TFW 22 years old loser

>$200k

Which degree costs $200k? Average college debt in the US is ~$30k.

>Slightly higher paying
college grads on average make a lot more than people with just a hs diploma.

And most fields are cut off to you, HR literally wont consider you with a degree in a lot of cases.

Further, you get paid more for the same job if you have a degree oftentimes. There's a reason companies occasionally pay their employees to go back to school.

Lastly he's in Canada, where tuition is under $8k a year. Hardly "$200k debt".

I doubt he wants to go to jail.

become a rapper

Just fucking go do it you useless shit.

Boring excuses. Stop being a pussy. There are people in wheelchairs who live a more fruitful life than you. Are you that big of a pussy? Get on a diet, lift x3 a week, go back to high school, get a drivers license and get a job.

That "advice" doesn't help you fucking normies. Say some useful or shut the heck up

This is something I really don't understand. You have parents right? Don't they push you to accomplish something in life? Don't they want the best for you?
I can't imagine what my life would be without my parents there to support me t b h. But then again I really don't understand how you could drop out of highschool. I have never even HEARD of anyone dropping out of highschool

>normies
Aaaaand now we know why you are a loser who never even finished HS
>b-but muh normies i can never be le chad xDDD
Stop acting like a fucking 12 year old and get your shit together

I never said that you fucking faggot, i'm not memeing about chad or whatever, i'm just saying "just do it" isn't really helpful or actionable advice.

>STOP NORMIES REEEEEEEE

Stop being a bitch, nigga.

Whining about """normies""" is a red flag that you see yourself as something else or possibly a victim compared to other people who do have a normal life. Stop thinking like that or you will never get anywhere

>You have parents right? Don't they push you to accomplish something in life? Don't they want the best for you?
No.

Not everyone has parents that care for them.

I'm looking for actionable advice and instead you give me memes.
Why?

Your actionable advice has already been given in the thread and we are saying go fucking do it and get the fuck off Veeky Forums.

Fucking retard.

wow thanks for the great tip normie

"do it", what if i don't know HOW. WHICH IS WHAT IM ASKING ABOUT NORMALFAG

Youknow what, forget it. you normies are all the same. You just tear down and humiliate anyone who's weaker than you. Instead of trying to help or offer up a hand of advice you just resort to saying your inane platitudes and looking for anything you can attack.

I should have known normies here aren't capable of sympathy or consideration for others.

Kill yourself

same thing except the last 4
and also in canada where u at exactly? maybe you need help

Calm down there, Roger

You fucking idiot. Google the nearest gym, tell mommy to drive you there, sign up, go there 3 times a week and google how to get your high school diploma.

if that is actually op disregard my post

i do that you fucking faggot

i CLEARLY SAID I'M ALREADY LIFTING. AND IT ISN'T WORKING BECAUSE I HAVE LOW TEST.

I'M WEAKER THAN LITERAL SKELETONS AND MIDDLEAGED MOMS.

are you brown?

no im white

Deep down you don't want to succeed.

If you did you would do what you already know you have to do to fix your life.

nice Facebook post

what is with you homosexuals and retarded non-actionable advice and meaningless riddles and platitudes?

Just tell me what i need to do holy shit. I dont have time to decipher what Plato meant in The Republic or to read and ponder Machiavelli's "The Prince". JUST ANSWER ME

Fuck this pasta

Ah another normie I see? This one even from my own country

Figures.

WE DON'T FUCKING KNOW YOU DUDE, YOU'RE JUST SOME GUY WITH 8 LINES OF SURFACE INFORMATION. You're so desperate that you have a delusional hope that strangers on the Internet can give you some magical advice that solves all your problems.

