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With a group for my class project. Its 3:40 and I only have had a 1/2 cup of oatmeal and 3 glasses of milk. I need to leave and eat.

>I'm never going to make it.

when i was home from college over winter every time i saw or thought of somthing funny i wanted to share with my parents i would credit it to one of my 2 friends from the first semi of college so my parents don't think i have no friends. im a senior now and haven't talked to them or anyone other than my family really in over 2 years

I'm depressed after cutting for a year (350 to 220lbs). I just want to binge on the only fast food I can still stomach (taco bell). The only lesson I learned is food can't fill the void in my life, but nothing else seems to work even temporarily.

>go on date with qt from tinder on monday
>shes smart, funny, interesting, have a lot in common
>decide to go to concert tonight
>ffw to today
>she cancels on the concert
>she updates her tinder profile
>tfw its over with her
>tfw this happens like once a month
>tfw im restricted to shitty online 'dating' because i dont meet people in person
why even live

>work 45 hours a week
>retail
>barely enough to pay bills
>Never feel like theres enough time for anything
>basically spent the last 6 months in bed or working

just end my life

Graduated from college this December, which was 95% of why I was depressed. Shitty schedules, no friends, and gained weight from eating garbage and drinking sodas.

While that weight was lifted off my shoulders I still have episodes of depressed days. I started an SSRI back in October and have noticed a positive difference. Worst days are behind but it's still an uphill climb.

January was the best time to do lifting since I was able to stay longer. After next week, I'm back to 40 minute workouts so I don't end up late to school.
Aside from that I feel better, getting compliments at work and school about how I'm changing. Feels good, confident that this might be the year of >tfw gf

I thought getting a job might help, but if anything I just feel worse and now I have less time to figure out how to turn my life around. I don't even remember the last time I was happy, but I've been on a steady decline since roughly the halfway point of my time at college.

>we are all in this together
Not me, I'm leaving humanity behind

>School
>Anti social
>High school
>Anti social
>Uni
>Anti social
>Work
>
About to start in a month, im sure ill finally turn around and stop being anti social this time

right?

You ever think about starting your own business?

>write contract
>ehh i dont want to work here
>+$15,000.00
>theyll never hire me

>they accept

Some user told me that I might be depressed after I posted that I cannot feel emotions and can't be sad nor happy. Where can I go if I want to get diagnosed? Can I do it in college? Any way to naturally fix this without having to take meds? Thank

Why user?
That's what I always tell myself :(

>3-4/10 face
>5'9
>autistic around women

Yeah I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. B-but atleast I get good grades and will most likely be making alot of money (but it doesn't really matter if I'm alone).

>humble bragging

Because I don't want to be lumped in with the rest of the overweight, depressing, Cookie-cutter society we live in

You were never gonna do it

fuuuck thats me my man

>just moved to city
>depression been worse lately bc of big changes happenin fast
>walk to cliffs the first night here, at first just for the views but then felt an overpowering urge to jump off when i considered how tough life would be going ahead
>took one step forward but stopped myself and walked home
>this was genuinely the closest i'd ever come

since then i've been making an effort to go to the beach everyday, and doing what little i can with 10kg dumbbells until i can find a job and start a proper routine

i feel ok and even a little hopeful now

I may have made a new friend and I actually want to talk to him..it's been two days and we haven't talked at all.

He's a Normie chad type of guy. But he literally doesn't take care of himself, he's fat and balding.

>Roomate decided to fuck off at the end of this month and leave me with a rent that I can't pay and pay bills at the same time.
>Found the perfect place that is close to work has low rent and includes utilites.
>waiting to hear back after handing in application.
So yeah I'm anxious as fuck about that. Also want to go back to school so I can maybe have a decent future, but its been so long and I feel like I'll just fuck up monumentally. Please anons, lie to me and say it'll be alright.

This.
Ditch anything with a screen at least half an hour before you go to sleep, and I guarantee it'll help.

I have a good friend of mine who's an extreme chad, easily 9/10 tall white good looking guy. By coincidence we found ourselves in the same class this term. He's a good guy, gives me rides and we go to the gym together. But damn, having women ignore me in group projects and eat out of his hand proverbially is making me feel so terrible. No matter how hard I lift I won't overcome being a 5'4 subhuman faced manlet

I’m okay. Currently living with my ex who doesn’t want to be with me no more and has said there’s no feelings there for me at all. It’s either stay at her place or live in my truck which I was doing a few months ago until I stupidly took her back. Only thing keeping me on this side of the country is the Muay Thai gym I’ve recently been going to about everyday and my job that I’m semi decent at. But on the verge some days of giving up and driving back home to my family and friends on the east coast of the country, but if I do that I will be so full of shame.

