Save me, / fit /!
First of all, I have to leave, I post this message before, so sorry if I do not answer
Do not worry, I will read you all very carefully
A big thank you to those who will answer me (for good or bad)
I will note all your advice carefully
So to summarize I'm a big pile of shit, overweight, with big problems of willpower and virility
Depressive, suicidal, apathetic, social phobic
I do not know where to start lmao
Following a big depression (which made me alcoholic in the process, lol) two years ago, everything is fucked
I took a lot of weight
I do not move from my bed, I became apathetic
So much so that my heart is racing sometimes alone, sometimes I border the heart attack
I'm out of breath after 5 steps
I do not run more than 2 minutes watch in hand (literally)
I have no manliness, no willpower
I'm phobic social so I can not go to the gym (really, for me it's like a physical impossibility, already when I see the state I'm in when I go to the walmart, lmao)
I have no fucking will, I have to go back to sport since January 1, 2017 :)
My house is a dump, filled with rubbish on the floor, my sink is stuffy with vomit (one night I was too drunk) and I never clean, it's horrible
My depression sucked me, I think it's not normal at this point, it's more than laziness
I just do not have the strength
I am depressed
Since my depression I left in fantasies more and more bizarre
Femdom, strapon, ladyboy ... I have almost no erections on anything else (when I still have an erection lol)
Before my depression I often have an erection in public transport, when I saw a beautiful woman
Since I do not even have the morning erection (except in exceptional cases)
My dick became weak and soft
I feel PHYSICALLY (I swear, literally, it's too weird) my balls SMALL and WEAK, like a diffuse pain
I would have loved to be a virile and healthy man
save me
I go there, thanks to those who will answer