My depression is coming back

that's a poo in the loo
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depression is just a form of narcissism
every single thought that goes through your mind when you're depressed contains the word "I", unless you're some sort of fag that gets depressed about the Olympics or some shit
focus on things that aren't you, and you'll feel better

This was surprisingly helpful to think about, user. I'll try this, thanks

man, that really cut to the heart of the issue. To some degree I feel I knew this but unless it's said to you like you did, you might not realise.

bro

better increase the fluoxetine doses

I don't trust myself to drink because if I go down that path it'll just fuck me up even more.

But beware of shitty quacks that wanna get you hooked on w/e

>fluoxetine
Absolutely pleb. Venlafaxine is where it's at.

I feel you, lad. I had a date tonight but she flaked on me last second so I slept for like six miserable hours.

meditate
cold showers
get 8 hours sleep
youtube.com/watch?v=Ijnt-eXukwk

Is that elliot rodger?

It's probably because you like Asian traps

Eat well tonight and then go to sleep

You'll feel better tomorrow

I feel that

>depressed for 12 years
>tfw discover ketamine clinics

It's mental. No idea who you are but remember. Tomorrow is a different day. Wake up with a goal and act like you have a soul

Same bro, but I just learned to live with it. I kind of just accepted it. What keeps me going is that I don't want to be a failure in the eyes of my family. Keep going bro, there has to be someone out there that is counting on you to succeed.

And? Are we supposed to care? You make a whole thread in this veiled cry for help? Fuck off and either do something with your life or off yourself.

Doing atleast 15 minutes of cardio and weight workouts after a intense weight lifting/strength training session did wonders for my mental health. Try doing cardio after you lift, it’ll help your mood and get blood to all your muscles to help soreness.

I swear to god. Alot of you fags dont even deal with real depression. Just cause you have an off day or get sad it doesnt mean youre depressed and wanna kill yourself. Fuck off

Mines going probsbly because it's getting closer to summer

Saying that I could be sort of bi polar as I get periods of not wanting to socialise and staying in for months only leaving the house for work and the gym to going round the bend on drink and drugs planning crazy shot for 6-10 weeks then hitting a baseline where I'm just chill

It's about perspective man.
If you're used to a life where your emotions rule and you have a hard time with people, something as small as getting stood up can be crushing. Enough of that can definitely lead to depression.
There isn't some arbitrary requirement of x number of traumatic experiences at y intensity before you're allowed to be depressed or something. It just happens.

what was it for u?

Refer to this chart

I'll cum one your back bro. No homo haha

Is that a man?

....fuck

This post made the most sense of anything I've ever read

I want a girlfriend again

accurate

>t. how to get suicidal with one easy step

Suffered from it on and off for years. The only thing that helped long-term was fasting. Now I’ve been eating OMAD for a few years and it’s been the longest good period in over a decade for me.
It doesn’t necessarily cure it completely, but it’s been a massive positive change for me.

Every person starts with the "I", that's how we navigate shit. Even selfless things start with the "I". Difference between "those people need help" and "I need to help those people" is that one gets shit done and one is just an observation.

"I think therefore I am", the I is the rock that support everything we do and build.

this
:(((((((

This. And to take it a step further, you're never going to get out of depression until you understand your personal "I" and re-balance yourself around that point. Know Thyself. Otherwise you are going to just be spinning in the dirt.

yeah it was hidden back for a bit
progression came
the life went downhill again
5 years of constant downhill
i just
i think this year will be the final year

This and only this. Too many people with "depression" nowadays

>finally quit video games forever
>finally lost 40lbs
>still has no real hobby beside lifting weights
>nothing really interest me as much as video games before
I won't back to games but fuck. I don't bother this much about my college and work whatsoever. Job/school only kills my boredom.

this, it never leaves. the voices just get more quiet if you are making constant progression in life but as soon as you hit resistance they get louder again.

I think my problem is I simply dont know who I am. I know who I wanna be but not who I am. And I think that is part of my depression because it feels like I am simply not the person I really am.

In my experience all these things follow depression, don't cause it. When I go into a depressive period(usually caused by prolonged stress) my sleep becomes worse, I wake up at night. My self-esteem goes to shit so I start to avoid people. My head becomes dominated by negative feelings and thoughts and I look for anything to distract myself. Only one time did I stop training though, never again.

All of these things are CORRELATED with depression, that doesn't mean they CAUSE it.

believing you have (((depression)))
stop lettings (((them))) feed you lies that you have a problem that needs to be fixed.
Start believing in yourself and being able to fix your own problems

There is not concrete thing that you are. You're just potential and you choose where to aim it. You from 5 years and 15 years ago were completely different but were still you.

try shooting or mountain biking unironically
both are gods gift to men

If you survived it before, you'll survive it again. Surviving - especially when most people around can't see or understand what you're surviving - is triumph. If the zombies come for you every night, surviving until the next daybreak is victory, and every night brings a new chance to triumph.
Prepare, fight and be victorious, user.

