How you holding up, Veeky Forums?

How you holding up, Veeky Forums?

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pretty good, the cocktail of prescription shit I've got is kicking in and I feel wavey

what is prescription for?

>texting a qt
>going well
>we went out last week
>been texting back and forth for 30 minutes
>ask her if she's busy tonight or tomorrow
>No response
>it's been 40 minutes
JUST

Trying to either find the courage to kill myself or find reasons not to.

some of it is mine, some of it is other peoples who sell it to me

I'm currently on

600mg Pregabalin
120mg Dihydrocodeine
100mg Tramadol
20mg Diazepam
500 microgram Haloperidol
150mg Amitriptyline
10mg Olanzapine
10mg Mirtazapine


now every waking second is one big blur and I honestly no longer give a fuck about anything, I just sleep, work, lift repeat

Don't respond till she does, she'll break soon

You gave no indication of what you might have planned to do together so naturally she assumed the worst. It's only with friends you have known for a long time you can make vague "fuck it lets just meet and hangout figure it out from there". With new friends you have to plan to do something interesting that will keep the conversational juices flowing. ie: getting covefe and checking out a museum/art expo or getting a burger and watching a movie.

Without knowing what you are going to be doing how can anyone reasonably make a decision on if they want to or not?

Yeah I do that too but I am not a fucking zombie who doesn't experience life anymore

Your fucked, big time m8. That's the kind of cocktail they give to chemically lobotomize a nigga. Expect to be brain dead in 3 years maybe sooner. Sooner your off em the better :3

>3 anti psychotics, 1 anti depressant, and a load of pain pills

Good luck getting off of that stuff my man. I got off a benzo and 2 anti depressants and wanted to fucking die. The benzo was much worse than the anti depressants though.

pic related looks kinda comfy desu, just clean off the grass and rat droppings and put some new sheets over top, maybe sweep up around a little and you have a great heroin shooting den

my god man

that looks absolutely hellish to come off

tramadol alone is horrible, brain zaps plus opiate withdrawal, plus you have another opiate and a bunch of benzos

you are fucked if you keep on that

All the women I am able to get in to contact with and chat to seem to have mental health issues.

>1 bipolar
>2 depression
>1 just crazy
>1 immensely immature and bratty

Why can't I find someone who treats me with mutual love and respect?

So in answer to the question OP, lonely

Grill finally responded. Potential date tomorrow.
>tfw nearly sperged out and blew it
>nearly did this yesterday too
I swear, dating takes more self control than lifting, eating, or school. QTs were a mistake.

After gym today, I'm going to go talk to my friend who is suicidal to try to convince her that she has major issues since I had to stop her for the 10th time that she tried to kill herself, and she hurt others this time. I'm planning on taking to her to the clinic, get diagnosed then send her to a mental hospital. I'm not sure how this goes since she is deep in denial, maybe she is doing it for attention. what ever the case may be, she needs help

How can you expect a woman to love you if you don't love yourself first?

THIS FAMILY

Thank you for asking user. Having a tough time of it right now. Right now the girl I like is ghosting my texts. So I'm feeling bad about that. Trying to think about other stuff but can't really think about much else.

>down almost 20 pounds
>no longer unemployed
>visiting a friend in October
>had my first kiss weeks ago

Been a pretty good year so far.

GL coming off that shit. Might as well ride it out till you wake up in the ER and they admit you to inpatient mental health facilities.

Nice stack breh, mirin

>remember all those great times you had
No
Life has been suffering and will always be suffering

>Nice stack breh, mirin
Why? are you a moron?

I love abandoned buildings. I should look into urban exploration.

fucking why

This times a million. Asking "I really like this restaurant in ____ area of town. Would you like to join me for dinner there tomorrow, maybe around 6?" is way better than "Hey, do you wanna hang out?"

Give a specific place, time, and activity. Even if all three of those sound bad or don't work, your intentions are shown and you give them a framework to go off of.

