Sad feels thread

>graduated college a year early with bio degree planning on doing med school
>during my six month break I realize I don't want to be a doc and I hate working in hospital
>just did interviews and pretty sure I'll get accepted but I can't go through with it
>bio degree is basically unemployable especially because I have no experience
>living at home with parents working min wage clinic job hating my life
>all my college friends forgot about me, tfw no gf since sophomore year, hometown friends are functioning alcoholic hicks
Trying to do a fresh start in student affairs but not sure if I'm going to get accepted because muh stem degree

>Meet qt
>Don't try to get involved bc she already has orbiters for days, miss me with that shit
>Have some casual hangouts with other people present, she engages touch and asks for my company
>meanwhile posts lots of pictures with some dude
>fully aware it's gonna end in heartbreak, try to keep rational
>End up falling for her, take ages to work up the courage to ask her out
>She says she's been falling in love with that other dude
>I dreamt that night that that other dude stole a treasure from me
>and then fucked her on top of it
>steady decline of self-esteem and loss of aspirations since
>occasionally get a text, sent christmas and new year's wishes, otherwise complete silence because I try to remove her without being rude
>can't stomach facebook posts with her dude, instantly ruins my day
>dude is friends with other friends because they go way back

The world is small and cruel and time has not yet seen fit that my wounds heal.

r u me?

I'm basically you, except without the job. Currently NEET. And no hometown friends.

Fug breh at this point it feels like being a neet would be better tbqh

nah, tried the therapist thing for a while but just couldn't get into it. like my life would be total shit but as soon as I sit in that chair everything's automatically positive and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel etc. but it's all bs and I forget everything as soon as I leave the office.

Meh, I'll work through it eventually and if not life will keep going either way, in the mean time I'm just gonna deadlift until I can't think anymore, that usually helps for a few hours

Go to a doctor, for real. You might have clinical depression. Or maybe you need to shake things up (take more risks, move, change jobs, change hobbies)

I haven't hugged a girl since 2015.
How long has it been since you guys hugged a girl?

(family doesn't count)

last night

>girlfriend and I can't stop fighting
>gotten to the point where we're lacking sleep and energy because of it
>resolved to break up with her tonight
>she's on the phone right now talking with her mom

I wish I didn't have to do this.

New Year's Eve

you do have to. just maintain a level head and be a nice cunt through the entire process.

I'm NEET with no qualifications but I have 30k usd
What do?

I know. I'll be as nice as humanly possible. We talked about it recently, at least it shouldn't be a surprise.

5 years.

>just go to the doctor and get fixed xD
>jusburself xD

Get qualifications
Google wallstreetplayboys and follow advise. Don't get depressed if yoy have a way to go (be positive)

>3 year anniversary in February.
>3 years of massive transformation
>got qt3.14 of my dreams
>life did a 180
>she got me to stop smoking, something I thought I'd do until I died
>she stayed with me after I almost shot my landlord and ended up in a mental hospital
>got into lifting. I'm in better shape now than I'd ever been.
>She was a pretty promising athlete.

>she gets to college, depression sets in.
>tires to kill herself before her 2nd semester starts.
>I stopped her in time
>goes to therapy, gets delicious pills
>starts eating, keeps eating
>when she cant eat, she chews her nails
>chewed down to the roots except for 2 fingers.
>ThatsARealProblemMedicallyVerifiableProblemYouGotThere.jpg
>Shes been gaining weight for 2 years now
>was 130lbs of juicy fresh out of highschool qt
>she pushed 235 at Christmas
>cloths dont fit anymore
>shes given up on life, I've always tried to help her.
>the same inspiration and uplifting she gave me, she is unable to do for herself.
>shes been solidifying fat chick habits for over a year now
>extra portions, taking the elevator always, denial about weight, mom-science nutrition.
>when school is in session it is a panic attack / meltdown ever Saturday night
>no one else to help her or take care of here because lol no-friends ever. I am her ONLY friend (massive red flag looking back on it)
>she thinks we are still going to get married someday when I graduate.

