Right now I'm legit thinking I've always overestimated my mental capacity and I'm actually dumber than most of the population. Can't even stay focused for extended periods of time any more. Anyone had this happen?
There have been times in my major specifically I felt like I might be a moron, but usually it just happens due to stress (major tests etc.) and it goes away after awhile.
Bitter sweet mental health moment for me was this week I came to the realization my ex (broke up 2.5 months ago) of 3 years loved me but wasn't actually in love with me, moreso than the idea of having someone.
All in all makes me happy i broke it off, still stings a bit tho
Josiah Howard
Yes. being aware of it helps. I started forcing myself to keep eye contact with people when they talk and repeat what they say in my mind to help my memory.
I also force my self to focus on every letter I type or write to make sure the spelling is correct.
eventually I started doing it automatically and that helped a lot.
Justin Hill
I would not wish a fistula and hemodialysis on any one.
Used to consult at a major medical device company- seen some fucked up shit.
Austin Rivera
Lately I've been having similar thoughts.
I thought I was so much more intelligent than the average person when I voted for Trump. Now everyone is calling me stupid so I am not sure if I really am.
Mason Watson
Feeling the same thing about the girl I'm with right now. Hope it's just a rough patch.
Thanks man I'll try be more proactive about it then.
Liam Clark
Shit like that gives me the creeps. Anything that fucks with a functioning human body like that is fucked
Jace Anderson
Really angry I blew it and didn't go into academia. Wageslavery is dull and intellectually dead. I read and learn on my off time but how the fuck do I find an intellectually challenging job.
Jonathan Gonzalez
What's weighing you down? Do you have debts that stop you from trying anything new or risky?
Jose Carter
I'm trying to sleep regularly and at normal times. I can't pull myself away from the computer sometimes.
Having ADD means I get hyperfocused and have poor perception of time. When I eat less (or neglect cooking/eating completely), I become a functioning retard. I can still easily whip up a data structure and otherwise program, but I can't remember to bring my keys out the door and end up locked outside of my apartment. And people constantly act like they understand what ADHD means, that it isn't a real, physical difference in our brains and so on. Yes, the medicine is probably overprescribed and doesn't treat the root cause. That doesn't mean ADHD isn't real. Of course, you can't convince edgy, euphoric armchair psychologists this.
If you're living on your own and supporting yourself, you should really reconsider your life. There are a lot of people out there who cannot manage that.
Thomas Baker
Feel the same way sometimes OP. Usually means I'm in a lazy patch, and spending too many late nights fucking around.
This week, for example, I largely feel like a retard. But that's mostly because I stayed up all night Tuesday smashing Yuenglings and praying to the backwoods Gods of rural Pennsylvania for the Commonwealth to flip Red and stay that way, and then started Wednesday night by kicking my buddy's door in with another case of beer in my arms and singing the Star Spangled Banner in his unfinished basement.
I'll go back to feeling sharp as shit again after some weekend sleeps and a couple meditation sessions. Nothing to worry about.
Zachary Butler
I never realized it was really this way for some people. That's pretty much a description of someone on adderall
Aiden Smith
Do you ever feel like it has anything to do with work or commitments? Like kinda procrastination?
Anthony Powell
Got a new grillfriend but i get anxiety doing shit out of my comfort zone like going out to group dinners with her friends and soon enough going to a baby shower for some woman I don't even know.
Makes me crave being single but I understand no matter who I date this shit will happen. Fought tooth and nail with my ex about going to a wedding. I just hate social gatherings.
Michael Morgan
Obviously. Procrastinating/commitments leads to stress and sleep deprivation, which combine to tank general presence of mind very quickly.
Justin Moore
Am I reading this right? You mean that normal people on adderall experience what I experience daily?
Because that's what I'm like without it. On it, I might be a little irritable, but I can more easily re-focus my attention, I have more energy (lack of energy in general is a pretty major thing in ADHD-PI/ADD) and I don't forget things as easily.
