Saturday Night Veeky Forums Feels

I broke up with my ex yesterday, user. It wasn't fun - we had only been dating a few months but she was in love with me and I just wasn't feeling it for her. Sucked to do, but I know it was for the better - I still feel like the worst person on earth though, desu.

Gym was good though, thanks for asking. I did legs and had Chinese food for dinner.

How was your day, OP?

5'8, I was way too heavy for my height.

Pretty fun workout today. Just did body weight stuff out at the park. Got a mad forearm pump from upside down dips, checked up on groundhog bro as he ate some grass. Then I went clothes shopping. Felt like I looked pretty big today, not sure why but I feel like I've ballooned up all of a sudden. Shopping for clothes is nice because you get to flex in the mirrors. Watching unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt right now and had a great dinner of khichdi on corn tortillas with apples, watercress, thokku pickle and sauerkraut. Sounds weird but tasted great

+1 for Bill Burr quote, that guy has some decent stuff to say.

give it time man, if you're not feeling that spark then there is nothing to be guilty about. better to be up front and break it off rather than dragging her along though.

chinese food sounds fucking great right now, haven't had it in a while.

cheers!!

gotcha, so whats the plan now user?

>Back in hometown for the summer
>Start running into old oneitis from highschool all the time at the gym
>She's still beautiful
>I recently escaped skelly mode, but am still pretty dyel
>She now smiles and says hi to me every time I see her there, not sure if she's mirin or just being nice

What do I do brehs? Do I make a move? I don't even know what to say to her anymore, we go to different schools hours away from eachother now.

Haven't been on my diet or running these path couple months. I lost my motivation after I lost my phone that kept track of everything. Im a poor fag neet so it took a while to get a new phone. Idk I've been one to pick up things only to drop them. I feel the creeping depression coming back at full force. I've been in bed getting comfort from watching youtube vids about comedy, philosophy, and video essays from pretentious film snobs. Also porn. The times I do leave my room and have to socialize I see women and my sexual desires increase a lot where used to I was pretty tame

Well it happened a little faster than I thought it would (I didn't actually start until January) so I'm thinking of gaining muscle at this point.

Its weird. The main reason I started to lose more weight because at my old job I randomly lost 20 pounds without realizing it. So I figured, "why stop there?" and continued. Then, out of nowhere, (last week actually) my arms are all veiny and have muscle. So I guess that's my next step.

yeah man you'd look great by about 175ish with lean muscle!

good on you man, keep up the positive outlook and push yourself hard. i started last year at 6'3 at 178lb of a skinny body but not much muscle except for legs because i cycle. now at 198lb at about 13 - 14% bf id guess. biggest thing i realized is that above all its about consistency and diet once you find the program that works for you.

I just feel like shit. Going out with friends makes me feel like shit because I simply dont have fun, but staying alone at home friday/saturday makes me suicidal as fuck. Anxiety and depression are reaching record high and I still hate my piece of shit ex that cheated on me from the start but will never forgive her even though im dying for somebody to love.
Reaching critical levels of bad feels

Possibly, don't know how much I'm going to gain just yet. I know I'm going to focus abs and arms first though. But thanks man! Good work on you too!

I'm sorry that happen but Goddamn where there no flags at all? Hindsight is 20/20 but man there had to have been something

this.

Life is a nightmare user, and there is no waking up.

Played tennis today, and then going ice skating tomorrow with a few buddies. Still in turbo skinnyfat mode, but life seems ok anons.

There were tons of red flags but I was just stupidly in love since it was my first gf and everything. One time I didnt sleep the whole night and picked her up at 7 am from partying with some friends (guy friend had a birthday) where she waited with a "friend" but didnt introduce me nor kiss me or anything. just quickly got into the car... guy was probably still there because I got sooner than I told her. but I thought who would cheat like that and assured myself he was a friend. when I remember that night... jesus christ

Woke up earlier than usual today, and I still didn't really do anything productive, desu.

The anniversary of the fall of Constantinople is this coming Monday which is quite depressing. I'll probably burn and deficate on a Koran in Constantine's honor.

