Mental Health General - /mhg/

Keep going brother, don't let us all down.

you realize if there are mostly older folks in your classes the young people feel the same way as you do. everyone likes the friendly outgoing guy in college. if you cant fuck at least one girl in your classes each semester you will literally never make it

thanks autismos i really needed that laugh

Last night I had four beers
That was the lowest amount a night in 3 months.
Could lose some real weight if I could drop those cals
But the craving stronk
Also I feel like all my favorite pastime are boring without it and no desire to do anything else

This is one of those things only women are capable of doing

I'm bipolar/manic-depressive.

Going through a hard depressive cycle right now.

I feel my gains slipping.

My friends are all obsessed with the shit state of politics in this country right now, and I'd rather talk about almost anything but that.

Money is tight. I hate my job. I need a new one.

I'm remodeling my house, but the depression kicked in right in the middle of demolition, so I've just been living in a house that's all torn up. There's not a lot of room so my home gym is packed with boxes and stuff that I've had to move out of other rooms to work on them.

I try to pretend that everything is OK because I don't want anyone to think I'm whining for attention. Putting on the act every time I go out is mentally exhausting, and it makes me not want to leave the house to spend time with anyone. But spending time at the house alone makes me distressed.

I want to fix things, but I always feel like I've had a very long day and need some sleep. For those who think depression is just sadness, this is the best way I can explain it. I feel sleepy. The sort of sleepy where you're so tired you can't actually sleep, but you can't really do anything either. I am physically and mentally exhausted, and certain things cause me headaches and a sort of panicked sensation. I've been on various medications over the years, from lithium to olanzapine, and these have either made symptoms worse or caused other problems that made dealing with cycles of depression and mania the more livable options. The way I've learned to deal with it is to do what I can when I'm not depressed or manic to minimize the damage I can do to myself when I am, and then ride it out when it happens.

The only thing that makes me feel better right now is reading. I spent most of last night following links reading related articles on wikipedia.

inb4 someone calls me a loser and tells me to just do what I know I need to do and stop whining about it.

Reblog! You go girl!

Jesus, mate. That's a hard knock life right there

I hate most people around me because I try to hold everybody to the same standard as I would myself and just end up getting disappointed, since I overwork myself into hell most of the time

>not going to college
>work one day a week
>roommates are shitty people in general, best friends or not
>average age of people coming to house is under 20 (buying alcohol for faggots)
>zero friends, regardless of living with best friend and people I met last year
>only person I talk to is my ex, I know she hates me but she tolerates me because we loved each other once
It doesn't get better...
I'm 26 btw.

>finally get my diet and lifting on track
>nearly 3 months of counting calories and lifting so far
>losing weight and gaining muscle, mainly due to me being untrained

Now here's the catch
>no social gains whatsoever
>no facebook/insta
>last friend I had was 5 years ago
>never had gf
>kissless virgin
>can't even drive (20 yrs old right now)

What can I do brehs? I'm thinking of making a facebook/insta right now and start getting some posts up to start my social life.

You dont need a social to be social. I barely use my Snapchat compared to texts

Social media is a meme, lad.
You gotta get out there and actually socialise, join a club or something.

I'm referring to networking and keeping touch with future friends. Aren't social media platforms used for this stuff?

I only use social media to keep up with my mates, but even then a lot of the time we communicate by basic calls/text.
It's useful to have, just don't focus on it

Better get your driverslicence before your parents die.

Failed my life guarding test and now I have no appetite. haven't eaten in 2 days. it cost me $400 to take that test...

I've never had a Facebook or anything like that, I have a snapchat but I rarely use it. Don't need that shit to have friends, just talk to people regularly.
I also have never had a license in my life and while I can tell it bugs some people pretty much nobody cares if I throw a couple bucks toward gas if I ride with them all the time.

Are you in a major city? If so I would highly recommend taking an improv class. Lots of awkward people and hot girls. Teaches you to be out going.

I cannot sleep because

>existential trauma
keeps popping up once every coupe of days or so
>running injury, SI joint
>"why I have no GF, the complete encyclopedic works of volumes that are 20 times bigger than the contents of ALL BIBLES put together", day in day out, every single second now

Whew

I am struggling to get over a girl six months on.

I just feel obsessive and it really makes me hate myself.
When doing mundane tasks I often find I'm talking to her in my head.

And it really irks me because I just feel obsessed and hate that as a character trait. I don't want to be obsessive.

I want to move on and stop deluding myself but I don't known how.

I fucked this twink unprotected a few days back and I wish it never happened. I'm not even attracted to him I only did because he wanted me to. He said I was his first time, but I'm praying I didn't catch anything.

