/feels thread/

/feels thread/

I just threw my career away
I'm an engineer. I just had the worst week of my life.

I threw everything away and I'm going to be losing everything soon.

illnever be as big as my pump

no gf

I'm borderline JUST-tier.

>No job
>Dropped out of college
>Nothing is going right

Can you explain?

Everyone's arms at the gym just look so much bigger and I have to wonder if these guys are really dedicated with their diet and how long they've been going at it :/

If it makes you feel any better I'm in the same place but even worse, I finished college but in a low skill meme degree.

no gf and I can't even find a hooker. I would hang myself but I don't wanna hurt my family and friends

I was identified at the Charlottesville rally.

...

Made myself look like an autistic fuck in a meeting at work... they think I must be fucking retarded or something..

In tough situations I don't smile and just shut down. During casual meeting I'm serious and several frustrated. They think I'm angry about them or the company..

They don't know if just an autist who shuts down in tough social situations...

You don't know me user but I've been watching your post for and I have to say you've come along way. I believe in you

It's not a hooker you need to find user, it's Jesus

Side lateral stuck at 20lb dumbbells for the past year

thanks user :_)

piss off with your sourceless claims of miracles from the bronze age faggot

>He thinks Jesus lived in the Bronze Age

>le late antiquity was the bronze age maymay

>>>/reddit/

>No mention of /pol/ this entire thread
>Muh /pol/-boogeyman
E V E R Y T I M E

you're an engineer. Trust me, they expect you to be autistic. You're fine.

t. engineer

Do girls even like ripped guys? Might sound like a fag here but I always see built guys with skanky looking women

They're normie engineers...

They tried not to look at me but they could..

>can deadlift two plates for reps
>can barely curl 40 lbs

who else here is an armlet

>last gf was a qt asian girl i met through an engineering class at my uni.
>fall in love with this girl but I was straight edge and she was into drugs pretty heavily
>decide to try it because fuck being alone
> drugs r amazing
>get into rave culture and partying pretty heavily
> start to notice gf acting out more every once in a while
>ignore it and write it off as her being a regular obsessie vietnamese gf
>drug use isn't limited to festivals anymore.
> try to tell her to calm down and am immediately met with screaming and yelling
>this continues
> 2 years i watched her destroy herself through drugs, unstable mental health and numerous attempted suicides.
>the constant raving and party lifestyle accelerated her into bipolarism and depression
> watch the woman i thought i loved fall apart, try to kill me and kill herself
>climaxes into a standoff with police holding herself hostage
>she surrenders and is taken to a mental hospital
>calls me for the two weeks she was in the facility screaming saying i did this to her and put her there.
> blame myself for not helping her sooner.
> cut things off as a normal person would after your significant other tries to kill you
>lose most friends i made and partied with for the first two years of college cuz they blamed me for making her go crazy
>she is released and stalks me when school starts again in the fall
>life is hell
> fall into the trap she did and started doing coke,ecstasy, LSD, mushrooms outside raving and festivals to remedy the guilt i felt for not saving her
> take the easy way out and intentionally overdose but was resuscitated by festival paramedics.
> never told anyone it was intentional

Crazy to think I tried to overdose 8 months ago. My life is so much better now, new wonderful gf, about to graduate with my engineering degree, still forever small but getting there.

for better or worse drugs changed my life. i still do them I cut out cocaine and have learned to have more fun with less

I double posted in /fraud/ as well so i apologize i'm just in my feels now at work

>on test
>have no social circle so dont know any chicks
>tinder is a waste of fucking time these days
>have to choose between making my porn addiction worse or wasting my money fucking shady whores off backpage

WHY CANT I JUST HAVE A GF GOD FUCKING DAMN REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Two plates for reps is much? Im at 4pl8 for 5

The final exam for my Master's degree is tomorrow. everyone says it's just a formality and not to worry too much, but I've already had three energy drinks today and will have at least one tomorrow to make sure I don't get a caffeine headache. Also my thesis needs to be accepted by 5pm Monday, so any revisions I may need to make have to be done ASAP, as well as edit two papers my PI wants published really quickly.

I just want to be done and move on. I'll be a TA this year where I just work 20 hours, write my novels, and work out/climb 5 days a week.

Unless you really, really like long hours of research for very little pay (and even if you do get your PhD, the money gets better but the hours don't), don't go to grad school.

oh...

Hey me too but if it makes you feel better I wrecked my car while high and in addicted to heroin. The only girl who will fuck me is a meth addict.

It could be worse.

2pl8 is fukken warmup weights m8

she got bored of me :'(

You don't have a gf cause you sperg out when people try to help you and reach out to you, because you're a fucking autist that nobody likes

A girl I'm seeing found out tonight that I've been seeing another girl too. It's only been a month so she can't get that pissed, but the sex is good she's quiet pretty. Don't want it to end, senpai. Still might not if I can talk my way out of it. Wish me luck boys

Everyday I feel more and more weighed down by the incredible burden of niggers and immigrants. Everyday I see bleeding hearts make exuses for sub humans. Hashtags and prayers that eventually accomplishes nothing. I just want to go away where there are no liberals. A place where I can lift and be alone,

>girl at work (qt, but married) wants to set me up
>tfw nogf so go along with it although I'm concerned she might set me up with a hamplanet with "a great personality"
>it's a guy

N-no homo right guys?

