How are you holding up Veeky Forums? Personally I'm starting to lose steam. My job's going well, school's going well, lifts could be better but cardio is a pretty big focus for me right now and yet stuff no longer makes me happy again.
Let it all out lads
>Let it all out lads
I'm an engineer, I have a project in my hands and I don't know what to do at all with it anymore. I need to lead this shit but I'm not the best leader since I focus on getting the work done on my own. I have a meeting tomorrow, I haven't prepared and if anything comes up I'll just say I was busy on another project and take the sharp pain. I don't like this client I work with since I don't have the most knowledge on them an I was given this client/project with no training.
I know, I know don't expect training and just learn on your own but the problem is people in other dept (they make wayyyyyyyy less than me ) and they know more about this client/project than I do since I was brought in late
I just want out
I’m tired of all the hassle that comes with life and the constant struggle that if I were to die I would have no complaints
I’m pushing myself down a path that I don’t even like and I can’t do the things I want because of my family
I don’t care if there’s an afterlife, a void, or a reancarnation cycle I just want to stop
But my body keeps soldering on, as if my instinct of survival and power are overriding my brain, as if I’m in a constant battle between anger and sadness
I take my medication but I hate it because it kills all feeling and creativity in me
I have no idea what to do with my life. My situation is pretty shit in a way (it's not shit when you look at it from an absolute point of view but only from a relative one) and I don't feel like doing much aside from maybe getting out of the house, which I somehow always need to do while walking because the car is never available for long periods of time and everything is at a minimum 30 minutes away by foot. And by "everything" I mean like a fucking mall.
I have zero social contact, don't really know how you work up to more than that, am not really sure whether or not I want to work up to more than that...
I feel like all my problems are fake and it's just that I don't want to try ay lmao.
I usually just go for a drive and have nobody in this state that I can talk to. I want to go to a local store at night and maybe just spend a few minutes getting to know someone and will do this in some store or something...
I have nobody and sitting on Veeky Forums is destroying me
>Met girl while on holiday
>Cute/10, makes you just want to hug her
>First time I've opened up so much with another person
>Most romantic sex I've ever had, wasn't particularly amazing physically but the bond I felt was something incredible
>Spent a month together and fell madly in love with her
>Day before she leaves she looks me in the eyes and tells me that she loves me
>Tells me we have to stay in contact
>Text every day for the next month while she's at home and I'm still on holiday
>Skype nearly every day when our timezones match up
>I'm finally going home, tell her I'm about to board the flight, she tells me to text her when I land
>Land, turn on phone - blocked everywhere, some of her accounts are deleted
>Have an emotional breakdown for 2 weeks, become depressed, don't leave my room, skip classes etc.
>One day she msgs me out of the blue
>I ask her why she blocked me but she doesn't offer a coherent response, starts breaking down and apologizing
>Becomes weirdly distant and stops initiating conversations
About 2 weeks ago:
>Msgs me saying that she has to tell me something
>Apparently she was honest with me about everything except one thing, she had a boyfriend the whole time
>She thought that our thing would only last a few days or a week while we were on holiday, didn't expect to develop feelings for me
>Her blocking me was her trying to move on and forget about me
>She still loves her boyfriend, and wants to remain just friends with me
>as the days pass she becomes more and more distant, no longer skype, haven't texted in nearly a week
>turn on phone expecting to be blocked every day
How do I move on, I still love this girl, and she looked me in the eyes and told me she loved me
Over the past few days I started looking at other girls romantically again, and slowly letting go of her, but the feeling is still so strong and everything reminds me of her
Join a book club or something
Is there really any choice to be made there? You are literally losing gains for a cheating whore.
Been obese almost my entire life(22). Always been super anti social due to my body image disorder. Finally have a 4pack when I flex my abs. Lost 50+ lbs. Getting skinny as fuck. Hate being skinny. Tired of this cut. Want to be skinny enough to bulk already... Coming down off Adderall. Can only think negative thoughts. Can only think how alone I am. I don't leave my house except to go to work. People look at me like I'm a freak of nature because I'm extremely white. As white as flesh can get. Haven't been out in the sun in God knows how long. People think I'm either on drugs or sick. Life is looking up for once. Idk how to feel. After this bulk when I get a tan I will have made it. I think I'll gain the confidence I need to be normal. I am normal. People think I'm really fucking weird. Makes me wanna fucking end it, but I know better days are to come. Keep your heads on bois. We'll make it. Or fucking die trying...
