Friday night feels thread lads drinking alone edition

>been lifting for about 3-4 months, still dyel
>start cutting this past month cos a friend's wedding is coming up and I don't want to look like a fatty
>not even closely following calories
>just cutting down on carbs on days where I don't lift
>eating out less and packing my work lunches so I know what's going in my food
>have lost 1.5kg already

What the fuck this feels like sorcery
I've been trying to "lose weight" for years now and this is the first time I feel like I've made actual tangible progress
I'll give myself a treat once a week or so but I don't binge anymore cos I know all my lifting is for naught if I eat like shit

THROW THE COOKIES AWAY

I’m sorry to hear that, but be glad that she survived. Please talk to her and try to help, she’s family

no m8 they're for her.

is she dutch

dane

Lately I've been thinking that I'm not ever gonna truly make it.

>11 days ago, laid off by employer of 21 years
>no warnings, no signs
>bad stomach problems after first 5 days
>eating one turkey sandwich a day
>drinking way too much at times
>finally visit local banker (non-Jew)
>tells me situation is ok
>celebrate with beer but positive attitude
>great incline chest workout next day
>still a bit soft from being unemployed
>feel good about the future
>still no g/f but don't care

>let go after *21 years*.

I spent the whole morning and afternoon edging because I've been on no fap for 2 months.
Just kill me. I can't take this anymore.

as a German I can say you're better off

My left forearm was giving me trouble today so I couldn't finish my workout so now I'm watching as much of Devilman Crybaby as I can before I sleep then I'll probably finish it tomorrow because I don't have a single friend here, all my friends are online and I'm crushingly lonely. Basically.

So, what makes you want to yank your crank ?
Bored ? Nothing else to do mentally ? Memories of whatever pornography you viewed last time ?

>you know there is no benefit / deficit either way

>26 years old
>just got driver license a few months ago but haven't gotten car because i'm scared to drive even though instructor told me i was a great driver and i passed driving test with few errors (even though its a piss easy USA driving test) because i have never driven alone in a real car other than the driving school one with 2 brakes
>find someone selling an old 2005 honda civic/accord with 105k miles on it for $3k, "runs great, original owner", literally the car i always wanted to get to be my first one to practice in and do parallel parking and all that shit

anyone have advice on buying an old car from a private party like this?

Tennis ? Cricket ? Lacrosse ?

>not squatting daily

be me
>know girl since elementary school
>her mom died in a car wreck when she was really young
>dad never remarried and raised her alone
>never have the same friend group in middle or high school but we were still on good terms
>during college we reconnected a bit
>her dad got cancer 2 years ago
>he croaked a while ago
>didn't see her for a while
>I see her outside the school one day
>ask her if she's doing ok
>"no... actually I could really use a hug right now"
>hug for like 30+ seconds
>she starts crying
>she doesn't have any siblings or family in the area and most of her friends went to different colleges so she's kinda going through this alone
>"can you come over? I don't wanna be by myself right now"
>agree
>we end up just watching Disney movies till she passes out
>she keeps inviting me over and is getting more touchy feely every time I come over
>it's been like this for a while and I don't know if she actually likes me or is just feeling sad and lonely
>I also have a girlfriend right now but we've only been dating like a month and I can tell it's not gonna last

I don't know lads she's a nice person and it really sucks what happened to her and I'm just trying to help her out but I hope she doesn't start becoming emotionally dependant on me

I edged yesterday because I was stressed, and I needed some kind of relief.

Today, just because I was horny as hell. I will stop watching porn again. It's a black spiral.

desu we will both be better off because we were too different (especially politically, as you could imagine.) Still sucks tho.
>tfw its so hard to find 5'11''+ qt blonde gf in le 56% land to mother my ubermensch.

As a German that is also my type, and I can't fucking find it either without them being a cum dumpster or having some mental disorder. I wish we could have won the fucking war

USA bro here.... CARMAX.

Or,,,, local Honda dealer --- not some Craigslist fag.

>1997 Civic HD Hatch / 2013 Civic EX

bring a knowledgable person with you to inspect it. if you dont know anyone i dont know what to tell you.

Ask the seller for recent work orders to prove that regular servicing was done. But a 3k car will have issues and should expect to dump at least 1k into immediately. just my experience senpai.