I made a few follow up calls, and applied to a couple of jobs.

Saturday and Sunday are my off days, and I think my gym might be closed for memorial day, so I probably won't lift till Tuesday.

My parents are out off town, and wont be back until Monday, so I have the entire house to myself which is nice.

I'm deciding whether or not I should invite this tinder whore I matched with over to my house tommorow. She told me she just wants to hangout and chill, so I'm assuming she wants to have sex, but I'm pretty fucking autistic, and the thought of her getting pregnant makes me nauseous.

I dont know man, why does it have to be like that? nothing seems to change

If I have a cuck fetish and a small penis humiliation fetish, chances are there's a girl who gets off to cheating on me and telling me my penis is to small for her. Am I right or wrong in this assumption?

God damn it man. I figure there had to be some mystery but nope. I just feel like your reassuring my biased towards dude friends and chicks.

Workout was good; had to be bodyweight because I'm with my parents for a two weeks. No matter how much I work out, I'm still emotionally crippled by a sheltered upbringing and the resulting shyness. Working out is what keeps the feels away for the most part.

Hopefully, being a fit loser will make my shyness "cute" rather than disgusting. However, it's hard to get out there romantically when you're starting from nothing at 21 and most people have been fucking since high school.

Could be like me and had multiple opportunities to fuck and chose not because of insecurities of body that continue to today.

Leading tarawih again tonight. First day of Ramadan was ok.

Lost like 1 lb of lean mass from fasting reeeeeeeeeeee

Any good full body stretching routines you could link me?

Yeah, nudes before the first date, getting fingered in a bar on the first date and for a couple of hours in the car. she telling me she loves me after 2 weeks. she completely lied about her whole life to me and told me she had 3 guys and a threesome that she regrets because she was drunk and they manipulated her. turns out she lost her virginity on tinder in some dudes car and arranged the thressome over tinder. her friend told me that before that she pretty much sucked anyone that gave her some attention and got caught by a teacher once on a trip blowing a random dude.
first girl I kissed and everything and turns out like this, almost made me kill myself. the worst thing is i still feel for her after everything, makes me question my sanity.
but yeah, guy friends imo is a huge red flag. seen it before

search for limber 11, pretty good one

and simple six for upper

Ex got back in touch with me this week, we talked like old times, felt nice. Also she mentioned she moved in with the guy she left me for; that didn't feel as nice.

I wanna tell her to just fuck off and stop periodically "checking in" on me every couple of months, but I can't quite bring myself to do it yet.

Good news is that the emotional distress is really supressing my appetite and helping with my cut. I've been staying well under my calorie limits with no problem.

why do you let her do that? I dont understand how you can get disrespected like that in exchange for some good memories and nostalgic feelings. please dont let her do that

jesus fucking christ user the i love you after two weeks should have been plenty of heads up

oh well, live and learn. fucking learn from this lol.

Part of my problem is high standards desu, which I would say stems from never wanting to feel as embarrassed as I did in HS when I asked out a girl who was noticeably overweight (made worse by being auschwitz-mode back then) to prom. It seemed like everyone else was with a girl at a normal weight who was willing to grind on them. I learned that personality can't make up for a lack of physical attraction, and I never want to feel like such a loser again.

oh dont worry, I have. it was like a fucking crash course in crazy, only that it made me a bit broken. well, at least I got laid for the first time lol. have a good night bro

you'll find someone of quality in time. cheers man, have a quiet night

Any anons got a cure for bacne? ive been struggling with it for ages and its really starting to the dent the self-confidence

i just turned 21, it's 19 in canada and it seems so weird for the age to be 21 in the states to drink it seems so old

Realized nobody gives a fuck about me.
Everything I do makes me even more depressed, I really don't care about gym anymore. Used to love my computer science degree but now everything related to that feels like a chore.
I wish I could die and nobody notice my dead.

I mean aside from all the normal reasons (residual feelings, abandonment issues, loneliness, etc), I also feel like if I just tell her off, it's kind of like she wins, you know? It's like admitting she got to me, that I can't handle it.