How old are you? If under 20 its a HUGE deal. Most gen z are spending like 8 hours on snap/insta. And they get mad if you dont keep up streaks. Basically a necessary normalfag evil at this point.

>6 months

Try 5 years faggot

cutting hard. every morning I look at myself in the mirror and feel my gut. idk but my body image sucks. People tell me I'm getting bigger/leaner, but everytime I look in the mirror I just see the imperfections.

Going to school next week. Anxious about not doing well.

I don't want to be like that.

I don't want.

How old are you, out of curiosity?

I'm turning 20 this Jan. I've even been given weird looks by girls when I say I don't have a fb. I'll make it today.

I'm the same way man. I didn't leave the house for months due to panic attacks. I realized that bring around other people is what helped. Even if it was sitting in a café people watching.

I have such problems with girls, it affects my life so hard. I've pretty much only had negative experiences, or good times that always end badly. I get my hopes up all the time. And I'm in this weird mental place where I'm not really interested or even attracted to girls except for these two girls I know who I don't think care about me at all

It's like I want to be done with women for awhile but I just can't, yet also at the same time I'm not even interested in women, I can't really explain it.

I feel like half the reason I'm even lifting is just to show all the past girls who did me wrong that I made it, that they're missing out on me

26.
People give me a lot of shit about not having a license because I don't have to be designated driver and all that.

I suffer from, I call it "complete lack of trust in society, and the people who inhabit it"

Going into society, into workplaces, and interacting with people, when you go off from our reservation here...its damning. Well maybe not with you, but with me unless a person hits every mark of which that is good (hard working, confrontational but not brutish, family man, aware and outspoken of the problems, some level of intelligence, drug avoidance etc." I dont really like them, and 90% of people are not like that at all.

Sometimes it feels that I can extremely easily make friends and even like people, socially that is. But trusting girls. Its like a doubled edged sword. You know you want them, but you also know that they probably had like 20 dicks in them, STD's, and are generally terrible people probably. Most marriages end in divorce. A lot have tattoo's. Its just how can you trust even a single one of them. Jesus, thats probably the hardest thing ever to do in life. And then there is the fact that there are millions of them. You cant just trust every single one of them. The statistics on their averages dont lie. Why is tis so hard to deal with :(

i ended up moving back home and admitting failure over living in a place like that.

>be kebab
>coworkers are mostly blatant /pol/fags

I've been hiding my user power level and none of them have said anything too weird yet, they're mostly just harmless crusty metalhead kids but one in particular gives me some seriously bad vibes and I can tell one mistake will set him off.

I need this job to pay for school and it's right down the street from my house (i.e. free short commute) so I can't justify trying to find another.

Not the biggest deal but the stress adds up.

I hate the fucking city I just moved to.
>bodymore murderland
>landlord is absolutely a shady slumlord, apartment still isn't completely finished 3 months after the move in date
>homeless people at literally every intersection begging for money aggressively, with open wounds and track marks
>car has been broken into twice. Fuck me for driving a Lexus
>parking police are so autistic I've racked up $200 in parking tickets on absolute bullshit
>every road is full of potholes
>every slight detour goes through the projects
>lift the hood of my car to clean out leaves from around my wipers, find 8 cigarette butts people had shoved in there
I hate this fucking city so much. It has no redeeming factors at all. Fuck the Orioles, fuck the aquarium. The foods not even anything special here. I was told I was being recruited for work in the DC Metro, which is bullshit. Baltimore-istan is it's own animal.

>alcoholic at 18
>alcoholic at 20
>alcoholic at 30

I'm kind of in love with one of my friends. She isn't good for me, we don't have much in common, and our goals don't align with each other, but God dammit she's gorgeous, funny, and good in bed. In my head I know we aren't right for each other but my feels and my dick disagree.

worst week of my life bros:
>crash my dad's car while he's away
>get food poisoning immediately after I took a week break from lifting because I impinged my shoulder
>failed one of the summer courses I was redoing because I missed 4 out of 14 lectures. >got a D in the other course I was resitting because I failed it last time. I still don't understand why I did fine in my midterms and the final was really easy.
I've only ever felt worse than now when my first crush rejected me and I acted like a beta about it when I was 17.

I don't even live in the US and I know that Baltimore is an absolute hellhole. Lmao might as well move to Africa, you shoulda known bro, that's all on you.

Become a pol fag too and play them at their own game

I don't like kebabs either but I don't get why you'd ever take this shit to real life.
Literally just play their own game against them.

I literally have no self-esteem, and never have. Chronically depressed with pretty severe social anxiety, I'm 33 and make 25K a year. Never had a girlfriend, and never had sex.

