How is Veeky Forums holding up?

You saw the collateral beauty my friend

>it's an "user lies around all day thinking about her oneitis and masturbating" episode

mind went fuckery over 2 years ago
4 hours sleep each night
feel like undead
started meditating
feel better , sleep well
months go by
stop meditating a week ago
sleep deteriorates to 6 hours
back to daily meditations

do you also look "30" ? cause it's not really about your actual age more about how old you look and feel

Hate myself real bad and prolly gonna kms very soon.

Lifting is going well though

In WW 3 no draft. Just fire from the sky and quick death if you are lucky, or slow death from starvation, radiation or disease if unlucky.

WTF?

Depends, if I shave clean I probably look a lot younger than 30.

>tfw too afraid to even open an email
what method should I use for my suicide, Veeky Forums?

Me too. Deserve it though.

I can't trust the girl I love.
I always imagine her getting slammed.

It's probably not true... but it might be

im in non meme depression for like 5 months

Every living person deserves to be heard out. Being lonely is the worst fucking torture there is. Every time I see an old person, someone who has nobody in their life because all their relatives are dead etc., it breaks my heart. Fucking mice and men....

Fuck I hate when that happens

why bro
tell me

badly
not progressing anything at drawing
still haven't got around to joining piano lessons
keep procrastinating on shit i should do and already bombed my engineering degree with just one subject left. pretty sure i've fucked my future almost beyond recognition

lifts are doing well at least, and so much shit in my mind keeps me from the fact i still haven't had intimate contact with a woman in 25 years of living

Post meditation routine

...

Jesus on a stick, user. Are you LITERALLY me?

Your post gave me goosebumps. I just went through a really similar experience.

Six months ago I got a job offer to work in the UK. To get to that point took around 800 job applications. This is the opportunity of a lifetime as they can help me with my visa.

In either case, I'm just tired as hell of waiting, it's been almost 6 months of pointless bureaucracy and I don't feel all that closer. All my days are starting to feel like Groundhog day. Fortunately I'm writing a book, and working on it has kept me sane over the last year. Almost done, I'm already 105k words in

Stay strong brodies cheer up
I can talk with you if you feel lonesome

*horribly

good post rite here

pretty good.
dropped 10kgs in the last 3 months, lifts have not increased by a lot, but haven't dropped either.
slow and steady improvement.
3 more months of cutting and i'll probably look human for the first time in my life.

I have a date mini golfing in abut an hour with a girl I met last weekend. Still can't really lift because of spine surgery from April but life is pretty chill

I don't know this feel. But I will support you anyway brother. Lift heavy, work harder and you'll meet the right girl. She's out there someone man, more perfect than you can ever imagine, she won't even compare with the others. And she's only compatible with you

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>tfw you can't relate to this pain because you have never loved anybody
could be worse... right?

>met a girl on Tinder
really that's the mistake, expecting anything serious

it was, I have success with girls but tinder never worked out for me so.

>getting depressed because you are an adult kissless virgin

do you even feel bro? that's baby-tier feel. I'd know because I also know that feel too. If that is what depresses you the most then you have it pretty good in the depression department tbhwyf

I disagree, girls on Tinder are just girls, people who feel lonely, some are looking for someone to fuck them, others hope to find something serious there. It's just a platform for cutting corners, making it easier to meet people.

>not preparing to survive WW3 in advance

Are you seriously telling me that you don't do this?

>tfw objectively small dick

Not even memeing, you have no idea how socially and emotionally crippling this.

> 1 Chance at life
> Below avg penis
> 35 y/o Virgin

what values are that?

Pretty good for once

I have my first job interview tomorrow so I'm pretty anxious, but being a neet is hurting (stopping, really) my gains and I never meet anyone new. Plus I'll stop being a burden for my parents and I'll be able to afford clothes and shit

I really don't want to mess up though, my roommate helped me get it so I don't want to slow the team down. It's McDonald's though, I guess it's not rocket science even for a dumb fuck

>truly utterly madly deeply in love with qt I spend 7 hours a day sat next to at work
>spending time with her at weekend but she's palmed off spending a whole night out together to spend time with someone else at work
At least I'm getting to the gym right bros?

That's incredibly unlikely, because of this:

tantalusreborn.com/2016/04/07/tinder-bender/

As I see it, I deserve to be lonely because I'm lonely. If I was a normal person I'd have a girlfriend and anything more than superficial friends. But I don't and that's no one else's fault but mine. I deserve the pain because I could fix it somehow probably yet I don't. Worthless people like me don't deserve better.

Loose the oneitis, save yourself trouble and hurt

I'm only 18 i i feel like i'm failing at life

Gimme a tldr, looks like bullshit

>implying I actually want to live
>especially in a post-nuclear world

You are like little baby

25 years old, 2 years of """job experience""" (shitty internships), zero achievements, zero experiences, zero gfs, zero interests, zero skills

Same. I'm a fuck up who doesn't deserve a girl's affection.