Be there for her user, she needs a lifelines right now. You don’t have to date her, but listen to her problems and help her back on her feet, maybe help get her some good friends

Feeling pretty good lads. Learning to not let my insecurity take control anymore and just enjoy life. Also my contacts should come in tomorrow so I won't have to wear glasses anymore.

its actually not even craigslistl, literally a car parked on the curb in front of a drugstore that is a makeshift used car lot lmfao. so basically i should use a reputable dealer to get it from rather than a private party?

well i mean my dad has been driving for 50 years maybe i should bring hi to do the test driving and all that? i dont know a mechanic or anything like that

Why are you embarrassed / shameful of spanking the monkey ?
You don't think 90% of the males you see daily haven't whacked it within the last week ?
I have ED (alcohol, p/h), and I'm over 45, so I gave up on booty action a while ago.
However.... "changing your own oil" isn't exactly life threatening.
Keeping it inside isn't doing anything for you except questioning yourself.
RELAX.

>be me
>Have cutie gf who loves you with all her heart
>Is sickly child been in and out of hospital since kid
>Don't care love just chilling and playing Vidya especially Minecraft
>Play hours and hours of it together she always brings me food when I forget
>Eventually get bored of Minecraft but she still plays every day
>A few months ago she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer
>Too small and sickly to operate on goes home to live with family
>Be scared and stupid and lonely tell her that I need space
>Tells me she understands but is clearly hurt
>Time goes by consider trying to get back with her but always chicken out
>Last month she died while on blood thinners preparing for surgery
>Go into terrible grief
>This week turn on my old Xbox and find the old world we used to play
>Look around this beautiful house and gardens she made for us there's two of every thing
>Find a box that has a sign over it saying "food for my user"
>Its full of cakes

There is only pain anons

i'm with you germanon... thats a big reason why im so bummed. i'm at a point in my life that i'm looking for a good mating partner. i just want to produce a good family with strong genes. not some manlet mongrels.

"be careful" is all I have to say

>tfw making good gym gains but no social gains

You should feel bad.

Please tell me it isn't true

It's not pain---- It's a beautiful memory.

>damn it you made me tear up

Been waiting for the bus for over an hour now due to snowstorm. My eating schedule has been ruined, and I'm freezing in here.

where you at nigga

Drinking tequila and vodka.

What do you do once your life reaches a sort of equilibrium?

Everything feels so meaningless. I've finished college. I've found a fine relationship. I have a job, not a good one, but something. It's been stressful lately and I realized that my friends aren't really friends. They don't want to spend time with me. I feel isolated, I feel like I have no goals in life. There was always something ahead of me, something worthwhile to do. Now I have nothing but ....what? Work for 35 years just scraping by until I can retire, suffer from some disease and die? Can you make friends once you're close to 30? Can you find reason to live at this point.

I've been thinking a lot about taking everything I have saved and going on a long vacation. I like travelling. With my savings I could last a while. Maybe even a year if I was frugal. I could see South America, Asia, places of note and beauty in Europe.

When the money runs out I can return to a place that has been beautiful, and end my life. It seems like a good option. I like the idea of living purposefully, in my own control. Rather than just submitting to the unending grind of typical life for decades.

Burnaby, BC.

Its not. Its just a dumb fucking meme. R-right?

dont fall for the traveling meme.

Homeless for 14 months as of tomorrow. Just fired from my min wage job bc manager did some sketch shit and my actions put him at risk for being caught. Getting cancer removed on Monday so I can get that waver cleared and enlist. My family disowned me at 18 and I just want to have a better life. I'm tired of struggling, living paycheck to paycheck, and being walked over like I'm worth nothing. I'll be better, but the current situation still sucks and is beyond stressful.

>drinking

Never gonna make it

>33% chink
wtf happened there

whre have you been staying dude? friends? hope your surgery (?) goes well.

I'm a chink spic mutt (0% white, literally). Get on my level.

Your story proves you're strong, keep your head straight and you're gonna make it

lel thats a new one

I don't know what to do, my entire life people have been hurting me. The only person I can take solace in is myself, but it just isn't working. I told myself I was all I needed, but it just isn't enough. At the same time, I can't betray the only person who was ever there for me, who got me through so much. I can't trust another human being

spics are partially spanish, who are partially white, so

It's nothing bad desu. At least my mother (spic) side of the family is tall, so I am 6'2.

I guess otherwise I would've been totally fucked.

delet

Bored, bored out of my mind. Everyday is the same, just bored. I don't know what to do with myself.

