Its another "user comes home from the gym...

>its another "user comes home from the gym, lays face down on the couch and plays the same sad song over and over while imagining comfy scenarios with him and his oneitis" episode
How do i stop feeling these feels. I put on this unemotional, tough guy act infront of people when actually I just want to be loved. I cant take it anymore. Im a 21 yearold, apparently goodlooking, 6'3, decently buffed guy and i dress well and im a virgin and never had a girlfriend. I have been rejected by every girl i genuenly liked and was 99% sure liked me back. This happened with 7 girls since age 12 and it fucking killed me and my confidence. I became a bitter, hateful asshole and i dwell in my anger, sorrow and misery. I bottle everything up and have no one to talk to about these things because ive been backstabbed by everyone i ever opened up to and i trust absolutely no one now. I never share whats bothering me, whats new in my life and how i feel about things and its destroying me. Bit by bit, piece by piece im dying inside and i cant fucking take it anymore.
Please help me... Somehow, just talk to me, ask me stuff and ill answer in full honesty. I have no one to turn to. Help me fix myself.

I just wanted to make the thread the greentext part but i started venting and i typed all this shit out.

you don't have parents?

also nice blogpost, kek

but I feel ya user, I'm 20 myself and still virgo and also got rejected by girls

¯\_ (ツ) _/¯

Join the club

idc about you but I want to hug that puppy :((

Oh brother, if what you're saying about your physical appearance is true, then I suspect it's the way you're expressing your feelings to these females of interest that is probably scaring them away.

Basically, quit spilling your fuckin feelings all over them. Make it more vain in the beginning. Show your feelings after you wifed them up, but NOT TOO MUCH. WOMEN HATE FEELINGS FROM MEN.

I do have parents but i lost trust in people when i was around 8-9 years old because of fucking kids and then out of fear i started shutting everyone out. Including my parents. Completly stopped talking to them about my life, because i didnt like the way it was unfolding. I was young so it got me pretty bad and over time it ruinned my relationship with my mother because she thought i dont love her because she would just want to hear about my day, my friends, if i have a girl, if im happy and i would literally tell her im not gonna talk to her about it.
Its kinda my fault and i know it, and im sorry for it, but its too late now. Doesnt feel right anymore.
My dad is not the emotional type of person so he doesnt really give a shit about my personal life and doesnt ask about it so never felt the need to tell him anything.
Every girl i ever fell for hard was showing clear signs that they like me back.
I get rejected by girls after literally everyone around me thinks we have something going on and encourages me to make a move. Then when i do, i get the cold shoulder and they basically start ignoring me and it fucks with my head, judgement and confidence really bad because i overthink everything.

Fuck op we are exactly the same ...why do the girls reject you if they liked you?

>It's another "user comes home and hears the Indians next door having yet another party and then the sex sounds keep you up late night episode"

I hate my life, even Pajeets are pulling more chicks than me

Same, except i'm a 5'11" manlet

I have literally no social skills, I was thinking of joining a speaking program of some sort.

I know it eats at you but you have to keep that drive for personal improvement

No idea.
I never want to come of as a petty desperate loser after i get rejected so i never ask them what went wrong. I just bust my head with all the possible things that couldve gone wrong and it keeps me up at night and makes me feel like shit.
But im slowly reaching the point where i dont give a fucking shit how i come off. The same things is happening again with a girl from college. I still havent directly gotten rejected yet but i feel like its gonna come to it if i try doing something (which i will) and then ill probably go full autism mode and sperg out and confront her about why she did it like some desperate child. Its probably gonna ruin things between us completly but im past the point of caring.
How do i achieve personal improvement if i dont know what the problem is.
Well luckly im in a completly white country so i dont have to witness those things and feel like even bigger shit, but the fact that pajeets are getting girls and im not, hurts enough.

So basically what you're saying is..

you're totally in the green to get a girl since you're not fucking ugly, but it's your fucking personality that is shit.

Get this user, you need to man the fuck up

kek

im a pajeet eating white girl ass all the time

>pajeets literally eating poo at this point

I honestly dont think my personality is shit.
I can make people laugh and i very frequently do. Im a great listener and willing to listen to anyone. I can talk about anything and can have an opinion on every subject. Im very well educated about a lot of things. I never brag. Im a bit shallow and i like to gossip and provoke, but i know which things are okay to share and which are not. I never reveal other peoples secrets. I will always try to help when someone asks me to or if i see they might need help. Im polite to pretty much everyone. I value honestly and loyalty more than anything and yet those are the qualities people posses the least.
I dont think im a bad person. I might be a miserable piece of shit kind of a dick and a sadist, but i try to hide it and not bother people with my problems. I get along with all sorts of people and am willing to hear out everyones story. And when im with a girl i like and she's activly trying to spend time with me i feel like an even better person and the good stuff enhances because im happy so im never an asshole to the girls i like.

