How you holding up ?

Shit I had an itchy butthole once so bad I couldn’t sleep. It could be your laundry detergent. Try putting some witch hazel on it.

just hit 2pl8 bench for 3x5
feelsgoodman

>And what about you OP,how are you really doing?

Its odd I have had an amazing month so far, everything in my life has been going really well and I have been happy for some time now.

But something happened a few hours ago and I'm trying to deal with it, I don't know what exactly caused me to be this depressed in the past few hours but sitting at home and a few hours ago pretty much depression hit me hard, almost like I hit a brick wall and I just feel like sitting here and crying tonight, I don't know why. When I say things have been going well for some time, I really mean it, but tonight for some reason. I'm not myself and the feels have me tonight. Tonight they have me pretty bad

You from the bay?

What the fuck is that stupid shit on the bottom?

mornin user

>jiu jutsu session yesterday
>new guy comes in
>The typical fuccboi we all were before we got our asses kicked 200 times
>tfw I will not be on the receiving end for fucking once
>feelsgood
>last 30 mins, free roll time
>instructor sets me up with newbie
>Newbie goes full sperg and tries to use raw strength
>ends up pinned cause leverage > autism
>starts getting visibly flustered
>ask him if he is good
> doesn't answer and proceeds to push my face
> k lel
> push his elbow to the side and use simple head lock
> he grunts as I slowly apply ore pressure
> starts thrashing and pushing at my hims with 1 arm
> holy shit this guy
> Instructor tells me to stop
> his lips were blue
>Why didn't you just tap
> He recovers and starts brooding
> after five minutes instructor says to roll with him
> he got repeatedly destroyed

that probably took the pride out of him

things have been going pretty shitty for my LP, but today i finally power cleaned 205, so, there's a confidence booster

didn't ur mom teach u how to wipe?

I got mired today in the gym. Felt good. I'm a dyel though so Idk why she was smiling at me

I asked a friend to bring me to the gym for the first time.
He's extremely excited for me so I think I'm going to make it.

quads confirm

clean that shit man

Hang in there,take a deep breath and realize this is all just a phase and there's actually no reason for you to feel this way since you've got nothing to be depressed about.

Happens to me too sometimes,sudden surges of happiness or sadness,nostalgia and other conflicting feelings which really do not have their place if you consider my life at the time they appear.

Get some rest,try and put yourself in a comfy mood/take your mind off of it and it'll pass,trust me.And remember : Everything's going for the better

17 days post gyno surgery, only incision needed because muscle + shredded

can only lift in january but so far everyones impressed with my recovery, myself included.

only downside is, despite maintainign my weight, my abs disappeared and my love handles popped up
plus I feel puffy and swollen everywhere but in my nipples which are flat and dont even look like I had surgery

pics?

Thanks.

I'm sure it will pass. I just don't understand why all of the sudden tonight the feels have hit me badly. I have nothing even bothering me right now I just don't understand why tonight the feels and sadness is hitting me.

yeah it happens sometimes user

Do you have a decent social circle? I was pretty depressed until I got a group of good mates. Unfortunately we are social beings and require social interaction. If you got no mates join a club, like jiu jutsu or any martial art. That's what worked for me.

Make sure you're getting enough sleep too. That shit will fuck you up if you get sleep deprived.

dont have any on my laptop yet and I've only take one with my phone, hate how puffy im looking but will probably post my experience here once I hit the 4 month mark

to anyone interested, have a healthy diet(plant based but not vegan), get swole and then lean and things will be really easily

Fucking nice brah

good luck

Started going hard with the exercise again so maybe I'll get somewhere this time. Eating peanutbutter sandwiches between meals to try to bulk up a bit.
Still depressed that ex cheated on me with a black dude because stupid white people have to spite parents attitude. In my desperation got a tinder gold subscription to try to find something easier since i can see who likes me, but no one responds to my texts or at least don't do it for long. Computer broke the other day and i had to reset it so it could start working again so now i lost some gamedev shit, it's minor but inconvenient.

I don't think I'm gonna make it anymore.

Don't worry about the thicc too much user. What matters is that you have the mental discipline to get rid of them at will. Also muscle memory helps.

I've been at this language school for like 5 months and they just told me that my attendance isn't high enough to officially graduate... After it's too late to do anything about it. I got the flu for a while and was out of school but they won't let me. If it had been 1 less day it would have been fine but no one ever told me this was even a danger until now

I went out with a group of people last night and hung out a bit late. Had about 5 hours of sleep and maybe that is contributing to it somehow. But to be completely honest

Things are going really, really good and to the point I don't want to sit here and gloat or talk about the good things.

There is no real reason for me to sit here and be minutes away from tears, WTF

Im hoping once I get back to lifting, I'll be able to lose the fat and build muscle for a while since it'll be like 5 weeks out of lifting which is a lot and I've read its possible in those cases

That sounds like a rough fucking patch
But they happen user,and you'll get through it to come out better.
Stick to lifting,hard,heavy shit.Get those good endorphins feelings.Power through it.

