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medicalfag here

this is bullshit

I'm schizo, I take risperdal twice a day.

I didnt hear voices but had some visual hallucinations, started in college. I'd wake up and think bugs were crawling on my bed, and my roommates would kind of look at me funny so I knew they weren't seeing them.

My paranoia isn't much of an issue anymore, I still think people who are nice to me want to take advantage of me somehow, like financially or some alternative motive.

Feels bad man

Smoking weed actually gave me a psychotic break. Shit sucks duder. I hate the stuff and think it's degenerate, but my fwb smokes and I'd like to atleast smoke with her once but I can't cuz shit will send me off the deep end.

Lsd worked for me. Havent schizzoed in a month

My gf is a neuroscientist doing research on schizophrenia
Plz be in pittsburgh

user I'm right there with you. I've been having hallucinations both visual and auditory for years now and they get worse when I'm under a lot of stress. Meditation helped a lot with my stress level and while I occasionally do see things, they're usually farfetched enough for me to know they aren't real and ignore them.

As far as auditory hallucinations, they're terrible and I hate them because they always sound so real and convincing. For me it's never been anything more then pure noise, almost like notification tones from phones and stuff, but it's super unnerving when you live alone and hear a phone go off that isn't yours... Unfortunately I haven't gotten use to them and don't think I ever will, but I have lessened the occurrence dramatically.

I hope this helps bro, don't like your brain stop you from making it.

can confirm. it only bleeds when I race fast and listen to the crows, but otherwise completely cured me.

shit now I'm paranoid cause I hear shit that isn't there all the time and usually it's ringtones or music or something. I've never thought twice about it until just now...I thought everyone had that happen.

Dude, yeah mine is mostly the digeridoo and sometimes a phone buzz or little girls indistinctly talking. I hate looking at my closet and seeing my clothes "breathe"
All the bros in this thread that said supportive things thank you

I quit all drugs. Working with a sleep specialist and a shrink at the moment

That's a shame bro, we all still love you though. While you're here mate, any chance you could send a few dollars my way? I'm a bit short on rent money this month so if you could help a friend out I'd appreciate it.

Look into meditation. It could reduce hallucinations.

>Wall St

No sympathy

What were the first signs?

Ever since I was a kid, I've had eerie sensations and OCD type voices in my head. I've never hallucinated sober, and even on really high doses of weed, the worst I've had is audio hallucinations of pipe organs in the distance, or a band. Never voices. I'm worried that it could get worse, though, since I don't feel super mentally stable (I'm getting help though)

It's really fascinating to me how everybody on Veeky Forums is not only 6'2" and shredded with an 8-pack but also an investment banker, doctor, lawyer, or engineer easily clearing six figures and coming home to a smoking hot gf or wife.

Like it's so cool how all these extremely successful people seem to congregate on this one polyp of an imageboard located squarely up the asshole of the internet.

>seeing my clothes "breathe"
Huh?

Veeky Forums is THE place to post you fag

Never asked for it man. Grew up in a room with 4 cousins and brother on 2 mattresses, put myself through college, I didn't do it for your sympathy Seeing them move but I know they're not movingAs a kid I always had the airy feeling I have during panic attacks and sleep walked. As an adult I have terrible insomnia and began having sleep paralysis and ultimately visions of weird bright writing on the walls. Next, random salvation army time bell audibles. Now I get like minor voices that aren't there having a conversation and strange visuals like my walls moving or clothes moving. Lo and behold it is now something my doctor thinks warrants serious attention and medication asap. He wants to handle sleep issues first to reduce my overall stress then medicate me for the scitzoaffecttice shit I do too. Praying it won't get worse

since you have no downside. i'd say get deeply involved in vipassana meditation. jack kornfield or gil fronsdal. its like the optimal workout program for the mind. no fucking joke. i dont fuck around. there is no downside.

After many of you have said this i will. I'm still aware of reality and still motivated so doc thinks it more scitzoaffecttice combo of bipolar with some "positive" traits from paranoid schizophrenia. I am so happy I never went on a weightlifting or anti globalist rant with him. At the moment I can see what looks like tree leaves above my head as if u were laying under a tree which I don't mind at all

I swear its the same faggot that keeps posting this. Some people are better than you, get used to it.

salt water, pure distilled water with salt.

copper supplements may also help.

I would take a nice timestamp pic butt fuck you. I'm 26, I was an fat basement dwelling mudkipz poster posting loser in high school who lost weight during the whole big mane ygthebodgbuilder and zyzz peak days. I busted my ass to get my job by literally hanging out at bars by these employers and stoking up conversation with strangers. Struggled for it all, especially the weight loss which gave me courage to do everything else "I'll never be able to do". And now I'm become skittzening. Why not contribute to the topic at hand rather than be mad about some ANONYMOUS walk street barny bar on a Sunday hanging guidosm

And six figures in nyc is nothing. A 24 year old can make that at ubs by in their second year

You should head over to /feels general/ sometime.

look at the brightside man, you don't have to pay for shrooms or acid to have visual hallucinations like most other people do

I started having major psychological issues are I was discharged and started at a civilian college.