YOU don't seem to want to solve your problems.
>TFW never graduated highschool
Then take steps to graduate now, you idiot.
>no drivers license
Who gives a fuck. Is this what you think will help make you normal and cool. A driver license will do nothing for you in this despondent state, and do you really have a great use for it?
>Minimum wage part time job
See education
>fat dyel
Concentrate your efforts on losing all your fat, and then worry about lifting and being strong.
>Low test
Steroids, TRT. Even then, are you taking steps to maximize your test? Do you sleep properly? do you make sure to get your unsaturated fats throughout the day (Olive oil is godtier) do you do cardio? The stress hormone cortisol might also be to blame. Look into mindful meditation. Over time it can erase anxiety completely (This is not some mystical mumbo jumbo. Look mindful mediation up on pubmed, if you doubt me.)

You're not really trying to change

>Who gives a fuck. Is this what you think will help make you normal and cool. A driver license will do nothing for you in this despondent state, and do you really have a great use for it?

It would be easier to get a better job. Muc more options would be open to me.

>Concentrate your efforts on losing all your fat, and then worry about lifting and being strong.

I did.

And ended up looking even worse than being fat. I literally became a twink with love handles, and no visible abs. still. How is that an improvement? i literally look like a femae.

Stop blaming others for your failures. Get off your fat fucking ass and go to the gym. After the gym go find out how to get your stupid GED.

Clearly you haven't lost your fat, else you wouldn't call yourself a fat dyel. get to 12/10 body fat %, then bulk up from there.

Are you new to Veeky Forums, user?

I call myself a fat dyel because I'm both super dyel, yet also fat(pear shaped and no visible abs)

It's not workibg. The more weight I lose the skinnier I look, but still same bodyshape.

Then start bulking up, my man.

You know how from the sticky.

If you wouldn't mind, try posting your body. The damage may not be as great as you think. Any opinion you have of yourself will always be biased, and you clearly have low self esteem. A picture would help asses where you should go from here, training wise

i did. i already posted my body and i was humiliated.

I'm sorry to hear that, user.

If there is nothing else you take from this thread, take this: Start mindful mediation. Research it. I cannot stress enough how this can transform you. You don't even have to "do" anything. You can meditate anywhere, anytime. You don't even have to do it for long. Start out with 10 min, and then increase as you see fit.

Sit, stand or lie down with your back straight. You can either have your eyes closed or opened, but if opened, don't move the eyes around, just focus on one spot or thing.

Take a deep breath, exhale and think "1"
Then take another deep breath, exhale and think "2"

Do this until you get to "4", and then repeat for as long as you desire. It is incredibly satisfying, and has been found to help against both depression and anxiety to great degrees. The act of mediation actually shrinks the amygdala in the brain, which operates your fight or flight response AKA anxiety and stress

It will be hard at first, especially if you have problems concentrating, but it'll get easier with time. One day, meditating for 40 min will be as easy for you as mediating for 10.

The extend to which you benefit is of course increased by how much you mediate, but don't sweat it too much. Just try to aim for a session of meditation a day, for however long you wish for it to last. Don't worry if you miss a couple of day or weeks. The effect of mediation on the brain seem to be permanent by all accounts (Though there are still a great deal of studies needs to be conducted)

Just try it, user, for your own sake

In fact

I even posted my few month progress and you guys said there was "nothing noticeable".

Ill do the meditation thing I guess. My eyes really hurt badly and I'm going to see a doctor too, I'm scared about that.

>I even posted my few month progress and you guys said there was "nothing noticeable".
Your first mistake was putting stock into anything anons in CBT have to say. Veeky Forums is filled with idiots, and a lot of underage too. The people who fucked with you were probably still teenagers. Don't sweat it.
If you live in a country where it is possible, you could talk to your doctor about TRT, if your test is especially low

Be glad that you are a man, however. Your mind and force of character is FAR more important than how you look. It's nothing but a vessel for your thoughts and emotions - it's not really "you". Don't identify yourself with your body, identify yourself with your mind. Because you can always reshape your mind.

But don't think too much about things, just promise yourself that you will make an honest attempt at mindful mediation. It's probably the thing that will help you the most in your state.

