Veeky Forums feels

Just happened tonight so bear with me.

>went out with an Asian cutie I knew from work years ago
>used to talk and had a somewhat of a relationship together but we never got to do anything: I disappeared
>this fucking girl
>thicc, lifts, and maintains a busy lifestyle
>5' 4" adorable and beautiful to look at
>nursing school and work so no time for much
>makes time to see me and plan go watch IT and then have dinner
>things are great when I see her
>hug her and embrace her
>hold her for a minute and feel her push into my chest
>fuck this girl must like me a lot
>go to enjoy the night with her
>can't stop talking, laughing, joking
>movie comes and we're still being kinda flirty
>scary parts so eventually put my arm over her
>nearing the end of the movie I realize my chance is almost up
>lift her chin up and stare into her eyes
>go in for the kiss
>success.jpg
>she then proceeds to kiss me, passionately, and even while I'm going slow she clings for a little each kiss
>god I'm falling for her I feel like a high schooler again
>walking out the movie she keeps asking me questions about dating and my views
>know she's been hurt before and I tell her about my morals
>her eyes lighten up and she's happy with me and sees us going somewhere
>at the end of the night she keeps asking me
>"user you sure this is serious for you? I can't just waste my time or be played for a fool."
>I tell her and reassure her I like her a lot and wouldn't do such a thing to her
>take her home and I'm overjoyed
>we kissed all night. Held hands. Hugged.
>just a great fucking feeling guys
>until

Cont.

Bump for interest.

>I get a text on Instagram from her sister
>what the hell is this
>I'm expecting the sister to flame me or be overprotective and tell me not to hurt her or some crap.
>I was wrong
>"Hey [user] I don't know you but anonette tells me about you. But as a sister I hate when she thinks she can just get away with things so please don't tell her I dm'd you this cause it's for you to know. She currently has a bf who she doesn't give a fuck about (been with him for over a year) and she's talking to this guy name [edit] who recently went to NY. Now u popped back in her life and ur just a third person she can choose from. I told her u better choose one cause that's hella unfair to them"
>my heart sank and nothing but rage fell over me
>how did I fuck up so bad
>how did I end up with another slut
>why is it when I fall for someone its always the wrong fucking one?
>she [anonette] made it seem like I was the only guy
>every move and gesture and word she said
>it all screamed to me that she was scared of the commitment because she's been hurt
>guess I was wrong
>I texted back and thanked the sister
>told her to tell anonette goodbye and that I will be gone.
>sister acknowledges and I turn off IG and go home

now I'm sitting here writing this and so sad and angry. The whole night she made it feel like I was the only one. That I was the one she worried about because she
wasn't talking to anyone else and just wanted MY reassurance that I wouldn't play her. Why do girls do this? I can't believe I fell for this trap.

The screenshot is her sister and the girl texting. The text is me to the sister.

Get her addicted to meth

>falling for the monogamy meme
If you love someone you dont weaken them by forcing them to rely on you for everything. Never gonna make it

sorry man.

dump her for talking like a fuckin troglodyte

Thanks for the laugh. God damn hearing about other people's troubles gives me such a raging stiffy.

I know it hurts man but at least the sister told you.

Ouch man, that fucking sucks.

hoes gon be hoes my nigga

>tells you about how she's "been hurt"
Huge red flag there mate, I'm speaking from experience. Every girl who has told me this initially has turned out to be a self absorbed witch

>doesn't fuck her
>becomes all emotional instead
Faggot

Yeah I'm really happy with that at least

First date.

And not so much that I'm emotional other than angry with the situation. It wasn't an attachment to her. Its just knowing that I wanted to see something serious again and the moment I do its taken as a fucking game. Lovely.

Should've fucked her and then dumped her.

You can't fall that hard for someone you barely know, man. I have done this myself many times and it only ends in tears. The good thing is every time it happens you mature a bit and when the right girl does come along you won't fuck it up

just fuck her, use her like she's using men.
stop being such a fucking oneitis autistic sperg you loser

I bet it feels like shit but you barely dated her and she was irrelevant to you before that one and only date. Why do you torture yourself? Who cares? Apparently she isn't the right one for you. Just move on, mate.

