Confess

Confess.

>4 years into lifting
>still no 1/2/3/4

I‘m a soyboy.

There are days in which I don't eat vegetables at all

me too uwu

I use my housemates towel post workout then place it back with his clean laundry.

I ate mcdonalds twice last weekend

I bought 2ds on my nogaming and I play pokemon since then. I skip gym day yesterday. Fuck my loser life.

I couldn't do 3x10 OHP today so I did 8 reps, set the bar in the rack for 5 seconds and did 3 push presses to finish each set.
I tried front squats and I didn't like them. I don't see the point.
I decided to reduce ab workout frequency from 3x per week to every other workout.

On the plus side I found out chinups are way more comfortable and allow me to retract my shoulder blades better than pullups, and busted out a bunch of reps.

I also ate a whole bag of chips yesterday despite last Friday being cheat day, a christmas party coming up today and christmas later this week.

I slept with my girlfriends mother and the stress is killing my gains

Go back to /v/

My diet consisted of a wendys double and two beers today.

I eat bags of chips after cardio workouts instead of my regular cutting meals.

Perm cut atm, even though I'm 82kg and probably hurting my gains but self esteem issues won't let me do anything but cut.

I keep losing my grip on my 100kg deads, no matter what I do.

I keep going to bed hoping I'll die in my sleep.

I also haven't slept with a woman since my disgusting ex who was my first time, and I don't have the self confidence to get with another woman.

I've been eating garbage take out and having late night snacks, but I tell myself I'm turning over a new leaf by buying whole foods but still eat like shit.

>1/2/3/4
what does that mean? i keep seeing it and i feel retarded

It's how many scoops you take before OHP, Bench, Squats and Deadlifts, respectively. That's per set.

thanks, user, love ya

Russia was founded by the Rus.
Those lads were vikings.

Glad I have that off my chest.

I skipped legs today.

Today i skipped breakfast father
I don't lnow if i will be able to tale enough calories in lunch to conpensate

1 plate ohp, 2 plate bench, 3 plate squat, 4 plate deadlift
a plate is 45lbs, 1 plate each side is +90lbs +45lbs on bar
135lb / 225lb / 315lb / 405lb

I binge eat 4000 kcal of the same meal then puke it up. I smoke half a pack over the course of an hour to relax and get rid of acid burn. Then I eat a lighter 3000 kcal meal and throw it up. I repeat the process but stop at 2000kcal meal.

The meal consists of the same thing in smaller versions. A collection of tostitos lime chips and cheese dipping sauce, one rum cake, and the rest is french fries from McDonalds. I spent my time while eating watching scenes from the Paramount War in One Piece, typically Whitebeard in action. Sometimes I'll switch to random Family Guy episodes on YouTube. Then I play Smite (a Moba) it takes me roughly one hour to slowly eat it all. The smite game takes up 40 minutes so most of the eating is done in the first 20 minutes of videos. It's extremely rapid.

i still don't have a gf

You need to seek help user. Thats not healthy at all.

>lost 40kg
>gained back 20kg
Forgive me O Father for I have sinned. I was weak, yea, ungodly and wicked. Lost I seek repentance and also thee to shepherd me. Wretched and woeful is the man I have became. I open my heart to thine loving light. The lamb leadeth the way. Jesus Christ, son of God, have mercy on me: a sinner. Amen.

I can't stop. I hate my job and I hate myself. I'm fit finally but this is my thing.

Sometimes I don't sleep and smoke crack to work overnight. Then when I get home I jack off for 6 or so hours.

I've been doing PPL for 2 years with the same weight in every single exercise

this is pretty much every single pplshits who are intermediate and below. don't feel bad

I cut by eating only chicken wings, carrots, and soy milk, and it works surprisingly well.

relapsed during nofap yesterday. Doing 36h fast today to keep my head leveled.

I just completed. How tall are you?