The problem is I don't have much of a mind either. I got brain damage or something. I have trouble thinking, remembering, regularly stutter, mess up writing, bad spelling etc

I really have nothin

My test is just barely within "normal " doctor range, I guess I could see a specialist TRT doc who specifically talks about "Getting men to their true test levels, not some bs range", but he's 6mo+ waiting list, and like a 5 hour drive away roundtrip .
I don't have anything going for me user, even my parents hate me. I have no friends

I can't give you much else than words of encouragement and hope. I am sorry that this is how your life has turned out so far, but you're only 22. You're still literally in the peak human age, you can still change.

Nothing I can say here will really help you, because you're in your own head, demeaning yourself and constantly criticizing. Meditation WILL help you with this. With time it will make these thoughts you have seem silly. You will be able to will them away. Can you imagine going a day without putting yourself down, without being stuck in your own head? It will even help your thinking problems, since the act itself engages the frontal lobe.

If I could I would step into your body and fix your problems, but I can't, so I hope you'll try to yourself. Mediation can become the foundation upon which you build your future. If nothing else, it's better than suffering

I guess you're right user.

Im going to start thinking pragmatically and with the end in mind instead.

Good luck to you, user.

Have you ever been checked for epilepsy or other brain related diseases?

You can have epileptic activity in your brain without having seizures. It could explain why you have problems remembering and thinking, and could also be a cause for depression

I got an mri done months ago but doctor said it looked fine. The problem never got better though.

Guess I should see him again...?

I'm no doctor, so you should probably take his word over mine. That being said, they do make mistakes themselves. I don't think an MRI is an accurate estimate for epilepsy, but like I said, I'm no doctor.

Do you feel groggy? feel like your are distant in your own mind, sort of like you are your eyes floating and your body is "detached"?

Kind of man

I feel a lot of different shit. I get that he's a doctor but shit feels too messed up to be 'normal'.

>200k
Nigger I go to one of the most expensive schools in the US and I'm barely paying that much

Plus, if you pick the right major, you'll come out making close to 6 figures and it's not going to matter anyways

user I've been where you were. Then I lost my mum to cancer and it got worse. I dropped out of uni and I spent an entire year stuck in my house playing video games.
I wasted so much time feeling sorry for myself and refusing to put any effort in my life.

user, it wasn't easy turning my life around. I freaked out.
I would constantly fight anxiety all day and end up locking myself in my room to cry but I had this desperation to change the person I was. I forced myself to eat healthy and to lift. I went back to uni. If the anxiety got bad I'd watch motivational videos, meditate, scream into a pillow. I banned myself from touching video games outside of holidays.
I kept telling myself that short term joys like junk food and video games will get me no where. It was hard, my brain was screaming at me to give into temptation but I stayed strong and it worked. 3 months in all the urges to relapse faded and I started getting more joy out of living my life than I ever did just giving in to all my instant gratification desires. I used to hate my life and contemplate killing myself now I'm no longer obese, I've had plenty of sex I have a social life and I am a year from finishing my degree and being guaranteed a fulfilling career.

I'm not telling you to study OP. My message to you is set your long term goal (something you desperately want) and to learn to fight against your brains addictions and unhealthy routines whilst forcing yourself to create healthy routines. Do as much research as you can, Google is your friend.

I want to also add that you need to acknowledge and accept your emotions. Understanding where they're coming from rather than trying to bury them will help you grow and mature as a person. Good luck.

Look for scooby1961

The only reason I mentioned epilepsy is because I suffer from it myself. When I'm off my meds, I feel groggy and distant. Depersonalization it's called.

Depersonalization can also be caused by other things, such as depression. So it's a slight chance that epilepsy is the culprit here. But if you want to make sure, tell your doctor you had a seizure, or that you just want to check for epileptic activity in your brain.

If you suffer form depersonalization, tell your doctor exactly that.

