Are you happy, Veeky Forums? Do you feel anything?

honestly, lifting is always the highlight of my day, its the thing i most look forward to as well.

The only things I feel are crippling depression and self loathing

I just had a cigar so I'm feeling pretty good.

>tfw made it
>don't have any goals left

What the fuck do I do now? I've got a decent job, apartment and car. I fuck a new girl every week.

Why do I feel empty inside?

>and she looks like my ex

oh boi am sure welcome death

When was the last time you felt genuinely happy Veeky Forums?

>the usual day a few months ago
>sitting online
>suddenly feel a burst of energy
>want to talk to people
>get in touch with old friends
>plan shit
>finally feel like everything is going to work out
>tons of optimism
>few hours later it passes

What the fuck, brain? I have no idea what brought it forth. It was like my fucking body telling me: "hey this is how you COULD feel like, but nah, just keep on being miserable instead you cunt."

Nope. I'm constantly angry because my girl turned out to be a giant whore. The only thing I want to do now is hatefuck her and then ruin her life. Fuck.

>When was the last time you felt genuinely happy Veeky Forums?

The happiest I've felt recently was testing out my tabletop battle system with my friend on Wednesday. It's only like 25% done, but it works and it's exciting.

Try creating stuff. Draw, digital art, game design, music, clothing, take your pic and keep trying till you made something you think is awesome

I have a good job, I own a penthouse condo in the city where I can walk to work, and a girlfriend. I still want more, you'll always want more.

>never had a relationship because I'm socially awkward and afraid to get hurt
>lifting to keep myself sane
>go on holiday one day
>pick hotel with good gym
>planned to lift, eat and fuck hookers
>first day of holiday, meet cute girl
>she is funny, easy to be around and has a nice smile
>accidentally drop my guard
>end up spending entire holiday with her
>she cheers at me while I lift
>we go sightseeing
>eat at fancy restaurants
>fuck like rabbits
>a few days before I go back home she leaves
>pay her and say farewell before heading off to the hotel
>know it was only temporary but I had a good time
>wake up alone the day after
>her smell is still on the pillow
>realize I'll never see her again
>realize it hurts
>realize I fell in love with a hooker
FUCK

Last night, I bought some weed after having taken a break for a while and I couldn't stop smiling.

Too bad it's illegal haha thanks reagan

>started working out because left gf that I devoted myself to for 2 years
>got depressed and all the usual shit
>she dates the guy 2 months after I left her, it was that reason why I did.
>started getting Veeky Forums
>working on my career, got a nice job that I love doing
>planned lots of nice trips this year with friends
>everything is going well and goals that I set being achieved
>still fucking sad
>read up on philosophy, reread redpill writings
>after all this self progression, it helps but only a little bit.

I had a mild existential crisis recently.

It slowly developed after thinking about how poorly I'm doing in my school work and social life.
Thought about how small humanity is and how my existence will have no impact on anything in the Universe, even on a small scale.
Didn't make me sad but it definitely didn't make me happy.

I began thinking after that that feeling might help me get over my anxiety and self-consciousness and to finally live the life I want to.

watch jordan peterson lectures on youtube.
all of what you achieved is superficial happiness.
read up on philosophy.
find your meaning in life.

Time for a mixed bag of feels:
>hate my job, supervisor is a fucking bitch. She almost never has any issues with my work, but the other night I forgot to do TWO things, and suddenly "you didn't do ANY work last night" and I'm treated like I'm useless
>had a few dates with a qt black girl. We kissed, but she didn't seem into it and never invited me in after I dropped her off, but she's still texting me, so I dunno if she's into me or not, or if I'm gonna get friendzoned.
>with the exception of one person, none of my friends even bothered to wish me a happy birthday, and it looks like I'm gonna have to celebrate alone
>but in spite of it all, I deadlifted 275 lbs for the first time. I'm 40 lbs away from my starting goal. Feeling pretty strong.

I feel like going back to the gym. It's pretty much all I feel now. The more exercise I get, the more I want.

I had the same crisis as you years ago. I realized that nothing I did really mattered; therefore, there was no point in feeling afraid of failure. Why not try things out? I don't have to do what others want me to do. I only have one life and better get the most of it.

My goals are: be fit, visit the world, learn, go to space. Easy.

Is your ex an anime schoolgirl

>browse tinder
>die a little inside as I start swiping

s-sorta

I used to imagine life together. We used to go on "dates" all the time. I'd keep a picture of her on my phone while eating lunch and imagining talking to her.

why did someone write in arabic all over his face?