She always seems to be on the moral high ground, yet always finds some subtle way to twist the knife where it's like if you get offended or hurt by what she does, it's because you were projecting your own evil reasonings onto her faultless actions.

Like I am fully aware this is completely and obviously insane, but she's got me completely roped into it

I had a great day yesterday at the beach and it ended with my current bae falling asleep on my shoulder on the ride home, it was so cute. But today she's really slow to reply to my texts and isnt snapping as frequently. Its probably nothing but i just want things to work out.

perhaps stop being part of the rat race that she organized then you wouldn't have to prove anything to anybody but yourself.

she only wins in your mind because you put her ass in a position in which she can do so. cut her off like a cancerous tumor..

Feeling lonely and haven't been working out, trying to get out of a slump right now.

The urge to text ex is rising. Please help.

Delete her number and never look back. It's the only way. If she couldn't stay the first time, what makes you think she will be better this time?

>leaving heartbreak behind

21 doesn't mean shit unless you have mad strict parents.

I've been drinking since I was 15, started with a few beers with mom and dad

find discipline and make that shit into a habit, motivation only goes so far.

May delete her number from my phone lads. She acts enthusiastic about going out and then she wont text back for weeks, maybe even months. I'm tired of the bullshit and realized I have a lot more going for me. Thanks Veeky Forums

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>How was your workout today?
rest day

>feels
No gf, still small, trying to quit porn but can't. Tomorrow ill try to quit again. Otherwise I feel good about my writing, really helps to clear my mind and organize my thoughts. (it sucks, but nobody will ever read it anyways.)

>Got any plans for tonight?
Decided to set up a sleep schedule, go to bed at 11 pm wake up at 8 am.

>Tomorrow?
Water my garden, and go to the shooting range to test out my new bakelite magazine. Other than that Ill probably write a few more pages and watch zulu.

Sounds cozy user

Thanks guys, I really need a kick in the ass. It's hard, finding people that'll keep your head above the water. Thanks again.

>How was your workout today?
Well the gym I went to was closed because the memorial week festival.

>Got any feels off your chest?
I'm 24 and I have no idea what to do with my life. I've changed my major 3 times now and I still can't happiness. I dropped out of university this semester because I was doing poorly. My mom wants me to go back to community college take take some course there so it will be easier for me. I really don't like school, but I can't get a good job without a degree. I can't even get a simple desk job. I want to leave my job as a bartender/server. The customers are all turning into dicks and all my co workers are high school assholes. I thought about getting a cert in IT but thats really not working out for me anymore.

I'm also doing no fap and its killing me. and not having a gf ever is hurting because everyone I went to high school with is getting married.

sorry for the blog

>Got any plans for tonight? Tomorrow?
tonight I'll just shit post on here for a while and tomorrow I'll e back at the hellish work place.

only tip I can give, personally, is to never stop trying. I still get urges and it's been a couple months, but you have to tell yourself no even if your dick wants it. You'll feel better in the end because of it user. My vitality and my overall outlook is better than ever now that I'm off

>everyone I went to high school with is getting married.

do not let that upset you. half those marriages will end in bitter divorce

>getting married at 23-24 years old

KEK

Hammering back endless whiskies watching anime. Lonely af thinking of all the opportunities with good women I've passed up.

I'm back in the place I was when I made all those wojak memes and I hate myself for it.

oh shit are you me?

I feel sorry for your shallow self.

>GTA Online and feeling bad for myself
That shit's my jam senpai, except I'm drinking the whole time

The workout was good 135×5ohp and 295 × 3 deadlift (im 170 lbs)

Im so hard into the feels my god. I went out tonight trying to woo over a literal 4/10 i met on tinder and had talked to her for basically 3 weeks. This girl played it off like she was total hot shit and i just realized that i hate women. I hate what they have become. Egotistical brats who think the world owes them. The worst part are these beta faggots helping to fulfill their self-serving ego

My bulged disc will never heal. I give up.

>How was your workout today?
Extra bench work, shits hard man

>Got any feels to get off your chest?
I live alone and don't have many friends but overall i feel pretty good atm. My pet rabbit is sick though so that sucks.