That runs the risk of attachment. Not everyone can sleep around without developing deeper feelings.

Thing is we were talking a long time before that. We got to know each other a bit and I had a crush on her. Whatever got over it. But then when I contacted her after a while she seemed just as happy as the day we first met to see me. We talked for weeks prior to today and caught up and reminisced. Afterwards we planned to go on our date which was today.

Thing is when I asked her if there was anyone else she said no. I normally don't trust anyone but she made it seem like she was so scared and cautious to get into things with me because she wanted a real relationship like I did.

But nope.
Also I can't sleep with her. Ain't chad enough. I've mentioned it before but she seemed turned off by the idea of sleeping before having a relationship.

Then again after what happened today most likely its just me. It doesn't bother me that its HER. It bothers me because it happened in general. Seems like that's the norm for me and I don't know how to figure it out besides being uninterested or apathetic to most women.

I think I'm the only one who ever worries about what the fuck I'm going to catch fucking a slut. Who the fuck knows what her other dudes have, or whoever those dudes are fucking. Went through that shit twice, I can't deal with that stress anymore.

Look man, she was apparently a liar. There are lots of people who will act like that you. You can't let those things bring you down. Be thankful that her sister told you early enough before you started anything serious with that mongoloid.

It wouldn't be as much of an issue if condoms weren't trash.

OP, you are lucky as shit the sister went out her way to tell you.

Stay away from my girls.
go date some white girls you faggot

Not your fault user - sending love

i feel you mane

>GF shows me porn and says you should fuck more like this

I'm done.

She's right, you should.

you dodged a giant bullet man wew
go for the sister instead she sounds gud

I feel you man,for some people it's really hard to put yourself out to the world and getting hurt like this can crush you,I guess the solution is after few time you develop emotional defense and you don't get attached so easily

>sitting at home, resting after coming back from the gym
>suddenly the phone starts ringing
>it's my ex
>we haven't talked in months
>can't decide if I should pick it up or not
>phone keeps ringing
>figure it may be something important and pick up
>"hey dad"
>"uhh what the fuck"
>"omg user is that you? I thought I was calling my dad, must have accidently dialed you how you've been!"
>hearts starts pounding like crazy, thought I was over her but hearing her voice made the feelings surface again
>just make some small talk with her
>make her laugh
>hearing her laugh puts a fucking bullet to my heart
>mention I've stopped drinking and started going to the gym more
>she seems very happy for me, she hated me drinking
>keep talking like everything's normal
>hang up
>now I feel like fucking drinking again

Fuck my life bros, I moved to another fucking state just to get her out of my mind and it was working too, then this shit happens. Fucking why? I'm probably gonna see her in two weeks too since I'm going back home and we're in the same friends circle. I thought it was fucking done, why?

This is why you cut all links with an ex.

Fix yourself and fix others

only then will you find peace and a qt.

Sounds like you drank in the relationship, guess you didn't care about her just the idea of her.

Working manual labour is fucking killing my gains. I can see my numbers going down as well as my size, not to mention the fucking hours.

Should’ve hung up as soon as she asked how you were.

>ex has blocked me out of the blue even though she told me she'd want her stuff back somehow
>spend night after night sad af thinking about what we wanted to do
>thinking about the anticipation i'd see her again
>this feeling is gone now
i can not lift it away guys

>asian women
They are literally /pol/ crossed with /femmen/

They are insane. Stay away, pure waifu is just a meme.

Guys I fucked up

FUCK

I have a push pull legs split and I just did push 1 yesterday, meant to do pull 1 today. I started doing push 2 and noticed when it was too late, was wondering whys shit so heavy

FUCK

I have begun wallowing in self pity and sadness for a few months now, things go up and down with me and one day I'm happy to be alive and the next I'm worried about 10 different things.

