Friday feels thread

Do you feel any different, like enlightened after recovering? Also where did you take it at?

Me too

i used to take it sometimes, last time i took it i wouldnt say i had a bad trip it was just pretty strong but nothing ridiculous. after that, 2 years ago, i can't really smoke weed anymore i just get so anxious. i used to get so high and could non stop smoke but since then i just dont want that at all. that goes with all drugs too. maybe cause i smoked a bunch on the comeup of that 1 trip but idk, before that day everything was fine then it wasnt

I don't want to sond cliche but it actually helped me in the long run. It made me realize that no one is immune to real mental fucked up issues. Its apart of our DNA.

I don't know but since that experience I learned that it takes real effort in order to be psychological well and since then I have forced myself to be more social and talk to people. LSD gives you a perspective of how the backstage of life works and I've used it to connect better with people because it gave me a better understanding of how people work. Not to mention I am much more empathetic to the "shy guy" of the group and whenever I met a guy like that I try and include him in the conversation as much as possible because I understand that a guy like that is going trough allot of shit. Take it as a learning experience and you will do alright. Remember that no one is immune to what you just experienced.

Good feel, drinking beers with my dad. Good tunes. Only neg is not raising my weights. Will make it...

Same here, whenever I smoke weed I get many of the effects you have on acid. Even drinking beer would give me a weird out of the body experience. Its better now but generally I can only drink alcohol without loosing my shit. Everything else just makes me paranoid.

Did a 16/8 Intermittent fast today

How the fuck does anyone do anything while fasted?

this image is all too familiar.

Have you tried not being an autist?

>school emailed me saying that i have been skipping too many classes
>called in for a meeting on monday
>if they kick me out, i'm gonna kill my self
really fucking depressed right now. been tired as fuck the last 2 days.
I cant fucking stop skipping classes, eventhough i want to go.
I should just go see a fucking doctor so he can give me some pills, so i can feel normal.

>tfw down 11 pounds since start of feb

10 more and the cut is over and I can do my bulk before my trip in late December. I really hate fucking bulking and what it does to my face

I want that fucking outfit

You dont just do IF now and then, the effect wont work with occasional 16/8 fast, you need to do it every day

PRAISE KEK

>trying to become a well adjusted Normie despite diagnosed Autism
>Went to a apprentice workshop at my college
>get split into groups
>start talking to a girl do it another course
>goes really well, do a plane themed presentation and our group wins a tour of some place
>at the end ask for the girls Snapchat
>get it, Lads in my class congratulate me
>get home
>phone is really cracked so I can't send a good selfie
>send utter shite picture
>opened 7 hours ago

Sorry if it sounds a bit vain but this has been the closest I've gotten to a girl, before I just watched, sometimes I wished that I was pathetic enough to actually complain about >tfwnogf but other people how come to expect more of me, and I'm myself I've failed to rise up to the expectations, I don't think she is going to go on that your, or maybe she'll snap back in the morning, I'm just hoping I can feel better about this whole damn thing so I can carry on with my lifts

Hope we all make it gf or no gf

Sorry about the spelling mistakes, I've got to wake up at 5AM and I can't get a wink

>Tfw normies who need a PT to train interupt your workout
>Tfw gf calls you during your workout to talk and be cute

>Tfw workout ruined
>Tfw day/weekend ruined

Why do bitches never learn?

>missed the cute girl at college that I was gonna ask out
>another weekend alone

at least I have my barbell and netflix

I went for a nap at 430 pm today and I just woke up legitimately thinking it was 630 am Saturday morning. So that feels pretty good that I didn't sleep away Friday night

>Finally over cold and can lift again
>Doing better in classes
>Possible scholarship in future
>Look noticeably better than I did a month ago
>Going to see my cat for first time in two months
>Going flying next week

Today is a good friday.

I just want a moderately cute, funny boy to give this to desu ):

Time to deadlift and me and a mate are doing some charity work tomorrow

>tfw you will never have a gf who will call you daddy as you make her cum

>spooky skeleton
>get on SS + GOMAD
>having more and more difficulty fitting into my 29 waist jeans

Just bought a 99 accord for my first car so I'm feeling pretty good

Today marks the one year anniversary of the masturbation injury that has led to daily testicular aches. Two doctor visits later and the best they could tell me was I have enlarged veins in my ballsack.

I don't have money to waste on more doctor visits so I have to contend with ball pain without having any means to lessen it.

"Happy Birthday, Daddy get ready to eat this cake ???? you eat me"

my autism is itching.

>been feeling bad for a while now
>can't stop thinking about what the future holds
>was prescribed antidepressant

I don't wanna take them brehs cause I don't wanna depend on them, I wanna get better on my own. But everyday gets harder and harder. Anybody have experience with meds?