Welp, I cant spend the rest of my life or a good chunk of it on someone who has no desire to improve
>for now I stay with her, so she can get through college
>partly so I can too. I know if we broke up I dont have the time to chase other girls. Kinda hard to have a social life in your last year of an engineering degree.
>I love her, I hate her, I hate that I love her.
>Every time she wants to have sex I have to think about what she used to look like, and try not to hate-grab her rolls for leverage.
>I know a normal girl would have left me by now
>but she won't ever leave me. She has no friends, no one wants her because she is a fat depressed train wreck
>I could probably fuck another girl in front of her and she would stay with me.
>not sure if im just sociopathic, angsty, or depressed.
>dem feels

People get too comfortable when you don't set boundaries. Shoulda warned her not to get fat.

>go to gym, first time in a while
>feel good at lmao3pl8
>protein farts but nbd, nice workout
>qts come from the gym entrance ALLLLL the way across the floor to use the machine right behind me

EVERY GOD DAMN TIME

I almost cried it was so sad. Stay strong user.

>Any of you guys get rejected after she says yes to date like me?- 28 posts and 7 image replies shown.
Literally me

It was a few years ago. A girl I had a crush on in highschool and had recently re-met as a 20 something started flirting with me on FB, clearly fishing for a date
I oblige and ask her out. She says yes
When the day comes, she says she's busy

Looking back, she was being all flirty just before Valentine's Day
She wanted to be validated. When the day passed, she didn't need me any more.

Feels bad man.

Yeah I had the exact same situation but I took her back, it lasted a solid 2 months until she cheated on me. Sucks but it's still is my main drive to lift heavy tho

>tfw I get bored in every relationship after about a year
>tfw I don't want to hurt people I like
>tfw I'm forced to fuck people I hate

>3pl8
>strong
Heh

Guys how do I stop falling in "love" with every girl that shows me attention? I've never had a gf or really many female friends so I guess thats why I get so attached to them.

I mean ffs I fell in love with my lesbian classmate who now lives in another state. Like I don't even fucking talk to her anymore but I still have "feels" because she was so fucking chill with me.

Please fucking help me.

Nah, that's actually a strategy that girls use. When you cancel last minute it makes the guy want to date the chick even more. The woman will usually repeat this at least a couple times to make the man really obsessed with her. The way you're feeling now is part of the plan, but since either you or her didn't follow up after the first canceled date her plan didn't work out.

There's literally guides for getting men you like obsessed with you. It's a terrible thing to do, but it's something insecure people use. Kinda like shit testing.

>have gf for a year now
>everything Going pretty well
> see my ex has a new bf
>suddenly rush of emotions for ex come out of no where.
>kind of want to talk to her again despite having gf

I hate these feels. My gf now hasn't been nothing but loyal and amazing but I can't stop thinking about my ex and restablishing contact. It's like I'm going fucking mad

>still loosing weight
>down 50 lbs already
>still have a ways to go
>mom moves in with me
>she is sick and I have to start looking for nursing homes for her
>mom is 400lbs
>just want her to try and be healthy
>her joints hurt
>she needs mechanisms to help her breath at night
>memory is being shot from sugar, salt, fat and years of drugs
>I'm watching my own mom die everyday
I want off this ride

are you me?
can't stop falling "in love" with girls that show me attention. one moment I can't stop thinking about her, than I go clubbing, another qt3.14 gives me her number and I'm in love again.

So hard to act like it is nothing and I'm a chat who just wants to fuck around when in reality I want to instantly marry her.

I guess we are beta cucks who didn't get the attention we deserved from our parents when we were kids and now have severe self-esteem issues.

Add more girls to your social circle until you get laid
Then you'll stop doong this
Realistically you'll gdt fucked by a girl you aren't in love with while you're in love with some chick in your group. Don't worry just go with it

never
never even held a girls hand

i didn't have many friends as a kid and the ones I did were fat geeks like me who didn't know any girls either

Last week I had another episode of catching a girl mirring but not being able to walk up to her.

such is life comrade.