It started out as difficulty thinking clearly and mild auditory hallucinations, usually voices in the walls or from empty chairs and seats. I was also constantly tired and had a racing pulse and moderate fever, but had no appetite and lost 20ish pounds in a month. I wasn't in a state of mind to really notice or care, or shower for that matter.

After a month or so of this and struggling to ignore it (my community has a really bad stigma when it comes to mental illness, they would have assumed possession or something), I started seeing what I can only describe as beings of light in the sky. Shortly after, they started constantly screaming at me, demanding I act on their behalf and flooding my mind with horrible imagery, usually of violent acts or violent acts and suicide.

At this point, I was pretty much unable to help myself and was largely bedridden. Eventually, my parents started to worry and found out about a suicide attempt, at which point they called the cops.

Guided by the voices, I was able to flee from the cops and checked myself into a mental hospital, thereby reserving my ability to buy firearms and check myself out at will. Being a state run hospital, I was immediately placed on a drug cocktail that left me effectively lobotomized. Surprisingly, it actually worked after about a year, at the expense of much of my memory and gynecomastia from taking 6mg of Risperidone a day.

Currently, I still have regular auditory hallucinations and occasionally visual hallucinations, but I was able to leave the hospital and worked in North Dakota during the boom.

In retrospect, I sort of wished I had sought help sooner and not ruined my life. Work with your doctor and get a second opinion if you want. I gave up that option and wound up in a state hospital, which is very miserable and not something I would force on a reasonable person.

Jesus Christ man that's an intense backstory. How are you now?

>tribal ingenious music
just listen to Shpongle

I am okay now. I actually don't remember much of the treatment. Apparently I gave consent to experimental treatment, which is also apparently legal because I was voluntarily admitted and gave consent, which I don't remember.

I also have trouble remembering much before I fell off a cliff during a training accident in the Army, when I struck my head on my M4 after falling 15 feet.

It involved light hypnosis and psychotherapy, so flashing lights trip me out and occasionally cause me to have flash backs. Going under truss bridges is pretty scary during the day, given the difficulty of driving while having a flash back.

>have a gf
>almost finished with my studies
>financially quite ok
>life feels boring, meaningless
>tired and lazy all the time
>diagnosed with epilepsy
>even more tired and bored of everything
due to meds

thanks for being my diary

What do you mean when you say flooding your mind with violent imagery?

Jeez you've had a tough life my friend. Good to know you're better now and (I'm assuming) getting Veeky Forums

lmfao give me some money you crazy fucking cuck xD

buy any guns if you ever wanted them, because you won't get them after getting diagnosed as schizo.

Schizophrenia can be very manageable if you stay on your meds and all that. You just have to reduce your stress and manage your condition- the longer you go, the more likely you go, the worse it will be. Try giving a shot at going to church, I've heard that it's very helpful for schizophrenia.

>move out of New York, this place makes people crazy.

Fucking facts

Usually situational imagery, like driving my car into groups of people or just stabbing someone standing in front of me in line. The most complex usually involved images of ritualistic sacrifice.

It fucking sucked.

Thanks. It has been many years since the doctors and I agreed it was time to be discharged. I have built a career since then, though not to the Veeky Forums 6'2", 8 pack abs standard.

Best wishes to you as well.

Were you wide awake or half asleep? Sometimes I dream there's a spider in my bed and wake up and jump out of bed.

t b h most people claiming to be med fag are medical science undergrads.

or nurses, or allied health, or something other than what a med fag is i.e. a medical school graduate.

likewise with law, they're always everything other than law school graduates.

Bump

>and get fat via seroquel or listen to tribal ingenious music because for some reason my auditory hallucinations are a digeridoo.

I laughed way too much there

I'm paranoid in general and talk to myself.
Am I kill?

No. If you are aware and able to consciously inform your actions based on this awareness, you will be able to live a normal life without medication.

Obviously, if you are really worried, visit with a psychiatrist, or a psychologist if you like wasting time.

Good for you for getting help, dude.

Do you all think Schizophrenia is something genetic or something that can happen to anyone?

Since around the time i started college I've struggled on and off with depression. Ive also had terrible insomnia since like 16. I dont have mental illness in my family aside from maybe my dad suffering a bit from depression.