Dead fucking on target. Damned near everything listed in that "infographic" is an avoidance or coping mechanism.

Lifting is the only thing for me that quiets those negative feedback loops. Every PR is another kick in the balls to the voice in my head that says "You can't".

I've been depressed since I was 16, 23 now, and in no way do I have it all figured out but if there is a few things that have helped me move forward mentally.

1. Never tell a single lie, owe up to and correct every lie that slips out of your mouth, encourage others to be honest with you. This means no white lies either, nothing. This will mean you can, after a while when people fully trust your sincerity, get one view of your "I", after enough people have shared you will gather usefull insights into your workings.

2. Study yourself, which situations do you avoid? Is there a pattern in your behaviour that brings you deeper into your depression? Is there a pattern of events leading up to your more depressed periods. Start looking at yourself as if you were another person, this makes biases and defence mechanism easier to avoid(also realize you have these and that they work against your goal).

3. Are you a good person? what is "good"? read some moral philosophy, be it Plutarch, Singer, Bentham, Mills, Kant etc. or just a basic highschool book on philosophy. You will NOT find THE answer, but you will find something that SEEMS to be true, work untill you have found a stable position, where you know the strongest counter arguments but are still not swayed. I haven't found a fully coherent system but some things have become reinforced in me and some things I've had to add, it makes you more stable when you atleast have an idea of what determines a "good" direction of actions.

4. Start trying to BE through DOING, would the person you want to be do what you do? if not, don't do it, if so do it. When you see yourself as another person, you will also see yourself as being what you do, because how do you determine the character of others? By looking at what they do.

5. Do mindfulness meditations, this have been a huge failing for me, it's very beneficial but I have only managed to motivate myself into doing it consistently. Start with one thing at a time, my first was training consistently, took me 4 years untill it became ingrained in my person.

Also this: Work to be a good person and if you in 5 years do all the things that a good person does, you are one. Also being a good person makes you feel good so it's a positive feed back loop.

it's very beneficial but I have only managed to motivate myself into doing it consistently in short periods.****

ITT: people who don't even know what depression even is and who confuse it with being sad for a reason.

Yeah there is NOO WAY that the extremely complex brain could POSSIBLY be in a state that is experienced as a depression for the subject. It's not like "non-depression" is also just state of almost miraculous function of trillions of factors. There is no way others could experience the world and their feeling in a way differently from you.

>reads the wikipedia summary of meditations once

Lift heavier

>DUDE JUST GET UP AND START DOING SOMETHING XD
>DEPRESSION IS NOT REAL LOL ITS ALL IN YOUR HEAD
>LIKE ITS NOT SO DIFFICULT LMAO JUST DO SOMETHING

my anxiety is getting worse

??? US?

You'll find your way out of it.
You know what you need to to. Keep doing it.
Every little task may feel like climbing a mountain, and the colossal, suffocating sense of hopelessness will permeate everything, but you know what you need to do. And here's something I know that maybe you don't..
It gets better. Your spirit has a resiliency that you are probably not aware of.
The key is to do the things you know are required of you to maintain your body/health, spirit, and all the little necessities of life that seem only to punctuate the utter pointlessness of it all.
But it's not pointless, even if every synapse in your mind is screaming otherwise.
Maintain yourself, grit your teethe and when you come out of it you can hit the ground running.

>DUDE JUST GET UP AND START DOING SOMETHING XD

It is amazing how - no matter how hard it is - doing something helps.

mine came back with a vengeance in october. Completely annihilated my engagement. Ex couldn't handle the idea that I couldn't take care of her or her problems. I literally was struggling to get out of bed just sitting in the dark crying every night. Stopped doing chores. Stopped bathing. Couldn't snap out of it. Her breaking things off with me actually snapped me out of it.

Sometimes a change in life is what you need. Take that however you want to.

I will second the use of drugs to confront the issues causing depression.

LSD/2C-B works well as well and isn't as "fun" as ketamine so the possibility of addiction is nil.

MDMA can break you out of depression but it is such a good drug unless you are in a therapeutic setting you will likely just jack off for 5-6 hours.

If you can find a ketamine clinic though I'd try that.

This. Behavior patterns internet shitlords will label as degenerate are just symptoms of the actual problem.

thanks

It comes in waves OP.. hope you pull through. Just keep going.

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wow user that's pretty deep. I had mentally come to that conclusion roughly, but I hadn't been able to put it that succinctly. Good shit.

Listen to this man OP, he is not wrong.