Have you ever masturbated to yourself, Veeky Forums?

pics thanks

No pics! It's pretty surreal though, back then I was a neurotic mess who hated how I looked and thought everyone telling me I was pretty was delusional. Now I'm not in that mindset all I see when I look at the pics is a cute trap with little tits rather than revulsion.

but there is a weird but satisfying feeling right?

uh yeah cumming feels good

No, I have a masculine body, and I’m not attracted to masculinity. I can’t even fuck a ftm...

and you wouldnt like it if other men enjoyed your cute pictures as much as you do?
you dont enjoy the thought of other men liking your pictures SO much that they would touch themselves for you?
I guess you dont want to find out. nvm then.

I always feel dissapointed if I don't cum to the absolute hottest part of the porn I'm watching. Even if it's a 10/10 nut as far as physical sensations go I still feel like the whole thing was a waste.

The absolute state of this board where none of you have gotten off to yourself ploughing girls like Bateman the alpha, but instead jack off to pictures of yourselves crossdressing like a bunch of subverted beta fags.

jokes on you thinking about other times i had sex is one of the best way to jerk off

Trust me, enough people have enjoyed those pics over the years. No one posts them online anymore and I'm okay with that.

A couple months ago I fucked some guys wife while he filmed it, then I jacked off to the video when they sent it me. Getting even slightly Veeky Forums makes you look aesthetic as fuck when you're balls deep in some slut.

I sometimes grab my own ass while jerking it pretending the girl I'm fantasizing about is doing it. I'm slightly worried because the feel of that firm butt cheek in my hand makes me about as horny as the thought of turning fantasy-girl on.

I'm more important than any of those people. Post pics peasant.

I understand. It was worth a shot though, right? godspeed, user. I'm glad you got your life together now.

plenty of times

Today actually

you're not passable just because you're a dicklet

I'd have asked for pics as well man. I've spent enough time getting the majority of them taken off the internet that it wouldn't be a good idea to post more.

>I'm glad you got your life together now
Thanks, never take the trannypill.

how did people react when you stopped being a tranny? Were you friends with social justice filth who judged you for it?

Let's say I did, what does it tell about myself?

I went completely dark on everyone who wasn't in my core friend group. I was never friends with any SJW's but I can imagine the trans friends I had wouldn't have been too happy about it. Detransitioning is very taboo and most want to pretend it isn't a thing.

Friends and family were fine with it, they never gave a shit either way, though my dad said "so are you finally gonna sort yourself out now?" which makes me think he's happy about this. I want to make that man proud.

> I want to make that man proud.

I dont know you or your father, but part of me would like to believe he already is incredibly proud with how far you've come.

who else apart from your therapist enabled/ pushed you? Do you remember how you started?
I'm glad things are working out for you

I sure hope so, in the last year we've gotten a lot closer. I won't feel like the job is done until I get myself truly independent and stick a baby in a woman though!

It was all me desu, I went the DIY route. Though every single trans person that you ask for advice tells you that you need to transition ASAP or risk living the rest of your life looking like Buffalo Bill.

The main causes were: large amount of nihilism, drug addiction, fear of pushing myself and wanting to live life easy, and all the validation I received from people online when I showed them pictures of me. It can be an incredibly toxic lifestyle.

yeah I can see how that would be powerful to someone struggling. When did you come out and when did you first "know" that you were trans?

>When did you come out
When I was 21 I think (26 now).

>when did you first "know" that you were trans
I'd been crossdressing for years before that but then I found out that hormones were a thing and saw the results they gave. I couldn't get it out of my head, I wanted to take them and look like an actual girl. I made the decision that it was the right path and started taking hormones when I was midway through twentieth year.

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jesus, you make it sound like a fetish more than anything.
Did you ever speak to any of your tranny friends or your therapist about de-transistioning?

It probably was to an extent. A lot of it wasn't sexual though. For the first time in my life I was getting validation from people. I went from feeling ugly as hell to being desired. Going outside and having men stare, smile and ask me out was like a drug in itself. Unless you count that sexual, I don't know. But doing that in itself wasn't a turn on or anything, I just loved the positive attention for once.

>Did you ever speak to any of your tranny friends or your therapist about de-transistioning?
Nah. I unironically redpilled myself on /pol/ over a year or so and decided one day to cut it all out. I was never full blown girly or anything, more like a tomboy so it wasn't a huge switch, I just slowly stopped wearing anything overtly girly during the redpilling.

damn man, this is interesting as hell. I'm glad that you managed to work your way out of that and that you're not going to end up a statistic

Thanks for hearing me out man, it's cathartic in a way to talk about it every so often. Plus it would be nice for someone in the same or similar situation to know that it is never too late to turn the fuck back (as long as they haven't had surgeries and the like).

not him but I've been secretly crossdressing since I was 18

now rarely since I'm married etc.

I think it's def porn addiction and fetish, no offence man to your past, I just liked how my shaved butt was in thongs and pantyhose

I'll probably cd again when I get to healthy bodyfat and talk on cam with somebody lol but I'd still wish if I had some secret bear "friend" for action

>I think it's def porn addiction and fetish, no offence man to your past, I just liked how my shaved butt was in thongs and pantyhose
That sort of stuff definitely did feel good to me as well, there was definitely a sexual edge to it, moreso at the beginning. Funnily enough though, when I went on hormones my libido hit the floor and I stopped watching porn or fapping, yet still wanted to live as a girl and get my validation.

What about sexual attraction to men? Was that even there when you started hormones?

It was there a bit, probably 80/20% towards girls. I did desire guys more once I got hormones in my system but it was less of attraction to how they look, more to who they were, how they acted and carried themselves etc.

well alright, pretty cute but
>tattoos
why the fuck
You're also probably a complete slut

>mfw these trannies ITT

I'd bet all of you have sub 500 T too

who the fuck are you to say

Yes, all the time. I've replaced porn with looking in the mirror most times because it isnt as harmful.

1100 test natty mustard rice of course
I can only get off to impregnating young fertile women as is right and proper

As far as I'm aware there's only 1 ex-tranny (me) and someone posting some other trannies pics. Meaning 0 trannies as far as we know.

>I'd bet all of you have sub 500 T too
28nmol/l.

>straight
What a waste

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>asslet
When will they learn

This faggot isn’t even gay

nice gyno, faggot

I dream of the day cloning becomes mainstream and I can fuck myself

Sometimes I forget what website I'm on.
I'm glad there's people like you to remind me

One of my cringe moments brahs

Put on my mom's dress and fapped. The only way I deal with that memory is thinking I was going through a phase exploring my sexuality

Is this a common thing? When I was 12/13 I would wear all my sister's underwear and stockings and jerk off in the mirror.
I've never even remotely felt the urge to do so since but I did back then. I even used to jerk off to just holding my step mom's underwear but I couldn't picture myself doing that anymore.

This one time I came home with a pump and my now ex told me my cock was huge the day before. Always hot compliments for that. I came out of the shower with a half stiffy and looked in the mirror, looking sexy af. Started jacking it to see how I looked with a full hard on. I kept mawturbating looking at my joocy body untill I came.

After I came I realized lifting made me a narciscistic fuck.

That's kinda hot

If that's a guy... then I guess I'm gay now... thanks Veeky Forums

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I pop a chub watching my form when i squat

sometimes yeah. I just focus on what im doing to myself in the same way id focus on what my partner was doing