Feels thread

How are you holding up Veeky Forums?

It's currently 1:17 here, I don't particularly feel like playing videogames but I can't sleep for all the thoughts racing through my head at a million mikes an hour. I feel sad. How was everybody's day

>bra comes off
>fried egg tits

Fuck man what a let down

Also, I was thinking about starting a journal. Just someplace to write my thoughts down and actually give everything some substance, as opposed to half formed shit swirling around my head. good or bad idea? and should i physically write it or type?

iktf, once had a girl who was head over heels for me, ended it saying some stupid reason and shes hated me ever since. Never told her the real reason was because i couldnt stand her tits looking like deflated balloons hanging limply off her chest

>inb4 (USER WAS BANNED FOR THIS POST) for non-fitness related post

I had feels this morning since it was her birthday and we broke up a few weeks ago.

It's useful not to lie to yourself though and she's probably not coming back. Bites a little cause I thought I loved her. I think I still do and I probably should be mad at her cause she gave me a bullshite reason for wanting to breakup probably mostly due to fear of commitment. Also literally both of her good friends were causing trouble for us.

But fuck it, I got all this energy from having a gf again and now it's time to use it to cocoon for a little and improve myself.

Seriously fuck feels, they're just energy we let wallow in self pity instead of using it as willpower to change ourselves and our situations.

Just glad my mind went to fuck off mode instead of letting myself be a little sad puppy benchwarmer sitting on the sidelines hoping she'll notice me again. Fuck that shit. And literally everyone is telling me to stay being her "friend" because she asked me to, and then after 10 minutes of explaining my side of things they agree with me just cutting everything off.

Fuck it's difficult though, intentionally cutting yourself off from someone you would have given all you could to because to not do so would put me in a forced beta position.

End fucking rant.

> Haven't checked college email in awhile so check it tonight
> Missed tuition deadline
> Dropped from classes
Hopefully I can get this sorted out, but I'm nervous I fucked up pretty bad.

damn you work quick bro

>32
>balding
>tfw no wife
>literally all of the friends I hang out with regularly are married, and I can't get a wife
>family has pretty much given up on me getting married
>at least I can occasionally fuck an unattractive girl from tinder

its too late user, sorry. you might have to reapply

the thing about your situation is, youre not in love with her, you dont miss her, youre in love with and miss the idea of her, whatever it is that your mind thought up. the idea of what could have been or what might have happened; its a long road to go down and you can very easily lose yourself to that. dont be her friend, thats a horrible idea and wont end well. sorry that happened to you, but it sounds like youre handling it well

>new class
>dont even want to make friends
>just wanna be alone and do my work
>its intro week so the teachers are having us do tons of social games
>i have 0 social skills
>left side of my face looks muuuuch better than the right

>dog went missing last week
>check with all of my hillbilly neighbors none have seen him
>check with the pound and they have no dog like him
>he was a tough, smart dog
>the fact that he hasn't found his way home leads me to believe he's dead or chained up in someones yard
>asshole neighbor down the street always complained that my dog was violent even though we established it was a different dog
>have sneaking suspicion that bitch did something to my dog
>had that dog for 9 years
>saved him from an abusive owner
>he was the kindest and best companion I've ever had
>legit helped me through a break up and my parents deaths by getting me out of the house (gotta walk the dog)
>now he's gone and I have no closure

I wanna go full Hugh Jackman from Prisoners on that bitch, but I don't have the balls. Where ever you are I hope you're happy dude, please be happy.

Very good point, thanks for reminding me of that.

>hurt shoulder helping friend move
>can't lift
>fucked up foot at the lake
>can't lift even longer
I'm doing pretty shitty bro.

everyday i get more depressed then last

On the plus side, buddy, now you can help out another dog who needs rescuing.

>Louis Theroux does Alabama

i want a bf.

sometimes dogs who are old and feel like they're dieing just go and die in peace so they don't make their owners sad. We don't deserve them.

Hang in there buddy.

Not exactly feels per say but anxiety
>soon to be freshie at college
>lived life as shy, timid guy who kept to self and barely interacted with his real life friends
>played, vidya, watched anime and cartoons, all that jazz
>reach an epiphany and existential crisis that this virtual world just doesnt match up to the real world and seek to ditch vidya and television, media etc.
>have all these aimless ambitions in shit I considered "normalfag" tier like studying biology but since wasted life, dont know where to start
>finally made plan but nervous that i wont have discipline to follow ambitions and get Veeky Forums
>know that feel where you're motivated, but like a new years eve fatman resolutioner, that motivation can slip away like a grain of sand without discipline
>excited but scared ill dissapoint myself
>mostly excited because it's a completely new experience but too easy to fuck up without experience
Right now ive made plans to become a man, become interested, to engage, and it's such a drastic 180 but im ready for the first day. And hopefully after the first day, the next year will fly by

...

This man has gotten infinity times for pussy then me.

>not married

you are not missing out on anything lad. take it easy

>I will never ever see her again in person

It hurts a lot my senpaitachi
I kind of forget her face sometimes
Then i look a photo of her and it hurts even more

I increasingly don't care much about life anymore. I don't care about a career, I certainly don't care about women, I don't care about freinds, I don't really care about my parents.

