too depressed to fap

Damn I remember spending hours looking at all kinds of different animals from prehistoric eras. My favorite were always those super alien looking arthropods from the Cambrian era.

Remember this guy?

Ah hell yeah can't forget the first apex predator. I had a massive book with that illustration in it too.

Prehistoric times were super comfy. I always dreamed of traveling back to the post Cretaceous period. Megafauna are cool as shit

During December, I applied to two charity organizations to teach orphans (I have some experience in teaching). Both of them ignored me. Today I visited one personally and learned that I actually could have completed their introductory course in December, however the next course is only happening somewhere in spring.

I was trying to keep it civil but the guy over there was kind of a dick so I lost my cool and said that I said I will try applying to other places but would like to still be in line here and maybe somewhere they can actually get me something to do ( I am offering to work for free and nobody is interested, and they are organized kind of like shit). Guy got pissed and told me that I am not fit for being among these children, normally there is an interview and everything but he can basically tell it now. Anyways, I gave my email and he told a coworker to send contacts of other orphanages to me.

I was devastated, I felt really bad about losing my temper and the whole ordeal. I knew he was kind of right even though he was a massive dick too, I should have been more focused.

Anyways, when I came home, the coworker who sent me the other orphanage contacts told me that she overheard our conversation and thought that the guy I talked to (her boss) didn't handle the situation well, she went behind his back to arrange a place for me, and that they were looking forward to working with me.

I cried for 15 minutes straight after that.

>I read dozens of dinosaur books
>Knew everything about them, their scientific names and shit
>Wanted to be a paleontologist

THE GRASS WAS GREENER

THE LIGHT WAS BRIGHTER

> behold, the Armored Sea Chad

I lift for the precambrian period

> I'll take "feels I don't know" for 300, Alex!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Do it now faggot

>no drugs, nicotine, alcohol, caffeine, porn, or videogames 2018
>girl out of town
>haven't talked to anyone in a week
surprisingly ok, except I ran out of things to clean in my apartment about an hour ago.

Holy shit, saved.

>how fulfilling simplicity is
>may never see those C-beams glitter, but live and die satisfied to have fulfilled function all the same

>sea chad
>not the fucking pliosaurus

>tfw on biology college

About to break up with my gf tomorrow, wish me luck bros. No more taco bell enabler I'm gonna go work out after

>be kid
>had to tell the class my favorite animal and why it is my favorite
>proceed to tell some autistic facts about trilobites thinking I'm the coolest guy in the whole class

same

>tfw jerking off doesn't even feel good anymore
>not even a month of no fap makes me feel any better
A-At least I can last longer..

>pliosaurus
When I see an image of him as a child with ptsd from Jaws, it freaked me out.

Still the scariest thing to me to this date

Good luck bro.

Remember, she didn't deserved you.

We are here for you.

Am I the only one suddenly horrified by the realization that nothing about my entire childhood was unique at all, and that I am just one of hundreds?

Apocalypse now

Got laid the other night. Still can't get "her" out of my fucking mind though. Suppose I've had worse starts to a year

worst STEM major. future career is either become science grunt forever or go into some kind of public health bs

Nah it's cool, maybe we are autistic in the same wavelength

Don't sweat failing a course bro
I failed three courses
Well one I failed twice
Regardless it didn't affect me getting a job

>fedoralord taking himself too seriously
As far as things go I had a fairly unique childhood. Mostly painful memories so I'm not sure what you are complaining about.

Wait wtf where did you get that, I thought that was a unique illustration made by some russian dude fuck you

>Am I the only one suddenly horrified by the realization that nothing about my entire childhood was unique at all, and that I am just one of hundreds?

>In a post-Jurassic Park world

Yeah bitch, you are just another brick in the wall

Deal with it.

You have no idea what you're talking about
You can make 70000+ starting salary with a BS in the biotech industry and there's so many companies that even if you don't move up in your own you just switch companies
And they fully reimburse your graduate degree

First year biology student here. Any tips?

doing what though?

learn R

This, user. R + python + Bayesian stats and you can have 300k starting at any biotech firm

For us out of the loop, what is the intended application of those 3 things?

My brother had a dimetrodon toy when we were kids, and I always thought it was weird because dimetrodons aren't dinosaurs, like the t-rex is. I liked real dinosaurs. Thanks for reading.

Analytics are really really important in sorting out biochemistry and genetics shit. The sheer volume of data and interactions is staggering. Worse when you consider how little we know.

Huh. Thanks for the tip. Where can I learn these? In classroom or read books?