I'm alone, I'm really alone

I have lived for the past year on Veeky Forums, and it is sad that this is my only escape. I stopped hanging out with people and stopped having hobbies

I don't even workout anymore, and I believe that is contributing to my depression in very bad ways

she definitely called you on purpose. You don't accidently call someone if they're in your contacts. She wants you back user

>finally start feeling good about the way i look after cutting down 22kg
>look at picture from 4 months ago
>lots of fat in face
Feel like shit now.

she just wanted to see if she can still put her nails into your flesh and get u emotional. they thrive on these kind of things

This OP

it's only gonna get worse if you don't do something about it

ncie

> Implying a white girl would dm you when her sister is being an objective slut
> Implying a white girl wouldn't justify her sister's actions as being perfectly rational because feminism and sexual liberation

With white girls, you would never even find out she's banging other guys behind your back until like 12 years later you realize your child has none of your genes.

>asians
>not even once
Take your degenerate weebo racemixing crap outta here

step one
>indentify problem
step two
>come up with possible solutions
step three
>fix the problem

it wont be easy,but nothing good is ever easy

If it makes you feel any better, I was supposed to go out with a girl this weekend, she seemed super into me, and now I've been ghosted. You'll make it OP, just keep looking.

got ghosted by my ex too
feels like shit

>feels like shit
The worst part is that there's still a bit of my irrational mind that thinks I might have a chance, but my rational mind knows its time to cut my investment and move on, I wish women weren't such punk bitches.

this feel. I know her friends had something to do with it too, since I turned them all down before. So, by their reasoning probably, if they can't have me, then she ain't gonna either.

feel you
at least you didn't have memories aka relationship and stuff with her

when you put it that way, thats a lot shittier

Pls tell me your not one of those fags who's gf convinced him to do polyamory or an open relationship and now is trying to justify it.

Not being in a committed relationship to play the field is one thing, but being in a committed relationship and playing the field is someone wanting to slut it up while being in a relationship and convincing someone weak enough to go along with it 99% of the time.

Sister sounds pretty based man. I wouldn't know how you could turn this into wifing her, but if you can figure that out thats probably your best bet.

sure is

>trusting anything a woman says
SHIGGY DIGGY

you'll make it my dude, we all will, acquire greek god aesthetics with your pain to drive you

we're all gonna make it huh, nothing left to do besides that i guess

>sit in a row behind 6/10 avg qt with big ass biceps and nice shoulders in college auditorium while watching some bullshit health lecture
>just stare at her like a retard thinking what I'd say to her when it's over
>spaghetti hits and I just stutter at her inaudibly when she passes me by
I fucking hate being socially autistic I fucking hate being like this

>fell in love on first date
>instagram
>sister dmd me (wtf is this even I hate you fucking 16 year old manlets kys)

seriously just end your life
fag

This is prolly fake but fuck it
At least check with the girl just in case you dumb emotional faggot
Does she have any pics of her and her bf on social media? Maybe her sister's a bitch or something
Anyhow, t's not the end of the world

>in locker room with one other guy
>keeps looking at me
>eventually i just say "hello"
>"you look like edward snowden bro"
>h-haha
>"are you an IT student, you look like one"
guy called me a nerd twice in his first two sentences

This, holy shit, how can you value so much a woman you have so few to share?
One date, didn't even fuck and you're acting like a teenage girl who felt in love, go fuck yourself bitch boy

>Get blocked by now Ex-Gf
>She wants her stuff back, presumably
She doesn't give a single fuck about me and this is what hurts the most, has impeeded my gym performance a lot
What a shitty way to end a relationship

Eat more retard

feelsbadman. but its a blessing in disguise really, u dodged a bullet. what if this all came to fruition 6 months down the line? things would be way worse for u then

>he fell for the "Asian women are different" meme

Only applies if they grew up in Asia and aren't Filipino.

>You look like a homo, wanna bang?
>Not getting that pre/post workout brotein
Never gunna make it

put her shit in a box and leave it outside your door. tell her its there to pick up

get on with life and meet more women

Can't, lives in another city
Can't get in contact with her because i'm blocked everywhere

or better yet a mutual friend or whatever. just sever all contact

then put it in a box and put it away for 6 months. if she wants it back, have her pay for the cost to mail it. otherwise, toss it

Might do that

Tried smoking marijuana and for a short time I was happy and had a clear head space.

Now I'm back to feeling trapped, depressed and heads all fuzzy cause I said some shit I didn't mean. Again.

Don't know what to really do with my life.

