How ya holdin up, Veeky Forums ?
im not doing so hot. Kind of wasted another day because i slept through my morning class and feel really bummed out about the rest of my academia so i didnt do much at all today besides lay around
don't have anyone to talk to either since most of my friends are busy with their own thing and me and my gf broke up a couple months ago
i just feel so alone
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Damn dude, I know that feeling. Do you have a history of getting episodes of depression like this??
I occasionally get into slumps for weeks at a time where I spiral into a depressive mindset, but you just gotta power through.
Fuck your class this morning, who gives a shit you missed nothing you couldn't have googled in five minutes anyway. Go tomorrow and stop worrying and everything will work itself out in the end.
>Do you have a history of getting episodes of depression like this??
yes, definitely. Yesterday was totally fine, i was out and about being productive. Went to the gym, had a great workout, went on a nice long bike ride, etc. Best day ive had in a while
today i just had no motivation to do anything and stayed inside the whole day, laying around and browsing the internet
Aint nothing wrong with a day full of shit posting as long as you get all your shit done each week.
Shit sucks, I've found that half of the time that I'm stuck in pit of feels I'm also extremely bored. Are you playing any vidya recently?
Me? It's really ups and downs this semester at uni, but right now not great. I have had so many setbacks this year and always got out of them mentally. But now I'm home and out AGAIN for 4 weeks already because of a herniated disc. Morphine is giving me so many symptoms and depression I can't take it some days and break down. Then I got mad at this chick I've been dating recently for a quite small reason and freaked out and I don't think she understands my meds are causing the mood swings, so I don't know if I lost her because of that.
Only thing that's going for me is that I managed to work from home for uni and I'll still be passing my year and graduating in late june.
i guess overall im being productive, the stuff i like doing is great and all my workouts are staying on track, diet 90% in check, whatever. today just hit me like a cinderblock though
and yeah, ive been playing a bit here and there but i get the same bored feeling you mentioned. I'll sit down to do something on netflix or vidya and within 20 minutes or so i dont want anything else to do with it
have you explained to her that its the medication? surely she would understand
so i have been sort of seeing this girl, when deep down I know i'm not ready for any sort of relationship, still working on myself etc.
today i sucked it up and told her that I wasn't keen on anything serious, lest I lead her on, just trying to do the right thing
and she kind of spun it as her thinking we were 'Just friends' and 'may have been sending the wrong message'.
which is completely fine by me, it just irks me that she kind of played it off as me being weird and made it awkward instead of saying "yeah, that's cool i understand"
women, breh. I just don't know.
Congrats dude! What are you majoring in?
That last part rings so god damn true most of the time. 90% of shit out there is so god damn boring, although I have been enjoying Playerunknowns Battleground a lot.
Sounds like a defense mechanism, wouldn't take it too personally but maybe she was just shocked and tried play it off.
My penis is a decent size but I want a monster cock, I feel I'm mentally ill probably. I fap to size different porn where small girls get destroyed.
I've started jelqing, hopefully I don't break my dick.
that looks really fun but i just recently had to downgrade my computer so i doubt i could play it.
I've been bouncing between Overwatch and Yakuza lately, but everything i usually enjoy is kind of losing it's luster.
There's this underlying feeling of job + school stress that doesn't allow me to just relax and have fun because i can't stop thinking that there's other stuff i should be doing instead. but when i sit down and figure out what/if that "other stuff" should be, i have no motivation (or sometimes no money) to actually take care of it
I told her I was anxious and not feeling myself because of the medicine, and when i freaked out i got angry because she kept sending mixed signals and I don't know where I stand with her. She called me the next day which wasn't too bad. But she said she doesn't know how she feels about me now because she doesn't know if she wants a relationship and drama that comes with it, and said she has to think about it, so I left her alone since the call, not sure if I should talk to her again or just wait and see if she responds by herself(probably better). I feel like she thinks im pressuring her into a relationship which wasnt really my intention but because the meds made me depressed it all came out wrong. I dont get her though, we already sleep together and met parents etc but she doesnt want to call it a relationship...