Im 23 now. I've never had clear audible or visual hallucinations but sometimes when im under a lot of stress i'll obsess over things that shouldnt matter that much and sometimes I feel like im gonna have a nervous breakdown. Its been a bit of a stressful year in some ways and while i havent heard voices, i sometimes have thoughts in my mind that seem to repeat and not leave my head.
Can anyone relate to that?

I've also experimented with psychedelics quite a bit, including some research chemicals. Ive had really good experiences that helped me a lot, but ive also seen some shit that has probably fucked me up a bit.
Last time i did mushrooms it was a really strong dose, and i remember i had a thought that there were 7 people walking around in my mind that werent there before, and this worried me. I never saw them clearly or anything, more just in the corner of my eyes and the feeling that they were there. But the thought of it made me feel like a crazy person.....It was a pretty strong dose of mushrooms though

Im not too worried about going full schizo, but im gonna take precautions including meditating, lifting, cardio, a low stress life, avoiding drugs/alcohol, surrounding myself with positive people, and following my creative pursuits.

Thanks for sharing your stories; i wish you all the best of...Veeky Forums really motivates me and cheers me up sometimes.
We're all gonna make it brehs.

All the drugs you tried, there was not a single time you tried cannabis? The only shit that could help you?

I am the nutcase from above and every doctor that I dealt with felt there was a genetic aspect. My aunt, who is a psychologist, is bad enough that she was found insane and cannot conduct her own legal affairs and is barred from practicing medicine.

My mother has a major breakdown every couple years and becomes psychotic before resolving in suicidal tendencies and depression. She will never be allowed off medication. My mother's entire side of the family is riddled with suicides and occasionally has a murder or loses an infant to "SIDS."

Also, if you do ever seen treatment, make sure your doctor doesn't just hand out whatever pills they got pens for at their last conference. There are a lot of terrible mental health professionals. I would recommend seeking an older doctor, preferably one who has worked with more severe cases than depressed housewives and edgy teenagers.

Younger doctors and women usually suck.

Dude that's called dreaming not scitzo lol

of course, weed is awesome; helps me a lot as long as im not abusing it.

Yea i kinda get the feeling theres a genetic predisposition to it. As hopeless and borderline crazy as i've felt sometimes, i've always been able to come back and things have never gotten too crazy. I realize some people simply arent as lucky.

Best of luck to you bro.

Mental illness is a strange thing. I knew a few people in college who suffered from panic attacks. I remember at the time thinking they were weak pussies who needed to get over themselves instead of obsessing over their stupid 1st world problems. Now i kinda see how you can make yourself crazy without realizing it if you're not careful. I think putting pressure on yourself really fucks you. I moved to NYC where there seems to be this great pressure to do great things, and its really fucked. I've talked to some homeless people here and some of them you can tell their mind is fucking lost, its a really sad thing.

do you really feel the need to post this every single day?
you realize there are different demographics of people on Veeky Forums and while you are living in your moms basement doing GOMAD and claiming that you are "just bulking" at 400 pounds, some people here might actually not be sorry sacks of meat like you are and actually have lives

Maybe your harem is fucking with you, telling you to get up and find them.

>wall street
>pittsburg
huh...

Cup of cold water?

>Guided by the voices, I was able to flee from the cops and checked myself into a mental hospital

Bruh, God got your back on that one, holy shit.

Obvious bait

get the fuck outta Wall Street and New York
seriously
move to a small town with low traffic, get a trade job and live minimalist

Shit bro. I'm bipolar with psychotic features Not quite as bad as full shcizo but still.

Do you smoke cigarettes? Sounds terrible I know but they genuinely have helped me come back from the brink more than once.

And don't smoke weed it will fuck up your shit

Yeah, it was a strange affair. It was almost like I wasn't even in control at that point. Normally the voices were just mostly cacophonous screaming, but suddenly started screaming in chorus, telling me what to do.

By what to do, I mean explicit directions that I can recall clearly even years later. Before the cops even showed up, they went silent and I got really nervous. I hadn't ate or showered for several days, only leaving my bed to use the bathroom and look at the beings of light in the sky. Then, they started screaming together, demanding that I get up. Once I was up, they told me to wait until I heard police sirens and then told me to call the elevator to the top floor of the building. Once I called the elevator, they screamed at me, horribly, to run down the stairwell, which terminated in part of the building being renovated. As I exited the stairwell, I just caught a glimpse of two cops getting in the elevator. The voices told me to walk calmly outside to my car, right past the cop car, and drive to the hospital.

The whole thing was trippy beyond belief.

tfw hear phone ringing every week or so and nobody was phone.

are we fucked brah???