I'm a 27yo KV and I want to die (among other reasons than the singular stated.) Existence is a curse and the only constant in life is suffering.

actually I have many friends. when someone tries using my moment of weakness to push their religious dogma on me I fucking lose it. that cun't doesn't wanna help me at all. he just wants me to convert to his meme religion out of fear and desperation. people like him make me wanna puke and so do you for defending his ass.

All the good girls my age are in relationships already. I don't want a relationship because they're an incredible gains goblin on all levels, but I'm starting to feel like the odd one out at 24 and single.

Take his sweet protein nectar

>left college
>joining military
>going back to school for free
took me some time to become motivated and figure out what i wanted in life. keeping my head held high

Kill yourself then you fucking snowflake. If you can't handle internet banter that was obviously a troll then I have serious doubts about your mental fortitude. I suggest sleeping pills because it takes the least effort and feels nice. 20 tablets should do the trick.

Or, someone genuinely wants to bring you Joy but you're too fucking autistic to see it and sperg out at them for trying to lend a hand.

People like you make me sad.

Where the fuck do I meet girls? My friends all live a few hours away. Tinder sucks. Dating sites suck.

How am I supposed to meet girls? Where do I go? Don't say "at a bar lol" because no girl will talk to a weirdo alone at a bar on a Friday night.

I wanna look forward to something down the road but there's something shitty coming up just before it and I feel shit

>Still thinking about girl I dated abroad
>Feel like I will never again date someone that gorgeous or smart
>Feel even worse that we haven't talked that much recently
>Unironically started looking into studying in the same city as her in a different country
I know I'm being retarded. I really just want to forget her and move on.

first of all why are you so mad? did I strike a nerve? second of all neither of those comments were "trolls". they're just religious assholes who are trying to push their shit on the desperate and hopeless. /pol/ was a mistake

I leave for college in a week and I no idea what to expect. I loved high school and it was fun but I'm scared as fuck for college. Doing freshmen even get pussy? Are there house parties? How do I not get freshmen 15 I just got Veeky Forums.

I know man. The only thing that will really help you there is giving it time.

bring me joy? by lying to me? literally kys

"You need Jesus" is a common comedic punch line. No one is trying to convert anyone to anything and the fact that you were too dumb to realize this makes me wonder if I'm being b8ed

Stop responding to it, newfriend. All you do is enable its behavior.

I don't know the entire story obviously, but it sounds to me like you're blowing things way out of proportion. Worst week of your life? Really? THREW away your career? Try and get some perspective maybe?

I know the feeling man. Try to really distract yourself from those dark thoughts

that punchline is only used if someone does something really fucked up, not if they're sad you autistic fuck

No one is lying to you.

Father died a month after I turned 16. He never saw me make varsity or will see me graduate, marry, go to college, or live life. I miss him

>girl in my grad cohort
>literally the most relatable human I have ever met
>she's in an LDR and we were friends at one point but don't talk anymore like we used to
>right place wrong time
I wish I could meet literally anyone else to have a crush on to help move on.

>TALKING SNAKES AND MAGICAL SKY DADDIES ARE REAL U GUISE XDDDDDDD

lulwut

>girlfriend doesn't suck dick, says its gross because I piss out of there
>also hit me with the "I love you bomb"
>had to reciprocate it on the spot because whatever

I'm in kind of a hole bros, what the fuck do I do? I don't want to straight up give her an ultimatum, but this is also a pretty big deal to me.

Also I know this isn't even Veeky Forums related but muh female gains

what a sad excuse for an existence you must have.

elaborate

Not to a weirdo but to a normal guy trying to make friends who isn't giving them bedroom eyes then no problem

>Suck my dick or I'll break up with you

This will work I guarantee it

Been trying to. Sucks that it's been 3 weeks since I last saw her but still think about her. Hoping soon enough I'll forget about her. It's no fun having someone who can't even see everyday occupy your thoughts this much

1. Do / would you eat her out?
2. Just let her know you aren't being sexually satisfied famalam.

>You shouldn't have allowed her to say she doesn't give BJs
>You shouldn't have reciprocated the "I love you"
You fucked up. Should just end it now.

How would someone know you're a weirdo?
People aren't as great at reading people as you think, go sit at the actual bar itself and ask what's on tap, maybe try a sample of something and then buy.
Ask if the seat is taken if you end up sitting by someone, if a drink looks good ask what type of drink it is.
t. aspie who has panic attacks often in both public and private life. People are very receptive at bars, even had a qt bartender mix me drinks free of charge the other day.

I do go down on her because I enjoy it. She says she thinks its weird though and if I stopped tomorrow she wouldn't care. She all about that penetration.