Also, what you feel may be entirely psychological. You should perhaps seek some therapy, but I recommend trying out meditation first

I was you until 2015, 2016 was my year and now I'm pretty much normal.
>was 22 yo loser
>entered a good uni by studying like crazy, since my highschool was shit as fuck and I did not learn anything
>still no drive license
>internship in a good company
>gained 10 kg (was a super skinny faggot)
>test gone up
>lost kislessness and virginity, made out with multiple girls in house parties and fucked two
>working out hard and seeing results

You don't need a mentor, you're just hamstering your problem. NOBODY is going to take you by the hand and drive you to wonderland. If you're waiting for that, this will be your life until you're old and alone or neck yourself. You just need to stop being fucking lazy and grab your problems by the pussy.

These are the consumptives of the soul: hardly are they born before they begin to die and to long for teachings of weariness and renunciation. They want very much to be dead, and we should applaud their wish! Let us guard against waking these corpses and damaging these living coffins! They come across an invalid or an old man or a corpse and straightway they say, ‘Life is refuted!’

But only they are refuted and their eye, which sees only one face of existence. Shrouded in thick depression and eager for the small accidents that bring death: thus do they wait and grind their teeth together.

Life is only suffering’—thus say others and do not lie: so see to it that you cease living! So see to it that the life that is only suffering ceases! And let the teaching of your virtue resound thus: ‘Thou shalt kill thyself! Thou shalt steal thyself away!’
Take control of the life you've been given or kys my man. Only you can change your fate. It won't be easy and there's no magical answer. However, in case you're the skinnyfat canadian from yesterday that thought he was at 10%bf when actually 20% and posted pictures of his belly, you should first try to stop being a retard and accept you don't know anything about anything.

I keep fucking up dude.

I feel embarrassed to say this... but I found a good job. $28/hr and full time. I was going to be set.

The night before the first day I had a panic attack and stayed up all night. Ended up calling and saying I wouldn't be able to work there.

As for the rest of your post... I guess the problem is I don't know what I want. It's more like "Well I guess this is fun for now.. guess ill do it". I have no idea what goals I have or what I want.

I guess I really want to move out from my parents and start my own life, but I'm scared and always trying to "save up" even though I have plenty of money.

Thanks man. Going to get on this and figure out exactly what the fuck is wrong.

>a few months
That's why

You're also a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit who wants the "1 simple trick" for everything. Guess what, it's called hard work and doing shit for yourself. No one in life is going to spoon feed you. So get off your ass, put effort into the gym/diet/sleep, GOOGLE how to get your GED, go to college or trade school

Or don't, I really don't give three fucks

But the thing is I did

I did it and it just isn't working.

I'm getting hungry, tired, lifting as heavy as I can and still nothing is to be seen.

Women at my gym are stronger. WOMEN.

Holy shit fuck off retard

>gaining strength on a cut
It's like you're not even trying

My level of weakness isn't even possible, and yet here I am.

Bump

>Thanks man. Going to get on this and figure out exactly what the fuck is wrong.
No problem, my man. I hope this marks the day you turned your life around. You seem like a cool enough dude

That belongs in a museum

Please kill yourself for real

Everyone in here took the bait.

no

It's not tho

Which city you from OP? I'm in 514

i feel like i see this same thread on diffrent boards every few months.

thats cause even tho op ask's for advice, he dosent actually put it into practice. He rather just have people feel sorry for him on the internet. kek

fpbp

You don't want to make it. It's that simple. If you REALLY wanted to make it you would be in the process of doing so.
>me 2 years ago
>balding 245lbs fat fuck
>drop out of college
>no prospects beyond what club to go to next weekend
>work shitty pizza delivery making less than $8/hr

>one day after getting out of the shower fear strikes my heart
>stretch marks all across my hips and above my armpits
>looks like I fought a purple tiger
>what am I doing with my life
>lose 50lbs in 3 months
>enlist in the National Guard fo' dem College programs
>now 185lbs strongfat
>studying through YouTube tutorials for SATs so I can go to college (for free)

You don't want it hard enough faggot

stop thinking, just do
it's really hard, but that's all there is to it
need to go running? just clear your mind, walk outside, and start moving
sorry i couldn't give you a magic pill or anything user