I see no real point to anything.

I do want to ride my motorcycle and get a 6 pack. But after that? I really and truly have no idea what the point of life is. I don't understand why people get married and have kids. I don't understand why people have humdrum jobs and do nothing but watch tv until they die. I just don't get it.

I don't want a life like that. I want an extrodinary life. But I don't see anything in life that is extrodinary anymore. I don't know what anything is worth.

Someone needs the red pill.

Nothing special about marrige mate. You just don't know it yet.

Added 10kg to my Deadlift for 2 reps and 10-15 to my OHP for 3 today, probs just because I was amped on more preworkout than usual and feeling strong. Hopefully I can keep at that weight and work on pushing up the weight more consistently becuase I've been pretty slack and going for reps and being stupid.

I also Started a new job yesterday so I can go and do a PT course and pay for stuff for the GF, it's in a kitchen though so I already hate it and I'm excited to quit, but I want to do this course so I'm going to stick with it as long as I have to.

Everyone else seems pretty down, hopefully something comes along and turns things around for you all

Dunno, I've lost over 65 pounds from 250 to 185 and going strong, I seemingly have it all, a loving wife and daughter, my own place, a car, a great job and pretty much anything anyone could ever ask for, all this at the age of 25.
I lack any kind of validation, though, nobody seems to give a fuck about my accomplishments, I've never had a compliment, nor does anyone ever say anything good to me, I'd probably be depressed if I wasn't used to this my entire life.
I'll keep going just the same, though.
/blog

Being gay is better desu, wont be long now till they can just testube gay babies and women become irrelevant.

You've got to pursue your dreams. Everything fell into place for me when I did. It'll all make sense when you start living for yourself and what you want, no one else.

Oh yeah, and I missed a rep on OHP yesterday and pulled a front delt.
And the biggest thing that pissed me off in recent times is that I missed my alarm this morning and was 20 minutes late to work.

Bro im in the litteral same boat. Dropped 60 lbs currently 260. Great job loving wife and child. I feel like partially validated.

Just keep at it man, you already made it compaired to others on this board. One day we both make it. Good luck brethren.

You've got to make moves in a game before things get interesting, my man.

your life seems perfect, I know its probably easy to say from outside but everything you have is what I aspire to have at some point.

My girlfriend doesn't want kids and unfortunately it's a huge thing for me to have kids and it's kinda tough for me to be with her when it's really the only downside to the relationship. Being a dad is pretty much the reason I do anything in life but I can't force her to have kids and I don't want to leave her for someone else because it doesn't seem fair, and I might not find anyone who wants kids with me either.

It doesn't mean much online but i'm mirin' what you've got dude

My fiancé left me on my birthday, it's been almost two months and I can't handle it. Going to the doctor tomorrow to finally get some anti depressants but I'm worried about how it will affect my lifts, the gym is truly the only thing I have left

watch chuunibyou demo Koi ga Shitai. it might help you

you will leave her or she will leave you. if one party wants kids and the other one doesn't it will lead to frustration and a break up. Maybe its different for guys but women definitely leave if their partner doesn't want any kids.

I know you are hurting, but if you feel like you have to get anti depression meds maybe its time to take a short vacation for a week. Clear your head and heart, obviously you wont heal overnight, but depression meds can affect your lifts and life.

I wish the best man.

Im THE strongest Ive ever been but I feel like dogshit My grandfather passed away two months ago, he was without a doubt my best friend and I just wish I spent more time with him

see my earlier postone thing is for sure, dont do things because you feel like you should or because its the norm. thats a one way ticket to ecoming this poster and youll be back where you are now, but with more baggage holding you back

storytime

thank you user, i hope your new job gets better

Thanks m8's, I can always count on Veeky Forums to make me feel a little better.
We'll all make it one day.

You should have a serious talk with your GF about kids man, if you're completely divided on this, then you shouldn't continue.

I have a week off next week, I don't think I'll be going away but I have another week off next month so I could book something for then. I do genuinely feel like hanging myself all the time. I beat depression with her support before but now I have nothing and don't know how to cope.

Alright
>birthday comes up
>go to fiancé's place
>not living together yet but had a viewing for a place a few days later
>fiancé has been talking all week about crazy sex we're gonna have but I don't care I just want a nice day with her
>get there and she's put on a nice spread and tried to make it nice
>really happy and appreciate it
>chill for a bit watch a movie etc
>we try to have sex but I can tell she's not into it
>she's put off so I jump in the shower fully freshen up and come out naked to try again
>she's still not into it so I say leave it
>we gradually stop talking through the night and she's upset because she thinks I just wanted sex despite telling her otherwise
>later that night after not talking for hours she pulls out her phone and starts texting
>never known her to have any close female friends
>who the fuck is she texting this late
>rather than argue since we argue a lot I decide to leave
>we had previously agreed that leaving rather than arguing is fine
>yet when I get up to leave we argue

Only spoken once since and she wants nothing to do with me, she mentioned a guy at work likes her so she's either with him or was cheating on me, likely the latter. Completely ruined my trust and I'm sinking back into depression now and need to stop it

you should get another dog, it will help

After stories like this I kinda feel better about not having relationships. Don't know if I could bear it and not fall into full degenerate and self-destruction.

