Anyone else completely waste their youth being a chubby autist?

You ARE a fat piece of shit, you always will be. Fuck off you faggot.

A good youth is overrated. I had a fantastic youth leading up till the 8th grade. Then none of the females wanted to fuck me and I developed schizoid personality disorder. Haven't had a really close friend since the 8th grade.

I'd take being a loser in childhood and having a boring normie life in adulthood than being popular in childhood and being the school loner in adulthood.

Not him, but I'm four years ahead of you. You're gonna feel a massive urge to make up for lost time, and you'll never be happy with how far along you get with it. When I was 20, I started to rebel against who I was: did drugs, refused to do anything that society expected of me, just became a shitty person for a year. Didn't really help. Trying to catch up sexually hasn't helped either.

The best you can do is to have the serenity to accept who you were, but damned if I know how to do that. I still hate myself for it.

Am not, you retarded fucking troll.

I can kind of relate to some of this. Was always chubby growing up, but ended up being the strongest guy in my HS as a permabulked power lifter and football co-captain. So had a decent social circle but still wasn't great or confident with women.
Flash forward sophomore year of college, had put on even more weight since HS. Decide to finally do something about it. Drop 80 pounds in 5 months, bounce off the wall then add about 20 pounds of lean mass. Complete transformation that most people at home are floored by.

That's a good success story, but isn't really fitting the theme of resentful former losers.

Funny you mention that, I also spent most of my year 20 smoking weed literally 24/7 and caring only about immediate gratification (video games, anime, junk food, porn) while operating on the mindset that I didn't owe the world anything. I feel like I've worked through all that negativity and now I'm in a place where I'm trying to figure out how to function as a human being without falling back into old ways

Middle to high school were the dark ages for me. However, that all flipped for the better after my freshman year of college when I conciously decided I wasn't gonna be an awkward autist anymore by putting myself out there. As a rising senior now, life is good as I have a good social circle and probably an impending gf. Maturing into my looks also helped tons.

>tfw suffered from ugly ducking syndrome despite being a healthy weight all my life

Anyone else know this feel?

In fourth grade I started playing runescape and became morbidly obese until just a few years ago. I was pretty social in high school somehow, but I was a reclusive mess in college so I lost a lot of weight then.

...

Lost 40lbs and got shredded for football sophmore year of HS.
Went from 6'3 240 to 6'3 200 and had bitches all over me junior year. Wasn't until senior year that the former fatty autism wore off and I started making moves on all of these girls. I kid you not I got so much pussy senior year. So glad i lost that weight before high school ended or i probably would've been a permavirgin.

Did this at 19 when I went for a gap year to auss land. Some kind of fucking faze I guess came back joined a boxing gym and started browsing fit srsly looking for all the best info I could find. I've done pretty well and feel alot better about myself and where I'm headed.

wtf are you me?

just became a shitty person for a year

I'm turning 21 in a few weeks and this has been my 20's basically. Going to university doing a useless degree and smoking weed a lot hasn't helped, but I have little to no motivation to fix myself at all at the moment

how did you get out of this cycle?... asking for a friend

Yes,yes you are

Just graduated last week. I told myself I wanted to get in better shape before graduation and I did that. In the process I became more outgoing, more confident, and more comfortable with myself. Which I feel great about but also sucks since it I waited this long to become who I could be. I waited till the end half of senior year to become fit.

Anyway, gonna start college in September, so I am looking forward to that. I may have not spent my high school years the best as I could have, but I would still confidently say I had a pretty good time since I have good friends who put up with my autism.

are you muscular now at least?

what degree?

Sort of. I'm at a DYEL level of achievement I think, but I have a good frame that makes me look a little better than I am.

After getting out of HS, I was though, then I started working in a factory and my gains went away...trying to get back to where I was at 18/19 now at 26.

please hit 1/2/3/4 for me user. DO IT FOR ME

I need to be taught to deadlift correctly, and I need to learn to like squats. I hate squats.

Right now my shoulders are almost nonexistent where I can only OHP like 60 or so lbs 5 times, and I can bench 1 plate about 5 times.

Bro ur almost dyel. literally ask any of the strongfags at the gym, they usually love babying dyels through lifts. it boosts their ego. you can also youtube the shit you wanna learn., thats what i did.

As I said before, I'm basically at the DYEL level.

Gotta try breaking out of that toxic mindset. The past can't be changed, but you CAN choose whether or not you let it affect you in the present and the future. I know that sounds like trite cliche self-help bullshit, but it's the real deal.

