Friday Night Thread

Probably just a swollen lymph node. Should go away bretty soon. I've had lumps on my pits a few times, and they go away

>hanging out with short qt with the craziest icy blue eyes I've ever seen in my life at church
>talk about literally nothing for hours
>say hug and say goodbye, she says we'll see each other next time
>mfw forgot to ask for her damn number
>mfw the wait begins

Is it over before it even began Veeky Forums?

>at church

Do you really expect a religious girl to immediately drop you because you didn't ask for her number at first sight?

Of course it's not lost user, though try to make your intentions clear asap or else you'll be left at the friendzone at best

I've always been an impatient fuck, I think this is God putting me in a position to learn the value of patience user. We go to the same college but our schedules are different, if I had her number I could hit her up, gonna have to wait till the next week bruv

>mfw we're both from the same comfy part of Oregon
>mfw both of us want to go back

Thx for making me cry faggot. This is me except all my uni friends are women and since they got bfs I dont exist anymore. No matter how social i am during the day the moment I go to bed the loneliness come back stronger.

Bro. You are great. Look at what you did to yourself. You did what most people dream of doing. You are what Veeky Forums wants to become. You are great. Don’t ever tell yourself otherwise. Remember your past self? Look back at him. Now look at present you. See that? You changed into a better man. Friends will come user. Just find a hobby your interested in and they will come. Go to a bar (might work might not). With all you’ve done friends will come. Plus you’re in school still so you will meet someone, ask someone to help you study. Or get someone’s number for homework. Join a club. I believe in you user. Godspeed. Sorry for the rambling.

Went to the gym for the first time in 3 years yesterday but only had the courage to do it because my brother and friend came with me to show me some lifts and the ropes. I have such severe anxiety and i constantly think people are judging me, so its making it hard for me to want to go back.

Just wish i was normal desu

I saw my coworker at the gym on tuesday and he said I was a beast for benching lmao 1.5pl8. It was nice tho now everyone at work thinks I'm strong.

Probably gonna get drunk by myself and watch a couple movies

Was going to watch black panther, but I don’t want to leave the house atm. Might check out that clover field Netflix movie tho for tonight.

you know, there could be a girl out there
one your age who's still a virgin
one who, like you, has discovered self improvement and is dedicated to such for her own sake and for some temporary motivation
one who makes her own money and doesn't require or want yours
one who's just as lonely as you

but the way you guys talk about girls... she knows better than to even try. She avoids bullshit, drama, and things that cause her pain

good luck faggots

Any woman who leaves home is not a virgin.

Burial is the comfiest thanks for reminding me

see there you go again, but I guess it's working for you so keep it up

>Getting ready to leave for a trip with my bros
>Check Snapchat
>See my ex of 5 years who broke up with me on NYE with her new bf
>Same cuck she cheated on me with
>He looks like a greaseball
>I should be happy he is such a downgrade
>But I feel bad for her, I even still miss her
Bros I know she fucked over and thats illogical that I should even care for her but I still do. Its an abstract kind of feel

Why do my sexual failings weigh so heavily on my mind? I don't even want to have any kind of sexuality any more

The best way to get love is to give love. Tell her how you feel bro.

It's my 3rd push day of the week. Feels comfy knowing that i'm getting bigger by the week. Gonna watch some movies with the girlfriend at home after. feelsgoodman.

There’s a girl I know. She’s sad, alone and scared but damaged. The prettiest thing in the world. Only 21 years old but badly scarred emotionally by her ex.

She tried dating again with me but even if our nights were magical something was clearly wrong. She told me dating was causing her too much anxiety and she was feeling trapped again. Broke my heart lads. First time in a long time I connected with someone emotionally. This is why I’m truly lonely at night. No matter how I improve myself I’ll never have her because shes the only one who can fixe herself.

>rejected all my female uni friends to pursue her
>tfw they didnt wait long

It's funny, the more I get out of the cavern the more I envy the ones that are still inside, they all seem to be happier.

>shes the only one who can fix herself
thats true, and she's pretty young, she has time. Not that you should wait around for her, it'd be nice if you two could be friends but that can't always be

sorry for the feels

...

Going to a bitch & bottle alone because my oneitis said she had another party to go to. She's been slowly avoiding me, and I just feel guilty. I'm done lads.