My university provides free counseling, which I finally availed myself of after four years here. Social worker was pleased to hear that I was exercising and eating well. As part of combating my extreme self-consciousness and consequential seclusion, part of what she recommended was trying to work out in public more as opposed to shut inside my room. I've started by leaving the door open, with the goal of eventually progressing to the point where I'm comfortable being seen in a gym.

However, she basically admitted that she couldn't help me with some of my more complex emotional issues, partially because I'm smarter and more self-aware than she is and have already attempted to put myself through cognitive behavioral therapy. She's going to consult with a psychologist and see if he'd like to assess me. If the psychologist declines to see me, I may have to look elsewhere to solve my complete inability to connect with or trust human beings or feel strong emotions.

I started a dopamine pill four days ago. I hope it works. I've been lifting, watching my nutrition and studying properly, but I'm very lonely and isolated in a small rural town where everyone is a fat retard and I have no interest in going out. I feel like crying a lot. I wish I could move away but maybe the dopamine pills will help.

Started dating a new chick for few months, not feeling like my emotions are growing romatically. Miss how things were with my ex before she became a white. Been 1 1/2 years and I still kinda miss her.

What do I do, I’m a tall 9/10 face fit as fuck white guy but all I do I commute to the city to work and commute back home and feel sad.

A whore*

Had a hard time accepting that I've been depressed for the last 1-2 years, but coming to terms with it over the last 6 months or so.
Finally admitted to my parents last weekend that it's why I've been slacking on school.

No idea how to work on my mental health, though - it's not as easy as just hitting the gym.

>have lived a life so pathetic, most people here wouldn't believe it
>somehow I'm not even depressed, or tfw no gf, or cry about loneliness or anything like that

i was really fat and now im getting pretty thin but i just know ill never make it because no matter how thin or low bf i get ill always look like shit
also i have nothing going on in my life i just go to school and come back and go to the gym, i didnt even make any friends on uni

>tfw you lift and exercise solely to distract yourself

how can a man have that many watermelons and still be depressed?

don't get it

>kept thinking i lost 50 pounds already
>only lost 30 apparently
>everyone saying how great that is
>entirely disappointed in myself

keep thinking of her and how she's prob just told our mutual friends that 'we broke up' instead of telling them that she cheated and lied for months about there being no other guy and him being nothing to her

keep thinking of all the lies she used to tell and because i trusted her completely i used to just believe her like a fucking idiot

i want to message her new guy and tell him that she was fucking both of us at the same time and how he is dating a cheating slut and shes not the cute angel she appears to be but i know thats just childish and if he already knows and doesnt care i would look stupid

i want to message our friends and ask them if they know shes a cheating bitch and how much her lying hurt me but that also feels childish and immature

i wish i could just forget her

Dont settle for this shit. Join a club or some kind of group hobby. Go clubbing, go dancing, whatever, meet people in bars, bring a friend with you so you can take a risk with a friend next to you. Fuck online dating, worst thing to happen to this world

Fuck retail. Go on the grind for a bit and learn a trade, or get some kind of government assistance and work part time. Then make some decent money

Finally back in the right mindset after gaining all the weight I lost back. I'm down 27lbs with a lot more to go but I'm starting to pick up the right habits again. Stopped focusing on feeling shitty about my weight and started focusing on being healthier. I feel like OMAD is helping with this but I'm not sure.

this x10000

>tfw no gf is crippling me

But I don't even attempt to get a girlfriend because I'm scared of having no success.

I'm 24 and never had a gf.

that is not childish, stop being a fucking bitch and ruin her life god damn sun,

but how will it benefit me? it's just pointless revenge

Sweet taste of revenge knowing you ruined a whores life, if that isn't satisfactory to you then you're a cuckold

I hate this feel, its better than being a shutin but when ur friend is too chad you get ignored

Try taking EPA (it's a component of fish oil). It worked for me. There are plenty of studies out there showing its effectiveness. Shrinks prescribe it now.

>killed myself last night but somehow woke up alive
3rd time this happened..

They're just supllements, took them awhile
It's a brand product if anything, easily sold

Your purpose still awaits you

Yeah honestly I've found turning the computer off and phone away half an hour before I sleep helps heaps, especially if you read or stretch or something for that half hour

I'm happy for you user, I believe in you

Hey guys I quit doing drugs and drinking and all the suicidal thoughts have stopped. I also started taking something called lithium orotate.