You'll see the light at the end of the tunnel,one way or another.

Plan your meals out user, even if it's rudimentary shit like cooking masses of chicken and sweet potato at the beginning of the week and eating it whenever you feel hungry.

Fuck your nigger slut ex. It's a good thing she cheated so you could see her for the skank she is. Unfortunately you need to sift through masses of shit tier girls to find waifu material.

Consider testosterone if you are feeling depressed and weakly motivated.

some mama bear milf complimented my dl form the other day while I was warming up

Thank you user

Well to be honest I feel like life it's working now. I had the balls to get out of a toxic relationship some months ago, and I feel like I'm getting over it finally. Living by myself again, going out with friends again, lifting seriously again. Hell even had some pussy from tinder last week. I started playing piano, and since I'm good at it I got in a good music school, it may not be physics or architecture like I planned some years ago, but I'm happy with it. For once in my life I'm feeling nice, and it's really nice to feel nice. I love you guys.

INTESTINAL WORMS
user hasn't been washing his hands properly

Then cry, user. No point holding it in. It happens to me too sometimes and you just gotta get it over with. You'll feel fine afterwards.

Idk why it happens though.

This is the worst finals week I've had so far, but me and my friend still managed to get to the gym together today. Almost missed my final tonight because we got out a little later than expected. Working through the problems while sipping a shake was fun, and I think I did alright. Overall hanging in there, for now

Yeah I've had a couple injuries that put me out of gym over the years, but i gained muscle and lost fat pretty quickly even after 7 months of no exercise.

That, in comparison to when I started gym and fat seemed to cling to me like a motherfucker and gains were pitiful.

>people smiling at the gym DYEL
Lad I don't know how to tell you this, but they were probably laughing at you, not miring you. Or maybe they felt happy seeing someone like you still putting the work in.

Maybe your nutrient deficient bro... you been taking your mulitvitamin? I like the gummies

Thanks other user. This thread has helped out a bit more than i expected. I'll get on doing all of that.

musicians are supposedly the happiest with their job, on average.

but yeah

Love you too brah

probably because it's nice to see people attempting to change for the better. That or you were doing something autistic and funny.

my manager flies off the handle and screams at me for super minor things. Everyone in the office knows they're fucking crazy. I've been so stressed at work that I've lost 7lbs in my first month working there.

keep grinding user, we're all gonna make it

Maybe she's trying to be a muscle girl so she can conquer the hearts of cute little twinks

SOLUTION(s):
report him/her to HR
or
find a different job... give your two week notice though. Be the better man

Find more work bro

jeez

Then when you got work tell your manager to fuck himself so he learns not to be such a cunt

>busy semester
>not eating, sleeping, or working out enough
>mfw lost ten pounds

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buy the cheap ass medicine on amazon and thank me later

fell down some stairs recently and landed square on my ass. poop was full of blood the next day. ruptured blood vessels in my rectum from the impact.
Luckily my tight butt prevented me from breaking my tailbone.

>>How you holding up ?

>No job
>Just want an apartment to live at
>Don't even need internet just me, gf, and weights.
>Even on a normal job might not be able to afford it combined with bulking, car insurance etc
>Mentally exhausted for thinking about it everyday
>Just want peace
>Continually push myself to do better
>Things probably won't get better at this rate and I'll exist in a purgatory of constant work trying to improve my life

I have so much stuff to say that I never say, I could literally sit and write for hours and hours, I might do that when I finish my exams, just let every thought I have out on paper.

I also think I'm schizoid. I have a gf and quite a lot of friends but I have no real connection with anyone. I feel 100 miles away most of the time. Like I'm not really "there".

I feeling when you have a itchy asshole and you finish taking a shit and you wipe really hard and it feels so good against your asshole

I hate myself as much as I did yesterday and as much as I will tomorrow. Steady pace towards grave.

Post it, I love reading stuff like this

>Began lifting on my own, didn't want to tell anyone to disappoint them when I inevitably give up for fail
>Friend noticed my improvement the other day
feels good. It's barely noticeable at this point but I'm excited to make a change.

Work hard today, so you can feel different tomorrow

It's currently 3am and I have an engineering math exam at 9am, otherwise I would

Finding a job is easy

Start focusing in small pieces on what you need to do. The majority of us know what it takes, but so few people actually take those chances and try to do something different

Already done my training, it is 4:30AM in my country.

>3am and I have an engineering math exam at 9am

Y-you should be focusing more on your sleep patterns, get some sleep

Just finished exams. Feeling good.

Gonna see if I can OHP 210 later tonight

>Already done my training

My point isn't about training, I couldn't care what you guys do for your gym time or what routine you follow

Life has more meaning than what you do in the gym, get to it

Work harder

>Taking chances

I'm mixed about this, on one end I do, but on the other end I don't.