They don't know user, that's why they're happier. Even if they did know the fact that incels exist is proof enough that not everybody has what it takes to make it. You do and did. You have the burden of making yourself the best you can be. Don't let your feelings discourage you, use them to further yourself.
>ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders

>If only I knew what is wrong with me at least I could work on fixing it, but I've been trying everything and im still clueless.
You're fixing it now. You'll know what it was when you're done.

Took the words out my mouth.
Look at how far you’ve gone on your journey. You have one more thing to fix. ONE MORE. After all you’ve been through this is the final boss. This is the ultimate test. user you will overcome this, just keep on doing what you’re doing. When it’s done you will look back and laugh thinking about this. I believe in you bud. Right now the door is one step in front of you. Look at back at where you started. Is one step really that bad?

Nice dubs and yes I want to stay around. She’s truly an extraordinary person with a lot of bad people in her life because they’re all she’s got. It hurt and feels good to make her smile tho...I have to find someone else I guess.

Gonna go the gym in an hour or two. Bout to eat half a kilo of pasta/bolognese.

>A thread on Veeky Forums actually makes me feel better. Thx guys, love you (no homo).

He's right you know, you are strong

>>tfw they didnt wait long
thats a good kek, go find another girl that isnt broken my man

Started dating a qt high school senior (I'm a sophomore in college). Been on a couple dates already, hoping to get in a third before I leave for spring break. As long as my autism doesn't flare up I think we could have a decent relationship.

Also girl I messed around with in high school texted me out of the blue a couple weeks ago asking if I wanted to hook up when I got back on spring break. 2018 might be the year of me not being a tfw no gf virgin.

This kind of reminds me about Cypher in the matrix movie, wishing for something that's fake.
>ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders
I don't know why, I've read this multiple times since long ago, but it wasn't until just now that it fully makes sense to me...
>You're fixing it now. You'll know what it was when you're done.
...also that is quite a badass way to look at it; in the end, the only true option is not to wish to go back, because that is quite impossible, but rather, to keep pushing no matter what. It is either to push or die.

>When it’s done you will look back and laugh thinking about this. I believe in you bud.

That is probably what I am terrified of: keep on self-improving, moving forward, and not ever fixing "that", not ever being able to "look back on that something".

But as the only option is to keep pushing, and, as I just realized that it is impossible for me to go to worse, the worst that could happen is for me to stay the same, there is no downhill anymore.

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Seriously, thank you both, you cannot realize how much you helped me tonight. It is the first time in quite a long time that something just clicks inside my head. I screencapped your posts so I never forget them, I will ever be grateful to you, whoever you are.

You’ve got this bro, just don’t forget to focus on yourself too. In a relationship, many guys forget to keep working on themselves

finally found a good deal on some home gym stuff on craigslist
Somehow missed this post and its already been up for 10 days.
Anxiously waiting for a reply and hoping the guy didnt already sell it it (he didnt even post his phone number...)

> Just finished a long week of exams
> Side effects from SSRIs are finally gone
> Planning on finally relaxing and working on some projects this weekend
> Playing some WoW with my buddy
> Buddy says his friend (my old roommate) wants to come to town and hang out
> Tell him I don't want to hang with him cause he always gets wasted, spends tons of money, and overstays his welcome
> But it's my buddy's best man in the upcoming wedding, so I gotta try to get along for now
> Fine
> his friend calls me
> "Dude lets go to the bar, dude lets go get breakfast in the morning, dude lets go bowling tomorrow, oh I'm bringing my dog, got any bowls? hey is your roommate there? Oh sweet ill sleep in his bed, I can stay at your place right? Did y'all eat dinner? Well eat a second dinner with me! I may stay tomorrow night too lol were gonna get wasted."
> "Actually man I can't drink cause of this new medication I'm taking, kinda sucks but I can DD for us"
> "what are you talking about? Medication? Dude thats pussy shit you'll be fine, cmon lets get wasted"
> don't say anything
> "Oh dude, lets get some shrooms. You got any shrooms?"
> "No"
> "Oh, well I'll try to get some on the way there. See you soon bitch!"

Jesus Christ this fucking guy is so annoying. If it weren't for my best buddy's wedding in a few months, I would ghost the shit out of this guy.

Damn. What a manchild.

Your welcome. I wish you the best!