After I turned 30 I've been trying to get myself into some sort of shape (always been underweight and thin, poor diet). Eating better, working out, getting a little sun. Unfortunately women still ignore me, and I'm still skelly as fuck. Can't gain weight, it seems, because of some health issues, including IBS and GERD.

I'm really a failure.

anxiety is eating me up inside
i'm anxious/stressed the whole day basically for no reason
i just want to feel normal again ... only lifting fixes this shit but it's temporarily

You probably smell. Go back to kebabistan.

hey user, you remind me of me not too long ago, I probably went about a year doing the same thing, thinking the same thing (hobbies aren't fun without booze), but it really is just a matter of willpower. You're not too far gone, it's only been a few months, try to go every other day for the week and see how that goes, tapering will really help you kick the sauce. I never really drink on consecutive nights anymore and usually limit myself to 1-2 unless I'm out with friends.

And that time not drinking isn't spent counting down the minutes to my next drink, I really just don't have a taste for it like I used to. Once you realize how much better you feel you'll wonder how you go started in the first place.

I was offered a 2 year development program with the biggest company in my industry, I would have moved anywhere for the opportunity. I just need to get the fuck out when I'm done. I've been here 3 months and I hate everything about it.

Baltimore is alright, I live here and like it.

>craving

I prefer trying to live cancer-free
U mad cracka
But for real these kids ALL have bad hygiene, they have 1 or 2 black hoodies they wear every single day, none of them brush their teeth, they go months without a haircut...they seem to think normies hate them for their music taste or some bullshit like that when really I'm guessing it's their awful presentation and the fact that they communicate entirely in meme catchphrases.

I have the WORST public speaking anxiety. I dread uni every beginning of the semester because it means my faggot teachers force us to do stupid icebreakers. Everytime it happens, my heart pounds like crazy, I get sweaty, and end up stuttering when it's my turn to speak. Worst of all is most others notice it when I do and it's embarrassing as fuck. One time when I did it in sophomore year, a dude came up afterwards and was like "are you okay"?

KILL ME.

What you resist will persist. See a therapist.

I'm going to guess you live in fed hill. This city is a rathole.

Just talk to the older people. I'm older now but when I went to a CC I hung out with people from different age groups. Don't need to be BFFs but hey, at least you get to socialize. Actually going to university sucked afterwards because the people my age weren't even social. Good luck, user.

Do you have any friends? I was the same and improved a bit, but still not friends.

Not really, just one or two close ones. I did slightly better this year as a senior but it still sucked.

>same crush for 5 years

That feel.

>when she moves to another state and you fantasize of flying her out for a date
Beta as fuck, I know.

I was like that for years

One day it just vanished and I didn't care anymore at all

>icebreakers
Holy shit I hate this. No one even remembers anything afterwards though so don't sweat it.

i met a girl on MSN 10 years ago.we kept chatting online but never met up.she looked 5-6/10 on the pics.we decided to meet up for beers and HOLY FUCK she was an 8.
problem is im in a relationship and i cant get her off my head.i keep thinking about her and i dont wan't to ruin our friendship by hitting on her or anything and i dont want to cheat on my girl.im so confused Veeky Forums

My "friend" backstabbed me during a river camp and I was forced to spend a night below the same tent roof with him. During the incident I was mad, furious, but was talked out of beating the shit out of him by our mutual friends. The little jackass thinks that he did nothing wrong and claims he would repeat the deed given the occasion. The same guy used to make fun of me (kinda usual friend banter but my friends actually DO good shit for me, this one hadn't) for some reason. I dropped all contacts with him after the return and we've never met alone after that and my hated only gotten worse. Once I've stumbled upon him in public, grabbed by the collar, dragged and almost thrown off the train - but came to my senses after 10 seconds or so. Now we both are invited to that mutual friend wedding and I fear I might snap and snippity-crack his fucking manlet neck. What do?

What exactly did this guy do that makes you so angry? This sounds like a dumb dispute dude.

>be living at home, 21, going to college
>make clear to parents that I want to move out for myself
>they don't want it because they see I won't be able to get by financially, who is gonna do the dishes etc
>feel like they can't cope with me leaving
>dread every moment I wake up or head home from school/gym/friends/whatever

They're probably more like 25 and just look bombed out and depleted from the townie life of percoset and cheap liquor.

Either way those people are probably better to hang with than the knobs your age

We two were asked to row the canoe up the river against the flow, I was the main frontal rower, struggled, failed, told him to try reaching the shore to pull it walking ashore, he disagreed, thrown me his paddle, told "here's the paddle, here's the boat, go do it yourself" - jumped off and left me with the equipment just seconds before the rapid. I was forced to go through that by myself, row to the shore and carry the aleutian kayak on my back to the camp ~ 0.5km through the forest.

looks like the problem here is that you're not Veeky Forums enough.if you did more rows and pullups you would be able to row through the rapids effortlessly and 500m is not a long distance to carry a small kayak.