I feel like i didnt do a good job trying to prove a point but okay

Haha I remember jr high. Every pussy was the pinnacle. Stop it op.

>ill probably go full autism mode and sperg out and confront her about why she did it like some desperate child. Its probably gonna ruin things between us completly but im past the point of caring.
Just whatever you do man, don't sperg out. I've made that mistake and it was fucking horrid.

Otherwise I don't know what to say to you. I've been in the same situation as you, only I'm quite a bit older now and already past that point of not caring.

Okay so if your personality isn't shit, then you just met the wrong girls. Now stop being a self diagnosed depressed piece of shit and go get some girls.

you're still young so stop wasting your time here on Veeky Forums doing a circle jerk of putting yourself down you lazy piece of shit

here's some advice op, you do with it what you want

first of all, I'd recommend trying to heal familial ties with your parents and your school might have free therapy that you can use to work out your emotions; listening to your emotions is a very important step in not being a lousy fuck. are you being honest with yourself and the people around you? probably not, and it's hard to be.

I'm not saying go around wearing my little pony shirts and telling everybody what your favorite animated porn is. rather be honest with your feelings at the moment, be vulnerable. the strongest men are those who wear their heart on their sleeves. whether it's true or not I've read that gladiators wore no chest armor as if to say "my heart is right here in the open." there is an amazing strength in that vulnerability, a resounding confidence. it is something which takes time to develop, but like all good things it is good to nurture. and I'd argue if you know what principles to live by you start doing so as soon as possible so that you may live to be a man worthy of what you believe in.

to become a true man you must become yourself, listen to your emotions and your reasons (meditation is recommended by some and you can try that). once you master yourself you will start to walk your own path, and once you're there it won't matter to you what happens because you are being true to yourself

p.s. stop trying to be something for other people, stop expecting things from them, do things that you want to do and help/listen when you want to but don't expect anything back.

BE A TRUE MAN OP

Im rarely on Veeky Forums and i dont claim to be depressed since i think depression is a meme. And i dont put myself down unless i really feel like shit that and have nothing to feel good about.
I dont put up an act for people. I am the way i am with everyone. And i rarely relly on my feelings because they often cloud my judgement. I only feel shit when its about someone i care for and the amount of those people is very small so when it comes to them i cant think straight. And i live by my principles and wouldnt and cant go against myself no matter how other people might react to that. Exceptions are very rare.
I wasnt planning on sperging out that hard, just try to confront her and explain herself to me. If she decides to be a bitch and tell me she doesnt wanna talk about it i might turn on my autism.

you seem to have misunderstood what I meant. this is ok, it will come with time. just remember to try and fix that relationship with your parents, it's never too late until they're dead and then it's nothing but regrets and a hole in your heart. you'll look back, realize you're an adult and ask what you did all that time you were chasing girls in college to neglect the people who raised you.

> I only feel shit when its about someone i care for and the amount of those people is very small so when it comes to them i cant think straight.

why do you care this much about some girl you've known for maybe a few weeks or months?

Because i get attached to girl i like. And its not just knowing her. She's so much like me, she's not the type of girl i usually fall for and i like her for her personality more than i do for her looks. I've seen flaws on her which would usually make me stop talking to a girl but with her i dont care about it. I love every second i spend with her and the feels she made me feel in certain situations and walks in a park are feels i never felt before. She's generally shy and quiet but around me she's relaxed and herself and i absolutely love it.
But who knows, might all be in my head

Do you guys really think that by having a gf all your problems will just go away? I mean have you guys been to /adv/? Most of those fuckers are asking advice on how to end a relationship.

Hello robot.
And yes i think that having someone romantically love me for once in my life will solve most of my problems because the lack of love from the people i care for is killing me. I can cope with my inner problems myself, but this one i cant fix on my own.

What song are you listening to OP?

Jayzuz, this sounds awful. For both you and your mothers ( and fathers ) sake, try to repair the relationship, who gives a shit if you don't have a girlfriend? that shit comes and goes. My tip to you is not to focus on getting a girl, focus on doing something you love and being successful at it, sounds like a cliché maybe but it's the truth. That's when women will come to you.

>And yes i think that having someone romantically love me for once in my life will solve most of my problems

23 y/o and in a very similar situation here. I honestly think the same. i'm educated, disciplined, good looking and in good shape. overall a very well rounded person except for being chronically alone. I don't really have any advice but I have been dealing with the same thing.

I don't want easy sex or hookups. I could get those easily and I know it. I want somebody that actually matters.