I hate myself because I'm an ungrateful, weak, useless piece of human trash.

except when lifting pretty good at that

Well you're just talking nonsense bro. There is no such thing as "a normal person", everybody is different. For some socializing is easy, for others it's not. But in the end we're all just those thoughts trapped in our heads, it's in your power to do whatever you want. Don't feel sorry for yourself, just try your best, work hard to achieve what you want.

I don't know your story, but I know me and you are not that different. Neither is anyone else. So it's just up to you to force yourself to connect to others.

I actually met my current gf of 2 years on tinder and we are still going strong, barely ever have any fights, sex all the time and a lot of the same interests, so it can work out but I guess rarely.

Exactly. I refuse to be a robot and blame others. Only pride I have is that I refuse to tell excuses.

If it isn't easy for me then I'm objectively a defective person. If I don't fix it I'm objectively a weak person. Both fits me. Thus I deserve it.

Sick so I had to skip gym today. Fuck this shit. How do I boost my immune system?

>missed the gym for 3 days

>Finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel of my weight-loss journey
>Getting mires from grills
>Had qts out of my league making obvious moves on me while out partying
>Remember I'm a 2 pump chump and no amount of lifting is going to change that so I turn them down and go home alone every time
>mfw

boy just go for it

Fucking Pepe Silva

Bro are you me? I flaked on both chances to lose my virginity because my dick has a fucking birth defect and I'm pretty sure any girl would gag if she saw it.

>remember I'm a kissless virgin and it gets under my skin for some reason
Why does it get under your skin, user? Is it the loneliness, or the virgin status?
Maybe it's deeper than that and you think you've missed a boat somewhere all the way, and because of that you don't feel up to the standards of your peers?

Summer before grad school. Haven't made lasting relationships or got laid at uni in the past four years. Looking forward to more of the same because i didn't feel i had any marketable skills after 4 years of """education""""
No friends or gf smothers is smothering my motivation and will to live especially in summertime. lifts are keeping me afloat

Are they part of your social circle? If not two pump them and leave, women exist for you, not the other way around. Unless you 100%think she is wife mode, keep her as an object and nothing more in your mind.

Been sick for like a month. Thought I was getting better but now my sinuses are filling up again.

Not OP, but all of the above.

>measured bf to 20%, not that far away, hopeful

what website is this?

I know m8 but it's so fucking hard spending a third of your life with someone and not telling them how you feel

I'm feeling a bit discouraged.

I finally started hitting the gym to gain muscle and lose fat('Manlet @ 180lbs) and I just noticed after two weeks my lower abs have gained nearly symmetrical stretch marks.

I've done manual labor all my life and I'm pretty stocky, I just wanted that tone and definition so I started lifting weights and doing some small cardio, just reading the sticky stuff, have lost five pounds in two weeks and I feel better mentally and physically, but..

Today I noticed I have stretch marks over my previously unblemished belly. Feels fckinf horrible because I was working out to get a better body, not scar this one permanently.

Anyone have a similar problem? Got advice? This "result" makes me not want to work out..

Got this whole "if you can't do it right, don't do it at all" thing going on since I was a wee lad, not sure where it comes from.

I'm sure you're making it out to be worse than it really is, user. What kind of defect?

Got massive stretch marks on my left armpit stretching out onto my left pec from gaining about 30 lbs of muscle in 3 months, almost entirely on my arms and chest.

Gonna have to see about laser treatment. Can't ruin these gains man.

So it's self interest(loneliness) disguised as a failed attempt to become an ideal and respectable person(social interest).
What if these ideas are just misconceptions made during early childhood, like true love, or believing everyone is equal?

Make money. Forget everything else. With money you can make anything happen. Save money, and with enough of it you can retire early, hop on hgh, and live a shortened, but infinitely more rewarding later half of life.

I know that feel bro. Coconut oil slows their development, and lasers are supposed to help if they're still red. Not sure how much the cosmetic laser surgery costs though.

I've never kissed someone either and feel really lonely.
2 suicide attempts on my record...

I've got stretch marks but they don't bother me at all. I like to think of them as proof of effort. That said, if they're still fresh then I think there are some remedies out there that'll help get rid of them. Google it a bit.

I had to break up with my girlfriend because my ex-FWB told me she didn't go through with the abortion and kept the pregnancy from me. FWB conceived before my ex gf and I started dating, now I have a son on the way in 4 months. I held her last night, while she was crying, and this morning because its going to be the last time. Typing this is sending chills through my body.

My ex-FWB is a piece of shit. Kept the pregnancy from me, tells me she's been dating a guy since March whos also a piece of shit, and shes still smoking. Fuck this guys. I'm so fucking scared to be a father to a son with a god awful mother. I'm only fucking 21 and I'm losing my mind.

