Hello guys. I've come to the terrible realization im just a loser. And I don't know how to fix myself

I mean I feel the same say op but I've gone through brief periods of making it and I'm realizing how truly garbage my life is

>bachelors degree in a shit field
>working a job I enjoy somewhat (only because it's flexibility) in the town I went to high school at
>work another job super part time at a climbing gym which that place is the only reason I'm fit but I still am not at the climbing level I want to be because I get incredibly anxious at training
>had qt long term gf that I was in love with for a period until my feelings changed and I ended it with her
>all my long term friends smoke/drink a ton and play video games
>currently rent a room from one of them because I'm completely directionless in life

I mean I'm going to fire school now and am thinking about becoming a wildland firefighter. But I have no vision and my work ethic has gone to shit while my bouts with depression has skyrocketed. Feels like I keep putting off the life I want to live because I'm scared.

Thank you user. i think my first step should be getting a job.

I'm kind of considering getting some sort of restaurant server or bartending job to make above minimum wage and also learn some social skills

1. Stop incessant porn watching and try not jerking off in the daytime during weekdays. it kills motivation imo

2. If youre not skilled, you need to make up for it by dedication. Apply for a shit min wage job like above user and try for as many hours as you can. Take shifts no one else wants like weekends and holidays. it will be better than wallowing alone

3. Stop spending exorbitant money on sugary treats, or vidya, or whatever unhealthy crutch you use to cope

You can start doing these things immediately, and if you give an honest effort, benefits will appear. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and do something

your gut bacteria is giving you autism, you need to detoxify your colon. dilute 1 cup of this in a gallon of water and drink it daily. you should be feeling much better in a week or so

Cuck porn is about as low as you go. Nofap &/or noporn immediately, and start lifting. Need to get some test back in you.

senpai some of it is kinda hot tbqh

I got like 50gb of it downloaded

isnt all porn cuck porn? in every guy/girl video you're watching another guy fuck a girl you want to fuck

No i watch like literal chastity cage humiliation and girls making men drink from used condoms

I found some good POV stuff so it's like their literally cuckolding YOU too

idk, not if it's a solo vid. But then I guess the cameraman is there so It's kinda weird too

OP I am in literally the exact same spot as you it is kind of weird. I fap every day out of boredom to dumb shit unironically so nofap here I come, except I've told myself that 20+ times and always last a couple days before fapping again. But I have a drug addiction ontop of it which is fucking shitty

Also going to try to get a server job but have a year long gap in my resume and lost literally all my social skills in that year... life is tough I am actually just going to do end up doing other things for money that don't require a job or social interaction once I get desperate enough

Chew mastic gum and get that constant "I am trying to poop" look

but does that work though

You asked a question in a quasi-normie board, what did you expect?

>browses Veeky Forums for 3 years
>don't do fuck all else

WHY AM I NOT FIT GUYS!?

It definitly works. The main problem is that I am starting to plateau. I was thinking about moving up to rocks or coal. If I get my jaw gains good enough I bet I could make diamonds

oh yeah for sure get a job if you don't have one i feel so much better at work than at home and you can talk to people. im basically anti social cause i barely talk but there's still nice people who invite me places

>How the fuck do i fix myself?
One step at a time. You're letting all this shit get to you, but if you break it down it becomes manageable. Get a job of some sort so you're getting out of the house and interacting with people. Start going to school, enroll at the local community college and get an associate's that qualifies you for a half decent job, it'll be a major step up from what you can do with a high school diploma and it'll let you get your foot in the door at a better school for a higher degree. Clean up your diet and find some sort of exercise you enjoy, lifting, running, swimming, biking, hell even just walking around outside. Once you're feeling better about yourself stick your toes in the dating pool, you'll probably be pleasantly surprised - despite what Veeky Forums would have you think, you're not competing with a bunch of 6'4 adonises with colossal trust funds, you're competing with skinny fat video game addicts that have a mountain of student debt.

Go to /adv/

Not sure if you'll read this or if you've logged off but I think I can help. Hopefully at least 1 person. I was a kissless virgin loser until I was 23 and have some friends that are still kissless virgin losers that started lifting with me and are now less of losers. It's like they're still losers but you'd never know anymore because they look a bit more alpha after a few years of training. Still awkward as hell though. But anything helps.

For me it was because I was gay. I actually thought girls were sexy but I never related to being the man fucking the girl because my character didn't resemble the alpha male man stereotype like ever for whatever my age group was at the time. I always felt stunted so I always gravitated toward males as opposed to females. I was super delusional and thought that being an artsy musician was what was going to give me my worth and make up for it but it never did. I'm 26 now and now maybe have a shot at music professionally as a metalcore artist but relying on it for so long was a total mistake.

One of the biggest problems is that most people stuck in situations like yours OP is that we start to feel so self conscious and so left behind that we have an unrealistic expectation of the future. We think that no matter where we go, people are judging and will always judge. When in reality, nobody cares about you. People don't even think about you. Nobody knows you're a virgin. Nobody cares either. It's all in your head. People only see how you treat them. I watched an awkward friend of mine perceive that another one of my more normal friends was trying to cross him. He perceived a confrontation that wasn't even there because he's so insecure. He got super defensive and it exposed him as insecure when nobody was threatening him. Nobody even thought he was weird until that happened. Ass pies tend to think people are thinking about what they're thinking about but really nobody is.

user listen to me good, I'm talking to you now. You've realized your flaws, here is the solution.