Something to consider

know this feel deep in my bones my man

shit bro, ill be your friend, what college you go to? need to enrol soon

>kys on your brother's wedding day
whats wrong with you

I'm off a pill that made me unable to cum properly for years it's good to have that back

Used to be in a really bad spot. Very insecure. Didn't even study for Physics III finals because I was sure I was gonna fail it. Wasted time watching TV Shows and jerking it instead. Became disgusted with my small dick. Then I started NoFap/NoPorn. Started feeling better, even started studying for the next exam. I kinda started warming up to my dick and realizing that it's just average. Up until that point I had convinced myself I was gonna die a Wizard, so it was a big step for me.

Today I saw on of those clickbait "see who in Hollywood is X" articles, and ended up looking at the dicks of famous guys. Ended up at Jude Law, who had an entirely average penis, but everybody on the comments was saying how he had a micropenis.
>self-esteem status
>0
Then I got to the "average" section, which is where they placed Fassbender, and finally ended at the "big" section with Chris Brown's enormous 8" flaccid.
>self esteem status
>-100
So now I'm back to the start. Really hating who I am. I've convinced myself that no matter what I achieve, I'll always be a dicklet. Even if I lifted more and became a literal 10/10 face/body wise, and made money through my brains, no gal would ever wanna be fucked by a small dick. Last time I measured myself I was around 5"x5", though I've gotten everything from that to 7"x6" (most probably faulty measuring). But that was about 2 weeks ago. I cannot get an erection anymore, so I cannot really measure again.

I won't pretend I'm suicidal or anything for easy (you)s, but I really hate myself right now. If a car run over me, I wouldn't be ungrateful...

>having cats

>learn a trade
enjoy working with mexicans

>looking at the dicks of famous guys
>Jude Law, who had an entirely average penis
>Chris Brown's enormous 8" flaccid.
what the fuck did I just read

Gettin better, user. A month ago I had my very first actual feelings of wanting to kms. It was because of a breakup, so it's not like I'm usually depressed all the time, but now that I don't feel that way anymore, it's scary to think that I did. I knew even in the moment that I wouldn't actually do it, but if I was any more unstable it wouldn't have been hard to do because there's a gun in my house. I don't ever wanna feel that way again, bros.

That's still 30 pounds less than you were, so you're getting there. You'll be at 50 soon bro.

From my experience people are more inclusive in the work place. They start unnecessary conversation and invite you to boring event

What will you have lost if you try and fail? What will you have gained if you try and succeed?

It'll be all right as long as you are disciplined enough to go to classes and study. Sleeping on time every night would help.

I was looking at the dicks of famous guys to compare mine with them. Jude Law's flaccid dick was average, yet everyone in the comments kept calling him a microdick. Christ Brown has a flaccid penis of at least 7". I don't see what was difficult to understand user.

why the fuck length of famous guys' dicks is public information? and what makes you think they didn't make the numbers up you brainlet?

girls aint worth it dude

do your best to move on and forget and love yourself :)

>No gf
>Always comparing girls I do meet to my ex

I usually don't let it get to me but the weekends go so slow, friends are boring cunts who never want to go out anymore.

Because they had pics user. Paparazzi pics. Chris Brown took a selfie. Literally just search "Chris Brown Dick".

>post mentions that "the dick looked such and such"
>y do U beliEVE thos FKE numb3s Brah?!

I cant stop thinking about her. She rejected me, wants to remain friends. I'm fine with that, if she doesn't want to go further then I don't want to ruin our friendship or anything like that. But any time I talk to her she seems really irritated now. We talk about wanting things to be normal but I'm the only one putting any effort forth.

>use tinder or any similar app
>completely bored by every woman
being straight was a mistake

im meeting a girl next week for a date, we've been texting for a few days and she seems great, she's pretty too and seems really into me. was dumped last month by my cheating ex and just hope i'm not constantly thinking her during our date and hope i can be confident enough, in the last couple of months while she was already cheating she would tell me i kiss bad and stuff. really hurt my confidence

first of all, don't voice those insecurities to your date. Second, be disciplined about your time out with this girl. Even if your thoughts are plagued, make sure she can't tell.
Lord knows we've all thrown away something good because the timing "wasn't right".
You'll do great, my man. She's not into you for no reason. Don't let that cheating cunt get under your skin.

Not good man all I look forward to is going to the gym.

Ex just posted a story out hiking with a guy has completely ruined my day