Luis Mitchell
2016 has been a pretty tough ride for most people, but I've never had more sex and I've never felt better, things are maybe gonna be a-ok
Adam Edwards
Yes, as someone who has tested ADHD drugs, it causes those symptoms in normal folk, but it has the opposite effect on the afflicted
Connor Young
Huh. It's quite unpleasant to take if the dose is too high. But it works. I never understood how people supposedly abuse it.
Noah Nelson
Just save as much as possible, in case you need to drop the job and live in a dorm or something, meanwhile research your local job search offices, as they often offer free programs to increase your qualifications. There are also schools meeting on weekends which grant you low-tier, but still, qualifications. This way you build up your position upon the wageslave hierarchy, meanwhile building up experience which may, in the end, net you a manager position.
Ethan Thomas
I woke up this morning and an overwhelming sense of grief took me. I don't even know why. MAKE IT STOP REEEEEEEE
Easton Richardson
t-try doing something that you would normally do?
eat, shower, maybe clean a little, then work out, I guess?
Jayden Peterson
final university exams in a week.
you know when you're so hungry you dont want food anymore?
im like that but for stress. I am so stressed I have become one with the stress, and therefore no longer feel it.
the only thing is that, normally i have no desire for companionship or relationships. except for in times of stress. but i know if i give in shit will be worse since now i have to factor in another person to talk to.
its funny what conclusions you come to when you are stressed.
i realize that all notions of a god, creator, or some force looking after me are mere illusions i create for myself to feel more in control and comforted. i realize that i will die alone, and there is no purpose to my life. Most importantly, i realize that my longing for companionship is unrealistic and a sign of inner insecurity and weakness.
some people were meant to be alone. and i have realized that I no longer need the world.
is this what it feels like to be on the path to becoming a wizard? do I get more revelations as i grow alone, independent of the influence that one acquires once viriginity is lost? is this man's natural state? to ascend to a level of inner recognition and enlightenment such that the external world is seen as the illusion it really is?
or is this what happens to schizophrenics before they go into full blown psychosis?
Henry Perry
Are you a virgin? I'm not judging, I'm just not able to tell from your post.
Nolan Morris
yes.
third base was as far as i got
Zachary Nelson
Jesus Christ, I know those eyes.
I lost a lot of friends in hemodialysis. I was the youngest one there by thirty-something years and they were all so nice.
And they just kept disappearing.
Gabriel Johnson
wtf is that pic?
Hunter Cruz
an artificial arterio-venous fistula, used for haemodialysis. it creates a higher pressure venous system than what would normally happen, and hence the veins, being less muscular than arteries, tend to inflate like a balloon and cause such an appearance
take less of your adhd meds.
i once took 10mg of dexamphetamine and spent the next 6 hours masturbating furiously.
David Green
You needn't worry about such things.
Teenagers brag about having "totally awesome sex dude". In reality, they're just having bad sex but have never had sex before, so they're hyping it up, if nothing else not to be dissappointed in it themselves. But comparing yourself to others shouldn't be a thing in the first place.
I've had a lot more sex recently. It's nice. It's not that great. If I could trade the sex I'm having now for having a stable job and being able to perform evenly under stress, I'd do it in a heartbeat.
You're not taking into account that other people out there aren't magically better than you. Most people are painfully average. That girl you're lusting over on facebook because she looks good in tights is in reality an unreciprocating, boring cunt who doesn't know how to cook.
Sex isn't just about physical looks. It's about being able to do this initially awkward thing with someone. It's supposed to be a good time. Not a performance of two ubermensches for a pornographic director that isn't there.
It's not about whether or not you have had sex. It's about your mindset. Calm down and wait for someone who is a good match for you, and you guys will have a good time. Don't let yourself be held back by shitty mindsets.
Remember, you're gonna make it.
Leo Hall
I need a renewed prescription, so I'm not taking them regularly right now. They're not what's fucking me up.
Aiden Cruz
Good solid advice. The most important thing to take from it is to wait for someone who is right for you. Try not to worry about that too much either as the operative word is "wait". Don't rush it and end up with the wrong person.