How many grams of DNP you take before workout, in 4 increasing-in-quantity sets

183 cm -> 6'0
78 kg -> 172 lb
you?

Forgive me father

Year in still haven't delegated out into different days just too whole body with a little bit more focus on one part or the other maybe five times a week...

I had sex with a tranny friend on a camping trip the other day

Damn, living the dream.

Who gives a shit about girls loser

As your punishment reply in push up thread. Do it faggot

EDs are mental illnesses. Seriously. This is why your coping is so emotional. You need to check into inpatient and recover dude. 100% serious here. It will fucking wreck you into a shallow grave. Let someone help

the only reason why I exercise and eat healthy is because I want attention from women

I'm utterly terrified of going to a public gym with other real human beans, I'm moving out soon and I'm crossing my fingers nobody else goes to the gym in the apartment complex so I can make it my base of operations.

>4 mixed drinks
>dominos pizza
>stopped counting macros 2 months ago

finals stress have my gains suffering too

I can't go low enough on mu squats

help me guys

Conversely I hit this relatively early in my lifting "career" but since have not improved on my strength much at all. Actually, if anything I've actually regressed but I'm happy with my body and how I look I guess
>don't even squat or diddly that much anymore

I keep sleeping in and masturbating. It makes me feel bad.

>Donate blood
>Doc say no lifting
>Didn't lift
>Day after, feeling weak and weak grip
>Didn't lift

What's wrong? do i need to rest more?

We all did

jokes on you i use towels to wipe my ass after a shit and place it back with my clean laundry.

We all do

Drink more.
Related story:
>be poor as shit student
>donating plasma 2x per week for cash
>also lifting
>go donate
>go lift
>fuck yeah guys time for squats PR today
>smash that fucking PR
>feel like throwing up and get throbbing headache
>finish my workout like a man
>on the way back home notice I can't even see if traffic lights are green or red
>literally 25% of my field of view are completely filtered out as if the optical nerves there are just not there
>also find myself on all fours on two occasions with no recollection of falling down
>get home, throw up, drink lots of water
>manage to call in sick for nighttime job
>sleep 12 hours straight in the middle of the day
>fine again

And another short one:
>just got done donating
>already feeling a little light-headed
>plus wobbly from leg DOMS
>exit donation center
>see my bus just turning the corner about to pull up to where I'd board it
>it's 100 m to the stop
>fuck no I am not waiting 20 minutes for the next one
>take off at a dead sprint
>just about make it
>sit down
>black out
>wake up half an hour later just before my stop

thanks user

jesus dude, chill out with giving away your insides for a bit

Im secretly avoiding meet...not only on fridays

thank you

Yeah that was a couple years ago. No financial worries anymore and I feel like I've done my share so no donations from me anymore

Whenever I'm home i keep fucking binging on cereal. As a diabetic this shit is fucking killing me. Forgive me father

I have a solution for you don't buy cereal.

>hit 275 bench
>don’t even care

Why do I not care about lifting anymore.

I just want to look good but I’m still like 20lbs over weight and my eating is out of control lately

is it really a donation if you are asking for monetary compensation for it though

I don't work out at all.
I have an entire home gym set up that I never use.
My diet isn't terrible but it's still worse than it should be.
I'm pretty sure my test levels are rock bottom but I'm too stupid to find ways to raise it and too stupid to see my doc about it.
I don't even know why I'm on Veeky Forums

Which cereal?