I watched my grandma slip into the abyss with Alzheimers. Watching someone slowly die from the inside out sucks.

>get laid

If only it were that easy

get fit. worked for me. plus I'm 6'6. would be an average nobody if it wasn't for my height. but after getting out of fattymode I got women.

most important thing is. get yourself friends. I don't have many and I still don't know how to get real friends, but it's the key to meet some cuties

>be Iranian-Canadian
>accepted to med schools in Boston, Michigan, Chicago etc.
>probably can't attend because Trump

Feels bad man.

One of my coworkers is also of Iranian-Candian descent, not a US citizen. She left to go to a funeral about a week ago. No idea if we'll ever see her again.

>be e1 pog
>watch 400 foreign bct graduates get naturalized last week
APPLY YOURSELF, PAKI LEAF

Sorry to hear that, user.
I understand your thought process at the time, I've been there.

>with girl for 4 years
>start to get depressed about my life, but don't try to fix anything
>she leaves me (understandable)
>spend an entire year fixing all of my problems
>we get back together
>spend the next 14 months together

During our last 14 months together, she had told guys she wanted to fuck them, and that she loved them.
My bad for believing those were just words she was saying, and not things she was doing.

I'm happy you're lifting heavy, though. Just don't go to snap city!

Are you light enough to bypass Trumps radar? Can you lie and say you tan?

i am fit, but I'm also only 5'9". I got injured so I've been out for a while and I'm skinnyfat dyel again tho. I didn't start working out for women either, I went to the doctor and he prescribed me pills for depression but I never took them, I only feel good when working out now. As for friends, I have no clue how to. I went to a bar but didn't get the courage to chat anyone up, I work at a plant right now with people who are like 40+ so they all have families and other friends. I'm not really going anywhere with my life

Pretty fucked.

>e1 pog

wut

I'm fair skinned, but it doesn't matter. All that matters is your place of birth. It's a blanket ban on all Iranians regardless of religion or skin colour.

It IS easy phaggot! Do the following three things:
-Remove destructive habits from your life
-Add constructive habits to your life
-Put yourself around girls as much as possible and work your way into their social circle, or bring them into yours
If you're in an extremely bad place in life (I was), this will take. But there's not anything difficult about it if you have patience.

The whole Iran ban is bullshit
Iranians are cool as far as muzzies go

Guess the CIA burned that bridge

>blanket ban on all races and creeds
I thought it was racist tho

>Pretty fucked.

Well shit. I feel really bad for her now. I was gonna try to set her up with my friend too.

Trump may very well make the ban permanent, too. At least for the rest of his administration.

Apparently, they negotiated some shit for Christians and Jews, but as far as I can tell all Iranians are fucked. A lot of reports of Baha'i and Jewish Iranians being stranded.

Motherfuckers I want to see Gegard Mousasi vs Chris Weidman. I hate Trump now.

I'm a ugly manlet with anxiety.

Do I have a chance?

I joined a volleyball club. a "just for fun" club. found 2-3 cool guys there to do fun stuff. try it. if you dont find someone there in 3 months, move on to another club

Not Veeky Forums related faggot. This isn't r9k

Go away newfag

Yes. I was a 350lb agoraphobic neet high school dropout w/ aspergers diagnosis 7yrs ago. If I can do it I'm sure you can.

Do you have a job now?

Whats your life like now?

Yeah I graduated from my state school summa in cs. Now make money doing software

similar but not the same.

Always want to be alone, want to be left alone however it always changes the moment something comes up.

>Get a lot of attention from girls
>Never goes anywhere
>Question if its me
>Meet a girl
>My gut feeling shouts not to trust her despite having no reason
>She does a lot for me
>Just want to end it
>Awkward phases were I'm just about to be finished with her
>Fuck and then I tell myself keep it casual

I think this time I'm out though bro's, I want of this ride.

I want to be you.

Currently NEET. I can program pretty well, self taught, and I have a degree in STEM. But no job.

