's burden, no matter how much I care for them
>things go well
>met a qt this weekend (looks exactly like the new star wars actress)
>talked with her for hours
>somehow she got my number and have been talking with her since
>she isn't texting superficial bullshit, we're talking about our art, she even covered a song I made when I was borderline suicidal
>I think I'm making it
Do things you love, always try to give some thought on yourself and never, NEVER, rely on others for your true feelings and wellbeing. Hang on bro. It'll go

Okay ill try harder man

I just don't knoe where to go or what to say. I live in Canada

Thanks bro, sounds great. Maybe ill make it too

Fapping constantly as well as watching porn has seriously fucked your neurotransmitter levels. You need to change this now or else nothing will happen. This is literally life or death for you.

Go to your local GP/doctor, describe your symptoms and ask for a referral to a neurologist or psychiatrist at your nearest hospital. Don't get a referral to a specialist in the suburbs, make sure its at a hospital. Don't give up, you're gonna make it breh

Very nice, user

Okay ill do that.

Ive seen a doctor of internal medicine but he didn't help too much. How do I ensure they really help me?

>How do I ensure they really help me?
The main thing I've learnt dealing with specialists is just present all the facts and don't try and push your opinion or your own diagnosis. Keep everything as neutral as possible. They really react badly when you try and diagnose yourself, and you won't get any help. Other than that, not much you can do other than hope for the best. If it all fails, go see another GP, get another referral and repeat. Specialists are spotty as fuck quality wise, so you might need to repeat once or twice before you get the help you need. The younger your specialist the better also, although I'm sure there's exceptions to that.

Sometimes, the right path isn't easy. Usually I don't like to tell how fucked up my life was because my family used to argue in a really fucked up manner on who has had the most miserable and fucked up life of us, like some self pity contest.

But I've lived fucked up shit OP. You think I would allow myself to get dragged down by that? No. If I did, I don't know how I would have helped the people who needed me the most.

Keep going through the right path, even if you fucking hate it. Even if you knew you could stop the suffering by giving in to the easy way. Even if people hate you for it. Because in the end, your sense of satisfaction and worth is what truly matters and what will truly give you happiness.

>don't push your own diagnosis
Really? I've been to doctors before(not for this but other things) and it seemed they didn't even care. shouldn't I kind of nudge and ask them about different things?

I've read reviews on ratemd and a lot of them seem to have that in common, that you need to do a lot of battling for yourself or you'll just get left behind

Thank you user.

It's just sometimes I really feel all alone and like I have no one to depend on or look for support in, feels bad

Nudging might be a good idea, I've just found that when you try to suggest things to a doctor 9 times out of 10, they don't like the implication that you know your condition better than they do, even if you have actually researched it well. It's like telling a builder they installed a door slightly crooked or telling a chef they overcooked your food - it's not going to be received well.

Also, I've noticed that even if you think you're very carefully encouraging a doctor down a certain path of inquiry which you think is the right one, and think the doctor probably doesn't realise what you're trying to do, they do actually realise and they don't appreciate what you're doing.

If I were you, I'd just present your symptoms, no guesses about what it is, no nudging, and let them work. If that doesn't work for you, forget what I said, and do whatever you think is right.

I've done this but it felt like they just totally overlook my issue.

Like not even really checking out my problem in depth or doing what google says they'd normally do.

Also what's up with them not giving you your lab results? I get what you're saying but I dunno mane. Are you in Canada too? Thanks for responding user

I guess you'll have to play it by ear. My experience is the older doctors mostly don't give a fuck or think you're faking. Younger doctors seem to be more switched on and actually likely to help. Doctors at hospitals are always better than in suburbs. I'm in Australia, but it sounds pretty similar.

your body is hurting you.. >:I how long you gonna let that pack of cells control you..

My body put me in pain one day i said fuck you and i put the pain on my own body.

I know. Being alone usually fucking sucks. But it doesn't have to be like that.
People are never really alone, when we aren't surrounded by people we try as much as we can to be distracted. Facebook, Veeky Forums, netflix, porn. Our ego doesn't want us to think about us, because doing so harms it.

Learn to be alone, meditate. It's really important to learn to be alone, if not, once you really are with someone (be it friends, family, gf), you will be so scared to go back to being alone that you'll fuck everything up. Trust me, happened plenty of times.

>special cornflake
What did he mean by this

You should ask your doctor about seeing pain management and start/keep working with a neurologist/OT for the brain injury. Also check whatever meds you might have for the neuropathy as they can make you feel/act dumb.

...

looks like you just got yourself a bucketlist there user

You're just gonna die so go for the high score faggot. Fix your diet, start swimming or something similar that's easy on the joints. Volunteer or take up another job to shift your focus from inward to outward. None of this matters anyways

But you ever want to leave a legacy behind?

What good is money and a good body if there's nothing afterwards?

What kind? R u retarded now? Many great paying jobs that don't require big brain. Nothing wrong with welder or machinist or prostitute

What good is anything? Stop thinking. Most thoughts are self destructive and many people myself included are addicted to being miserable. Get rid of these ideas of how things are supposed to be you could be happy with what you have.

as bad as you think you have it there are people out there that have it WAY fucking worse, and they make the best of it, self pity is cancer, your life sucks start to fix it, at least when you feel down you can say to yourself at least i'm trying.

What's the point of this thread you sad faggot? You post this shit all the time and when someone gives you advice you resort to your usual bs excuses.

Another
TFNOGF thread to hide.

academicaffairs.iupui.edu/media/d91f0341-c12f-498d-8b5c-69480ee00547/vsTe9A/AAContent/03-Events/Workshop Materials/10-27-2011/managing_oneself.pdf

>he isn't Pasante king size
at least you tried

>googles
>understanding medicine

I think I found your problem.

>TFW joint pain
>Tfw weak, worthless dyel because of injuries

If joints are an issue i recommend low impact exercise such as swimming.

You won't get massive gains but will become leaner and the cardio is great for general physical health and the health of your brain.

Try to be reasonably active every day if possible. Simply walking or standing is better than sitting or laying down a lot of the time.

It may not seem like much but being consistent with a few basic things may have cumulative effects in the long run, or at least slow the decline.