The more I think about it, the less motivation I get even to lift. What has been a huge passion for years for me, now is becoming a chore.

Just took my CPA exams don't know if I passed, I'm so scared right now brehs.

I'm so sorry OP, it fucking sucks to be fucked, and it sucks even more when she made herself out initially to seem like the victim. All you can do now is some really fucking heavy deadlifts, squats, and try to move on.

Drugs ruined my life

>I used to lie to myself and say everything is fine
>I was busy and didn't focus on my own life
>Once I started using cannabis, that's when my third eye was opened up and I cant' stop thinking about life
I have finally figured out what it means to be alive, and I can no longer sit on the couch and be okay with this for me life

Weed has change my life in so many ways ad I am both grateful and sad the veil of illusion was taken off of me when I started smoking weed.

Tell me more, where are you from? What's your plans in life? What do you wanna do?

I feel the same say and I've only smoked once

Weed made me get my life back on track

My plan is kind of private but most important thing is to not make excuses anymore and if there is something bothering me it needs to be fixed, the longer you wait the worse it will be

Also, ever since I started smoking weed my life changed in that I see patterns in life now and I am able to see the important things in life, the structure of life has also opened up to me

I started at 27, I just wish I started a bit earlier...

...

How old are you now?

i miss you
it hurts a lot that you don't give a shit about this break up at all, it seems

>29
Only using weed for like a year and a half and I actually dont smoke or take edibiles often, every few months

You niggers got meme'd

Never have emotions for women. They are all sluts.
The only thing they can offer is their pussy. Otherwise they are useless disposable terrible "people".

That sucks man. Hope you cheer up soon

This, don't fall for that conniving whore women get a fucked up sense of enjoyment out of being able to fuck with the emotion of men specially ones that they broke up with.

it's shit thing to do

To whom is this post directed at, user

I think I think too much

you and me both

Help me out Veeky Forums bros.

27 KHV with a long history of mental illness. Came from a broken home where my parents neglected me a lot and spent all of their money on gambling as a child. Was taken out of the home at 16 by CPS since I almost killed myself and let it slip to the therapist that my dad used to fondle me when I was younger. Was put on psych meds for many years which did little to alleviate my mood. I ended up putting on 65 lbs quickly and dropped out of school as a result.

Fast forward to about 2 1/2 years ago when I lost my insurance and had to wean myself off of my meds. Eventually I found that a combination of heavy lifting, TRT (diagnosed low T), and sunlight therapy got rid of most of the depression and made me look quite good (went from 37% body fat to 14%).

Now I was no longer invisible to girls and I get quite a bit of attention since I'm 5'10 182 lbs and have broad shoulders. I'm back in college and soon to graduate next year with a bachelor's in biology (no idea what to do with it but I'm glad to finally have a degree - I'm very open to anything). As it stands I'm pretty poor - I have a very old beater car to my name, work a crappy part time job and I'm on food stamps until a better job arises after I'm done with school. I just started talking to a younger girl at school who's only 21 and it turns out we have a lot in common. Should I just tell her that I'm a virgin with no relationship experience when we go out next week or "fake it til I make it"?

>(went from 37% body fat to 14%).

How many months/years did that take?

How about loose skin?

16 months.

Loose skin predominantly on lower stomach (genetically where I store most fat) with some stretch marks on the hips and arm pits near the chest.

Test the water bro, I would potentially lie and say you were a Christian or that experience with your father closed you off to anything sexual, don't make it seem you're a turbo virgin but more of a your own choice virgin

Dude

Are you still on TRT?

Can we talk? How do you manage blood work, do you even get blood work? What TRT dosages are you at?

Do you use AI and HCG?

Nuts still shrunk?

every since i woke up my shoulder blades have been in pain

>Marie isn't real
Hurts desu

Yes I'm still on TRT.

I get blood work every 4 months normally. I can't afford the gels and patches (no prescription coverage only medical) so I just get test cyp 200mg/ml from the pharmacy which I self inject 1 ml every 2 weeks. No HCG or AI (doc wanted clomid 3x a week but my estrogen levels evened out). My nuts have not shrunk but I do get bloated from time to time and have oily skin.