>OP, its just that gut wrenching feeling though very tough to get over
Yeah it is man. I didn't mention in my post , but I've been through this - when I was 19 I got dumped by an LTR gf, because she wanted to party and whore it up. It was painful because we had swapped virginities and I always had hoped I'd stay with whatever girl I found to do that with.
A few months later after I had sacked up, I saw her in a nightclub, I was with a group of girls (one my new gf), sitting down with my arm around two of them... my ex was with a couple of girls. My gf wanted to mess with her, she asked the girls if they knew her (my ex), they said "ugh, we don't really like her", kek. The ex looked at me when I had my arms around the 2 girls and the look was sheer burning contempt, like "why are there no guys around me and my ex-bf is surrounded by girls"?
Sure enough, she's now married to some beta ultracuck whom she constantly disrespects publicly on fagbook, and he just takes it "in good humor". I actually feel sorry for the guy.
>the feeling of loving someone and them not loving you back anymore shit cuts deep into your soul man.
I know what you mean - but you will become all the better for it. It's a trial by fire, you'll emerge as a stone-cold pussy slayer.
>I have come to the conclusion that 99% of girls are hoes and to trust none of them ever
Remember that women have their reproductive priorities just as you have yours. I don't blame my ex any more, I blame myself for becoming too beta. She was sweet and loyal when I kicked her out of my dorm room after a bang, and flirted with other women in front of her, etc. Women aren't angels, but they're wonderful nonetheless, because all they really demand is confidence and dominance, and then they are as loyal as any golden retriever. Have a look at this blog:
heartiste.wordpress.com/the-sixteen-commandments-of-poon/
read that article, then everything else - good luck.