I was a fat autist throughout high school and most of college. These days I'm pretty happy with myself. The trick to keep improving myself and keep moving forward is not to think about the bad stuff.

Anytime I have a painful or embarrassing memory or I look back at a missed opportunity, I don't dwell on it. I just bottle those bad feelings up and push them deep, deep down. Gotta focus on the present.

-> tfw I just spent my whole childhood being chubby and playing wow

What a waste

I'm trying to master having the serenity to accept it, but it's hard knowing no matter how far I go, I'd have been further along and more socially fit had I not ruined my formative years.

Yes it's sad. I finally got fit my senior year and actually had the confidence to make friends/talk to people... it turned out a number of girls thought I was cute since middle school, but I effectively ostracized myself with my fear of being rejected and feelings on alienization.

>Cant remember anything before I was 7
>Remember I was a super fussy eater
>Didnt really eat anything
>School nurse thought I was anorexic
>Mom freaks out and gets me to eat anything she can
>My diet is cookies and sausages and nuggies
>I'm fat as fuck by the time I'm 10
>Really smart though and everyone in school was nice to me
>Hit high school
>Suddenly bullies out the asshole
>Bullied every single day
>No friends because I'm a fat loser
>Mom too busy with work to really care
>I just cry all day then play WoW with my brother
>Cataclysm comes out a few years later and fucks the game up
>Bullied every day and now have no release
>One day just stop going to school
>Mom yells at me now, every day for about a week
>Mom quits her job and forces me to learn from home
>I spend 3 years in isolation until I do my exams
>Pass flying colours because high functioning autism
>Now I'm 16 and realising I'm fat as fuck
>Realise if I go to college in the summer then I'll be the bullied fat kid again
>Neveragain.jpg
>Starve self to lose weight because I'm a retard
>Loose skin
>Fit into people-clothes though
>Go to college as planned and play the role of a normal human being
>Too autistic and self-conscious to make close friends though
>Get to 18
>Realise I have nomuscle and it makes the skin worse
>Start getting Veeky Forums
>Spend 3 years lifting natty
>no results
>test levels low
>fuck
>Start roiding
>Insane results from just trt doses
>22 and I have muscles
>23 now and my skin is barely noticable
>working in game design now
>surgery planned for november to get rid of loose skin
>still autistic when talking to anyone

I don't regret a single part of the story

Who fucking cares? What's so bad about it? I was there too. There is no catharsis and you'll never reinvent yourself. You are what you are. Just accept it. Fix your immediate life if it's in disrepair and see if you can eventually drum up some kind of vision to move towards.

No, because my parents loved me enough to keep me nourished and healthy, and did a good job of socializing me using sports.

wow
i admire your courage taking roids. I could never muster up the courage to take roids. Then again, I'm not some low test faggot

No because he is me

>was a shy, silent douchebag in highschool
>unknowingly good looking and in breddy good shape despite not doing anything but play diablo and counter strike all day
>only hang out regularly with one other douchebag, we went to parties sometimes
>one kegger in late senior year had cute girls from my class
>they see me and corner me
>"oh my god it's user, you're so hot. why don't you ever talk to us? we try to get your attention all the time but you're too cool for us!"
>one of them shoved her tongue down my throat and we made out for 5 minutes
>thought they were joking and fucking with me, continue being quiet douche
>they weren't joking
>mfw had such low self-esteem that i literally cockblocked myself for all of highschool
10 years later, im over it, though i still cringe at how clueless i was in highschool. it took me all of highschool to realize that i had above average looks. i was chasing girls who weren't interested in me, while there were plenty of girls that wanted me and were afraid to talk to me that i ignored. i just wish someone would've told me sooner.

I was always fat and autistic as fuck and girls never ever paid attention to me.
Maybe I did waste my youth, but nothing I can do about it now. I just wanna feel less bad until I die.

jfc too close to home

Man all of the feels. This next bit isn't even humble brag or anything it still eats me up as to what could have been if I wasn't such an autist.

What really haunts me is the fact that up until I about the 2-3rd year of highschool I was a chad in the making. It wasn't even that I was a fat autist that had no chance with girls, it was that I was just an autist who got angsty and just bailed on every friend and every party invite I ever got. Eventually started stealing and fighting and generally self shunning from all of the old "jock" groups I hung out with thinking I was hard or something. Once I got out of that everybody that I met always remarked that they had seen me in the halls for years and thought I'd be a complete prick because of my intense, mad at the world autist stare.