>went to classes on Friday
>right after classes went to a baseball tailgate for my university tailgate
>hung out with all my friends and got really drunk
>came home, ate a big meal
>roommates are gone for the weekend, house to myself
>chilling out, watching sports

Life is good, will probably get up a little early and lift, then maybe eat some shrooms and trip balls.

>went to fwb's house
>not usually super horny but I enjoy fucking her, she's short and Asian so her pussy is crazy tight
>had just taken my ambien for the night
>got super horny and fucked her expertly
>came at the same time
What gives? I was so much more in the moment. Is it the anti-anxiety effect? How to achieve this natty?

???? = like

What is it? If SSRIs don't take because your dick might stop working. Mirtazapine is okay, only side effect I had on it was munchies.

it never gets better breh

I see "trying to meet new people" is not on that list.

>there is a party right afront of my dorm room door
>know most of people there
>they give me weed and alcohol for free
>still prefer to sit alone, listen to post rock and feel alone while not having strenght to go out and socialise

How do you make friends in college?

I'm kinda scared to take acid again desu. Been reading up on the stats, and it turns out a lot of stuff you get is an RC analogue like NBOMe.

The last few times I've taken it it's been more of a body high than head high also, which has been kinda disappointing. I think I'll just get shrooms next time I trip, which will hopefully be soon.

I think I'm gonna just shroom next time I wanna trip

gotta join the anime club and work your way up to top frat bro. climb the ladder, bruh.

>commute to university
>on senior year
>have only made one friend this whole time and he's not even a university student, i met him at a concert
>high school friends are drifting away

I have this right now, she's this cute latina girl and it's pretty incredible desu. Tried to get her to use papi instead of daddy but she wasn't down.

I just took up smoking because when you get nice and addicted and you step out to have one at 2am while it's raining, you will bump into someone else also smoking in the cold rain at 2am and become lifelong friends.

For real though, all you need to do is put yourself in situations where you can talk to other people. That's tough to do when all you do is slog to class and back without anything in the middle.

Take this guy for example Just eat at the dining hall sometimes and sit with anyone you have the remotest reason to sit with. I became good friends with a guy just because, internally I realized he was that DYEL from class that I sort of disliked, but I gave him a shot anyway. Turned out to be a total fucking bro.

Just gotta give other people a chance. You'll meet some assholes, but you have to get out there to meet the people you want to share your life with. No homo.

petite chick i been texting for a while to just told me i express negativity and self doubt, but im like joking about it most of the time and it bothers her, how do i even

Tell her that while you may have a slightly more cynical attitude than normal, you mostly just have a dark sense of humor and that she's too perceptive for her own good (This is how you say she's reading too deep into it and being a nosy cunt without making her mad.).

>gf broke up with me last week
>Went to her tuesday to try to win her back
>Said the problems we had weren't that big, that we could work through them
>She not only says no, but insults me. Says I'm not good enough for her, I'm mediorce for not wanting grad school, and I'm not taking the right path for my dream (I want to run for political office and I thought a military career post college would be a great thing for that.)
>All this coming from an MCAT flunkie with highly educated, unsuccessful parents.
>Tfw I still care for her but I'm not really broken up over losing her.
>tfw when I had a good workout today
>tfw when planning on getting qt at works number
>Tfw still successful in my classes and making gains in the gym.

Deep down, it still kinda hurts that she left, I really did love her. But fuck her, I'm going to work hard and achieve my goals. I don't need a bitch with a superiority complex and crazy parents in my life to do that.

Also, off question, if I look semi ok with a shirtless pic, should I use it for Tinder? I don't look great or anything but I don't look like a twink either.

Finally gonna have my testosterone levels checked, afraid it will confirm I'm a low T beta male.
What should it be for a young man?
Anyway as Friday feels go, I'm kinda tired of everything. Of everything going so wrong for such a long time, it's so damn tiring.

You win some, you lose some user. just move on. Girls are a numbers game anyway.

Lexapro

Stop fucking being negative. You may think your joking but deep down you mean it and people can see that retard

Keep the good work. You know you're doing it right.

>engineer here
>thinking about life and how it all changes next week
>Current situation
>Today was my last day at current company
>Make 60k a year
>Took another offer for 80k at another role and I'm starting next week
>Worried shit might go wrong and something will fuck up however, I usually do shit like this and be negative until I "find" myself in this new role
>On my way out, a guy in another dept saw me leaving early and walked up/stopped me and wanted to shake my hand and thank me for being there when they needed me. Can't believe I touched people this much in this role to be honest, some other people said the next two weeks will be tough since I'm the one who helps a lot of people, I think they are trying to be nice, however, me leaving is a good thing for the company and our dept

Can we get some positive feels up in this thread too?