Free cheeks best cheeks

youtube.com/watch?v=vjaJey0ls_E

I am that russian dude

wow, that was me

>wanted to be an archaeologist
>everyone tells me to be an engineer
>shit hits the fan and now im niether
feels bad man

>hundreds
If that is your estimation then that's not bad company in-regards to relative individuality, considering there are billions of people hooked up to the mass-media machine.

this is very cozy, OP. thank you

me presently:
>try talking to a girl just friendly, not anything weird or flirty, little/no response
>always start feeling confident about myself and "go for it" and it doesn't work out so i just cycle back to feeling inadequate
>repeat ad nauseum

>also lonely, friends are graduating Uni and moving away
>doing my best to make new friends but see above^

i don't know what im doing wrong

Define "go for it".
You don't just talk for thirty minutes and then "go for it".
You have no self-respect: This girl could be a crazy person. Are you willing to "go for" a crazy person who will tie you up, carve her initials into your chest, rob you, and then charge you with rape?

what? stop that

i don't mean "go for it" like making a move i just mean in most social things, whether it's just making new friends or trying to establish relationships it just feels like nothing ever works out and it looks so easy for other people

I'm getting better about self confidence, but like i said it just doesnt work out and i feel like im back at square one again

What a comfy thread

Well, learn from your mistakes.
No, don't "learn that you're worthless" - learn what you did wrong, and how to do things right instead, so that it will work out next time.

thats part of the problem though is that i have no idea what im doing wrong

i see other people do things that seem work so i go from that and then..nothing

im getting better, surprisingly, about not overthinking things and just acting instead of hesitating on simple things, but no dice

That's amazing.

Well, if it wasn't something you DID, then maybe you ARE worthless to them. Do you feel like you have value yourself? If you feel that you are worth dating, then the women rejecting you, either aren't YOUR type, or they are to foolish to know what they're missing.
...and if you DON'T feel like you have value, then you can change that, since you can probably come up with ideas to make yourself more valuable.

Shit, I remember being that depressed, meds and religion got me out of there, best of luck user

it cycles, i guess. I'll work on myself for a bit, mentally/physically/academically feel good about where im at, put myself out there, and then it usually doesnt pan out and i feel like i'm not good enough at all

so i know it's gotta be something on my end but i just dont know what to do differently. i do what appears to work for anyone else but it never develops for me.

Either that or i've got the worst luck in the world

Maybe you're ugly in the face, in which case very little can be done. Try asking people you know if there's something wrong with you.
Also, maybe you just need to try with more people.

probably just need to try more often, yeah. not get so discouraged off of one or two failures here and there

as for the face it's not so bad. i've lost a lot of weight over the past few years and discovered i've had a pretty good face hiding under all the chub

wanna get my teeth fixed though they're a bit gappy/uneven. nothing major but i notice it when im looking in the mirror :/

Dude I loved that shit when I was young. Jurassic Park really made me want to study them as a career.

Sometimes when I get really nostalgic I’ll go look at my old Dino books, good times

HOLY SHIT THIS IS MY NIGGA

I KNOW THIS FEEL TOO WELL

Kek

>dino thread
>no dunkleosteus
I can't be the only one whose favourite is the armoured, hypercarnivorous fish the size of a bus

Archaeology isn't great, user. Halfway through my final semester I realized that if I didn't go to grad school it wouldn't be worth it, but I didn't want to do more schooling because I only really liked field work anyway. I still graduated but I decided that if I was going to do manual labor outdoors I'd just learn a trade and get paid more and have benefits and shit.

Biggest mistake of my life.

I like discussing Dino’s with the bros on my Ukrainian protein synthesis forum

post more dinos
>yeah that dino must be what? 400 pounds?
>jesus those things will tear you to shreds

Ehhhhh Ooookkkkk

I'm going to post this in every freaking mental health thread I find on Veeky Forums until you stop.

Post Most Chad Dino’s

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/sp/ janitors are redditors who for some bizzare reason won't stay on reddit. They then get furious that /sp/ isn't an upboat circlejerk of shitty puns and numaleness. So they seek positions of fake power and spend the majority of their daily mental energy plotting to "defeat" any thing that resembles the old /sp/ and isn't a colorless chatroom general thread wasteland. It truly is the most pathetic thing of all time.

We needed bros who understood the culture and would delete threads about licking celebrity feet instead of these insufferable nerds who pretend they can't tell the difference between the quality of a Deli Style Sandwhich Power Ranking Thread and a thread about worshipping nigger dicks, just to push thier agenda.