How you holding up Veeky Forums?

My day to day is so monotonic that I get bored so often that it began to feel like depression. Sleep eat workout eat study eat lurk sleep. When I go out whit friends and ask me what are doing user, I am like
>shit absolutely nothing

>graduated with civ engineer degree in canada
>applied to 30 places
>only 1 callback
>probably wont get the job

im just gunna end it all

I fell for the Veeky Forums are loners meme. In reality most of you have at least a social life. Fuck you, I thought at least here it's normal to be a social outcast. My entire youth was wasted here under the believe that it's ok to be a loner, that tons of people like me exist but you lied to me. Gotta get that social life going now. No clue how, though.

went on a 3 hours hike today, was at my goal of 1200cals for the day but decided to go to kfc with a friend, ate 3 chicken pieces and some mashed potaties, ended at like 1700

hike was brutal and i'm still at a deficit so it's ok

Why isn't it fucking obvious to everyone that society just doesn't really want us or care about us? We try so hard to be responsible and make our contributions, but it is never enough. Then we get treated as insane if we notice it and start feeling actual antisocial things as a result. "How dare you not like this!"

NEET UPRISING

GLOBAL SOCIALISM NOW

you could start by not being a faggot

6 weeks out of second natty comp ever. 186cm, 92kg at ~8% body fat with 4kg of weight to lose and not confident I can do it in time. Fiance is supportive and she says I'm looking lean and shit but I don't feel it. Is it mental?

you should start by being a faggot

the only reason I am not killing myself is Iron Maiden

youtube.com/watch?v=GoBok1xd93M

I am seeing them twice over the next 2 months. I am a hard core fan and they are the only thing I enjoy in this life.

Fine. Leave me alone

>exam season coming up
>winter won't go away
>uncertainty about future/behind my peers
>Remembering all the times my ex would shout at me during february and march, making me feel like shit during these months

At least lifting is going well?

Not sure how that works without social skills.

>8% body fat
>Is it mental?
Obviously.

I'm beyond frustrated with myself.

I used to be a 310lb dyel. Last year I started dieting, and now I'm down to 250lbs. I plateaued so I decided to join the gym. I walk five miles a day (to and from gym), do 30 min of cardio and lift. I've been getting stronger and I'm almost at 1 plate but for some reason my body is really tired and I haven't been making much progress on the weight loss.

I'm very worried I'm not going to make it bros. I've gone so far.

Tfw when no gf. Also no pb

...

Don't worry, we're all gonna make it bro.

>boohoo my landwhale gf that I ""dated"" for 2 weeks left me

piss off at least you know that you CAN get a gf, stop wallowing in your own self-pity and realize you could be a pathetic college kid that's never even kissed a girl, let alone been on a date in his whole life

i've eaten this week and the only thing i managed to lift was myself out of bed for the past few weeks. im a mess desu.

I ate like shit for 3 consecutive days and yesterday I hurt my leg running so I can't keep up the cardio

Also, last week I ordered a couple tubs of peanut butter, they should arrive today and I know I'm going to end up pigging out again

SEND HELP

*i've barely eaten this

recovering from my burnout last summer. completely hit a wall due to very bad eating habits and enormous stress in uni.
the next big step is to pick up weightlifting again, but not like a maniac as before, more easy and chill.

loneliness fucking sucks, but trusting another person is out of the question
good thing I don't own a gun 2 bee honest

Generally not bad but as ever women troubles.

Been seeing a lass for a year now and we always keep saying we aren't together and just like the sex. We pretty much are a couple anyway. She's definitely a keeper and I have made it known I'm interested long term. She's unsure.

Anyway, went out Saturday night to some shitty club with her friend who brought two new friends we haven't met. Ended up pulling one and current fuck got jealous.

Proper doing my nut in m8.

I'm okay I guess, trying to find a purpose in life. I work at costco and its slowly crushing my soul I need a change that makes me more money, considering learning a skilled trade.

Other than that im making great progress in the gym so that is nice.

We the best 2017.

School sucks tho.

Other than that we good, we good..

>a keeper
>a girl that agrees to casual sex

>tfw finally starting to think 'what the fuck did I ever see in her anyway?'

Anyone else know this feel? It literally feels like that song I can see clearly now the rain is gone.

I am complacent.

Feel like shit because of daylight savings so waking up feels even worse now. Felt like quitting this morning because it's back to classes and I just wanted to sleep through those too but I know I fucking can't and I'll regret quitting again.
I'm just so fucking tired I feel like I have no time and taking a week off from classes threw me back into 'just go neet bro' mode because of how good it was.