>tfw trying to be more happy and positive person.
>Smile more to people
>Talk more to people
>Actually listen to people
>Peoples attitude towards me seems a hell of a lot more positive
>I'm generally more happy

Baby steps. We'll all make it

>broke up with the girl I was seeing for a several months because she told me she was still in love with her ex
>she immediately got back with her ex after that

Hurts senpai, but I dodged a bullet. First time I've ever felt used, which is weird.

Oh well, fuck her. She downgraded going back to him again. I had a quick peak through his facebook and it's creepy how similar we are. He's was in the military, so was I. We have a few items of clothing that are the same. Same haircut. Tattoos in the same locations.

Oh well, life goes on.

DID YOU FAGGETS GO TO THE GYM TODAY?!

Nah, watched season 2 of Love on Netflix all day. But I have the flu, so.

I know this'll get shit on cuz gay, but whatever.

>Be faggot
>Grow up in hardcore religious family
>Eventually come to terms, try to start dating
>Meet Alex, he's in same situation situation, religious family and all
>Start hanging out, nothing dirty, just spending time together
>Takes me on a hike, I'm fucking winded in seconds, he's fine. He's a big hiker and camper.
>Start going to gym a bit, don't want to make a fool of myself again.
>Keep seeing each other, our families don't know anything
>Fall pretty hard for him, first time anything nice has really happened to me
>Hanging out playing vidya at his house one Sunday
>His dad comes home early from church, "walks in" on us, even though we weren't doing anything
>Freaks out, I gtfo of the house
>Alex texts me that he's been forbidden to see me, his parents are going to make him try to date girls
>Texts stop
>Feelsbadman
>Months later, start dating someone else, try to move on but still kinda think about him.
>About six months into relationship I get an email from Alex out of the blue. Apologizes for having to cut me off, and hopes I'm doing well. My current bf sees it, so I just reply very distantly and vaguely like I'm over it.
>A year into this relationship, get cheated on, that relationship falls apart.
>Feelsbadman
>Hit gym
>Keep hiking, do pic related, one of the toughest hikes near my city.
>Remember Alex. Dunno where he is, he never kept social media.
>Type name into Google
>First result is an obituary.
>...
>He killed himself a year ago, a few months after his email.
>Visit grave a few days ago. I go a lot now. It has mountains etched onto it.
>Dig it out of the snow. Notice something tucked under it.
>Note from his parents. Feel guilty, but it's gotten wet and can read through envelope.
>His mother says she thinks of him every day.
>His father says "Life is so much colder and grayer" without him.
>Fuck. I'm so alone.
>Just live so I can go to gym and mountains.

I FUCKING DID. FUCK YEAH
I need to try to start more conversations with random people. How do you do it user?

Not him, but people just seem to think I'm annoying.

No, but I went yesterday

today is my rest day user

What is making you unhappy directly? Figure it out and try to fix it. If you're just sad for no reason you could have a mental illness. Lifting won't fix your problems that aren't related to lifting. Don't believe that lifting fixes everything.

Same here breh. 40 min drive to school and back. I don't mind not having friends, but kinda wish I had a qt to hang out with desu

I haven't had a girlfriend since high school. I'm 21 now. I work in a field with no women and take a class with no women. All of my friends are away at school.

How do I meet women? Do guys ever just go to bars by themselves to pick up chicks?

For me the easiest way to do it is if they're in a car or bike that I really like. Cars and bikes are my biggest passions so it's easy for me to go up to someone and talk about that than just go up to someone and be like 'nice weather huh?' or something.

Few examples
>be leaving gym
>guy in the car park is on a KTM 390 Duke
>Like those bikes
>Go up to him and just ask 'hey is that a 390?' (I knew it was but it's just a good conversation starter)
>he says yeah, I tell him I love those bikes, they're good when you do x, y and z to them blah blah blah
>we talk about bikes for a little while and then head off

Another time
>Pull into a car wash
>dude has an e39 M5 in the bay next to me
>I drive a e39 M5 too
>start up a conversation about how them
>compliment him on how clean his is and that I liked what he had done to it
>invites me to a cruise in a few weeks through the hills and to grab burgers with him and some of his friends

So yeah, common ground basically. Hope that helps a little. I'm still learning

Congratulations, especially if it was your first time.

Shit, SSRIs are a roll of the dice, for some people they're a lifesaver, others they just make things much, much worse. Have you thought about whether or not college was right for you?

Also,
>tfw shoulder is blown out
>still DYEL, only doing cardio
>others getting gains while I sit in the shadows

Hopefully this heals up quicker than it did last time.

It was their fault, and those fuckers act as if he just died "because of yes".

Shit, man, that's rough. I hope yo ucan find some solace soon.

Is this the essence of Veeky Forums?

Kys faggot

Someone else will come along eventually, assuming you keep inproving yourself.
Sorry for your loss, user.