Im on steroids and i cant bench 50kg

Lucky Charms

Yeah that's rough. Switch to plain Cheerios which are far lower in sugar content and still decent to binge on (for me at least)

i hurt my dick this morning jerking off and i think it’ll take a week to heal; i ghosted on a tinder slut who wants me bad for unrelated reason, because she lied about attractiveness and is heavier set than i thought she was (she just looked thicc); i phoned in my finals and only got a 3.5 when i needed like a 3.7-4.0 this quarter for grad school; i have strong apprheensions about going to family dinner on christmas because my sister is going to show up coked up and my dad is probably cheating on my mom and im the only one who bothered to notice; i have oneitis but im fucking my way past it; i legitimately hate blacks and women now and i don’t really like that i do

How'd you fuck up your dick

woke up with morning wood, started jerking, it was only a halfy, started to become 3/4, jerked it to the left a little too hard, pain, lost erection, finished, tried to jerk again out of fear, couldn’t get hard. i can usually bust 3 times with full-3/4 erections. i definitely hurt it, it stings right now

I fapped last night

I haven’t worked out in 2 weeks

story plz

I lie to my doctor to get cialis, so my gf thinks Im a sex machine.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH wow buddy stop doing steroids and just focus on eating regularly. Youre gonna kill yourself lmao

Lol wtf lad

Wow just go see your doctor are you that retarded? You can’t pick up the phone and call an office, say you think you have low T when you meet him. That’s it, christ

i quit lifting recently desu
my heart just wasnt in it
working on cardio and mobility atm

DROP WEIGHT

The stuff really helps. Everyone things Im somewhat of a sex god. Truth is, Im just a liar.

Had a healthy lunch yesterday, then ate a 20pc, a McChicken and fries with two diet dr peppers.
Went to the gym and did a killer workout today and plan on going again soon because I hate myself for that

I've started to believe in the ideals of National Socialism and sympathise with Hitler and George Lincoln Rockwell.
I'm also a hapa

Just started swimming. I keep forgetting that the local pool is closed on Tuesdays. I went home and ate an entire pizza.

Is there hope for me?

The lie will fall one day. And it will be harder than if you didn't ever started that

Have a qt short gf who is madly in love with me but she annoys the bejeezus out of me because she is hyper sensitive, clingy, and says a lot of stupid shit like she is an authority.

Have a crush on a 5'10" PhD Aryan goddess at work and I think she likes me back. We hang out but never do anything because I'm honorable in spite of my conflict.

What should I do Veeky Forums

Don't cheat, user, holy shit. Don't be that fucking retarded.

If your gf is annoying the shit out of you and you can't see yourself spending the rest of your life with her, dump her, save both of you the time and feelings rather than doing it a year from now when everything implodes.

I laid in bed all day watching YouTube videos, dating chocolate and drinking sida. I skipped a work out, and I am a degenerate person.

>lost all of my gains due to depression+deployment and almost got kicked out of the service
>tried to justify it since a bunch of decent job offers came through
>now they refuse to kick me out despite being 75+lbs overweight and can't promote

Nigger you can't just tell us that and not greentext it

I've stopped working out regularly because I am active and was "fit enough" and became complacent with how I am. I forgot the joy of constant self improvement and the motivating aspects of vanity.

Dump your gf and save yourselves both the loss. Dive into one night stand filled degeneracy since you seem to only like walking fleshlights and hate commitment

Sometime I like to follow the shadow men into my backyard and I wake up a day later

I'm in the exact same situation, also hapa.

Talk to her about the behaviors that bother you. If nothing changes break up

How is she clingy?

I tend to like clingy girls

Pls dont be true. This sounds very unhealthy

I feel you brother I'm a type 1 and I fucking love special k with strawberries but that shit kills my sugars in the morning (I get a huge blood sugar spike followed by a massive valley about 2 hours after I eat)

life is suffering

My first day back to the gym since January was yesterday (wasn't a Resolutioner, but I guess I am this time around). I rowed for 15 minutes and my traps are fucking killing me.

Can't wait to go again tomorrow.

Gained 10 pounds from the beginning of 2017 to August, then lost 10 pounds from August to now. A busy college schedule left me little time to make gains, but luckily next semester will be a less packed schedule and I can eat more.

I have pissed in the gym shower every day this week, forgive me

Cereal is my kryptonite, I can easily eat an entire box in one sitting (and I often do if I allow myself to). One bowl just isn't enough