Fitness: Got strong, improved a lot but got fat from stressful lifestyle and working too much recently. Following strict diet and doing cardio atm.
Girls: Have gf. Went from virgin not having interacted with a girl in any really serious way to doing all the crazy shit you see in porn videos in a few weeks after meeting girl I hit it off with. Have gf.
Education: Went to community college, transferred and graduated w top honors from state flagship STEM program mostly on scholarship (took out a few g in loans)
Job: Make roughly 75k in low COL area
Social life: Haven't been working on this much recently but have group of friends in the area. Less awkward than previously. No longer really have social anxiety, feel situations are awkward at most. Working at a Target store to save money for community college helped me get over the worst anxiety about being around people.
Living situation: Live on own, have car

I'm still kind of weird, don't know what to say in conversations, but really the shit doesn't matter once you have enough of your life in order

You can really do this shit homie

Wow man I'm really happy for you. I've tried so many times to change my ways but I just end up giving up because I never see results fast enough. I also compare myself with other people which just brings me down even more.

Some dude in my OPRE class asked me to join him in the judo club we have in school. I've never taken a single class before but he said its all good.

Reading your post actually gave me motivation to go now.

Thanks for the advice, man.

>had gf
>great in many ways
>breaks up after 2 years
>initial sadness
>get back together after 2 years apart
>only last 2months
>not as sad this time
>new gf, seems pretty great
>ex has moved on too
>happy times for all
>new gf moves in with me
>wants to talk about future
>50/50 chance of life cutting GENETICS herself
>and ongoing to any children
>also causes mental degradation
>doesn't want to do test to check genes
>if present will occur within 10 years
>will be considered a monster if relationship ends over this

Goodbye feels, I can't have you in the life I've chosen

I'm sick of being alone Veeky Forums, having a double bed makes sleeping an anxiety riddled chore. I'm a khv NEET(involuntarily) so there's no reason for a girl to want to be with me, army recruitment is closed currently so I can't even go there. I also can't tell if I'm actually autistic, or I just act this way because I know how some behave and I want attention. The only good thing going for me is that my lifts are going up(DYEL by Veeky Forums standards though).

I lifted up this fat girl on new year's eve. It was a non-consensual hug, I suppose, does that count?

Kill it man! It's easy to get impatient but steady work on the basic stuff will being HUGE results over the several year time scale.

Good luck to all you bros in fucked up situations, you're going to make it

You too man!

Not a mistake. Sounds like she wanted to be single so she could bang buff dudes in the Navy, then found out that military men are rarely relationship material and tried crawling back after getting passed around a lot.

GUYS YOU KNOW POLAR BEARS CAN GROW UP TO BE 12 MOTHERFUCKING FEET TALL.NOT 9 FEET LIKE NO PUSSY ASS GRIZZLY BEARS, 12 FEET TALL.ONE OF GODS MESSAGE TO EARTH ONHOW WELL HE MADE US.THOSE MOTHERFUCKING POLAR BEARS JUST STANDING ON THEIR "HIND LEGS" AND JUST WALKING INTO WALMART LIKE "WHERE IS THE ICE SECTION!"

I used to be exactly like that when I was a couple years younger. It stopped right around when my life went to complete shit and now I don't give a fuck about girls aside from wanting to fuck them anymore.
It might be something positive that you're like this, you're still capable of feeling that emotion that some like me can't anymore, maybe a sign your life isn't so grey. Embrace it even. Listen to some sad songs, play some guitar, wallow and then lift some heavy ass weights.

>Meet Qt3.14
>Go out for about a month
>Says it won't work out because she is unsure but "don't worry you are the perfect guy"

Suuuurrrrrreeeeeee......

Yup
They're called Ursus maritimus
The ocean bear. On account of their living almost all their lives at sea and eating almost exclusively aquatic mammals

There used to be an even larger version, what's called Ursus maritimus tyranicus
None of them left any more.
But grolar/pizzly bears are becoming more common as polar bears come south and meet their grizzly cousins
They're generally bigger than either parent

honestly she might be so dependent that you could threaten her with leaving if she doesnt lose wait.

