Anyone else here lifting while struggling with depression?

I feel you OP. I have paranoid schizophrenia and have been going through a serious bout of depression for the past two months. I smoke and drink a lot in the hopes that my body will give out soon, as the sweet release of death is my only way out.

same here... i feel lost, without a sense of direction now that she's gone
i know i'm a faggot for letting her dictate how i live, but god damn have i not made "us" my priority in the time we were together

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OP everyone’s depressed. The thing I’ve realized is no one gives a shit if you’re depressed, so there’s no point in boring people out over it by complaining. Nobody likes a whiny faggot. Go work out some more. It’ll get you out of your head and into your body, and you’ll be improving yourself too which is a great way to get undepressed.

>Some people have clinical, physiological depression, so that means I do too, and there's nothing I can do about it

>chemical imbalances in their brain
2017, the current year, where everyone is allowed to believe they suffer from crippling depression because nobody wooped their fucking ass.

sort yourself out already manchild.

the amount of people that have a chemical inbalance is so minuscule and blown out of proportion with faulty stats because of every fat sjw dyke parroting that narative copypasted from blue to cyan hair colors, & doctors are not allowed to check nor have the time to because real problems are still there.

get a grip.
and if you are one of the golden ones , you should fuckin be receiving help

>the amount of people that have a chemical inbalance is so minuscule and blown out of proportion with faulty stats because of every fat sjw dyke parroting that narative copypasted from blue to cyan hair colors, & doctors are not allowed to check nor have the time to because real problems are still there.

Give me back my 30 seconds that I spent reading that horse shit.

He's right you fucking retard

Those people are incredibly rare outside of Veeky Forums, plebbit, and tumblr.

Get outside once in a while and you will see. Stop wasting your time here.

hey senpai, i got some good words for you. the only problem is that these words are going to be so hard to follow that at some point your might just give up.
But dont do it senpai, keep fucking lifting. Kepp lifting no matter how bad you feel or how much your mind wants you to sit and sulk. keep lifting until you feel like you want to die inside and then guess what. keep lifting some more. if you keep doing this thing that makes you feel great you will feel great.

Maybe you should go outside and realize the only reason you're depressed is that you aren't doing anything to live for

I have high test(90th percentile), is not a brainlet(99,9th percentile in language, 90th percentile in math, all according to national university test) is decent looking, lots of gains(always get mired for my arms especially, by both men and women).

Also have lots of money from working hard and investing, and have a quite wealthy father with bazillions of connections who can help me find apartments and shit in this fucked up housing market.

Not a sperg autist either. People tend to like me, and women quite often show interest in me.

Just started a top tier education. Been acing it so far, everyone impressed despite me not even really trying.

In my free time I'm working on a novel. Everyone I had test read the material seem to like it and I've gotten some good signs from a publisher.

But still, I feel like absolute fucking shit about 50 % of the time and 49 % of the time everything is just grey and bland. Only 1 % of the time(usually during the initial stages of getting drunk) do I actually feel good. Still a virgin too because I always chicken out with girls.

It's definitely chemical or some weird shit from my childhood or something.

You are shit on the outside too,never forget that. Kys now you faggot.

Should add that I had quite intense chemotherapy as a kid. And a long history of depression in the family(my mother's sisters are really fucked up both of them).

This. Apparently I have everyhhhing going for me. I've ran marathons, started lifting again and not look so much as a runningfag but I couldn't be more bored with things and it's hard for me to find humor in other people because everyone just seems so figured out. It's like I'm slowly self-sabotaging myself to the point where I can be alone and have the reason to finally kill myself

Ok Blaha. LOL, you fucking joke.

Is this copypasta?

Yes,yes it is.

Kek I just typed it up. And it's all true. But use it as pasta if you so wish.

I have high test(90th percentile), is not a brainlet(99,9th percentile in language, 90th percentile in math, all according to national university test) is decent looking, lots of gains(always get mired for my arms especially, by both men and women).