It sucks but if she leaves me over this I guess she didnt like me that much in the first place. I only had one ex before but when we started dating she didnt have that many doubts... idk brehs
Thanks man. Im still an undergrad doing an international bachelors degree in business economics, and next year I will be doing my masters degree in IT management, which I already got selected for. Pretty excited cause I got a job lined up already in IT after that through family contacts.
>It sucks but if she leaves me over this I guess she didnt like me that much in the first place
that is never a fun realization to come to terms with. I hope things work out well for you in that, man. The only thing you really can do is wait for her to decide what she wants
I enjoy Overwatch but that game loses a lot of replayability for me, its similiar to DOTA2 where I want to play and win but im forced into roles that are boring to play, or a lot of fault is put on you even if you played well.
Do you like RPG games? Witcher 3 + DLC can soak up a lot of hours, I think the main story alone is ~30 hours.
What's so important that its constantly hanging a cloud over you friend?
That sounds pretty dope, a lot of schooling but from what it sounds like you're gonna be walking out of school straight into a nicely paid job. I'm craving the start of a career, but more years of school until then :/
Hey thanks man. And thanks for listening, it already is nice to write down my thoughts a bit and having someone listen. I hope it works out too. I can't really say much about it now so I guess I'll just hope for the best and leave her to her thoughts.
Don't worry about it, before you know it you'll be where I'm at already. Uni has flown by for me desu. I only wish I would have been a bit more socially active in my time at uni, then it might have been a bit more fun. Try to enjoy the time in school while you still can, and just make sure you pass all your exams (sometimes it may feel hard, but believe me, with enough work anyone can do it). You don't want to end up going further in debt and wasting more time by flunking a semester. No matter how hard it gets in your personal life, try to keep up with work or you'll feel even worse. Good luck man, any idea what you wanna major in?
I've got Witcher, yeah, i should probably put it back into rotation honestly. I had fun with it while i was playing it
>What's so important that its constantly hanging a cloud over you friend?
only 1 out of the 4 classes im taking this semester is still interesting this late into the session, and so the other 3 are a slog. I've all but dropped out of 1 of them (the morning one) and i have to force myself to care about the remaining 2.
I was going to get all of my transfer application (CC to Uni) stuff taken care of this week but my last paycheck pretty much all went straight to bills and a car payment and other shit that i have to pay for so now it just feels like im wasting more time because i can't put any money towards sending the application in for another week or so.
I'm still at home with my parents because the CC im at is too close to home to justify moving out, and im worried that if i have to spend another year here due to the transfer not being accepted or something terrible that these feelings are only going to get worse.
it's a lot
For the time being, Software Engineering. Enjoying all my programming courses, and solving the puzzles. My problem right now comes in lack of creativity or drive to start projects to help me learn more about software dev. Also the math sucks, I had to withdraw from my morning math class due to a really shitty teacher. Was planning on transfering to a Uni after the upcoming summer semester but withdrawing from that class, I realized I probably won't get enough credit hours. Shit happens, but at least I'll finish my Associates cheap.
Ah, fuck dude. Do you even realize how little time is left in the semester? You got that part easy as fuck. As long as you get all your Uni transfer stuff taken care of before the dead lines, there is no rush. Your bills are much more important.
I can't motivate myself to do my school work, I think I've been overtraining for gym as an outlet for stress lately and my body is suffering because of it.
All i can do is just power through the classes that are still worth it and then getting my transfer stuff taken care of ASAP.
It's just kind of compounded because all of my friends are off at Uni already and im still stuck at home and don't really have anyone to talk to IRL, no one to share my hobbies and such with besides anons on here. I feel like im even growing away from my family because i am just so ready to get the hell out of here and live on my own.
Hey man, I'm always free to talk, well, almost always free. Can't provide the best advice at times but I will listen. Send me a friend request on steam
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we can play some vidya sometime, fuck irl people.
As for your home shit, I know that feel. Even the smallest amount of annoyance at home can feel like an avalanche. Want to cook something but some fuckhead left the kitchen dirty so you have to clean their mess before you can cook, shit is so much better when you only have yourself to blame for a mess.
You'll survive, I believe in you :D
Hey, thanks for your time and your advice. Like i said today just kind of blind sided me so im glad there was ultimately someone to talk to here. im not super active on steam but ill keep your info around.