>Got any plans for tonight? Tomorrow?
Cook up some pasta to eat for the week then might watch a movie and go to bed

I wish I were a normal person without the complexes I seem to have desu

jk its all good

Say hi back, ask her if shes free to meet up that night for a drink. If she says no oh well play it off like it's no biggie and go on your way.

Worked on back and bis but was hindered by an ongoing shoulder problem possibly dislocated a few months back but never had the time to get it checked out.

Friends went to the beach without sending me an invite but will probably see them tomorrow anyway where they will be like "Oh sorry user we completely forgot!!" Finishing up my first few shots of vodka to numb the pain. At least I always have you bros.

Well maybe they knew you were a sad sack. I used to be the same as you. Don't know why they liked me enough to hang with em. After saying no a bunch of times they decided not to invite me to places most of the time

It's okay user, we all go through a soul searching phase in our lives. Honestly the best advice I can give you is to just try things out. Try a few hobbies and maybe even a few jobs if you can and see what you like and don't like. Maybe meet some new people that are interested in things you are interested in.

Meditation is a good thing to try out. Just sit around and see what thoughts pass through your head. Modern life is full of business and trying to do as much as possible for as long as you can. Sometimes stepping back and taking a break is the best thing you can do, especially mentally.

I know you start feeling the pressure to do something with your life and you feel like 24 is old but it's honestly not. I've noticed that this generation, including me, is much more slow moving than others. It seems like it's taking us awhile to grow and blossom into the people we are meant to be. I don't think there's anything wrong with that, it's just how it seems to be. Just remember that some people didn't figure out their lives until they were 50 or even older. You still have so much time to figure things out and develop yourself.

>Realized nobody gives a fuck about me
Unfortunately that is a very hard truth to come to grips with. I think it really hurts more than thinking that everyone hates you and what you do. Most people are quite self absorbed and care more about themselves nowadays.

>Everything I do makes me even more depressed
How come?

>I wish I could die and nobody notice my dead.
I don't think that's true. Sometimes I struggle with the thought that if I disappeared no one would notice and the world would carry on as usual. It's partially true that the world won't stop with your death, people will notice. The sad part is that they won't appreciate your and tell you while you're alive how much they care about you because they think you'll be around for a long time. Yet when you're gone it really hits them how much they will miss you.

I agree, i listen to this every morning and i can honestly say that i feel better than i used to.

Little things just don't seem to get to me as much when meditation is part of my daily routine.

youtube.com/watch?v=CN-_zzHpcdM

But user, they were my church friends. We were supposed to be brothers and sisters in Christ and I thought everything was going so well... I don't even say no to their invites too

work overnights on weekdays and I have tonight off. Gonna go train shoulders once the gym opens. Other than that I almost ate a whole tray of brownies:(

Is this body achievable natty and without nignog genetics?

Fug, wanted to post this in QTDDTOT. My mistake.

How do you drink your Jack Daniels OP? Scotchfag here - neet with water for me

what do you have against milk you piece of shit

>off days
Never gonna make it

>How was your workout today?
Went well, leg day.

>Got any feels to get off your chest?
Managed to clean up my room.
Wanted to try no fap however I ended up edging for about an hour then managed to not let myself cum. I watch a lot of porn and jerk off like two times a day, more in weekends. On top of this I had a sex dream on Friday and remember it quite well so I imagine that I may hit a wet dream fairly quickly if can do no-fap.
Also no gf.

>Got any plans for tonight? Tomorrow?
Just working.

Also feel like you are me.
I'm 25 and went through about 3 different college majors. I never did graduate but managed to get employment. Now I'm stuck at a job (IT Support) and want to move onto something else, but I'm worried about the job market as I have no qualification.

>How come?
I simply feel I haven't done anything relevant or important with my life. My parents were poor as fuck but they fought whole life to be where they are today. Compared to them, despiste I have a much better education and knowledge I still feel somewhat not worthy, since I always had what I wanted.
I used to love my CS degree and gym but since last year I simply don't have the motivation to do anything, despite I still like these things. nothing make me happy as before.