I'm doing pretty well. Hell of a lot better than last year. I moved back to my home state after being away for a year, working up north. I started rock climbing with my friends, lifting, and still have time for a little vidya. I'm in better shape than I've been in my whole life, going from hungry skeleton to benching more than my body weight and continuing to go up. Still no gf, but I'm mentally preparing myself to get back out there in the next month.

Pretty shit. The job I was supposed to start in 2 weeks called me today in the afternoon asking if I can start today. When I'm in another city.

so something weird happened to me the other day

I was lying in my bed half asleep, waiting for my alarm clock to go off since i had woken up about 20 minutes early. i was going through everything i had to do that day/week, planning out my day. "have go run, then make breakfast, gym at this time, complete this task at that time" etc. my mind wandered in that half asleep state, i was just thinking of random shit, random people, shit that happened recently or not so recently, just turning stuff over in my head.

Idk what the fuck happened next, it feels like i thought of something or felt something or remembered something i had to do, and i had this instantly burst of joy, im talking true absolute happiness, for a split second and then it vanished.

Ever since then i cant stop thinking about it, what was it that made me happy, actually happy, for the first time in years. Its almost obsessive and i cant for the life of me figure it out, but i want that happiness. I need that happiness

Oh well, i guess thats just me, and ill chase whatever it is down. Just wanted to share that with you all, thought it was interesting. Howre all of you

Once I dreamed of a woman who loved me and when I woke up I cried because it was all a dream. I can't even remember her name.

do you remember the dream?

I quit a job I absolutely detested (not without gathering a substantial amount of savings) and now am lost on my first day of unemployment. Having had friends who have quit their jobs to take time off and travel, I don't get it. All I want to do is get back to working ASAP, I feel like a bum. Protestant work ethic and guilt I suppose.

Very little.

Living my dream, cutting weight, baby steps on lifting. Still a wizard, but hopefully once I look better than a fat sack of crap I'll meet someone.

whyd you hate it?

I've talked about it before on here actually, the job was morally corrupt and trapped young people in thousands of dollars of debt with little to show. It was in state higher ed. I had 12K in my checking account so I was like fuck it, I can afford to just walk out. Also, despite my qualms about the job I liked some of the people I worked with and didn't want to leave them in the middle of the busy season.

I'm doing great thanks

>Dethroned from the gym autist position when some guy with skellytoes walked in and started doing meme crossfit shit
>Like he was doing jumps on a balance ball then going to do half squats with a pussy pad and lmao 1pl8, also was making weird screams when doing dumbbell rows with 15 pounds
>Finally hit 1pl8 OHP

Granted I want to go back to college, I feel lost at home. I kinda decided to leave my HS life when I graduated so I have no one to socialize with at home.

Real men don't sit around on the internet being skinny and gossiping about ideas, they test their ideas in combat. I know 3 styles of martial arts, I powerlift and do 3 hours of cardio a day. I am also very well read, I've read Marx, Engels, Hegel, Lenin, Stirner, ALL the commie propaganda and destroyed the ideas by countering them with Sowell, Hayek, Rand, Hitler and Nietzsche. Debating me will not be easy, what books have YOU read? What styles do YOU know? How much can YOU lift? Do you do any cardio? More than 3 hours? These are the questions you need to ask yourself if you're serious about throwing down with me.

At what age is it too late to turn your life around?

Because I'm not doing so well.
I'm 23 and I'm going back to Community college, but desu I feel like it will just be a waste of time. I want to finish up school and get a degree, but I really have no idea what I what to do with my life. I'm also losing contact with a lot of my old friends. A lot of them are moving away and starting their new lives w/o me in the picture. I'm also getting lonelier by each day. I have never had sex or even a gf and I feel like I never will. I'm also hating my shitty retail job. I feel like I will be here forever. A lot of my coworkers are college drop outs and they're fine with working here forever, but I'm not. I want to leave, but I can't find any other job. I can't even get a simple desk job that only requires a high school diploma.