Also have lots of money from working hard and investing, and have a quite wealthy father with bazillions of connections who can help me find apartments and shit in this fucked up housing market.

Not a sperg autist either. People tend to like me, and women quite often show interest in me.

Just started a top tier education. Been acing it so far, everyone impressed despite me not even really trying.

In my free time I'm working on a novel. Everyone I had test read the material seem to like it and I've gotten some good signs from a publisher.

But still, I feel like absolute fucking shit about 50 % of the time and 49 % of the time everything is just grey and bland. Only 1 % of the time(usually during the initial stages of getting drunk) do I actually feel good. Still a virgin too because I always chicken out with girls.

It's definitely chemical or some weird shit from my childhood or something.

>I have high test(90th percentile), is not a brainlet(99,9th percentile in language
>99.9th percentile in language
>doesn't know how to properly form a sentence.

Kinda this. Not so harsh, but yeah. I fell pretty hard into depression for a couple of years, failed a bunch of classes, lost hella weight, etc. when I finally decided to confront it, I was basically told that it's not that serious, just take meds and get on with life. I still feel bad and it's been a coupe of years now, but I refuse to take meds. I just try and deal with it the best I can maybe I'm only hurting myself, maybe not idk

Somebody post the "why won't my depression go away?" starter pack

This one?

no

>but I refuse to take meds. I just try and deal with it the best I can maybe I'm only hurting myself, maybe not idk

I took depression meds for a while, for OCD though not depression (somewhere along the way they found out that depression meds—supposedly—help OCD symptoms).

Taking the meds was probably one of the worst experiences of my life, and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. You're much better off just getting up, doing some hard work, and trying to do something disciplined and worth while with your time.

Not only do doctors not understand exactly what causes any mental illness, they also don't really have any real knowledge as to why certain medications may or may not treat those conditions. They're just throwing shit to the wall to see what sticks. In 100-200 years we'll probably have much better of an idea what causes these things (and how to treat them), but as of now I feel as though the whole 'mental health' industry is a gigantic scam masquerading as science.

My whole fitness journey is just me going through the motions. I'm wondering if one day I'll wake up and just feel 'normal' instead of being in a funk all of the time. I have no motivation to do anything with my life other than losing this weight right now.

Just got out of a relationship, I feel you

>Be me
>5'8" Manlet
>190 lbs
>~16% bf
>Lift because I'm too stressed out by just how fucked the world is and know that RAHOWA is approaching
>Only joy in life is becoming lifting

Do I have any chance for salvation or do I end it now?

depression isn't real

Nobody takes depression serious anymore since reddit , twitter ,tumblr and normies in general ruined the meaning of it. You rather not talk about it OP , people will not take you serious even you might have it dor real. Sorry mang.

I had a serious case of depression some years ago when I was in my absolute physical peak. After I dropped lifting and my gains went away it became much worse, I would wake up wanting to kill myself and try to sleep thinking of suicide every day. Only reason I didn't do it was because of supporting family and shit. I'm back at lifting and almost as strong as I was before. Moral of the story is do not stop lifting, even if you aren't making progress, you will feel ten times worse if you don't lift.

You have an ideal body. If i were you i probably wouldnt ever cut.
You look like pic related. Like you could be a hittite infantry that kicks the shit outta everyone.

I'd fear an ambush from swarthy giants like you m8.
10/10 would get big shield

>he believes the binary code on a Taiwanese ancestral basket weaving forum can provide life-changing advice

I have been for a long long time. It's the one thing that helps (although I have picked up a few others along the way) and I love my barbell.

Lately, though, I've been trying to cut after doing a strength program for a long time. I'm missing reps, feeling weak and my strength gains are stopping. It is horrible and the only thing that's improving is my pullups. I'm afraid I'm going to just lose muscle and strength and look no better.

It's tough.