>Schizo here, with non-visible autism. (face doesn't look like a retard.)
>Spent 2 years in a maximum lockdown state asylum
>Trial and error of countless pills
>Now un-medicated
>Highly functioning
>Very Veeky Forums
>Very active people think I'm above them physically.
>Good with women and relationships in general
>Know how to make it seem hip to be schizophrenic
>I am constantly listening to a robotic girl talk to me through what sounds like water. If I interface with it I sometimes get incredible knowledge that could not possibly be known (had voices in head give me a padlock combo once.) I do sometimes have frequent social paranoia but being a really good fighter helped me with that. I really believe it is existential software that I either ascertained or am being experiemented upon by.

not trying to make light of it, but thats fucking awesome; maybe its all coincidences but it almost seems like something supernatural that the voices were able to predict and guide you.

are you at all spiritual?

I remember watching documentaries on really religiously devout people seeing angels and shit, and psychologists describing it as types of mental illnesses. Or the idea that demons/angels/beings are manifestations of your thoughts and emotions.

from a normal healthy point of view, obviously seeing shit is a sing of mental illness, but im intrigued to its connection to other realms.

>I like to think of myself as having "rockstar syndrome" highly talented and masculine but has a crippling mental problem ---> Michael Jackson, Kurt Cobain, Jim Morrison etc.

It's probably just your brain making patterns out of random sounds. I think it's normal, but if you think thats something more see a doctor

>If I interface with it I sometimes get incredible knowledge that could not possibly be known (had voices in head give me a padlock combo once.)

this is the shit im talking about hereOne time on a really strong trip of 2-5i I had an experience that showed me into the future a bit. Its like you tune in to your subconscious and you can manipulate reality and learn things. problem is if you start getting sucked in to these things you wind up "crazy".

good to hear your functioning though user. without the horrible anxiety and fear being crazy is like having super powers.

I also remember reading that in other cultures, schizophrenia manifests itself in different ways. like i think in third world rural villages people that are schizo hear voices that are playful and non threatening.

>masculine
>michael jackson

Holy fuck! More stories, please!

I think I just found out why some people find psychology fascinating.

I am not religious, though some of the other patients definitely left me a bit more spiritual. My experience wasn't unique and was pretty tame relative to some of the more broken patients.

While I don't remember having interacted with any of the long-term care patients, I seem to have spent enough time around low risk patients (risk as in violent tendencies) to remember some of the strangely prophetic things certain people would do and say. We had a supervised rec room with no clocks, but one fellow could always tell the exact time. Another could tell individuals and their state of mind by the sound of footsteps. One could predict whatever set the screamers off (the patients who would start screaming almost simultaneously). I am sure there are others, but I don't feel like staring at a strobe light to remember more.

well kek'd
>u got me
I agree. Difference from the mode of average is by far a strength. A lot of people have unclean behaviors and inner torment whether or not they know it. Some people are in a constant state of sedation and are not aware of how much pain they are in until they try to make a lifestyle change and realize they have a lack of willpower.
Many normies are, as George Carlin put it "just bright enough to do what they're told, and too stupid to ask questions." That quote explains what the professionals call "sanity."
>I don't know if we can judge each other's sanity, but we can certainly take a guess at each other's general health and levels of social talent. So I guess I'm pretty old-fashioned. I really do assume you can judge a book by it's cover. To make deeper guesses about their internal side is the true ignorance. But if someone takes good care of themself (and I'm talking well above the line of average) then they probably have a little bit figured out.

>I don't feel like staring at a strobe light to remember more
lol yea dont do that. thanks for sharing, thats fucking amazing

>A lot of people have unclean behaviors and inner torment whether or not they know it
This is fucking huge. In the past few years ive started learning how seemingly meaningless thoughts manifest themselves in big ways. Its really helped me become a happier and better person.

There isn't that much more to say, not because of boring mundanity, but because something, likely the chemical lobotomy I was on, made remembering much of anything very difficult. I only really remember much of anything from the evening through the night, leading me to believe my pills were dosed in the morning.

I actually don't know how many pills I was on, as when drugged up I couldn't count except on my fingers and I was stopped from removing my socks. Green socks, I remember that vividly. The light hypnosis probably played a role in the memory issues as well.

I also vividly remember anytime the voices talked (not screaming anymore), though this was only two times. They told me to break away from the nurse and look out a window to see the beings of light and were disappointed when only a few remained.

The second time was this muffled, almost sorrowful, dirge-like sound.

Today, I occasionally hear voices, again from walls and empty seats. I never hear the chorus like I did. I only see the beings of light rarely and they are a different color palette now, less hostile than the yellows, reds, and blacks.

Good thread

Keto is good for seizures and psychological disorders

Someone has always gotta bring up keto

LSD is pretty safe, but one of the things that you should not do is take it if you ar schizo. Come on, man. You surely must be trolling.

Are you worried it's demons? It's not demons user.