I have so many spaghetti spills and opportunities handed to me girl wise and I managed to wriggle my way out of all of them, fucking scenarios people dream about that I didn't act on.

At least you can say you were chubby/fat whatever, my failings were all on me despite having opportunities fall into my lap.

highschool was hell for me

I tried. I tried so FUCKING hard. Im sorry bros but being ripped doesnt do it for you. I went to a small school and was known for being ripped but I was such a fucking sperg. Senior year I found someone who I thought was fucking decent but no amount of her feeling my arms or chest stopped her from ditching me on prom.

I found out a while ago that a girl I was into in high school had a huge crush on me. I always thought she was out of my league, so I never asked her out or anything. I really regret it now, and I've dreamt of her a few times since. I've only seen her once since graduation two years ago, and that night I jumped the shark from too nervous to talk to her right to too drunk to get a coherent sentence out of myself. There's not much I'd do differently, but she's one of the few things I'd change.

No

>be fat in teens/college
>never get attention from girls
>lose weight and become skinnyfat
>sudden flood of attention
>too autistic to deal with them
>start lifting
>put weight on
>attention goes away
>still kv at 24
I don't know what's worse, no attention or being too much of an autist to do anything when it's there

As if by some divine miracle, some close friends intervened to get my life back on track when I was the closest to rock bottom in my adult life so far, and it set a fire under my ass. I guess the only real advice I can give you out of that is that if you work on something you're passionate about, it will pay off for you in some form or other.

How much pussy did u get

The shitty thing is, we have very little control over who we are as children.
Most parents these days are too uninvested in their kids, because life is so easy. As long as their kid does well in school (passes) and isnt heading toward criminality, most parents take a back seat approach thinking everything will work out how its supposed to. Parents who push their kids into sport and other activities are criticized. 'Let the kid do what he wants to do!'

This logic appears well meaning on the surface, and as a kid I would have agreed. But it is actually completely wrong. Dangerously wrong. It is a parents DUTY to turn their kid in to a strong, smart, capable individual.
This was known in the days of old. Kids needed to learn essential life skills because it was literally a matter of life and death.
Now life is so cushy, kids are taught nothing. Only how to conform and make their way into corporate slavery and cuckdom.

Returning to my original point- During your school years you have 2 ways to be cool and popular: Either your parents made you that way by properly socializing you and teaching you, or you had god tier genetics and turned out that way anyway.
If you had average or sub par genetics, along with inattentive parents..well then you probably grew up playing video games, getting ignored by females and shat on by Chad who actually had a relationship with his father.

For those of you that have kids, it is your duty as a man to not let them be losers. They will thank you years down the line. Or at least tou will get to go to your grave knowing your genetic lineage isnt sitting in a room wacking off to porn and playing RPGs

There's no such thing as a ''wasted youth''. Youth is all about doing really stupid mistakes, from which you learn to never repeat again later in life.

I was a chubby autist for the first 25 years of my life but that only built up a deep and irrescabable sense of self-loathing I used as fuel for my gains and weight loss, losing 35kg of fat and gaining 4 kg of muscle in a year. Still autistic as fuck but I no longer really care and girls seem to have a thing for violent fuckers with I-don't-give-a-fuck mentality.

>tfw you wish you had cringy memories of girls giving signs that you were too autistic to recognize
>tfw too uninteresting, solitary, and out of shape to get anyone's attention

This.

Pretty much the only thing I can complain about with my parenting is that I was never, ever pushed to do anything. If I wanted to do something, then they were happy to support me.

However I was never given an instrument to practice which I think is part of being well rounded, pretty much everybody I knew grew up playing piano as a kid. Now later in life I'm trying to teach myself and I'm actually really enjoying it.

I was never pushed in school, even though when I was young I was put into advanced classes by my teachers and probably could've skipped a grade (though that might've just ostracized me socially). Which resulted in me just coasting all the way through highschool playing videogames in my basement every night because I didn't have to do fuck all to keep grades in the A-B range.

I'm past the age where I blame my upbringing for any current shortcomings but I am left playing catch up on a lot of things that I should've learned as a kid/teen and trying to learn skills that my father already had and didn't pass down. So do them a favor and give your kid a head start.

Point is, if you've got a young kid or are planning on kids just remember to push them towards fulfilling their potential however high or low that may be, and teach them any skills you've learned and just spend time with them and they'll probably turn out to be someone you can be proud of.