Firstly, love her, be with her, move in together, have kids with her, do not marry her.

Second, she wants you to fuck her sensless user. I am telling you. She wants you to tap into your animalistic side and ravage her with little to no restraint. She wants some dirty nasty rainchy passion from you. Give it to her, if you love her.

Third, since you did not do this, she is trying to make you jealous by 'talking to other guys'. She in all likelyhood is, but the impression I get from your story is that she wants you to show some goddamn passion. So she is (successfully) getting into your head. She wants you to step up and fkn TAKE her, but it's backfiring and you are pulling away. If you cannot do this she WILL find someone who can. Marriage will not change this.

I truly wish you the best. Chin up champ.

DONT EXPLAIN YOURSELF TO ANYONE JUST SAY

"NAH, WE SHOULD ALL JUST MOVE ON"

the end

>finally hit 2pl8 bench last week
>already hit 1pl8 OHP awhile ago
>thinking about trying to hit 3pl8 squat this week
>not even at 3.5pl8 deadlift, more like 3.25pl8

On one hand, I'm happy I achieved a goal and might be hitting another soon, but on the other, I realize my DL is pretty fucked. Just got to keep going I guess.

I'm trying to improve my cardio but my periostitis is coming back. Shit hurts like hell.

I could complain about my wagecuck situation, my total lack of any social life or the fact that the last woman I've fucked was a hooker in Amsterdam but let's face it : it's all my fault.

I think I may have had great opportunities, the kind that you can't miss, but I fucked it all up. Currently reading Nassm Taleb's book, I'm trying to be Antifragile.

she's cheating

100%. I was there. Sry man.

>female roommate 1 and her bf hanging out in living room
>male roommate escorting random thot out the door after he just fugged
>female roommate 2 giggling in room with her gf
>me in the kitchen cooking my dinner to eat alone in my room

nights like these really hurt brehs

Of course I am passionate with her but aside from 1 phone call I have been unable to get in contact with her at all. I have no access to her place, she changed her number and cut all ties. It's in her hands and she's throwing it away.

Feminazis have already begun impregnanting themselves from sperm banks, soon men will just be used to lift heavy weights and milked for sperm.

Fuckin A man, your situations pretty damn similar to my recent breakup. Happened right before her birthday. I went straight into fuck off mode and sent her a pretty fucking nasty message, only to puss out and apologize for it a week or two later. I dunno what I was thinking.

i write dumb shhit and it's helped me arrange my thoughts and feelings, i don't know if it'll help you as much as me but i definitely recommend, process the negative & difficult thoughts and get them out in a way
a physical diary is a better choice to me at least, it's more personal imo because i can physically hold it and write & see my own handwriting
and one thing, i find the whole "dear diary, to day i so-and-so.." forced and pretentious, i write shitty poems and just random thoughts ii have and that makes me feel like i'm creating something and makes me use my brain more (playing with words)

> 26
> had a 19 year old gf, she's crazy and retarded but I can't forget about her.
> meet 23 year old sane girl. She's nice but not entirely what I want. We speak for about a year.
> I dump her cause I keep obsessing over 19 year old crazy
> I'm now alone
> I picked the hard road.
> could have wifed that 23 year old but she was chubby and I was scared she was goin explode.
> she wasn't anything special either.

> I picked the hard road.

Praying to God I did the right thing.
just have to stay away from crazy.
Just have to finally meet my soulmate wife now.

Cut her loose mate. Let this be on her head.

At least your not an Indian, take a lot of solace in that fact.

This sitch can break you if you let it, but I believe in you, user. I know you'll sack up and live to fight another day. Just like the rest of you. The older you get the less you care, but until then you've got to all keep your shit together and take the pain. Seriously, just take the pain, it will only last as long as you choose to give it energy, in that sense you all have effective control.

Don't worry, children from single parent households are fucked up underachievers with ridiculously high crime rates. This shit will get rid of itself.

A wild 4channer gets some tail for the first time.

>tfw existential dread sets in again

My Uni. semester starts today, I was supposed to go.
I told everyone I was excited and all that type of bullshit.


I dont want to go, I more depressed than I've ever been in my entire life.
I'm sitting in my dorm room thinking about killing myself, how and when. I dont see myself having a bright future if I drop-out.
I dont have the energy to study or be social, I told my parents that I wanted to work for a year and see what I wanted to do, figure myself out you know?
Nah, basically didnt have an option, I was going to study, I was not going to be a failure, figured its better to leave them with a sob story than just a failure, right?

How are you guys?

>2
Worst part is I'm so blessed and I dont care, I would fucking change my life for anyone elses.
I would gift my life to anyone who really wants it, my privelege of studying for basically free, have a bright future, because I cant fucking life this.
I wish I did, but I'm not happy at all, I'm fucking done pretending like everything is beatiful and great. Most of life is shit and I've decided I'm done pretending.

Worst part is nobody has ANY idea that I'm like this.