I guess so. Gotta work on that.

>cyclothymic
Was feeling like a sad cunt all weekend, induced hypomania and went to gym for leg day.
Feels like I have warm pulp instead of legs

>35
>living with parents
>Unemployed for over a year
>No more money left
>Not even in America, 3rd word country
>Dont have a car so i cant Uber

Last couple of weeks have been kill. Suicide thoughts have gone rambling in my head allmost cry in the gym.

The few things that make me stop thinking about it is the fact that i have a daughter and the burden on my family for my actions.

This year has been a total shit, a wasted year.

are u under 6 feet? looks to me you have the manlet rage

>in love with girl
>says she loves me, but as a friend
>sends mixed signals sometimes
>acts really mean but really lovable different days
>i'm moving to uni in a week and she says she's going to miss me so much
>trying not to fall in the trap and tell her i'll miss her too

also
>lost about 130 pounds
>still feel more insecure than when i was 320 pounds
>feel like i'm still fat af
>feel like everybody's compliments are forced and not sincere
>random guy at the gym today said I've been slimming down
>don't believe him

I am legit crazy and I don't know how to fix any of it. 20 year old virgin btw

Nah, exactly 6'
>inb4 thresholdlet

[spoiler]Had a good laugh and that actually fucking helped, thanks![/spoiler]

>It's like I want to be done with women for awhile but I just can't, yet also at the same time I'm not even interested in women, I can't really explain it.

The reptilian part of your brain wants pussy, even if it's illogical. It's simply evolution.

The silver lining is that your sex drive starts to taper off in your thirties, so if you find it annoying it's really just a waiting game.

Honestly Facebook is grandpa shit by now. I can't think of anyone under 18 that uses it. Just make a snap, your score will be low af but it doesn't matter. If a girl asks say you just made it or dont use it much

>close your eyes
>lay your head down to sleep
> a million thoughts flood through your head
>stay up playing vidya or going on a run instead of dealing with the voices in your head
>exhausted the next day
>repeat
How do I break the cycle

social media is like salt or pepper, you can't make a meal out of it but it's important.

If you want to start making social gains, spend as much time as possible around people your age. I'm talking college clubs, lessons for something, charity groups maybe, certainly parties. When you meet someone cool, have them add you on snapchat, you can message on there and it's easy to send funny little pictures to keep social and keep you on peoples minds.

Get over it bois, she's just an unhealthy oneiits.

the cure is other women

Learn to meditate.

Everyone is on fb tho.

>caring about what people under 18 use
???

Do I want muscles or do I want to be tiny and thin and delicate? Not eating is extremely cheap

Also I hate myself

kratom

Thanks user, will do all that.

I just turned 19 and literally nobody in high school used Facebook. Nobody my age does now either. I guess its an old people thing

I've transferred colleges twice so I'm good at meeting people.

I made a point out of trying to go to every club on campus first semester. I met hundreds of people, tried foods from new cultures, unicycled, hiked, and swing danced.

I go to these places not caring if I look out of place, I talk to people, and when I find some cool guys or girls I just say "hey let me get you guys on snap". It's really low commitment compared to giving out numbers. It's just a two second scan.

Just go with it but dont get too attached user. Say you love them but in your head keep a lil distance so you dont get sucked in too much

I thought snapchat was only for nudes or something? How is it different from insta/fb

What do they use now?

I mean yeah fuck that dude, obviously he's a cunt, but I wouldn't be "start a fight at someone's wedding" angry over that.

I'm surrounded by people, but at the end of the day I go to bed alone.

>mixed signals
She's keeping you around as a crutch dude. Don't let yourself be the beta orbiter who gets manipulated. Just separate.

no lol, snap is the most important social media. You send people pictures. If you both send eachother a picture a day, it starts a streak, and if you forget one day it ends. So people send their closest friends a pic everyday. You can send short little funny videos or pics. Posting to your story shows people what you've been doing.

fb is for connecting with people, and messenger

insta is for vanity (I use it to showcase my art)

>>turns out best friends don't make good roommates

You don't know anybody until you've lived with them. My current roommate I knew for 13 years before, got him all excited about boxing and weightlifting and he dropped tons of weight, first year was fun times. This year said he was gonna spend the summer becoming a new man, instead spent it getting high three times a day and staring at his computer with his mouth open because he doesn't have any actual goals. Fucking stoner.