Brandon Lee is that you

Inb4 >sorta gf's a 6
>thicc
>old parents
>600k house overlooks a lake
>cooks for me

Is she a keeper? There's others that are better looking should i try'n keep options open, looking to impregnate as many as possible desu

In my car around the bay area. I have no friends, I burn bridges like it pays the bills bc I hate dealing with people that ask and get offended when you need a couch to sleep on. Thank you though.
My abusive alcoholic dad trained me my whole life to be a marine just like he was, so I'm definitely strong enough to succeed, I'm just tired of working as hard as I am for as little I'm getting. 23 is still young, but I should be better than where I'm at with all I've put in.

I had some pizza tonight and I refuse to feel guilty.

I live in my parents basement, trying to save up to move out. It just flooded with 6 inches of water. All of Lansing is flooded and I have spent the past 4 days getting it out but it wont stop leaking. I dont work until Monday and it will be a 50 hour week. Have barely had time for school and Ive lost 55 pounds since mid October. Im having some pizza and beer tonight and Ill hop back on it tomorrow.

That makes two of us

shit bro i know how shitty it is out there. i'm from san mateo/redwood city but currently nyc. good luck!
>pic related is you in a year

>mfw I'm 23 and I think I have problems because my master's thesis is difficult and I am struggling on my own
Thank you for the perspective, user. I hope your life improves, you deserve it.

>i'm from san mateo/redwood city but currently nyc. good luck!

>born into bay area wealth
>moves to another city of wealth
>"i know how shitty is is out there:"

Hit 1 plate OHP brehs

That's no way to think. You CAN make it, bro. You really, honest to god, can

how is life as a homelsss bay area person? with how expensive it is to live here im not surprised. i assume since you're here youre not one of those disgusting BART hobos so whats your homeless life been like?

was playing some games, now just checking out some music, might game with lads later, no feels, just tired of this job

you clearly know nothing about that area if you think it's wealthy... i grew up in a 2 bedroom rental in a spic hood sharing a bedroom with my two sisters until i was 11 years old.

>have terrible breakup
>brother moves in with me
>my brother gets engaged to her sister
>ex loses her job and comes to live with her sister, who lives with my brother, who lives with me
>now seeing my ex multiple times a week
>being slapped in the face with my past sins daily
$5 to the first user to come beat me to death with a brick

the hardest part about trying to get out of loserdom is when people tell you that you have to be more social (i recognize im an autistic shut in) but then the main people you are social around, coworkers, and students back when i was in school, reject you due to your social weirdness, so being more social actually does worse for you

Did you text your mum? Doing 70DB OH instead as shoulders don't agree with bb but it still counts as 1pl8 OHP.

10lb short of 2pl8 bench, stalling...

I'm from San Bruno, had to flip to Fremont, Stockton, Modesto, Antioch, currently in Union City.
Thanks, I'm glad someone wishes me well, it's few and far between over here.
Sleep in bart parking lots on weekends, finding residential/24hr stores/low traffic areas to sleep in on weekdays. Work 8-10 hours a day at [insert retail], work out at gym, shower, shitpost, then find a place to sleep. A lot of homeless with issues like to tap on my window to see if I'm dead so they can loot shit, so I rarely get 5 hours of sleep.

>tfw work as night audit for a Hilton Hotel
>tfw pays pretty decently
>tfw health insurance, dental, and vision as well as 35 days of paid vacation time a year
>tfw only about 30% of my shift is actually spent doing work related stuff and the rest is spent fucking around on my laptop/shitposting on Veeky Forums
>tfw I'm literally at work right now sipping some tea while I read a book and browse Veeky Forums

I don't know OP, I feel pretty fuckin good.

>tfw the big brother to three little sisters
Sorry user, that's rough.

dude why not go somewhere cost of living would be much lower/ do people in your life care that youre homeless, and you were even homeless while working?

I've been in police academy for 2 months now, went from broke college kid to actually working and it feels great
Currently have $4,000 savings and $1,000 for rent and food, feels good man

shit man. wish i still knew people out there to hook you up with. nice koolaid water tho.

only thing holding me back from suicide is younger siblings, it's a weird feel
hoping you can help/care for those on your end, anons, and that they get better

>ask gf why shes been so distant
>feels weird
>she blows up on me
>pulls out list of everything i ever did wrong with timestamps
>just give up and apologize
>she stops responding doesn't pick up phone
>haven't talked to her all day

am I free ? chained to misery? is she just having a moment?

guess ill find out tomorrow

not him. but some times life comes at you fast and you cant just "leave" as much as you'd like to.