>get call from old University
>they ask if I have a job at the moment
>tell them I'm currently unemployed
>"Oh I'm sorry!"
>they're asking for donations
>tell them I'll consider it another time

I'm back in school to be a Physical Therapist Assistant, but man did it re-open a wound.Feeling nothing but regret and guilt for my Liberal Arts degree and how it was a waste of my parents' money. I just want this PTA program to be done with ASAP so I can have a job and help my parents out.

>Be me
>6'6
>Want to get into basketball to make some friends
>Never played though
>Scared to start now

>Had grad school/graduate assistantship interview about three weeks ago at school I really want to go to
>Haven’t heard from them since
>told me placement offers can take anywhere from one week to 1.5 months
>been so long I feel like there’s no way I’m getting an offer
>other, shittier schools molesting me about interviewing with them but only want to go to first school

Don’t have any motivation for anything lately lads. Only thing keeping me going to the gym is so I can see my gym waifu who I’ve onot said two sentences to in over a year of going to the same gym
Is all right though at least I still got my doggo
>pic related

>Feeling nothing but regret and guilt for my Liberal Arts degree

Question, and I'm not trying to be snarky, but what sort of employment did you think that a liberal arts degree would qualify you for?

Feeling alone is a strange feeling. Bad news is everything around you is foreign, but also it means no matter where you turn there's something new to explore. Hopefully you find something to enjoy otherwise you will find something you do not. No matter what you think of your discovery, you found a place you can start.

When I lost my dad and my friend, I started to self medicate, in greatly increasing doses, on my pain killers I was given for my freshly broken leg, I felt alone. The Short Happy Life of Francis Macomber is a book by Ernest Hemingway that I read and made me knuckle up and get back out there

Dropping the cigs might be the turning point for you.

>30 years old
>try weed for the first time last night
>drinking bourbon also
>share two joints
>I can no longer form sentences
>my thoughts all derail before completion
>mind is racing constantly, no paranoia
>a little twitchy at times, in my head
>no freaking out but I'm deeper than I thought I could go
>didn't know weed could do this to me
>question over and over if its laced

Not really "pleasure" per say I was just fucked up, but I've been really very relaxed all day. Going to just recover tonight, watch TV... maybe eat some popcorn and definitely drink some water.

I originally wanted to be a cop but the application process was taking so long. Then for some reason I started having second thoughts. I got into the academy but by the time that happened I was already enrolled in classes. My parents were happy that I dropped law enforcement and were more than happy to help me through physical therapy classes, but that guilt is still there. I think for the long term I made a good choice, but right now I feel like useless shit

Hey I got a pretty similar story to you. I've been back in school for almost 2 years now doing Comp Sci. With time you'll begin to find your way again and you won't feel so shitty. Besides, law enforcement is so polarized now. It really doesn't seem like the best time to do that work anyway.

> Spurdo in the attic
WHAT HE FUCK

The job security and outlook is pretty good for that job. The stress is there but no where near law enforcement levels. I'm going back to school for Rad tech after getting a useless psychology degree. No shame but I'm just readjusting and making smarter choices this time around.

Thanks user. Hope you reach your goals

Feels good knowing we're in the same boat my man. Wish you the best as well

As a long time smoker on and off since age 16 or so, I will say this: THC content in weed nowadays in absolutely insane. I highly recommend you don't ingest anything more than a hit or two before waiting to see how you feel. I barely smoke nowadays (mid 20's now) and when I do, I do so in extreme moderation otherwise I get slightly schizo levels of anxiety.

Valentines got me all fucked up.

I broke up with my ex in November, that was the third time I've ended things. I did it for stupid reasons, I thought that maybe there was somebody out there better suited for both of us, but I didn't realize what true love means. She loved me for everything I am, and I pushed her away. I was in a pretty dark place, dealing with addiction and depression, and took it out on her, thinking that I'd be better off without her. I've broken her heart too many times, we talked in December and agreed to cut contact until July.

I've thought about her every day, and more intensely the last couple weeks. Wednesday morning I woke up from a dream where she had come to my house and we talked and were making up. She was forgiving me, and I couldn't really believe it. But then I woke up, and felt like shit because it felt so real. Not even five minutes later, her mother texted me Happy Valentines. Her family loved me like their own son, and her mom especially so. I was in such shock, I didn't really know how to process it. I told her mom happy valentines back, and told her pretty much what I'm telling you. That I missed her and my ex, I wanted to see them, I know I hurt my ex but I want to make it right. And that I love their whole family. She responded immediately with a heart emoji and the kissy emoji. She doesn't speak English well, so that wasn't too surprising but I was expecting anything else. That left me all fucked up for the rest of Valentines, just thinking about my ex and wondering what it all meant.

