What are you most ashamed of, Veeky Forums?

Never kissing my first gf. It was so short and I was never assertive enough... She was too gorgeous for me to screw up the first kiss. I lift to leave the soyboy I was in the past to forget that.

Dumb frogposter.

I have invested so much time trying to improve in my hobbies including lifting and I have nothing to show for it

>What are you most ashamed of, Veeky Forums?

I never think about the way I treat others and I'm always the "busy" guy at work, I need to get better social skills and just try to give my full attention to someone, i have trouble making friends because of this

I talk to people at work, and they can clearly tell in my body language that i dont want to talk to them and i would rather go and do something else. im literally a piece of shit

being a dyel

That I was a beta in the past when I should of found my fucking nuts.

my potential

what matters is that you found them, user. regret is for your deathbed or if you are in a position to not change. you can and have, so spend your energy on positive things

Not living up to my potential both physically and mentally

My body what do you fucking think

I'm not ashamed of anything because I'm not a child. I work on the things I don't like about myself and I accept the things I can't change. I don't try to do everything at once, but everyday I try to be an incrementally better person.

I masturbate to gay porn sometimes and after cum I feel disgusting

When I was a little boy, I would rub my dick on my sister's vagina. I try to forget it but my life is such a mess and I have never told a soul.

lol looser

If he deserved it don't feel bad. If it was over something stupid then maybe feel bad.

That I’m not the man I could have become.

I was a total loser with girls during my teens. And it was the total lack of attitude and horror of being rejected.
Due to this, I'm 39yo and I've fucked only two women in my life....one is my current wife.

my misaligned jaw. realistically, fretting over it is fruitless because the situation cannot be improved (i live in america and don't shit the money required for corrective surgery) but it affects my speech and my eating, plus my teeth are all crushed together so I can't help but be aware of it every waking moment of every day
i really want to die to be free of this torment

I watch camgirls just to avoid feeling lonely. I don't even jerk off to them.

i am just a shitty person, from top to bottom

Change?

You didn't miss much user. It's all the same. Better you got married after only one other partner. Studies show the more premarital partners you have the more likely you are to divorce.

Was addicted to sissy porn as a teen. Fucked up my whole life.

My calves

small calves

also the fact i cant help but cheat on my amazing gf. Fuck

I can't bench 2pl8s despite lifting for 7 months.
>92.5kg x 3 here and stalling/grinding bad

just got rejected by a tranny

Nearly 7 months here, not even at 1pl8. Closer to 4 and a half or 5 if you take into account all the breaks I've taken.

Fap to BBC, cuck, trap videos. Still makes my dick hard thinking about it. FUCK

Fpbp

>Flex core
>Look great by normie standards
>Don't flex
>Gut hangs
Shit sucks

Virginity

I'm ashamed because some DYEL fag benched 2pl8s for reps in front of me and gave me the "look". We were sharing the bench. Currently deloaded my weights and doing a higher volume training, hopefully to break my plateau.

I've got a few.
>Too lazy to achieve my full potential
>Let my dog shag me when I was a desperately horny teen
>Started dropping a bunch of weight but got lazy and lost my progress
>Dated an unpassable tranny out of desperation for the fantasy
>Currently contemplating fucking a chick who's almost my height and weighs more than I do
>No hard skills all amorphous soft skills like leadership (I actually am pretty good at organizing business ventures and people which makes my underachivement all the more painful
>Mid 20's now, feel like I let my youth slide by without taking advantage of it
>Feel like a fat piece of shit every day even though I've actually dropped weight and look better than I did, was still fat when I got lazy

my whole life is just one 24 hour shame cycle

What gets me down recently? Inheriting the Asian babydick and not the Chad aryan dick. 6” long 5.5” circumference fully erect, weird tiny testicles that cling to my body because it’s winter. Too much fat around my pelvis makes it look even more like babydick. Circumcised. Fucking monsters did this to me, Veeky Forums. Monsters I tell you.
I didn’t even know until I shaved my pubes for the first time. Such a mistake, this knowledge is a curse.
I’d want to kill myself but I wanna do cool, meaningful things so I’ll stick around.

anime

Breaking up with me ex-gf, who loved me when I didn't love myself, and choosing weed/addiction over her. It's been 3 months and I wish I hadn't been so stupid.
And selfish.

