>graduate >spend 2 years working part time wagecuck jobs while living at home and wasting all my free time and feeling demoralised >move to London after getting full time job
>just barely make enough to pay for everything >job is boring but thankfully light on work and never goes past 9-5 >became the ugly loser loner beta nobody talks to only a few days after starting >realise I'll never have the social skills needed to succeed among normies
>had zero social life since school, no female attention ever, blackpilled and know women find non Chads disgusting >see guys younger than me with gfs and feel insanely jealous >see normies socialising effortlessly (including people who started after me) and feel bitter >feel under pressure more during my free time than work because I feel like I have to learn maths / learn CS / do practical programming / read lots of books to be smart and successful and have a social life to stop wasting my youth (i.e., I feel bad because there aren't 100 hours in a day)
Well this is demoralising. And this is with a really low work government job. If I actually had to work hard and work a full 8 hours or more then I'd go crazy.
My free time consists of procrastinating over dedicating all my time to some other heirarchy I can feel bad about (i.e., programming).
And you know what really runs it in? The normies who get jobs easily due to normieness and poshness. The women with lives on easy mode and sugar daddies and bfs handing everything to them while society uses me as a disposable battery and deluges me with propaganda. The thousands of teens on the internet getting rich for wacky reasons (apps, crypto, exporting marmite to Tajikistan) while I stick my nose in to SICP- a nerd too scared to go off the beaten path, cowed by the masses while at its bottom rung.
Not everyone can be famous and normies lives aren't that crash hot (though they try to make it seem otherwise)
Stick at it. The Life of mediocrity is what everyone experiences. Your time will come just make sure you seize the moment and at the end of the day the time spent in mediocrity will seem like no time at all.
Jace Gonzalez
>moving to London
That's where you went wrong
Juan Rivera
Care to elaborate? Thinkin about taking my swole ass there for a dev job
Lucas Murphy
>spend to years working part time wagecuck jobs while living at home You could have easily saved thousands of money for a nest egg in that time. It's you're own fault you barely make enough to get by now you fucking retard.
Aaron Watson
How much do you earn in London to barely get by?
Which part m8?
Sebastian Phillips
Kys paki
Jayden Nguyen
Not him but London is soul destroying unless you have money, even if you're earning a decent wage half your money is just going to rent
Commuting is where it's at, especially if you have no need for a social life like OP
Gabriel Clark
Thanks dude, like it or not there's a huge office culture there. Cost of living is real low in my current city but the pay and job opportunity is limited.
Kayden Roberts
I'd also say that it's not just rent, everything has a ridiculous markup because they can get away with it, from the food in the shops to the beer in the pubs. It's just not worth living there for a "social life".
Commuting's not bad, it teaches you decent habits and it's not impossible to have a social life with it. The trains all start running at 5am and there's tons of 24/7 places you can relax at whilst waiting for your train. If you get friendly with people you can also ask to just crash at their place.
Camden Cruz
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Carson Nguyen
I see some pretty reasonable priced house shares around places like Shepherd's Bush and further. Might sit down and calculate my financial gains with cost of living differences.
I've had enough social lels to last a life-time anyway.
>tfw you're going away soon >tfw I don't know if you like me >tfw can't get you out of my mind >tfw future in all other aspects is uncertain, and the outcome may not be what I desire
I guess I just gotta keep pushing for a better future >pic not related
Aaron Gonzalez
wow nice blog post, subscribed
Luis Mitchell
>>graduate >>spend 2 years working part time wagecuck jobs while living at home and wasting all my free time and feeling demoralis
Holy shit are you me.
Top grades in class, didn't secure a grad job because muh indecisive.
Returning to education next September to get out of this rut.
Sounds like you're uninspired with your job, and you made a mistake moving to London mate. I hope you commute, its fucking expensive to live there. You'd have to offer me a six-figure salary to even think about working in London. Either way, I think your life situation is contributing to this mess, change something up radically.