Tomorrow's the day I'm gonna start lifting!

I'M DOIN FUCKING GREAT OP.

look at all these pussy ass betas posting in this thread.

>Be me
>Be socially awkward
>Trying to pass my exams
>Fail every exam
>Cry myself to sleep every night while listening to ASMR

When does it end /fit?

Uhh, I am sitting at 140lb, shred skelly, and I now live with my grandma, I have only eaten fast food for the last 5 months because the kitchen is dirty, and I don't want to talk to her, she's a stroke victim and her speech is bad, I'm turning 24 this year, anxiety is at a 10, doing odd jobs to make ends meet, gf of 4 years is beginning to nag the fuck out of me for everything, good news is I still haven't gotten back into lifting, bad news is mass effect andeemeda is comming out soon, I'm going to pray i Catch a heart attack.

>unironically buying mass effect

Just prolongs my gym journey cause my brain wants to invest time into it, the irony is my laziness to gym but not to couch. Depression is eating at at my soul.

>keep telling myself everything will change when I move out
>nothing will change

I've noticed that cutting is surprisingly easy when you're poor and depressed.

>have insomnia
>get 4 hours of sleep
>start meditating
>also taking ambien , sleep drug
>getting 6 hours a night lately
>want 7 or 8
>remind self to be grateful

>pass user since 2012

off urself

Then at least buy Persona 5.

Are you me? Moving out in august.

I've been forced to watch that stupid show "Iron Fist" on Netflix with my sister and it just triggered feelings of wanting to be in a loving relationship because of the cliched standard romance with an asian qt.

Yes of course I'm white I'm just a fucking stereotype.

Rude?!

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Moved out 5 years ago, this is a 100% true. It's just worse, because now I don't have the glimmer of hope in that things will get better.

Hey lads, i'm pretty depressed and I could use a pep talk. Ive realized that im a huge fuck up that has been given amazing opportunities and squandered them. I went to an expensive private highschool but wasted it being a shut in and not being involved or making friends. Then I went to a top engineering school and my parents offered to pay for me to join a fraternity but I didnt and made friends with a bunch of losers and wasted my college years. Then I ended up joining a fraternity but it was a small one full of nerds and it barely changed things. Now I want to go to grad school but my grades are shit (im a junior with a 3.08 gpa). Literally the only thing going for me is that I have an amazing girlfriend, but I cant stop stressing/worrying that she'll leave me once she realizes how much of a loser I am (her family is rich and she has tons of friends and is way more social than me). Fuck lads I cant take it any more what do I do please help I want to end it

I'm sorry. Sometimes you just reach a point in life where it's too late to turn things around

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>Still thinking about her everyday, even though now we've been apart for longer than we were together
>ate like shit the last three weeks
>Can't commit to a cut because the slightest pressure makes me cave in.

Why am I so weak fit?

This kills the oneitis

Must be looking pretty cut, man

The Veeky Forums related problem I have is that my knee is a bit fucked up, probably due to bad form during swimming breaststrokes. Seeing a doctor in a week. Gonna start crawling instead. Gonna start some martial art once classes open again. Really hope my knee isn't too bad for that, it'd be a real blow.

>One of the biggest days of my life so far

New job starts in an hour

Sitting at home, watching the news

Trying to be a normie again and climb that corporate ladder

With the new schedule might have to hit the gym 5-6am and work at 8

Typical wage slave reporting in

>get of army
>come home
>get job
>guy from other store transfers over
>end up being best friends
>start college
>he gets 2nd job at nursing home
>he starts doing nursing school through his other employer
>quits our store
>we stay in touch pretty good
>dont hear from him for a few weeks
>"i got a DUI and was embarrassed"
>he goes to AA
>always happy, tellin me how good he feels all the time, the great people hes meeting
>falls off the face of the earth right before election
>search obituaries
>search public crime dockets
>inmate records
>right before christmas
>apply extreme autism one night and acquire his mothers address, her name, and look her up on facebook
>she calls me and tells me hes in rehab, self admitted
>tells me hes an alcoholic and hibitual liar, theres no nursing home yaddayadda ill find out from him fuck you
>call rehab place, and aftera few days they call me back to confirm they have him
>"put me on his drop off list so i can bring him some smokes"
>"sir, he said no because hes going to be released tomorrow, and he said hed call when he got home."
>3 months laters.....

Where are you Jon?

Only friend I had that me not to leave her, and that was the best decision I ever made.

Where the fuck did you go faggot?

Neck yourself you useless neet. The world owes you nothing doesn't want you and doesn't care about you.
You will achieve nothing in life with that pathetic numale attitude, no uprising, nothing, zero.
So either accept that you worth is dictated by your abilities or fucking die in your otaku apartment.