Damn, digits don’t lie, you really fucked up.

I’m in a position where I have someone who loves me almost unconditionally and who helped me climb from the depths of hell, as you may have. But objectively, continuing this would be stupid because we have very different visions for what we want our lives to be.
What should I know about true heartbreak before I pull the trigger on this? I know what it’s like to love someone unconditionally and have that thrown back in your face by someone who grew to hate you. I don’t know the pain of turning away the one I love and who loves me back, just for pragmatic reasons. I don’t know if I have it in me, but it’s for my future and my children’s future. I can’t have kids with this person, even if she wanted a family. I can’t let them be raised to be self-hating and degenerate, no matter how much I love their mother.

So youre just taking up valuable megabytes , think before you nothing-post.

Right answer, recently adopted this mindset but i know you arent perfect, you must be ashamed of something even if you can leave it in the past and improve

Why would they be self-hating and degenerate? mixed race? I'm a mixed race child and my gf was a different race than any of my races. It wouldn't have mattered if you love her.

What I'm realizing and thinking about in this time is that I threw away true love, not like fairy tale true-love, but someone who would support me and I would want to support for the rest of my life no matter what. When I ended things, I believed we would both be happier with other people. And sometimes I think that, but I can't stop wishing I could have her back and love her the way I should've the entire time.

If you love her, and she loves you, it can work. But honesty is key. I wasn't honest with myself during this time, and pushed her away.

gl user

Change is for beggars im lit

How long you been together, just wank the urge away and think about all she does for you. I felt the urge too., try to leave it in your past

i have an overbite and crooked teeth, but instead of getting braces, i've been jutting my lower jaw out when i'm out in public. i have been doing this for 2 years now. i'm scared of eating in front of people because people will think i'm a chinlet faggot.

Throw us some examples?

I was addicted to h and had to shoplift to provide for it. Currently clean and lean though

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Holy shit user my cousin and I did the exact same shit, with the inclusion of vibrating XBOX controllers on our dicks, shit was insanely gay and I still cringe thinking about it. We're bros to this day and talk regularly but it's NEVER brought up thank God.

Damn son thats some rough shit.

My advice would be to really face it. Like make a plan for how you are going to get surgery, or if you're not, how you are going to act around people so that you're not always stressin'. You gotta enjoy life bro. I would much rather be around you if you were comfortable, but a chinlet, than if you were tense and insecure but faking a nicer jawline.

when i was 11 or so, i stuck my finger up my cousin's asshole when he was sleeping. thankfully, he believed that i was joshing him.

did everyone not read this

he let his dog what now

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>when i was 11 or so, i stuck my finger up my cousin's asshole when he was sleeping. thankfully, he believed that i was joshing him.
Lol

iktfb
ive been constantly pushing my crooked teeth lately trying to align it

Shit user I did the same thing. First time I've thought about it in several years probably. Man that was weird.

ignore him and hope he's a troll
shits beyond fucked up

Haven't kek'd that hard in awhile, thanks user.

Kek

Being a hardcore alcoholic for 7 years. It completely shattered my self confidence, ruined my relationships, education, jobs and more. Slowly building myself up by lifting though.

Hey user, look at it this way. Alcoholism was required to drop you to that level, I did that shit with nothing but video games and a crippling lack of self confidence. You're gonna make it.

Yeah I guess so. Thanks my man.

S P E C I A L S N O W F L A K E

I feel like I have an unlikable personality. I've never been able to seriously date a girl, they've always ended after a few months. Every girl has said that I'm "too emotionally distant." It's something I'm trying to work on but I honestly have no idea where/how to begin

we all have our demons user. make sure you confess occasionally to the father of feels.

yup

pic related

sage wisdom here

being a white cis male

I have a hairy ass.

>tfw you and your mate use to watch porn and jack off together

My inability to escape hedonism...

The reason why I worry about self-hatred and degeneracy isn’t to do with race, I’m mixed too. She’s a lefty who idenifies with being trans nonbinary exc. She would probably preach about white privilege, gender theory and such to my kids. I don’t want leftist brainwashing and Bolshevik abuse to be passed down to them.

I’d be willing to be honest with her about this if I didn’t think it would kill her. History of suicide and mental illness. It hurts to even think and know these things, because I do love her. But this isn’t about just me. It’s also about my future family. I just know that if I do this, I might lose her in more ways than I asked for.