I had a period of a few days where I was completely fine with moving on and forgetting about her, but today the feelings are back.
Other than that progress at the gym is going pretty well, I'm still not anywhere near where I want to be but I benched lmao1.5pl8 yesterday for 5x5 which is a new pr for me.
Waiting another few months for uni to start, feeling bored.
Also suddenly feeling like I wasted my teenage years looking at my younger cousin enjoying his teenage/school years.
I was a total shut in and missed the experience of enjoying highschool, messing around with friends and teenage romance or whatever the fuck else I was supposed to experience.
Anyway diary entry over hope everyone else is having a nice day.
>Finally got my first girlfriend
>I go soft 2 out of 3 times we have sex.
>Feels fucking terrible, and I worry about it constantly now.
Is it just me being nervous? Have I death gripped my benor to hard? What do?
I have some training in math so I should really try to join a math book club. I want to do bayasian prob.
Cool
Practice foreplay and make her cum multiple times
>iktfb
almost similar situation to you, but she's married now, I just tell myself that if she did that stuff behind her now-husband's back, she would've done it to me. I haven't spoken to here in 6 months, the hardest part for me was not sending her husband a message and telling him what happened.
I guess I just want her to be happy.
My company paid for this expensive online course thing and I'm falling behind, the thing is if I get through it my friend will give me a job earning 2x as much so I need to get through it to dramatically improve my life.
100k here I come.
I guess this isn't really a big problem, sorry. I'm just distracted with the MLB postseason lately.
I don't get these regrets thing. I remember how I was as a teenager and it was just fucking terrible. I needed some serious help and I feel like it could not have gone any other way than it did. That shit was (felt) just fucking awful.
>be teenager
>be emotionally scared and paranoid because that's my personality since childhood and because of the way I was treated
>have become a loner
>one day walking alone in the street next to my highschool
>two pretty girl pass me by
>"Hi user!"
>there doesn't seem to be anything malicious in the tone of their voice
>still paranoid
>Me: "Why the fuck are you even talking to me?"
Literally zero regret.
I am in a position to completely destroy her relationship with her boyfriend, but I wouldn't do that, I don't think I'm capable of hurting her.
You’ll find another girl user
I need some outside opinions Veeky Forums
Gf and I have been together 4 years. We fight all the time about stupid shit which i suppose is kind of nirmal but in the past six months or so the arguments are getting more serious and more heated. She constantly asks if I'm cheating on her (im not and never would) and when I get pissed she just blows me off like I'm being crazy. And recently she's been disrespectful as well, basically talking shit about me in front of her friends and mine. We "get along" in that we can talk about random shit for a long time just fine, and the sex is good but I feel like aside from that the relationship is hollow and were only together out of familiarity. I've been trying to take her out to dinner and dates and do more shit but things are still declining. The situation is making me miserable. Should I keep trying tp fix things or just end this?
I don’t know really. Losing faith I suppose.
Almost everything is going well, job/research. Health is fine, and so on.
But I feel lonely I would like to have a caring girlfriend. I had only one relationship in all my life, 5 years, and I feel like I only got that because she gave the first step, I am shy, I don’t know to speak to women, maybe my childhood fuck me up, I don’t know...
Has been 1 year now, since I went single, I feel like I won’t get a woman never again, feel lost.
Sometimes I wonder, what is the purpose of having success in everything but not having a person to share it…
>speaking to a guy both like each other
>chats shit behind my back
whyyyyyyyyy
I look back and realize that I totally wasted those years being overly self conscious isolating myself from other people.
I would spend hours on the computer and ignore invitations from friends to go out, and then wonder why I'm so lonely.
I feel like a lot of those relationships/friendships that fizzled away could've still been alive if I hadn't been such a retard, maybe I wouldn't be so lonely and isolated today.
Stop masturbating and watching porn you retard. This is how you have good sex
I need some outside opinions Veeky Forums
Gf and I have been together 4 years. Things were casual at first but recently I feel like she wants more. I'm 25 and not ready for anything serious anyway. We fight all the time about stupid shit which i suppose is kind of nirmal but in the past six months or so the arguments are getting more serious and more heated. She constantly asks if I'm cheating on her (im not and never would) and when I get pissed she just blows me off like I'm being crazy. And recently she's been disrespectful as well, basically talking shit about me in front of her friends and mine. We "get along" in that we can talk about random shit for a long time just fine, and the sex is good but I feel like aside from that the relationship is hollow and were only together out of familiarity. I've been trying to take her out to dinner and dates and do more shit but things are still declining. The situation is making me miserable. Should I keep trying tp fix things or just end this?