Matthew Cruz
if you're getting hyperfocus on menial tasks it indicates you took too much. you forgetting things is part of the wearing off effect of stimulants. i know this because its happened to me too.
dose regularly and at a lower dose. it helps.
thanks user. i was thinking about just fucking a fatty and getting it over and done with. but i think im already past the point of no return. its not all about sex though. part of it is my ind sometimes wanting companionship, and other times wanting to be alone. i cant figure out which one im meant to naturally want is what i mean. every day i spend alone makes me want to stay alone. and i feel im drifting further from my innate nature, the nature in which most people originally start off with, i.e. wanting companioinship, wanting to be loved, etc. etc.
>i will come back from the abyss a living god
Daniel Williams
Aside from reasons such as kek, Trump was the candidate for dumb, angry people. Hillary was the choice for dumb people who think they're smart.
Brayden Gomez
not good my dudes
Dominic White
Well i am feling slight doms in my quads n hammies and lower back so that's cool
On the other side i want this girl but shit's complicated as hell and back and i don't want to be a dick so i basically told her to get back at me when she figured out her stuff
I miss her and everything that comes with her
Meh
Justin Clark
Excuses and compensations
Jose Lopez
People want companionship, but they also value being alone. You're having a little too much of the latter, is all. Try spending more time with friends. It's not perfect, but it helps so much. You can and will suffer when you get a partner, because they take up so much time.
Xavier Brooks
If she's crazy, you made the right choice. You're feeling what abused people do. That they want to get back together with their abuser.
Brayden Jenkins
Well she is crazy yes but in a way i would be comfortable with, if that makes any sense at all.
She's just like every other girl out there not having a clue what she wants and decides to eat the whole cake you know?
No real abuse here just me wanting to show a girl i like and who like me back that you should just live your life for yourself instead of living it for others
Jordan Long
what's bad dude?
Carter Mitchell
"no real abuse here"
Man, emotional abuse is real abuse. Faking suicide, making you feel terrible to punish you etc.
Angel Williams
Oh, and I'm fucking a fat girl right now. Don't just "get it over with". Do it with someone you feel is worthwhile. Surprisingly, fat girls might be worthwhile.
Dylan Phillips
CRAWLLING IN MY SKIIIIIIN
Alexander Peterson
Nah nothing like that to be honest user
Just indecisiveness and the lack of will to push through with
John Allen
Then I don't know what to say. Just me being broken~
Jeremiah Collins
It's alright user just getting it out of my system makes me feel a bit better
Brody Campbell
I'm feeling overwhelmed but okay
University has been hard and I'm doing ok by studying (lifting has helped me with also keeping a schedule) but I have to also correct works and do classes to the new students and it consumes so much time.
At least I'm getting an interview next week for an intership and seems like it pays a lot, so that'd be nice so I can cover some expenses
Parker Rivera
Whatever it is you all feel just remember you're in control. You can give a shit or just say no more and emotionally or literally walk away. Don't trap your mind in a necessity of validation from the outside.
Kind of anxious today, little depressed for no reason. Usually just stuff it somewhere and move forward 0 fucks allowed. Taking it as a sign to rest more and going to have a proper 2 hour gym day tomorrow.
No one realizes it though I'm good at putting it somewhere else and making sure I'm still whatever it is I need to be.
Know what man, I envy you for doing that. Expect nothing more, and hope you're either wrong or waiting for something better. Nice to see someone has some self respect or realistic view of what they want and did something about it. A lot of people have convinced themselves of the idea...the entitlement of what they deserve in life but don't appreciate the meaning of those things. We all forget though
Whatever floats your boat >surprisingly
Joseph Gray
The fact that you'd consider that probably belies that you're still smarter than the average person, at least in terms of your capacity for metacognition. Lots of people who know and do "smart things" are pretty average and got where they are via hard work and social connections. A lot of successful people never thought about "why" they were pursuing something; plenty foreclosed their identities in high school so that they could keep their heads down and plod towards a safe six figure salary without having to navigate cognitive dissonance or ideological changes. It's really about tapping into what intrinsically motivates you and, when you're not stupid enough to blindly lead your life consistent with social expectation, it becomes harder to discover and tap into what will motivate us to focus, work hard, and delay gratification.
Parker Jones
Stressed.
I am writing my business plan, behind on where I should be. Meeting with a potential investor next week.
