Save me, / fit /!

Save me, / fit /!

First of all, I have to leave, I post this message before, so sorry if I do not answer
Do not worry, I will read you all very carefully
A big thank you to those who will answer me (for good or bad)
I will note all your advice carefully

So to summarize I'm a big pile of shit, overweight, with big problems of willpower and virility
Depressive, suicidal, apathetic, social phobic

I do not know where to start lmao

Following a big depression (which made me alcoholic in the process, lol) two years ago, everything is fucked
I took a lot of weight
I do not move from my bed, I became apathetic
So much so that my heart is racing sometimes alone, sometimes I border the heart attack
I'm out of breath after 5 steps
I do not run more than 2 minutes watch in hand (literally)

I have no manliness, no willpower
I'm phobic social so I can not go to the gym (really, for me it's like a physical impossibility, already when I see the state I'm in when I go to the walmart, lmao)
I have no fucking will, I have to go back to sport since January 1, 2017 :)
My house is a dump, filled with rubbish on the floor, my sink is stuffy with vomit (one night I was too drunk) and I never clean, it's horrible
My depression sucked me, I think it's not normal at this point, it's more than laziness

I just do not have the strength

I am depressed
Since my depression I left in fantasies more and more bizarre
Femdom, strapon, ladyboy ... I have almost no erections on anything else (when I still have an erection lol)


Before my depression I often have an erection in public transport, when I saw a beautiful woman
Since I do not even have the morning erection (except in exceptional cases)

My dick became weak and soft

I feel PHYSICALLY (I swear, literally, it's too weird) my balls SMALL and WEAK, like a diffuse pain

I would have loved to be a virile and healthy man

save me

I go there, thanks to those who will answer

I'd fast to lose a lot of weight and start doing body weight exercises at home until you feel like going to the gym.

1: Go see a therapist to fix your mental health. Get therapy, ask for some medication...but do something
2: Read the sticky
3: Develop discipline
4: Start lifting

Also couch to 5k. Running in the sunshine will probably make you feel better even if you can't do it for that long at first.

Don't take life so seriously
That's how I got over my depression and social anxiety I stopped taking it so seriously
Follow the advice of the people here to lose weight and get fit, I recommend intermittent fasting and calisthenics
We're all gonna make it brahs

take vitamin d3 and zinc supplements

Make yourself want to change by self reflecting on your life. Do you always want to be this weak and useless? If you can't at least do this, go for a walk every morning and cut out most of your sugar intake. Morning cardio will start to alter your perspective on life and has the possibility of giving you some drive. See what your actually addicted to is dopamine, whether it's porn or food. Get rid of sugar first and slowly start to shed off the toxicity and replace it with inner/mental strength and confidence to reach your goals. Something morning cardio can definitely manafacture in your psyche, just don't ever run, walking and diet is all you need.

thank you to all of you

>1: Go see a therapist
no user..

why

read the fucking sticky fat piece of shit

thx user

see a doctor?

no user..

Yes user, it WILL help you

lose my money talking to a Freudian crook or end up being destroyed by drugs?
I have enough people (((neat))) of their depression in my entourage to not want to go

destroyed by drugs? nigger, read what you wrote

yes
destroyed by drugs
you do not know anything
go take you a (((treatment))) for depression for 3 months
they all end up like zombies
and are never cared for
I know dozens of examples

Listen to Jocko Willink and Jordan Peterson. Any of Jocko's podcasts will be fine especially his one with Peterson, Peterson's podcasts with Joe Rogan are a good start too.

Both of these people changed my fucking life and introduced discipline into my daily habits. I never get up without making my bed, I never leave my dishes undone, I never leave my house untidy or my sink dirty, and my willpower in avoiding unhealthy food has improved dramatically. Just from changing my mindset and reminding myself why it's important to be responsible and to have discipline.

It hasn't magically cured my anxiety but sorting all of this shit out and becoming a decent, respectable human being will alleviate that somewhat.

i was depressed and suicidal
went to a psych, kinda helped, but what helped me the most was remeron
i can feel with not wanting to go to a psych or get drugs, so was i before the suicidal thoughts got bad. But im not going to preach more about it, its not the answer for everyone

Psychology is pseudoscience, and psychiatry is a (((pharmaceutical company))) sterilization/ lobotomy campaign. You're doing yourself a favor by not falling for either meme.

Deal with your psychological issues like a man, by carrying the pain and using it as motivation to achieve your goals.

thx bro

I guess the best way to deal with depression is by taking the advice of someone who's overcome it. I've never has depression but here is some advice I found

continued

For the love of God please OP don't give up.

I can sometimes feel myself spiralling into depression and laziness, but I do what I can do fight it. You gotta start somewhere. Set a goal no matter how small and achieve it. Work your way up. We're all fighting our demons, myself included. But that's part of the journey. What's important is that we're all gonna make it, you included.

I dont know you well, but just know that at least one person believes in you. Don't let me down bro

>ask for advice
>receive advice
>disregard advice

Enjoy being a sad fat

thx u so much bros..