Kinda happy, kinda unhappy. Sick of college, want to drop out but I know how incredibly irresponsible that would be and how much it would let my parents down.

Happy I started working out, I plan on joining the military as soon as I'm out of college and I want to get back in shape for that.

I like every aspect of my life, except my girlfriend is really exhausting.

My girlfriend hates pretty much all of her life, except for me.

I want to break up with her, but I feel so guilty.

I'm starting to consider this even though I've always been a fat fuck if I can't get into grad school

I was a fat fuck years ago, I slimmed down and gained strength. I wanted to join the military but my parents wanted me to be an officer so naturally I had to go to college and get a degree. I'm not having any problems with school, I have good grades. I just don't like it. And I still have a few more years to go.

Not feeling anything at all besides anxiety dissastifaction, cognitive dissonance and hopelesness/lethargy also getting assraped by my mind 24/7. My family 20 year business bankrupted and now my dad is in crippling debt while his health and respect degenerates every day, he doesn't do anything to solve his problems and just accepeted his failure, he doesn't even talk about it with us(he legit said he just CAN'T say like he is unable). Dad made alot of bad decisions and now we cut contact with his side of the family because family isn't always family with money on the line eh
My mother anxiety is going through the roof while she desperately tries to keep a strong home + dealing with massive boredom., she was taking xanax and i told her to stop, idk if she stopped but she says she did I feel kind sad because she had a hard life and didn't deserve any of this.
My brother is the one that put his money in the houses and spends 70-80% of his salary helping my dad debts + mother groceries/stuff + singlehandledly paying for my whole education but he is a skinnyfat nerd engineer that doesn't have any hobbies besides netflix + dota and photography. He complains his life isn't interesting and about his failure with girls /insecurity/loneliness yet he gets mad at me when i tell him that he needs to improve his body + get real interests + leave the house more besides work and uni, doesn't have alot of friends either and a bit socially awkward/boring
i tell him he just say he doesn't want that yet keep complaining about shit.
I am going to the second year at uni but only passed 2 of my 8 classes of the 1st semester. 110lbs and weak as fuck. I dont have people to talk to or real friends only my family. If i am at uni, just my housemates that tells me to shut up whenever i make a comment or are basically very toxic to me.Also quitting weed after 3 year daily abuse and it's hel
next post i'm gonna say how to fix this

Been feeling a little stressed lately, probably too much coffee and too little sleep. Residency is never easy, I should be doing research, my lifts are stalling because I'm cutting to little avail, also I have mild paranoia about my reputation and I'm sexually frustrated.

I feel like time is slipping away.

Introspection is counterproductive.

Same

I never really wanted to, I just know they'd take me

holy shit this post format was so shit doubt anyone gonna read this
Brother said he is going to pay for dad therapy and my mother is now looking for a job. Wish i could go to therapy too but we don't have that money and i'm already a massive leech so i'm gonna try to fix all of my problems by simply:

>hope to move out to a new place and live alone
>picking up philosophy (eastern + existentialism)
>picking up lifting / calorie counting
>picking up studying routine/habits
>picking up meditation / stretching
>picking up the max credits for the semester

>giving up escapism
>giving up enterteinament
>giving up social media
>giving up social superficial relations
>giving up weed
>giving up that dopamine hits
>giving up porn/fap
>giving up Veeky Forums

The last one is the hardest and it's a ride that never ends, i think this place gave me everything it could give after lurking here for 3-4 years but yet is the only place that gives me human interaction and sometimes that good knowledge. It's hard to relate to outside people because and i have this thread full of people that i can relate to but very next to it there is a /r9k/ /pol/ /autistic/ thread that isn't productive and just bullshit.

>Introspection is counterproductive.
This so fucking much. My mind is so overactive and introspective since i was 11 and boy it only fucked me up hard, now i want to give my mind up but it doesn't let me.

dude, go to counseling. i'm sure your uni offers it. try to help your family out, you'll make it.

I dont think i have the time for it since i am going to take the max credits but i'm going research more about it. last time i checked i was late and they had closed applications now the only way to get this info again is talking with my oneitis qt and i dont want to see her / talk to her before making it

of course you have time for it, it's like one hour a week max. i'm not talking therapy here. these people know about the struggle and can direct you to other resources.

maybe my schedule overlaps with their schedule idk and in my uni it's the students graduating on psychology that gives the counseling kinda like their training but its free so idgaf
I'm gonna search more about it anyway
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I'm 100% positive that being fat is the only thing keeping me from being a happy person.

Hence why I'm here. 5'8" and 192 is not cool.

why do i feel like you're not going to do it, user? shoot them an email right now and i'll leave you alone.