>I am in a position to completely destroy her relationship with her boyfriend
so was I, and I still am but the thing is, destroying that relationship won't make her want you, it'll just drive her away. She made her choice and, as much as it sucks, it wasn't you.
>She constantly asks if I'm cheating on her
This can be a sign that she has cheated/is cheating on you and is looking for a reason to end it or relieve her feelings of guilt
I'd go through her phone and social media, if you find nothing then confront her about it
Keep in mind I'm a random guy on Veeky Forums but I have heard stories like this before where the girl accuses the man of cheating a lot and it turns out she has cheated herself.
I have a pretty good life; My own house, stable job, reliable family and decent friends. I really have no good reason to be as miserable as I am.
Things are getting easier every week, but I've started to become interested in a girl at work so that will probably lead me into some trouble. I've always been way to slow and tentative when it comes to women I want to hang with.
I'm not bad. Got a fwb that is 5 years younger than me (I'm 22). Not sure what to do about the whole thing, don't want her seeing other people (she isn't) but I don't wanna ask her to be my gf as someone that young has so much curiosity there's a very low chance she would be faithful especially in this day and age. Whatever
I have no idea what the fuck is going on bros. I feel like my testosterone has dipped, but physically i'm making good strength gains. My OHP has gone from 55x5 to like 65x5 (kg) and my body hair is increasing. I'm 21 years old, but feel hormonal as shit. My skin has also become worse, but I'm trying to drink water to improve it.
>I would spend hours on the computer and ignore invitations from friends to go out, and then wonder why I'm so lonely.
I sure as shit didn't wonder why. I was basically bottom of the barrel scum to my group of "friend" and fucking hated social interaction in general because of how threatening they were. Nobody ever looked at me and understood what the problem was. Nobody knew how to help me get out of this and I sure as hell didn't know.
High school was basically all about copping and keeping my head down.
If somebody had taken a look at me and said "you have X-Y-Z problem and this is why you are in A-B-C situation and if you do a-b-c then that'll help fix it" then things might have been different but nobody knew and nobody cared.
>oh user you have good grades and you don't piss off the teachers?
>yeah you're fine
Rofl. The system doesn't know how to take "weak" people and help them get stronger. It doesn't even give a shit. It doesn't see them.
I'm surrounded by self flagellating , self hating white people in university. I thought it was a meme mostly, but now every day in class I have to listen how white people and men especially are the devil, and the whole class is on board with it. I feel like I'm in a cult, and I'll get attacked if I try to oppose.
I'm a science student for fucks sake, I don't have to listen to this drivel.i don't want to sound like /pol/, but this makes the future look bleak for the West.
Yea thats what im worried about. What's really concerning is that she started accusing me after she went on a few weeks long trip to another country with one of her girlfriends.
I'm not liking it.
University is a fucking scheme. I see the same shit mate. Have watched so many friends become fuckwits after "studying"
I wonder if this is normal. I know the average person has probably always been easy to fool, but this is some USSR tier indoctrination ,it's fucking scary.
>What's really concerning is that she started accusing me after she went on a few weeks long trip to another country with one of her girlfriends.
Well it's almost a sure thing then my man. I've never been in that situation so I'm not sure what I'd do, maybe you could tell one of her friends about the whole thing and see if maybe they'll tell you if anything happened. IDK, but she almost definitely cheated
When everything is going well and I'm doing all the right things, like eat right, sleep, train, have the right amount of social events, don't play a lot of vidya, I don't watch porn, etc.
>stuff no longer makes me happy.
Why is this? It happens every single time things go well I can't get happy.
getting over a fever, missed a gym day and I'm not sure if I'll be 100% for tomorrow, outside of that I've been going to church more often and making friends, things are looking up. I just hope this fever doesn't fuck my gym rhythm up
>have boyfriend
>love him
>meet another guy
>have sex, hook him in
>still have boyfriend
>keep other guy on the hook
>suddenly decide you shouldn't be cheating on your boyfriend
>block other guy, fucking him up emotionally
why do women do this
SpongeBob really reminds of Clarisse in that picture. What a grim reminder.