I'm trying to stay strong, but holy fuck its hard.

My room mate quit his job as a mechanic and moved out of his moms house at age 26. Now he's 29 and about to graduate with a finance degree in May, he'll be making decent money soon enough. So no, it's not too late.

I start anti-depressants tomorrow which means no more drinking for at least a couple months.

I'm 21 and all the friends I've made since I was 14 either hate eachother now or are never available to hang out with me. Feels kinda lonely desu.

I finally started taking lifting seriously these past few months and I'm on track to hit my goals by the end of the summer.

I'm feeling hopeful for the future

If it means anything to you, there's an intern in my branch at work who didn't start college until 27. He had some rough years, but he's really turned things around.

It's never too late to make a difference. Just like lifting, you can start off small, and keep adding lots of little changes. After a few years have gone by, you're like a totally new person.

Have you tried sorting yourself out?

Yeah before I dropped out I was going into accounting. I never liked, but I just did because its a pretty stable job. I do still want to stay in the business field, but I'm just worried that I will look weird being old and competing with a bunch of kids.

Underage b8

This

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Haha no don't worry about that, I'm older than you and when I worked at a college in my mid-20s people would assume I was a student. You'll look back one day and realize how young 23 is, I wish I was in your shoes again. You've still got a lot of time and opportunity.

I've had this feeling once, like 5 years ago, In a friday afternoon, it was one of the best things I've ever feel, and I always think if it will come back: it hasn't, and I don't know why I felt it, there was literally no reason.

Wow you're no help

I'm gonna be alone forever

I went to college with a bunch of people in their mid to late 20s. Some were making a career change, some took a few years to figure out what they really wanted to do, and some were coming in out of the army and using the GI bill. Also, grad students are in their mid to late 20s, and colleges are used to having them around.

Older students may not be the majority, but no one will think it's weird unless you sleep with a freshman or something.

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>feel sad
>guess i'll take shit loads of prescription drugs

You deserve to be unhappy, it's your own fault

>at what age is he too late?

It isn't. God you young fucks are infuriating.

>want a degree

Get one.

>waste of time

Only if you treat it like one. You don't have to know what you want, people have multiple careers over a lifetime. Just do SOMETHING.

>losing contact with old friends

Talk to them, if you don't want to lose contact. Make new friends if you don't want to talk to your old ones.

>can't find any other job

Oh yeah? How many have you applied to?

JOKES ON YOU I DIDNT HAVE GREAT TIMES, ONLY FAILED DREAMS!!!!

kills self internally

>no one will think it's weird unless you sleep with a freshman or something.
What would be wrong with that?

Pretty sure the girl I lost my virginity to is ghosting me and I just learned my grandpa has two months to live. Going to attempt to hold my composure while I squat the pain away.

Have you looked into trades? If I wasn't in college now, I'd be a mechanic, I fucking love cars. Electricians can make fucking BANK now, and plumbing and HVAC make a good living too.

I want to die similar to my Grandpa's passing. Nice and silently in his sleep.
>Not like the other screaming passengers in his car.

I've been told to do that, but desu I don't think I would want to do that though. I feel like all that hard labor will catch up to me once I get older.

Just remember that if she doesn't have the maturity to reject you then she isn't worth your time. Why would you ever want to spend a moment thinking about a girl that doesn't respect you enough to even bother to reject you? Fuck that skank, go find another, she is NOT worth even a second of your thoughts.

I feel you user

>grandpa dies
>gf breaks up with me

Happened about 5 months ago, still hurts, but it gets better with time. Lifting kept me on track and mentally sane.

Thanks for the laugh, bro.

Getting weak. Not sure why. Can't be the cut, not at this degree. Thinking I might have a mental block somehow. Feel like I want to write, don't know what and am not satisfied with how.

Pretty dissatisfied with myself.

Honestly, Community College is a slogging grind. I hated my life when I was in CC and constantly doubted myself. It gets better once you transfer.

Sorry to hear that, dude. I just want to jump forward to a time where I don't feel like shit.

