Do men who enjoy being cuckolded suffer from a bad case of low testosterone?

probably

for me it started in teens I developed a huge insecurity complex and became mentally broken, i couldn't get off at the thought of my own penis penetrating a woman.

Did you get out of it?

What the fuck man

not really, still working on developing self worth, my mind's pathology will never recover.

pathology probably isn't the right word, i mean neural pathways basically.

Kill yourself

I have had a massive failure in life and have seen my interest in femdom rise correlatedly. It’s always been the same- when I didn’t get too mark in school and now when I didn’t get that dream grad job. I’m fairly sure it all stems from a place of inadequacy. Only lifting and martial arts drives the demon out for awhile (6hrs). Maybe it’s the T spike telling my brain not to be a retard. I know it’ll all go away once I can settle something to be proud of. Then I can go back to banging sluts and pretending I’m Zyzz brah

it's probably a coping mechanism so you don't lose test, just like people who smoke or drink when they get sad, when faced with your sexual worth being threatened your biology came up with a way to cope that didn't involve violence.

Therefore just do brosciencey high-T, masculine activities. Keep being a man’s man and winning. Maybe that will stop the fantasies

sauce on the fatty?

i don't think it's broscience, by doing new activities over and over you open up new pathways, you just have to really let go of the old way you lived and that can be the hardest part, letting go of this person you sympathized with even if you hated him.

I've been getting off to my own humiliation since I entered the 8th grade. Sad story, I lost every friend I ever had never received any attention from females. Even got bullied from my old friends. Became severely depressed and suicidal, my personality changed from being the "wildest kid in school" to the school loner. Every person who knew noticed the change. Sports coaches, friends, neighbors.

But I started getting off to being put in panties, sissy porn, diaper fantasies, small penis humiliation, and then I found cuck porn really got me off.

I have a 7.5 inch cock so it's not small.

It's a fun fetish though to enjoy with your partner. My last girlfriend would flirt and touch other guys with me present. I like to be made to feel jealous.

I ended up fucking up my brain though with narcotics and have to take a slew of medications now

What did you feel towards your girlfriend? Didn't you feel rage in your guts, disappointment?
And what about you? Do you have no self respect? You got cucked, cheated, replaced, what kind of mentality allows you to enjoy that.

It’s like you know something was wrong with such feelings and didn’t make an effort to stop it.

OP do not accept your brain telling you to be a cuck

Being a cuck is literally the biggest coping mechanism out there, they see themselves as failures and must give in to the world of stronger males and more powerful females and be submissive. As all coping mechanisms, it is a choice to be a cuck and the question is will you back down or continue fighting

you sound like me except I have a 6inch small white penis.

I was deeply in love with her. I thought she could be my wife. I cried initially, felt lots of rage in my gut.

I didn't have any close relationships with her. I do get friendzoned a lot but girls love the fact that I'm a nice guy who'll sit and talk with them about life till 3 in the morning without sex being involved.

I've never been normal. In fact, before the 8th grade I was a very violent kid. Got in lots of fights, threw chairs at teachers, Chased my siblings around the house with knives on multiple occasions

**didnt have any close relationships other than with her**

damn this is literally me i even changed schools a couple times because I was so out of control

i wonder what it all means

…I liked being the confident,infallible 90th percentile guy. I don’t like being a guy turned out by placing himself in fake power exchange scenarios with a 5’3 sloot holding a whip. The fact that I lost out in this made up competition in my head made me lose my self respect. These new activities (degenerate femdom fetishes) may open up new “pathways” but they all correlate to the part of life telling me to not compete. I think I’ve internalized the notion that winning equals only top of whatever pile I’m in. Anything else doesn’t deserve love or affection. It’s pretty fucked up desu

just mash someone's brains in and get it over with you killer

I have even theorized that perhaps i am being punished by God for my past sins (I was an elementary and middle school bully, I told multiple ugly kids and fat girls that they should kill themselves)

I've been an enemy of God my entire life. Perhaps there's a reason I'm a cuck.

I always had to be the rebel.

i too had a strong religious influence that drove me half crazy from paranoia

i wonder what it all means

Mostly just low self esteem. Which usually has a correlation with low T

The cuck fetish has its benefits. Mostly emotional intelligence and intellectualism

a friend of mine got cheated on by his very first girlfriend, this fucked him up mentally and now he is into cuckolding.
also he is a numale so i think he has low test.

More likely simply a case of low self esteem. Before I lost my virginity all I fapped to was imagining watching female friends get fucked by their boyfriends.
After I got in a relationship and banged some chick I realized it was because I thought I'd never get the girl. It took me until age 24 to lose my virginity so that might explain it too