The key to solving depression is to have something to look forward to.
Find a new hobby, picture what you want out of life, and gradually day by day wake up every morning thinking: "what can i do to get closer to my goal today?"
And then you will have a purpose. Also religion, convert to christianity, you can find purposesaving people from damnation and pleasing the Lord.

You can also do challenges like
>workout challenges
>diet challenges
>social challenges
>routine challenges
Etc...
You can find ideas for different challenges online. Maybe challenge yourself to acquire a loyal friend that you can discuss everything with and help eachother meet eachof your goals. Working together in brotherhood.

my days are
>wake up
>cry
>browse Veeky Forums for motivation while sipping
>go to gym
>feel good for an hour afterwards
>browse Veeky Forums till night time
>smoke weed
>sleep

I no longer have any hobbies or passion for anything, least I got you dogcunts to talk to

The advice here is pretty solid but unfortunately doesn't get to the root.

You can tell us you are depressed but things like your
>Current situation
>Personal history
Among other things; you can only convey so much on a Congolese Beetle fighting Assembly .

I personally used counselling so this might be a bit biased but the reason I think counselling can be such a powerful tool is that there is that there is the personal touch of being able to divulge all this information. In doing so not only does it become the bigger picture become clearer to them but it becomes a lot clearer to you. Don't underestimate the power of talking.

My dad died two weeks ago after suffering with depression for years. You can shove that trite bullshit that you wrote up your arse.

read camus' essay on Sisyphus
>the struggle is enough to fill the man's heart
read this short post on meaning
reasonandmeaning.com/2016/07/18/
>transcend the very need for meaning

i used to scrape a knife across my throat for hours while lying in bed after work after i read those two essays something clicked for me i obviously won't be able to articulate that shift in perspective as well as camus and that writer can.

ive been an alcoholic the last year

dont even know why i dont stick my 1911 in my mouth

i used to drink a lot. i would spend 16 bucks on a 12 pack of sierra nevada every night after work and repeat the only days i wouldn't drink is when i had no beer left over and when i didn't have to go outside to get to work so i would just stay in my room all day. one time i bought 7 cases and stayed in my room for a week without going outside. i just pissed into the bottles, put the bottle cap back on as well as i could and placed them carefully back into the cardboard box which was in a corner in my room.
once i started hitting the gym every morning before work even just to go into the sauna on my rest days i haven't even felt the desire to drink at all. i'm still friendless though

I've been depressed anxious and basically unhappy and mostly half sane for as long as I can remember.

I actually want to die right now. I can't think of a reason to not hang myself.

But it's a fucking hassle and my family will be hurt. So..I'll just wait for a while longer.

I mostly exercise and do other things to keep my body functioning well so that I can help the people I love. Don't want the depression to force me into having early alzheimers or dementia.
Hopefully it's just thyroid something or other and I can have a clear head

Anyway...
Exercise and strict dieting is basically the only thing that's worked well for me and helped me combat depression and make the black dogs visits less frequent and more bearable.

funny enough, the reasons why suicide was appealing was BECAUSE I thought it would hurt those who knew me but then I realized they wouldn't actually care which made me throw that option away.

also see

>have dyslexia
>read this as "morning punches"
>image some idiot waking up and just punching the shit out of the air while his alarm is going off

I quit lifting for two and a half years because of depression. It has always been something I do so when I got back in the gym I couldn't be bothered doing free weights they made me depressed so I used only machines for a few weeks until I got the motivation back and stated lifting like a real man.
Depression is a bitch and stole so many years of my life so now ist trying to make up for it.

You have a choice of having your gains and depression or going on medication which would make you feel great but might destroy your gains and make you a fatass.

Basically, some of the psychoactive drugs also interfere with other hormones, so if you eat carbs - they don't get transformed to glycogen and stored in your liver like in normal people, they transform into glucose and flow through your blood, which is very similar to Type 2 diabetes.