>I cant stop stressing/worrying
meditate
youtube.com/watch?v=GLjelIPg3ys
very short vid , please watch
youtube.com/watch?v=kaNO09cPS6c&spfreload=1
long vid , is good though

Stop eating you impulsive worthless piece of shit.

this. you might also want to search for jon-kabat-zinn.

>NEET UPRISING

neet, by definition, do not rise to anything
you are a failure so far
are you going to stay that way?

life is interesting
you are not

My lifts go up why cant my life?

I lost my job and have nothing going on. Thinking about starting a 6 day full body routine with AM and PM sessions.

context
"I've lost a ton" or "I'm stalled and going nowhere"
your frame of mind is your choice

You are so far from rock bottom and you want to end it you fucking retard. Evaluate your situation and come to the realization that it's so far from the end that it's impulsive and retarded to want to end it over such a trivial thing like that. Look at your life and I mean really look and come to the conclusion that men have achieved so much from poorer situations and realize that the only difference between them and you is their tenacity and willingness to continue on with life and achieve greatness.
"He who has a why can bare any how" Fucking remember this based quote from Nietzsche and if you still can't find a reason for living then you are a useless human been. Off yourself.

>considering learning a skilled trade
good option
look at career projection stuff, pick a growing one, and enjoy turning off work at 5 and doing good stuff all evening

>I don't have the glimmer of hope in that things will get better
boo hoo
fucking whiner

Nothing wrong with yellow fever my man. Asian women are God's gift to white men.

correct reply

I know this feel but I'd be content with family practice so I'm not worried

"He who has a why can bare any how"

deep. but what if i dont really have a "why"?

Pretty good. Customers have been flirting with me a lot more since my noob gains started showing. I can see why women are addicted to attention from beta orbiters.

get one or kys

Just living and lifting. Don't know what I'm doing in life

>falling for the (((university))) meme in two-thousand and seventeen

>tfw kissed a girl I like last night
>tfw might know tfw gf soon
>tfw no reaction images to go with this feel so just reversed one I had

Today I'm feeling pretty down. Working out is one of the only things that truly makes me happy right now and today was rest day. It's cool and strange at the same time how after 1.5 years of working out regularly I'm pretty damn addicted to the endorphin rush.

Lifting makes me depressed
I was perfectly happy after I stopped lifting for a few weeks then went back to depression + a mental breakdown a week into lifting again
The problem is I WANT to lift again, but I don't want to go back to the despair

how is that even possible. maybe your ancestors died lifting

you should start by calling others a faggot

you might not be getting enough calories or your not keeping your blood sugar up when you are being physical. Low blood sugar will make you feel sluggish and depressed

How the fuck do I get my needed calories? It feels like I need to jam food down my throat constantly.

Eat high density food, if you cant just swallow a few scoops of peanut butter you are never going to make it

finished my $27/hr internship now im back to making $10/hr

feel like KILLING MYSELF DESU SENPAI

Haven't eaten anything above 500-1000 calories in a week. Just got paid tonight and the first thing I did was go to McDonalds and buy 1100 calories worth of shit. I'm 6'1 and around 230-240 calories at the moment and I missed going to the gym today because of the insane amount of rain pouring down today.

I feel bad, but I'm just going to swap my monday session in on sunday at the end of this week, and not eat much else today which is technically the day after.

I haven't weighed myself in ages but last time I did I went from 255 to 245 and back up around 250 again, but I never weigh at the same time each day, so here's hoping when I weigh myself on wednesday that i've lost weight to get me down past 240 and into the 230's.

Cutting is amazingly easy when you're poor because you need to think about what you buy WAY more.

When I was earning $1000 a week (in Australia) I blew money on terrible food combinations and ate like a fucking pig. When I got let go because of head office fucking up with their ordering system and my department being out by hundreds of thousands of dollars, I suddenly found a new interest in watching what I eat and eating healthy.

>finally got the courage to lose my virginity
>Go to a qt asian hooker
>Fuck her for a while but cant cum
>She steals my first kiss and i accidentally went down on her

I'm fucked
What are the chances that i caught something?

Go to tests, get it over with

Can't get a job

I went out with some friends this week-end, even flirted with a girl. Yesterday I felt motivated to do something with my life

Today I'm back to depression and the only thing I feel like doing is lifting and sleeping but it's rest day so I'm shitposting in bed at 4pm

I might make it in lifts but I'll never make it in life and it scares me. I'm tired of being a burden for my parents at nearly 24 years of age