Work on a project user, do something creative in your free time. For me it's indie game development/game design. I don't know what it is for you.

What do you eat everyday?

2 reasons
1) she's crazy
2) you're a fucking weirdo and she's justified in trying to shit on you

>met gf at 15, in love until we’re 26 and expecting a child
>we’re laying in bed together telling jokes and laughing
>best time of my life, never figured it would recover after a rough childhood
>she has a seizure and dies right in front of me

now i lift. thats it

self improvement is dull bros
honestly sometimes i just want to say "FUCK IT" and just spend the rest of my days playing vidya, jacking off and lifting

>parents already make 200k a year just from investments and a ton of property so I have no monetary reason to "make it" since I'll be getting that anyway

but I've relapsed like that before and as "comfy" as it sounds, it's great for the first week but it's literal hell on earth by the first month.

You can do it user, good luck with your surgery.

Old nigga boolin.

establish some boundaries bro. Don't let the emotional girl do it for the two of you.

is this for real? holy shit if true man. that's awful

I've had 5 jobs homeless, soon to be 6. Long story short, I enlisted, MEPS dq'd me on "growths in tailbone area", ended up being cancer. If I'm not able to enlist after this surgery, I'm not staying in CA anymore. I'm only staying for muh army stronk promised better life.
It's fine, I don't expect any connects on a Mongolian basket weaving forum.
Oats, veggies, bananas, rice+pasta sauce, rice+sesame oil, a pound of beef/chicken breast. Camping stoves are really convenient, and Safeway is open 24/7.
Thank you, it means a lot to me.

>gf

Sucks being you

My life is as shitty as any of yours and just to add insult to injury I had a distinct thought earlier that I will die some day, take my last breath and the lights will go out never to turn back on again. Probably after a lot of pain and misery.

I know this feel all too well. I come from a big Catholic family, I'm the oldest of 5 and have 30ish cousins, I've lost count to be honest (another one was born literally two days ago.) I'm very tired, I've wanted to die for years but I can't because of what it'd do to them. As fucked up and selfish as this may sound, part of me wishes I was an only child so that I could kill myself and impact a minimal number of people. It almost feels like I'm being strong armed into living.

>Police Academy
Got a good YT channel for ya user, look up Donut Operator, you're welcome.

>put post on whisper saying if any girl wants a Friday night date to hmu
>not expecting shit
>get a message 6 hours later
>girl about 20 minutes away, we chat a bit and exchange pics
>prettycute
>talk a bit about what we want
>fuckit.jpg I am looking for a serious relationship and not a hook up
>she says same
>neat, maybe she isn't a total slag
>agree to just drive around and chat a bit getting to know each other
>shit, shower, shave
>drive down, in the middle of the drive asks me how tall i am
>6ft (which is dead truth)
>a little shallow to ask I guess but whatever if she were a fatty I wouldn't be interested
>arrive at her dorm
>text her I'm there, she says she'll be out in a second
>wait for almost 5 minutes
>said she'd be ready when I got there
>she comes out, not as cute as her pic but still pretty cute
>I open door for her
>go around and get in
>start driving off
>"so what are you studying"
>"Music education"
>"oh nice, I have no musical talent, can't even whistle."
>she barely responds
>lolok
>"Do you have any siblings?"
>"..."
>"I'm not gonna lie I'm really uncomfortable"
>"oh. Ok. Do you.. want to just pull over?"
>"..."
>"I think you should just take me back"
>wtf
>"uhm. Sorry. What am I doing that's making you uncomfortable"
>"I'm really nervous, you should just take me back"
>fucking ok
>loop back around and stop back at her place, went less than a block
>"Are you mad?"
>"Well I did drive all the way here.. I mean if you're uncomfortable.. it's fine whatever."
>she closes door
>I slam accelerator, beet faced red

How the fuck did I ruin a date in less than 2 minutes?

>hair for all intents and purposes gone at 24
>6/10
>5'8" on a good day
>still DYEL

wondering if its even possible for me to make it at this point. think of suicide a few times a week. I have enough agency to lock down a well paying job with benefits, but I'm so genetically disadvantaged I wonder if it's even worth it for me to try.