Nobody will think it's weird. I didn't figure my shit out until I was 23. Transferred to a 4 year school at 25. I'm 26 now and almost 27. I joined a fraternity right when I transferred and i was worried it would be weird that I am older but it isn't at all. Sure, there's some lighthearted jokes about my age but if you're a cool person to be around then age difference means nothing. Same thing goes for the job market. If you do good work and are easy (or even fun) to work with it won't matter that your competition and peers are a few years younger than you.

Absolutely nothing desu. I'm a mid-20's college student and I have no qualms about fucking a freshman girl. It's not my preferred thing and I don't go out of my way to do it, but I'm not going to say no if the opportunity presents itself. Would never date a freshman though. I think what the other user meant was if you're the mid-late 20's college kid you shouldn't SEEK OUT freshmen to fuck/date.

But majority of them are at least 18, so its all good, right?

This is delicious. How many confirmed kills you got?

If they're 18 or older you're fine. It is fucking weird to only go after them though, socially at least. Personally I don't really give a fuck, and if you want to only fuck/date freshmen be my guest, I won't judge you for it user.

But dear god I could never date a freshman. They're so fucking annoying.

>26 virgin, no longer kissless as of 2 weeks ago
>dating a girl for the first time
>set up date, cuddling on the couch, ordering food, wine
>asks if she wants to spend the night before the date, she said yes
>cuddle on couch for 3 hours!
>head to the bedroom
>i tell her its my first time
>she freaks out starts grabbing her shit and leaves
>says sorry we can still be friends....
I am going to kill myself

She doesn't deserve you, dude. That's not how a person worth your time would respond to that. If you've gotten that far before you will be able to get there again with someone who respects you.

>>i tell her its my first time
And now you know not to do this. There is a lot of emotional pressure that comes with taking someones virginity, I would assume at an older age it gets worse.

In all seriousness, get yourself an escort and lose the virginity to a complete stranger.

jesus christ, my dude
you tryna turn your nervous system into grey paste or something?
good luck not fucking killing yourself when you run out of meds

I'm convinced I will never find a women I can truly love. I wish I had someone I could talk to for hours about everything from the complex to the mundane and be utterly entranced. I want to find someone who has passion and drive about anything, because so few women seem to have that. I met someone who was like that once, she was so full of life and curiosity like a flower in bloom, just seeing her made even all my horrible days and drudgery seem bright. But it was never going to work out, she and I both knew it. I made the hardest decision of my life....I let her go.

she is a very sexually progressive person, everything about her character told me she would be ok with it, she was all about honesty which was really cool, apparently she has taken a V card before and it went horrible, so she told herself she wouldn't do that again.

You're never to old to make changes. Who cares if your friends have found their dream jobs, you will get there at your own pace. You have one life to live, don't waste it on a job you hate!

I'm about to turn 28, and I have 1 semester left to get my accounting degree....I FUCKING HATE accounting. I thought the money, job security would be worth it, but office work just isn't for me.

Considering starting over with a degree in either education or science.

Part of me wants to be a teacher and contribute something positive to the community. The other part has always had an interest in anatomy/medicine. Medical school is a huge dream, but physician's assistant school is doable.

>tl;dr I got 5 years on you, and am about to start a possible path toward medical school

In the last 2 months my twin, who I live with in an apartment with, got his 2nd DUI, gf broke up with me, mom got cancer, crashed my car, and lost my job. Was so depressed and felt like I had nothing to live for so started using heroin for about 3 weeks. I had been clean for over a year and had quit cold turkey last year b/c I realized I was a degenerate. I tried to kill myself on June 22nd but failed. Got my life back together now though. I'm clean, new job, got the girl back, mom's cancer is very treatable, and I'm actually happy. Lifting and running again and have been getting back into climbing.

>very sexually progressive

aka the bitch is a roastie whore

you dodged a bullet and probably herpes too

That's what I said my dude, emotional pressure.