Now I'm trying to decide what I should do, should I leave it until July or should I try to win her back before that, as in a month or so after finals.

the only one who's realy judging you is yourself

>none of my friends are hanging out tonight
>need to tell my parents that I want to drop out this weekend
>still /fat/
I feel like I'm so close to making the first step towards making it, yet I'm still so far.

Getting drunk by myself and blasting EDM.

Damn, bro, almost brought a tear to my eye. I wish my ex felt like that towards me, maybe just once. I did the same thing (from your girl's perspective) trying to get her back, but she never really liked me beyond the crush phase. Really destroyed me.

Why not call her up, bro? Finding someone who loves you unconditionally is pretty rare in this world, and those who had it in the palm of their hand but lost it can wind up on this site and stay for years, like me. I wish you luck in whatever you do, and I'll keep on plodding on.

I hope that everyone stays away from me. Im useless except for engineering maybe.

>Girl texts me this morning
>Says she really wants to hang out (we were gonna go check out this bookstore) but she has no money
>Say that's fine, we can still just go window shop or do something else
>No response
>This was at 11am
Why would you do that?

My nigga

>watching black panther
Sorry user, I had to.

Come to terms with sitting in my bed and reading or watching old movies alone every night. I wanna know where to find a girl that’s cool with that, man isn’t meant to be alone. I also found a new comfy gym which is tiny and always empty and exactly 1 mike from my place. New meal plan too, super duper cheap mode and plenty of protein, very pleased with it. Recently picked up skateboarding too and holy cow guys I’m having so much fun, so glad to get into it now. Recently, and I don’t know why, but I am so happy nowadays. Everything is so bright and I’m full on “wow I’m alive” mode. I haven’t changed anything it just happened. How is everyone feeling? Hope it’s good : )

i get them too but they turn out to be clogged up sebaceous glands

thats pretty alright, very strong for normie standards

tbqh with you, nobody gives a fuck about you at the gym

I just want to play shitty casual golf with any of my friends and none of them will go with me. :-(

Hi Anons,

I just wanted to give an update. I posted a very long post last sunday night about me leaving my gf of 3 years, I was very mentally unstable that day and I had to vent with somebody, I got some replies of anons cheering me up. Just wanted to say I'm ok. Got a date tomorrow with qt blonde from work. Not sure if it's going to go somewhere, but we are having fun, got new clothes today and new running shoes. The lifts are going great, life is good anons, thanks for the support if there is anyone from last sunday here. Don't settle for less than you expect.

I'm worried since I'm going to a community counseling center soon and my deteriorating mental state is really making me feel like shit. Normally I could distract myself from these thoughts by working out, reading imageboards, playing vidya, and watching something like anime but I have a prevalent disinterest in reality now. I've had my friends notice this and tell me to get a hobby or come hang out which is fine and all except I'm not even motivated to pick up a new activity or be social. I get a feeling in my chest and the best way I can describe it is "repulsed." It's like everything has a ten-ton weight attached. Anyways, that counseling stuff is causing my anxiety to flare up because it's different from private, licensed professionals. I'm basically getting officially processed and the diagnosis is going to stick in my health records. I'm not comfortable with the spotlight on me so much. I don't want the state to look at me through its lens and only see "mentally ill" as if it defines who I am. Also the /pol/ in me isn't too hot on SSRI treatment although at this point I'll take whatever.

Calling her right now, isn't the right time. I still need to work on myself, and give her time to heal. Plus, I don't want to make the mistake of reuniting and then hurting her again. I need to clear my head.

>fucking w qt venezuelan for a few weeks
>turns out shes actually really nice, never been w anyone else, super shy
>invited to dinner with her parents out of the blue
>super nice, traditional family, real nice house
>stay for a few hours after and watch basketball with her dad and little brother
>they assume im dating her, she seems to think so too
>thought this was just a casual lay
what do lads? shes great and her family is really pleasant. not sure if im being paranoid but it feels almost suspicious

Boy you fucked up, now shes gonna cut yer dick off if you piss her off

i have been thinking the last few days about that guy aaron feis who died shielding students from bullets in the florida high school shooting and how it would literally be my life's dream to do that, shield innocent people from bullets and die myself who being lauded as a hero

so probably not a great mental state

What sort of question is this? You like her, she likes you, you have good sex together and enjoy each other' and company. Just keep rolling and don't go making any grand gestures/defining the relationship until you know you want to.