Sorta kinda abusive but ehhhhhhh

>be me, lonely balding cunt, still in college.
>finally got the courage to tell oneitis my worship for her.
>moments before she told me she fucked with a mutual friend the same morning, and fucked one of my good friends a couple of years ago.
>tell her anyway bc i was gonna explode if i didnt said it.
>told me she wasnt prepared for a relationship.
>that was last year.
>fast forward today, the good friend, me and she were reunited by casualty.
>he constantly says jokingly that he has tore her clothes and sucked her tits.
>laugh it off bc he supposedly doesnt know about my feels, she laughs too.
>feeling dead inside.
>suspicious she has already told half college, probably did and they both were having fun at me.
>still madly in love with her.
>she knows, doesnt correspond but talks to me more often.

in other news.

>be in practices with a judge.
>he constantly says to get another student bc "this one is about to go"

I want to leave the wizardness behind but it crawls in my back like a leech

>about 4 months ago girl from work asks for my snapchat
>snapchat for a while, eventually says she'd rather text me instead
>continue to text everyday for a while
Now I have no idea if a girl is flirting with me because
>used to be really big (320 highest weight)
>decided to make a change
>currently 198 (weighed myself 2 days ago) and gaining some self confidence
>still trying to lose, but I can't lose muh autism
So I have no experience with girls. at all
>think she flirts with me and stuff
>ask her on a date
>no, I don't like 'talking' to guys from work
>okay
>says she still wants to text and snap me everyday
>eventually I get feelings for her because she's amazing to me
>she comes over my house a few times, attempt to make moves
>eventually tell her how I feel
>"sorry I just don't feel the same blah blah blah"
>eventually she calls me ugly and a 4/10
>but apparently I did something to make her mad and never talk to me again

I hate girls Veeky Forums

Damn that's a good idea, I have a lot of free time anyway. Thanks man, good luck to you, we're gonna make it

i feel you bro, especially about getting a lot of attention but being apathetic about it. for me at least, i feel like i havent found anyone i actually WANT to be with, every relationship ive been involved in, romantic or platonic or whatever has only chugged along because of convenience or proximity plus whatever amount of effort the other person is putting in and if something changes, for example they get bored/tired of my shit, in that relationship im way to comfortable dropping it and moving along with life like nothing ever happened, and afterwards i think to myself "that was easy, maybe i didnt really care about them anyway" and then i just feel like we just wasted our time being together in the first place.

sometimes i wonder if im even capable of loving another person, or hating another person, or even feeling ANY kind of strong feelings towards another person at all. its like the people outside of me are these blurry shadows hanging out in my peripheral that i will never fully understand so i just kind of dont bother doing so. i mean can still be charismatic and "perform" for them when the situation calls for it, but it never feels genuine no matter how hard i try and i always feel ashamed about that afterwards because its not fair to them because really im just using them for some kind of self-validation that i know is full of shit

i just kind of feel empty all the time and nothing ever fills that void, but even if i feel empty im still living and breathing and things are still happening in the world so might as well just not even bother looking for it and just keep on keeping on, hoping that one day something will fall into my lap that makes me actually care about anything. but i guess the problem with that thinking is that im expecting, even if only slightly, for this change to come from outside myself when its obviously a problem that is within

meh, whatever

I masturbated again. I beat my old record of two days, made it too three.

I'm hoping to hit a minimum of five before I fucking break down again.

It hurts knowing I'm so mentally and spiritually weak.

Dude, just bust a nut if you want. It's not that big of a deal.

It is for me.

I've been a sex addict for most my life after being sexually abused as a child.

Now that I've come to the Christian faith it hurts a lot whenever I give into temptations. I feel like a failure.

6 years.

YES!

Except I kind of know where my issues stems from, I could guess yours I already can guarantee you think about life a lot and purpose right?

I've got an emptiness and void there like you describe minus the small moments that are sort of out of this reality and its just that, an escape. The rest of the time I'm just wondering when will it crash or so on, I feel like everyone has an agenda, I can't trust a person because I know and it goes for me that in a split moment it could all change and that its not black and white because of this I'm not close with anyone and as I get older I realize more people have already established there connections in life. Mines just empty clubbing, getting wasted and hooking up with randoms or making temporary friends from being under the influence which kind of became depressing so I stopped.