I always feel like I don't when it comes to jobs, I always take the careful route.

I slept for 2 hours, now I'll be up until the exam cramming, well I'm meant to be cramming now

it's my last exam so after that I'll crash pretty hard to recover

why leave it sounds comfy

She never looks at my snap stories and if she does she's one of the last to do so

the image would be better if it had no umbrella

she's not the one user

>Just finished exams
I just ended calc with a smooth 72.4%. Good feels. I'd also being doing some shoulder work right now if the gym jester didn't replace the key-code door with riddling jack in the box.

You're wasting time with her, there's always something better out there. No excuses, get your shit together

Work has to have some fucking sense. So work towards what? I don't want to build a house, get married, get kids or have steady (in meaning steadily shitting on me) corporate job. The only thing on my mind right now is taking those 2kg of gunpowder I made during the weekend, putting it in a jar and sticking to my head...you know the rest.

I have opposite problem

>Rejects me after first date months ago
>Always first or second to look at my stories

Should I message her? She rejected me so it'd probably be dumb. Am I assigning meaning when there isn't any there?

>72.4%

Mirin'. I'm probably gonna end up with around a 35% after than biochem final. Thankfully class average is ~40% so I'll probably pass.

Oh god I never look at my girl's stories, should I start doing that? Does she think I hate her?

I'm moving to a new and exciting city with my best friend in 7 weeks. I'm rapidly approaching my lifetime strength goals. I have never received more compliments on my appearance, personality, or work ethic. I am debt free and have 6k to my name. But it's been over 2 years since I reached orgasm from a woman's touch. I feel the longer I go without, the further I get from ever connecting with anyone again. Tonight I have the strongest urge to kill myself since my first attempt when I was 13. I just got to the gym in an attempt to lift this feeling away, if only for a little bit.

I wish I had comfy things to share. No matter how hard I work to make myself more fit and stronger, no matter how hard I try to be funny, or how confident I try to be, my social gains are in the negatives. I hope my situation will get better lads, here's to soldiering on

35% hey that's pretty good, I'm ending physics with a very similar grade it looks like, but I'm 1 of the remaining 6/21 students who hasn't dropped out pajeet professor's shitty class, and above the curve too, I don't know how this will even turn out.

Start working on yourself, those "feels and scary thoughts" aren't that bad and are just thoughts. You're moving to a new place? That is a new start, take the time. The people who make it are the ones who started and kept to a schedule

I actually have the same thing, and she's happy with a bf (I think.) Maybe we're both retarded

>tfw grade inflation university
>3.9 GPA in STEM
>Never gotten below an 83 on a test
h-haha, what's it like down there, b-brainlets?

Naaa, every chance you take is a chance you took. Eventually you do make it if you keep trying,

Same story throughout history, keep going. You'll do well if you keep trying

I heard some get really envious or jealous because you're prob looking at other girls'. I dunno

>Work has to have some fucking sense. So work towards what?

You're making unnecessary excuses. Your perspective is out of whack or you are weak

Pretty much same, feels good.

For me
>Working, and see qt come in (she's been here before)
>She goes upstairs to free public pc's
>When she comes down I try and say "goodnight" to her
>She doesn't hear me, and just keeps walking
That was the only thing that made me feel bad today, I'll try again next time I see her.

I'm just thinking that she must be at least somewhat interested in my life to be looking at what I'm up to the second she sees it. I don't look at the stories of boring people or people I find uninteresting. Maybe she's different.
I should probably either delete her so I can stop thinking about her or message her and get rejected again.

Starting to think I have a genuine mental illness

My social skills are so bad that I'm probably in the bottom 1% of all people in ability to make friends/relationships.

been trying to work courage up to ask girl I like. Problem is I dont know how to small talk and Im pretty sure shes getting a bit weirded out cause I been talking about only school the past two semesters. I only have one more chance.
On a lighter note I used my turbo autism to get good grades and make some kick ass projects.

Holding up pretty well
>started lifting
>working on digital fast(pic related)
>slowly starting to get over anxiety and agoraphobia
>reading more
>started /noporn/
>gonna go to uni soon
Maybe I'll even get into some meditation soon too

Probably lad, I honestly have no idea

Its okay user, no matter how many people I'm surrounded by I always feel alone, but I used to be like you, without anyone. It doesn't get better, but you could at least strive to be where I am, and I'll strive to be able to feel close to people.

cut kinda fell off but it's going good again, could be better though.

schools going good, but it's over for me soon and I'm getting anxious that once it's over it'll be hard to maintain my physique goals once I have to work.

It's pretty bad, i failed MAT 1101, the teacher was really good too, i just forget it all once class ends.

>hit 2pl8 1st time
>go on break for thanksgiving
>havent been able to hit it since