If you don't have the ability to find some slampig on tinder, get yourself an escort. You are building up the idea of being a virgin in your head. If you have some kind of fears of fucking an escort, than find some fat slampig.

Good on ya m8, were all gonna make it.

I'm an accounting major too and I fucking hate it. I'm in it for pretty much the same reason as you. I have thought about HR because my people skills are decent and I like making people happy.

I just don't know how to get into HR. School starts in 3 weeks and since I'm going back to community college I feel like my depression will come back and just make me quit again. I've only worked in retail and in the restaurant business, so its gonna be hard for me to even get a simple entry lvl HR job.


Also I've been told by Veeky Forums that HR can be a death trap because its filled with retired Stacys that still have huge egos. idk man I want to leave this bs shit life I have, but I just feel so fucking lost. I'm like all over the place.

Proud of ya!

HR being filled with washed-up Stacys and also quite a lot of older black women (maybe that's just because I live in New York City) is not a meme.

Pick a topic that you might not even be interested in andjust express yourself in the best way you can. It doesn't have to be great as long as you can get some outlet from it

That picture hits me in the feels. I took up running because I needed to do something to move my body after hours of office work. After a couple years of running I say fuck it lets do a marathon. As I crossed the finish line I was surrounded by people hugging and cheering their loved ones/friends/etc. I stood there for what felt like an eternity. I went to the marathon alone didn't tell any of my friends or family I was doing it, so I wasn't expecting anyone to be there, but fuck I felt completely alone. After that I couldn't run anymore, the feeling of loneliness stuck whenever I would go out. While before I could just mindlessly run for hours on end, now I was constantly thinking about the marathon. I switched to swimming just to get away from it.

I'm worried I have thin or weak retinas (or at least a weak attachment) and that this might exclude me from pursuing a career in the military, especially in a more niche role

this kind of depresses me because I want to serve my country

Accounting guy again

Like I said dude I always had an interest in medicine, but growing up lower class I told myself jobs like that were out of my reach, cops or construction are all I can do. Being in the Army really helped my confidence grow. Plus just being "old" I realized anything within reason is possible if you work hard for it.

So I'll start taking BIO-101 in a few weeks, with a bunch of 18 year olds...but following my dream I think I'll be happy.

What is your dream career user? If all the stars aligned you would be extremely happy doing..._____....

thanks man

i'm actually on a steady path to accomplish my goals, recovered after 5 years of suicidal depression. just meditate and stop masturbating to porn

Retina thickness only really comes into play when you are trying to become a pilot.

AFAIK, getting into the pilot program is hard in and of itself. TONS of great MOSs that allow you to serve your country.

Joining the Army was the best thing I did for myself. Satisfying feeling serving your country, with likeminded folks, when so much of tv is filled with pinko liberals crying about everything.

must have been one hell of a short roller coaster

>What is your dream career user
At this point I'm not even sure anymore.
I started college when I was 18 and just did part time for a long time. I also dropped and failed a few classes too. I went from a business admin major to a marketing major to a accounting major. I even tried to get an IT cert to become a help desk. I never really liked any of those desu.

The only reason why I'm going back to CC is because its cheap and because it will make my mom happy knowing that I'm trying to better myself.

I really do want to get a degree, I just don't know what to major in. I know 23 is still young, but I just feel like an old fuck because I've been in school for a long time. I'm also hating the restaurant job I have. I make great money, but my coworkers are really making me depressed. I've been there for too long and the place is just killing me on the inside. I really feel like I will be there forever. Whenever I see someone I went to school with I just feel even more shitty because I feel like they will assume I'm the same loser I was in high school.

I hope you actually get into med school, user.

women are strange creatures. you have to find a way to flip the power crystals so you are the one in charge

I think I'm bipolar, I flipped a switch and just felt better after all that. Every year I have 1 major depression episode that's debilitating. One hell of a roller coaster though.

>benzos
>not even once

good luck putting that bullet in your mouth when you try to get off that shit

thanks user