>everything is going great with my girlfriend for the most part
>live together and have two dogs
>got her to join the gym
>we don't have a lot of sex because she's never in the mood no matter what I try
>don't want to break up with her because everything else is great
>Don't want to cheat on her either but if I can't get it from her I'd have to get it from someone else

I guess I'll try coconut oil, I use it on my face and scalp already, can't hurt to rub my belly some too I suppose

>laser removal
Man, theyre fresh and red and look horrible. I keep looking at dudes with stretch marks in the same area and I feel a little better, but still sucks.

You keep lifting? Working out? How do you not let this get to you?

I'll look up some home remedies, it's burned into my mind that stretch marks are permanent once you got them with the exception of laser removal. Thanks user. That's a good way of thinking about it, battle scars and such.

Well I have 3 suicide attempts.
Jesus do you know how attention seeking these 'attempts' sound.
Just stop feeling, do what everyone else does. You have life, take it to its fullest and then you can die.

SS - starting sleep

Break up with her or start fucking side chicks. She's cheating on you.

how did you get her pregnant?

First thing dude, if you have never done a thing, how the fuck are you going to learn to do it correctly? Fuck the bitch, ask her what you can improve on, and then dump, or, if you like her, do it again and add the improvements.
Second, the worst thing that can happen is that you give the girl a bad fuck. Girls get lousy fucks all of time, it's not a big deal. And lastly, normal people can't be pumping for 20 mins straight like porn stars.

As to how my dick looks: It's called hypospadias. Basically the dickhole is lower that it should. This means my hole isn't centered, but on the underside. However this also means my dick didn't form correctly and the bottom part of the glans looks like it was split in two. Imagine your dick, then imagine if the underside of the bottom part had an incision starting from the part where the foreskin meets the glans to roughly the middle of it.

It has a little bit of skin holding both parts together (which makes me have 2 pissing streams sometimes) and overall looks fucking freakish, ugly and flattened.

It truly is disgusting, worst part is it works perfectly (I don't leak urine or anything) so I don't really have a case to fix it, and the operation is dangerous and could fuck it up for life. Though honestly as I'm getting older the idea of fucking up my dick and completely removing my sex drive seems more and more attractive.

They fade over time and I'm 235 lbs at 6'3" with 13% bf, so I otherwise look breddy gud.

do you guys only lift for girls or something?

Please don't attempt #3, user. I can't tell you how to make things better, but good things can come unexpectedly.

>t. guy who had his kissless virginity ended by playing vidyas

>broke NoFap by complete accident last night
>looking at stuff I shouldn't have been on Veeky Forums and then Google Images
>by the time I realized I should stop it was too late and I was jizzing in my pants

I don't understand how nobody else has this problem. I've never used my hands, I just blow my load hands-free.

you fucking dumbasses suicide is a definite solution to a temporary problem

That's some uplifting info. Thanks man, I'll keep working out. In the end, they're just scars.

I lift to fill the void and pass the time.

Not so delusional to think that me being fit will help when I immediately look away when making accidental eye contact with girls.

I was never fat enough to get stretch marks, but I just want you guys to know that stretch marks look fantastic to me. It's like living proof that you fucking made it, seeing a ripped dude with stretch marks makes me go "fuark this lad's got some willpower".

I gained an inch on my arms in ~2 months. Not exactly the best idea for avoiding stretch marks.

>almost done with exams, it's been my best exam season yet (I think I'm gonna be getting 2 A's and 3 B's which is pretty good considering I'm in engineering physics which is hard as fug and I used to be struggling with just passing)
>have an awesome girl waiting for me when I come home for summer, we met in easter and got it on
>have a job interview for tomorrow, am feeling optimistic
> also been making good progress on my app that I'm building on the side which is nice
>set 2 PR's today, 70kg OHP for 5 and 30kg weighted pull up for 4
>also this sounds really gay but I've been struggling with what my "purpose" of life is supposed to be for like 2-3 years and finally I feel like I'm closing in on something
>oh and tons of good weed waiting for me in about a weeks time

life's great brahs

Are you aware that you can make yourself last longer right user?

You need to have a decent talk with her man, been through the same shit with my gf of 3 years. We were down to once a month.
Tell her what you need. If she's never in the mood then she needs to be having sex with you in order to serve you, her man. For this to work it must goes both ways, perhaps your not fulfilling her non-sexual needs. She may be bored with life, take her for hikes and explore new places, a lot of stuff only costs petrol and time.

And be prepared to walk away. If she loves you though, she should be happy to take care of your needs.
My gf is very tight and can't have sex unless she is into it, painful for both of us. But she will make the effort with her hands/mouth and even though it doesnt feel as good it reminds me I'm loved.