I was thinking maybe I should just go into business for myself and cum really fast and never let her finish in the sack until she gets so pent up she's forced to change. Is that too sociopathic ?

>tfw arms look like pic related
>tfw always gas out when doing curls
>tfw arms are just weak overall

How do I fix it?

I left the meeting and didn't say bye to anyone. Just walked out to catch a flight. They thought I was angry or something.... I'm just an autistic fuck.

Have you ever told them you have autism?

Ejaculated in my girlfriend's vagina last night. Unprotected, of course. Will probably do so again tonight. If, you know, I feel like it.

I don't have legit autism man..just some 4channer. I'm a damn engineer who is qualified I just suck with social situations...

>Browses Veeky Forums
>Claims to not have autism

You might as well check for autism or find out if it's something else. Perhaps work on getting better in social situations with a diagnosis or just being able to explain to coworkers why you act a certain way so they won't get their own ideas about you.

this isn't a "things that never happened" thread

As a psychfag--for what it's worth--I think you're reading into your behavior and dwelling upon it too much. If anything is asked, just say you had a bad day or had some personal shit on your mind. I believe in your ability to BS. Becoming better in social situations will take time.

>had a great life until 22
>confident, outgoing, popular, studying
>found a cute gf that was the love of my life
>turn 23, diagnosed with chronic illness, almost die at the hospital
>within the next 3 months my uncle has a heart attack and my grandmother dies, my other uncle is diagnosed with cancer
>severe depression
>drop out of high school, can't find any job, become a complete shut-in
>gf stays with me anyway
>2 years of recovery
>then life starts looking up again
>move to a new country, find a good job
>within 6 months end up in the hospital again
>severe depression again
>by now I've become a shell of my former self
>after 1 year of recovery gf can't take it any more
>broke up with me a month ago

fuck my life, everything was amazing until I got this fucking disease, and she even stuck around with me through the hard times, but I just never managed to get back on my feet whilst I was together with her

now that we broke up I'm trying to turn my life around, I've started going to the gym, I'm seeing a nutritionist, I'm seeing a therapist, I'm trying to figure out what I want to do with my life

it's still hard as fuck, every day I wish she could believe that I have the capacity to change, but I know that she got exhausted and has moved on

>life's a bitch and then you die

Yea. I think explaining why I'm so quiet is worse since than I have to explain??

A guy from work asked me if I spend a lot of time alone or something.

Yea. Yea I do

>three days ago
>go on a """""date""""" with girl ive been talking to all summer
>i walk her home
>"I had a great day, user!"
I love you, too!
>ten second of awkward silence before she breaks out laughing
>after she walks inside i sit in her driveway and cry for half an hour

How bad did i goof it guys?

I had a bad day because we went out in a social group and I literally shut my mind off.. nobody wanted to talk to me and everybody wanted to avoid me....

I probably should have had a couple of drinks. That always gets me fired up to be in a social situation

Did the former cause the latter or vice versa?

Being able to explain why you behave in a strange way is better than having others guessing why you behave that way.

>drinking at a meeting at work

They didn't talk to me and I just shut down.. I tried to smile but they knew I was uncomfortable. I just couldn't fake it since my mind was already off and they didn't care. I saw in one guy how hard he tried not to make eye contact but then he did...


Fuck why do I over analyze everything. This fucked everything up since they said good.morning today and I literally sat there with a serious look on my face not even paying attention to them and than the look on their face gave it away

They know I'm fuxked up so I throw myself into my work to get my.mind off of.being social...

what illness?

sounds rough, user.

>tfw no filipina GF

these hoes ain't loyal, my dude

Wow Jamal, dropped out of high school at 23? At least you stuck with it for a while.

>life's a bitch
>life
I suspect we are actually in some sort of purgatory, so lets just ride this shit out together brother.

Too much self-awareness and probably some neuroticism. The trend seems to be that people don't care as much as you think they would. Anyhow, you know the 'problem' and you seem reasonably intelligent enough to deal with it. How old are you anyway?

>It's been three years since we broke up
>Moved to a different country
>She has a happy life with her bulk bf in miami
>It's been three years
>Three years
>I'm still bitter and alone
>I still love her

Lifting heavy objects is the only thing that keeps the pain away.

And even then I am still merely a recovering Skeletor.

fuck, this is brutal

>ugly
>want to start lifting so I can get girls
>lift regularly for a year
>make some real gains
>have a huge crush on a friend's friend
>she is into all the same hobbies I am
>and is a super qt
>after months of talking and hanging out decide to ask her on a real date
>"Sorry, you are nice and cool and well-cut, but you aren't the one for me"

not like this bros ;_;

Yea that's me

Well I'm 30 and have been in my field for.years!!!
>inb4 kys

Have switched companies but I see now the problem has always been me.....

I have worked with some amazing companies but how do I shut off my mind to stop focusing on negative shit....

That's why you show your intentions early on, not after months have passed