>got decently cute petite girl from my group project in one of my classes snapchat on wednesday
>planned to ask her if she wanted to do something this week as it is spring break
>both our other group members leave we are both still seated almost as if she's waiting for me to ask her
>pussy out and don't say anything, don't even compliment the cool shoes she had on like I planned on
>didn't get a call back from either of the internship/job people I had called earlier in the day
>work 6 am tomorrow so plan to make some art tonight cuz I'm bored
>can't come up with anything cool
Well at least I got in a decent lift today and deadlifted 275 for 3 different sets of 8 reps. Also a cutie at the gym today came right by where I was deadlifting and stood right around where I was lifting we both locked eyes for a solid second and then I just walked away like an autist.

You have to reach out to get a gf. If you're nervous start with 3s and 4s then work up to 8s and 9s.

>tiring day at work, just got another 15 min
>want to go jogging but today's my rest day and I'm already still sore as hell from yesterday
>tfw feel so stressed when I take a rest day because I'm not working out

Feels weird man. I just look forward to this shit all day, so any day I don't go feels weird.

Thought I saw my cat today.

Remembered he was gone and my smile went away.

See you, space cowboy.

>I'm a fat fuck and I want to lose weight but lack the motivation
>I constantly think about working out, but never put it in action
>Stuck in a rut doing the same thing daily

Why do you hate yourself?

>all of my friends went military
>same squad or whatever
>hangout every day
>never call me
>all get gfs
>houses
>gi bill for college later

>be me
>20k debt
>3 years of college left
>bachelors degrees looked at like joke
>need 4 more years after to get MD
Im a fucking disgrace

The best thing about having no social life is that the gym is empty as fuck on Friday night.

Lucky, mines usually got the same amount of people 24/7

>Im a fucking disgrace

Don't be so defeatist. Guys I know who went into the military ended up kind of fucked in the head. You're also better off not getting a military wife who's in it for the benefits and stable income of a provider male. Keep your goal in mind, if you become a doctor you'll have the knowledge and ability to heal the sick. Most people have boring jobs that are not rewarding.

I know it's hard but keep in mind your trajectory.

>21
>Feel like I'm 80, mentally tired and bitter. I don't even have to work, just study and go to classes thrice a week but I still feel like shit everyday. Feel lonely even in a room full of people.

>went drinking last night
>hungover as shit this morning
>think I might not make it to gym today
>parents need me to do some yard work at their house, fuck
>finish yard and decide fuck it I'm going to work out
>it's Friday so gym is empty
>hit new PR on squat
>showered and gonna watch anime the rest of the night

Feels pretty good desu

The people who sell the idea of 16/8 intermittent fasting don't work nor go to college.

Today was supposed to be cardio day, boss called me in early and fucked up the schedule. Going to order a pizza tonight and play Zelda alone, maybe I'll just gain 200 pounds from this one day of fuck up.

(i'll be fine by Monday)

Don't worry user, it's normal that people with mental disorders end up killing themselves.

hell yeah senpai.
>work in lab at clinic
>still recovering from hernia repair surgery
>get home from long day at work
>lay down and watch motivating anime knowing i'm going to get back into it soon
>still happy because i got hernia pulling 495 for PR.
>gonna make it.

My condolences user. No one should have to go through something like that.
Remember him in your own way and keep moving forward.
My sister in-laws sister had a partner, really cool woman who got a terminal illness at like 25. Tore her apart for years but she's found someone else and everything is right in the world with her now.
It'll be tough but lean on your friends and family. They'll get you through it.

I'm just sad. I really don't like myself right now. My career right now is pretty awesome and I have to work my ass off, and I occasionally make bro friends.

But at the end of the day I look at myself in the mirror and I hate everything I see. I can also never see my family because of what I do for a living.

I'm an introverted, weird, awkward dude who might've bulked a bit too hard. I just want to feel anything but constant numbness and pain like I always have been.

I ordered some test e and it should be coming in soon. Hopefully I'll feel better and be able to cut fat and get big at the same time. Who knows?

I'm living in a normie lie. Pic related, me far right with glasses and douchey american flag shorts w/glasses.

I'm sorry dude

I mean it's shitty that your buddy killed himself but it was his choice. You shouldn't be sad over the fact that he offed himself. Just move on

Shit, the day of my friend's funeral (who was also gay and killed himself assuming because his parents were hardcore Christians) my buddies and I smoked cigars and shittalked about all the stupid shit he did. We all cried at the wake and that was that. We understood his choice and there's literally zero reason to feel sad about it because he's fucking gone

Get over your ego and find someone else.

Sure user
>need two letters of recommendation for this research program I really want to get into
>already have two, but decided a third would really boost my application
>decided to man the fuck up and ask my organic chemistry professor, someone who's graduated from Cal Tech and did post-doc at MIT.
>she agrees to do it
I-is this what networking feels like guys?