So go on antidepressants but have your blood checked for every fucking deviation at least once a week or two when you start and then once in a month.
If you catch it early you can get prescribed anti-diabetes treatment, change of diet or another antidepressant.

>but muh calorie in-calorie out / healthy eating

Don't listen to those fucks, you can only find an estimate of your BMR on most sites, the only way to know it exactly is to measure it at a hospital with a special instrument.

You might be thinking that your BMR is 2000, but it might be even as low as 1000, so you have to know it to adjust your diet on antidepressants.

>Who would have known that in the end the heaviest thing to lift would be our feels.

The chemical imbalance theory has been disregarded by most psychs for a while now, user.

Lifting weights carried me through depression like nothing else did. If nothing else, I live to get bigger and stronger every week. I love this shit man, fuck

>walk into gym locker room the other day.
>there’s a sauna inside the locker room.
>outside of sauna has rules posted.
>look quickly at rule list while walking
>rule 2: no eye contact in sauna.
>turn head and read again
>’no eye contacts in sauna.’

>Suffer from CTE due to playing high contact sports
>Constantly think about how hopeless and worthless I am
>Wasn’t like this before concussion last year when I was playing football
>Thought about shooting myself one day when I was home alone
>GF and I broke up for a few weeks so actually plotted to kill myself but we got back together which stopped me
>In my feelings for absolutely no reason stressing about my future and finances

I’m a fucking wreck bros I might off myself soon

Is that a sign of dyslexia? I get this kind of shit when I glance at something quick

>no eye contact in sauna

I was depressed as fuck but then I took the path of the CurlBro and legitimately haven't been happier. I do my regular Upper Lower routine but then I spend what used to be sad porn time instead is now curl time. I probably do thousands every other day

Nah

I still get shitfaced about once a week but that’s a big improvement over doing it nearly every night, which I used to. At a certain point (probably just me getting older) the negative effects the day after drinking started getting a bit worse and it’s become harder to snap back from a hangover, so I’ve just had to pull back a bit on the drinking.

Unfortunately, stopping drinking doesn’t always solve problems I’m itself. You’re usually still left with whatever problems it was that were making you drink in the first place, only now there’s no crutch to lean on. I’m still trying to improve (reduce the drinking even more than I already have done), but the result has been pretty sombering. Also nursing a nagging back injury that affects my gym sessions. Not really sure where to go from this point.

I'm glad he found his purpose later on in life.

Don't listen to this guy, OP.
Cannabis kills (your gains).

Mushrooms have been proven to give you long term relief from depression. 5 dried grams for a better overall life in every way. Psilocybin Cubensis

RAHOWA WHEN?

Dude, do some cardio for that endorphin fix. Read some books. Also go see a Psychologist for a diagnosis and to get a prescription if you don't feel better. Your mind is a part of your body and can get sick like anything else.

I hope you feel better user. You'll make it. We'll all make it.

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>Not only do doctors not understand exactly what causes any mental illness, they also don't really have any real knowledge as to why certain medications may or may not treat those conditions. They're just throwing shit to the wall to see what sticks. In 100-200 years we'll probably have much better of an idea what causes these things (and how to treat them), but as of now I feel as though the whole 'mental health' industry is a gigantic scam masquerading as science.
The more I read about medicine and treatment of mental illnesses, the more I get convinced of this too.
Medical "professionals" are a shitshow.

>framelet
>hairlet
>just barely 5'11
how do i make it? got chad face,and good gainz,but look bad cuz of narrow frame

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Worse, you're smart

Not him, but being significantly more intelligent than most people does make a lot of things hard.

Are you sure you're depressed?

youtube.com/watch?v=vKXD8ZEwAmw

Go to church

It is the same for lots of other medications not just mental illness medication.
Scientists don't even know what makes something "sticky" yet they have ways of making such substances. Is it magic? No they have a basic understanding and go from there.

steroids fixed it for me