How are people here so autistic ?

Venezuelan here.
If you fucked her shes just gonna assume youre dating given she has a sense of self worth.
This is typical of girls with traditional values and correct priorities here in my country.
Youve found yourself a keeper my friend, good work.

not sure if i want a relationship, just got out of a bad one. her family is too nice and wouldnt accept casual sex probably. moving away in a few months too

i know. her family moved here from venezuela and getting axe murdered by vengeful south americans isnt on my bucket list

dude im a virgin myself, but why would you do this? dont you know that central and south american families are really traditional? why would you try to have just casual sex with a shy virgin venuzuelan girl who is probably catholic. you should ahve known this was coming

how old are you two

keep going user i believe in you

im catholic too, not a good one i guess but that made a good impression. shes ridiculously pretty so i just figured she was some thot, been in a rut the last couple months and it felt like a good confidence booster. both 19

i see. thanks for the insight

thats trad as fuck m8. ride the tiger. as a man you are supposed to have that drive. imagine being a DYEL pussy ass who couldn't protect the weak. if you don't have that desire you have been brainwashed out of the natural order.

but my goal in life would literally be to die because i would be dead and happy

According to Herodotus, Croesus encountered the Greek sage Solon and showed him his enormous wealth. Croesus, secure in his own wealth and happiness, asked Solon who the happiest man in the world was, and was disappointed by Solon's response that three had been happier than Croesus: Tellus, who died fighting for his country, and the brothers Kleobis and Biton who died peacefully in their sleep after their mother prayed for their perfect happiness because they had demonstrated filial piety by drawing her to a festival in an oxcart themselves. Solon goes on to explain that Croesus cannot be the happiest man because the fickleness of fortune means that the happiness of a man's life cannot be judged until after his death.

I feel like the only way I'm ever going to get to work for myself for a living is to become a solidity developer (programming language for Ethereum). I'm going to try to get a crypto-based income this year.

I'm just getting done with working, lifting, and that.

Fellow cryptobro here. I just quit my job last month to start working for myself (acquired a business with some crypto gains, it isn't crypto related though). Happy to answer questions if you have any

I started going to the gym a few weeks ago now. I feel nice about myself afterwards but I wish I had someone to go with that knew what they were doing and could help me. The only person even willing to go the gym at all flakes on 80% of the days we're supposed to go because he is a college student and has lots of work.

I've lost a majority of my friends and have had no success in making new ones. I'm going to stay alone for the rest of my life.

Do you have any coins that you like based on the technology involved in the coin? I'd like to find coins to study to get better at coding in Solidity. I took a class, but it takes me 20 minutes to make a "hello world" contract.

My ex, who screwed me over, double texted me last night at 3am. It's taking every ounce of willpower to not text her back.

Same.

22 and have yet to lay down pipe or get a gf feels bad. There are signs of life at least, cute girls actually talk to me now so if I keep talking to them it'll only be a matter of time right?

>today at work we had a small baby shower for a female coworker who had her last day before 4 month maternity leave
>she is 4 years older than me (shes 29), married, has a respected, intelligent, well-paying career in medical field, a very happy and nice and kind sane woman also shes like 6 feet tall
>meanwhile i am a kissless friendless virgin too stupid to get into the same grad program she got into and been working the same shit paying dead end entry level "pre-grad school' job at the hospital for the past 3 years since graduation

dont really know much more about her because i dont get into my coworkers private lives, but its times like this that really, REALLY put it into perspective exactly how incomprehensibly pathetic of a loser i am

Scared the shit out of me until you said medical field. There was also a small baby shower for a girl where I work today. Though I work in a state office and not a medical one so I dont think we're in the same place

I have a background in software engineering, but not blockchain-related so I'm not familiar with Solidity.

Obligatory church post:
Go to church this Sunday. Just try it, what do you have to lose? Preferably Orthodox or conservative Baptist.
Hard mode: Pentecostal church