Nofap.
get a job.
lift.

Don't you see? You're prison is only the one inside your own mind. You've been deceived by the ancient serpent. At the rate you are going now you will end up alone. You will never accomplish anything, you have no value to offer to the world and your soul will be bound for hell.

Damn that makes sense actually man

I think what I need to do is just hold myself to a higher standard and just pretend to be the person I WANT to be, i think eventually I'll become that person.

i actually just deleted all my saved porn from my computer, gonna try applying to a couple places hiring near me this week too

Following up on this... Nobody is thinking about you. Going forward just realize that nobody gives a shit. Start lifting weights seriously. I don't know what you dress like but don't try to look anything more than casual because you don't deserve it yet and even when people who do look that way, they still look terrible. Always ask yourself, "would I fuck me?" and if the answer is no, that's where you need to start. And if you answered yes, you're fucking delusional.

Oh and get a hobby and be proud of it. Unless it's my little pony or some shit. Eventually you'll feel confident enough to speak to women or men or whatever you're into and you'll fuck and realize that it was never even that big of a deal to begin with. Get good at dealing with rejection too. Oh and until that day comes, try not to watch the cuckold porn. You're only going to drive yourself crazy and solidify the idea that you don't deserve to be the alpha male fucking the chicks in the porn you watch.

Well done user. Know that though the path to success be narrow and frought with tempation, I will always be here for you.

Also OP, or user or whoever... Quit feeling like it's your fault your a loser. The second I quit blaming myself for everything was the second I was able to recognize the reasons why I became how I became. You were set up for failure and were dealt a shitty hand of cards. Whether it be not having enough bro figures in your life to compete with to push you to be better or being gay or whatever the hell it is... Don't beat yourself up to hard or you'll collapse under the pressure. It's time to make life changes one step at a time and actually get somewhere. The more you remind yourself that you're pathetic, you'll just stay pathetic. I'm not saying act confident in being a loser like protecting your my little pony fetish or whatever, I'm saying stop focusing on the bad and start focusing on what you can do. Think about what is holding you back. You are so used to seeing yourself as a loser that you feel like it's out of character to try to be anything better than that. It's like getting a new haircut and being afraid to go to school because you might get comments on it. SO WHAT! This is your life. It's time to take it back.

But it is my fault... I could have made the right choices, but I didn't.

I once realized I had almost 60gb of porn in my harddrive of just pictures. That day I felt like such a failure and deleted it. I realized I was addicted to it and was taking over my life.

Now I try to go porn free as long as I can. Occasionally I have my dips and lows, but it's not as bad as it once was.

Your bad habits will never truly go away, but you diminish them by substituting them with something that makes you feel better long term. Lifting is just one of those things.

Op don't take this advice. Do not adopt that victim mentality.

You're wrong. It's not a "victim" mentality. It's a realist mentality. I actually went through what OP went through and am succeeding as of today far beyond anything I ever thought possible. Take or leave my advice OP. I'm not the sick one here. I went through it and I overcame it. If I sat tearing myself apart for something I had no control over when everyone kept telling me I did have control I got nowhere. Once I accepted that I was totally powerless in the moment and I started observing the things that shaped my pathetic behavior I was able to then address them. Nobody chooses to be pathetic or wants to be pathetic.

Whoever I'm responding to has the idea that I'm trying to tell you to make everyone feel sorry for you. I'm not doing that. Nobody gives a shit about you. I'm trying to tell you that in order to improve you need to understand what got you in the position your in and it certainly isn't you. If you understand the psychological implications of this and how your experiences have shaped you, you'll realize that this phase isn't actually you. It's just a phase and it doesn't need to be who you ultimately become. I'm being misunderstood. Take my advice.

OP, in my English 1A class (I decided to go back to college) we are reading a book called, "Lives on the Boundary. It highlights the life of a young man living in an inner city ghetto and his struggle to get out of his shitty situation but also showcases the failures of our modern school systems. These kids that become failures weren't destined to become failures. They weren't born inherently stupid. The system itself is a failure. The book touches on all of the different factors that go into shaping someone into a piece of shit or a failure. Maybe not a failure in the same way that you're a failure but a failure none the less. When all these variables are laid out in front of you, it becomes undeniable that it really wasn't the kid's fault they became what they became and the main character of the story is lucky to make it through at the end of the day. I feel like I'm a failure in the same way you're a failure and am lucky to have made it out because most people don't. You need to understand that you are in fact a victim BUT it doesn't need to stay that way. You need more experiences. You need to realize that who you are today doesn't shape who you can be somewhere down the road if you apply yourself. Always be real with yourself. Take risks and do everything YOU wouldn't normally do. You need to be put in uncomfortable situations to grow. There's no other way. Start lifting. Meet new people. Quit fapping to cuck porn. Baby steps OP. You'll get there. Most the normies here haven't actually been through it so of course they're going to criticize this as an encouragement of the "victim mentality".