My parents have been okay for the last few weeks, thankfully.
Been trying to find some small seed capital with no luck (everyone is broke around here).
Still making it to the gym 5 days a week. Really helps burn off the stress. Just getting overloaded by it this week.
Nolan Moore
This
You either want it or you don't easy as that
Liam Jackson
holy kek
im in the same boat user
anyone have advice for finding challenging/stimulating/intellectual jobs?
I have a bachelors (i got meme'd) and have no idea how to find a job that isnt some shit tier customer service or manual labor on craigslist
do I just have to go back to school for a masters or phd?
Adam Gonzalez
Feel like i'm gonna have to break up with my gf because our sexy times aren't as fulfilling as i wished they would be Feels bad bros
Zachary Scott
What you are describing sounds similar to what I was going trough when I dealt with depersonalization/derealization and those kind of thoughts are common with stress and anxiety.
I might be talking out my ass now but when you are very stressed or have high anxiety your brain cant handle emotions very well and you tend to get stuck in negative rationalizing loops.
also, if you think your about to have a psychosis, you wont.
Please, if you feel like hanging out with people, do it. you need it more then you think you do. trust me.
Jayden Morgan
Have you tried actually talking to her about it?
Mason Morales
surprisingly for Veeky Forums
Eli Sanders
>mental fitness
so far this is part of my routine
>at least half and hour walk a day improves all kinds of crap in your body, creativity, blood pressure, reduces stress etc. Its also a milder form of meditation >enough sunlight exposure You can get that with the walk, but its better to get a SAD lamp, its important for vitamin D, but also a synthesis of testosterone and perhaps some other spooky things, also cures winter depression >run 2 times a week at HIIT, but also long duration, below 120 minutes a week lower resting heart rate, smaller chance of fatal heart problems (by about 25%), increased metabolism for a while, and a bunch of other fuckton of benefits too much to count >weights every once in a while (5 days a week or so with enough rest?) Bigger muscles, more test, happier mind, again, too many benefits to count >fap only once every 5-7 days much, MUCH more energy and better moods, fapping too much means depressive streaks, fapping too little will mean neutral streaks. Optimal solution is 5 to 7 days
These are just the biomechanical things that you could do
the chemical ones to improve one self are extremely vast as well
>eat clean GMO's are bad, industrial sugars are evil. But you need carbs for test production >examine.com herbs and supplements there are those that decrease the stress hormone cortisol (which increases test) and those who just blatantly increase test
garlic also improves quality of life by literally chaving something like 50% of your sickness recovery rate, and its cheap. I recently got panthatic acid that increase tendon recovery rate by 30 and got over an older injury.
examine.com, if you got a day or two, it will yield so many benefits for you.
So for your brain, do these things and you will have more focus and more energy, some things also subtly increase memory, or processing speed a little bit.
First: Executive summary, 2-3 pages outlining your product or service, company mission and objectives. (You should actually write this last.)
Next: 10-20 pages outlining everything in a way that someone with a high school education can understand.
Include capital equipment costs, rent, product cost, product profit, competition (you always have competition), realistic goals for your company and how you will expand.
Third: as many pages as you need for an appendix showing sources about your numbers and the market.
If you're very serious, get a Mentor from SCORE.org. These are retired businessmen who volunteer to help you start-up. (My mentor owned a fucking railroad.) They work with the SBA and investment firms.
They help A LOT.
Isaac Parker
Yes i have countless times actually we tried everything literally but it's not working man it just isn't As sweet and cute as she is i just feel empty and unsatisfied after we've had sex and this shit is literally dragging me down every single night
Can't keep up doing this might have to see her cry but i can't keep on lying to her like this
Adam Martin
I know that feeling. You might need to learn how to relax around her.
Hudson Martinez
Oh, and adding to this, it worked out in the end for me.
Asher Walker
Thanks man ,Hope everything turns allright
Jack Lopez
Best of luck to you also. Seriously consider a SCORE Mentor. There is no cost at all.
You will probably need some seed capital. A couple of grand to market yourself to investors (print promotional items, take them to lunch, get a website et al).