I don't think I can ever fall in love that feeling has dissipated, I get angry or I get down about certain things but it still empty in someways like I know its bound to happen. I've got the world under my feet with my looks,career and health however I'm constantly questioning why I wake up every morning and continue feeling nothing in return. I'm not suicidal or anything I just don't understand why I'm doing anything anymore, it just seems like life has become vacant in everything I do. Maybe it lies in the fact that I'm a homebody and haven't really left where I'm from

>TL;DR - Barely feel anything but the occasional moment of happiness or sadness but nothing usually in-between. Feel extremely nihilistic, don't understand why I wake up in the morning and bother to do anything, not in a suicidal way just don't understand why I do anything.
>Life=Vacant

dubs of truth

>tfw had a great date with a hot girl today and officially back on the goodfeel train after sadfeeling most of 2016

Can't tell if bait or not, but I'll bite.

Assuming the first part is true, I'm sorry to hear that bro. I can't say I can relate but I can certainly sympathize. Hang in there, do what you think is best for yourself.

Secondly, Christianity is a way of life. The Bible is a guidebook to a way of living, not a set of rules you must follow to a T. Don't beat yourself up man. Use your religion as a guide ratger than a set of rules. You'll find yourself much happier.

Source: Ex-Christian

Bro, that's sick. About to ask a chick out from my speech class on Thursday. What did you guys do?

>tfw waiting on a text back

>do a lot of back/shoulders because I like to fill out my shirts
>not abnormally huge or anything
>go on date, is nice
>go in for the kiss, she's into it
>puts her arms around me, doin' that sloot sliding-her-hands-along-body move
>jumps back, pushes away suddenly
>looks totally disgusted
>"your back is way too hard... it's creepy"

And apparently she isn't the only one who feels that way

Dude, you fucked up, that's a queue to show off

Tell her to feel your back while you're totally slack, then tense up while her hands are there

Women can't resist when they feel your power

>Meet girl
>10/10 qt, blond, literally perfect.
>Really fun to be around
>Really compatible personalities, it was like I knew her from the start
>Date a few weeks
>Confesses she's an escort
>Already suspected something because she had no family, didn't work often and when she did it were odd hours and she's loaded.
>Swears she stopped having sex with clients after our 2nd date.
>Struggled a bit at first but I accepted it because every fucking minut I am with her was heaven
>I stopped initiating sex often
>She notices this and points it out
>I said I didn't want her to feel like I just want her for sex
>She gets sad as fuck saying it's definatly not the case
>Believe her but the next few days a
ske kept a bit distant
>Sits me down to talk
>Said I'm to good for her and she doesn't deserve great man like me and I should not get with a girl like her
>Try to comfort her
>She doesn't want to hear it and leaves
>Doesn't reply to my calls/texts
>Dont see her for a month
>Go to eat at a restaurant with a qt friend last friday
>Waitress takes 20 mins to get to use
>She arrives at the table
>It's my ex
>She's red af abd acts like she doesn't know me
>I dont play along and ask how she has been
>Friend notices uncomfortable shit and leaves for a bit
>She's at work so we talk 5 mins and we agree I come take her off of work
>After we split up she didn't start escorting again but took a part time job as a waitress and enrolled into college
>Fucking proud of her
>Said she realised she had to turn her life around if she ever wanted to feel worthy for a good man and have a happy life
>Spend the night together
>Start dating again
>She still thinks that I think it matters she used to be a whore
>I tell her it doesn't and we haven't talked about it since and I wont since it truly doesn't for me

So actually dont feel sad but had to tell someone. She doesn't want the people I know know she used to escort and I can't really tell anyone.

Just went to a mid scale restaurant and chatted for a few hours, you don't want to make it anything too serious or high profile the first time

Was a girl I thought was really hot freshman year of college (she doesn't know that), finally got a chance to get her number this semester and I'm about to graduate so, feels weird