My selfhatred

You

up until now wasting 3 years from 19-22 just being content with being a NEET watching tv shows and playing games all day. not having learnt how to drive a car yet, living at home, isolated myself from my friends, not attending social gathering i got invited to despite being a shutin retard, not having had sex since i was 18, just a bottomless hole i somehow deluded myself into thinking was fine. its time to turn this ship around

I can't tell if you're lampooning DSP or if this is genuine. Assuming you're not you sound like me, I usually get a couple of dates in and then things just fall apart. I can never feel strongly about them, and if I do I can't express it in a healthy way because I'm a sarcastic asshole.

Same here, nothing wrong with that - that just means you may have a true best friend

I tell others I lift for strength but I do it for aesthetics

>tfw me and 3 of my best friends all sucked each others dicks when we were like 11

GODDAMMIT COLIN I STILL REMEMBER WHAT YOUR PREPUBESCENT DICK TASTES LIKE REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

this
stupid roasties even think that my sub 1/2/3/4 lifts are impressive

My father

M A K I N G I T

how can I get in on them schizoids?

I'm ashamed of the boy I used to be and not yet being the man I aspire to be

>Gradually drop out of everything due to worsening depression and then undiagnosed issues
>Avoid everyone
>Doc puts me on NEET bucks for years
>Years of full NEET life
>Apartment was a neckbeard nest
>Even had a bad infestation of carpet beetles that I still haven't altogether gotten rid of despite changing apartments
>Got high off cough syrup a lot ( DXM ) because getting actual drugs would have taken effort, did order weird research chems online on occasion.
>Abused whatever the doctor prescribed me
>Almost cut off my earlobe when I was high on Zolpidem
>5'8" 286lb / 177cm 130kg
>House sitting for mom and dad, have a breakdown, call dad in the middle of the night and tell him how much I want to die etc.
>First time I heard my extremely stoic dad cry
>Put on psychotherapy but it's useless
>Have a car but it's broken and I'm too anxious to do anything about it
>Try to kill myself with meds, out for I don't know how long. Pissed myself. Bed sore on back. Slightly reduced sensation on my left foot - took about 6 years to heal?
>Go see a doctor shortly, have a panic attack, forcibly sent to the asylum in an ambulance.
>Friends go pick up stuff for me from my apartment. Horrified at the condition. Clean it up. Have an intervention with me at the hospital.
>Everyone tells me how lucky I am to have such caring, loving friends.
>Can't deal with that.
>They did something great for me and I was never able to do anything for them because I was too ashamed to face them after they saw what I had become. It's been 8 years
>Need to start seeing a psychiatric nurse regularly now
>I'm tossed around in different day care programs etc.
>I'm empty
>At some point someone from Veeky Forums comes to take a piss at /v/
>I already lost some weight due to having to walk everywhere since I was still too anxious to deal with the car
>May as well do more.
>Lose more weight. Get into relationship. Move in together.
>Get into dialectic behavioral therapy
>Starting to feel better

Being a fucking white male.

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Fucking hell dude...

>food
Just cant control the urge sometimes and will give up all will and just over indulge.
Im not a fatass and never have been but I have never been skinny.
Trying to change it with a clean strict diet.

My sins. I’m sorry, Jesus.

the fact that I can bench 225 for 5x5 but don’t even look like I really train chest because of terrible genetics means my pecs don’t even touch in the center, there’s a solid inch gap where it’s just sternum

I'm a virgin at 22 and I procrastinate constantly, it might seem petty to worry about that sort of thing but being surrounded by people who participate in something so easily that I have no grasp on can be frustrating. It's as if there's a piece of me missing that other people have and I just don't. Or they just know something I don't.

Still I remain hopeful, just have to focus on creating things I can be proud of and take small steps day after day. Keep trying.

do you have autism?

if you lift then just go fuck a girl user

not that user but I'm in the same position. I think I'm mildly autistic but it isn't anything serious or inhibiting, it's just I don't know or talk to any girls. I've used Tinder but anyone I matched with would make shit conversation, not reply or flake on me if I wanted to meet. So basically I'm confident if I met a girl who was attracted to me and vice versa I could sleep with her, I just don't know any women to try this with and do not have the confidence to approach strangers

Bazooka chested as I call my brother, I'm sorry for that dent bro.