Feels thread- mental health deterioration at very fast speed edition

Just in general. It hot so bad 2yaers ago I stopped sleeping because of fear of dying in my sleep or getting my throat slit in the middle of the nigh

I'm becoming the popular kid on the block in the office

This week has been hell, everyone wants to talk to me

Everyone literally grabbing me and wanting attention from me

Everyone literally trying to ask me to help them on everything they're working on

How come i get banned for posting about mental health like social anxiety but this shit stays? Fuck you mods.

Read up on death. I personally recommend the stranger but other books and even song and movies talk about it.msatisfy your obsession and learn what death truly is; an end to existence, a passing to the afterlife, the transition to be reincarnated? You have to be the judge of that

Embrace it or tell them to fuck off

eaiser said than done man

how do you talk to a bunch of people and all of them want attention from you?

everyone wants eye contact ,and you're talking to a few people and the others feel weird, so you have to look all of them in the eye?

im literally anti social, and this fucking office job is killing me, everyone wants attention and some people will eventually start sucking up/kissing ass so i can get them a better job, that wont happen

I would literally tell them to stop bothering me, but I'm the sociopath so either my opinion means a lot or absolutely nothing. They'll only understand if you tell them their bothering you, you could say they're bothering you nicely but that's about it

i would be wary of what a psychiatrist tells you, they don't use a scientific process to determine mental disorders and its also not likely medication of any sort would help a mental disorder, medication could only treat symptoms rather than the disorder

Never touch those (((mental health pills))) op they’ll fuck wih your gains and cause permanent damage
Keep lifting cunt

If my hair is damp and I put it up to sleep at night, I look like a lion when I wake up and take it down. Have I achieved hair nirvana?

I've been really depressed recently, it feels like there's so much on my mind and I'm under so much pressure, most of it self-imposed. And a part of me wishes I could talk to someone about it, but I hate feeling like a burden to people and I don't even know anyone I would trust enough to open up to.

>psychiatrists

Congrats you played yourself

I had agrophobia level anxiety for a while.
All I could do was shake in bed, or be on my phone to distract myself.
I've fixed my anxiety with Wim Hoff, and an elimination diet that removed stuff I'm allergic to.
But I still have the phone habit, and get nervous without some kind of screen distraction sometime, especially at night.
I need to fix this.

did i already tell you guys im a sociopath

I said it once calm down

Met up with a qt from work that I was crushing on and saw her outside of work slutting it up and I completely lost interest, sucks cause I was really starting to like her

Get your knob slobbed my dude

Idk I'm about to finally move out and my divorced parents are pretty toxic and have petty fights between each other over their children. I'm afraid once I leave I won't come back to visit for a very long time. I may be slightly depressed, also.

Well yea I'll probably end up fucking her but still feel disappointed about it

>i'm a sociopath
hahahaha what's that?

anyway I don't know what that is, but please don't take pills because the bugman is afraid of you. and my mental health is just fine :)

just like lifting user, gotta take it one at a time.
cant get overwhelmed by all the noise.

definitely study public speaking. watch videos of people giving lectures. sometimes it isnt about giving each indivual person what they want, but riffing with the group as a whole

Seven years ago I had my first time when I let a girl practically force herself on me. I'm pretty sure it's at least part of the reason why I'm so weird around women. I want to finally talk to someone about it. Should I try my dad? How do I bring this kind of thing up?

What's going on user?

It's hard to explain, I just feel very disappointed with myself and where I am in life. I'm terrible with people so I don't go out much, which makes me feel pretty lonely at times. I feel like I can't really share anything I'm interested in, either because its dumb or nobody would be interested in what I have to say. I'm starting to think I have some self-esteem issues I need to work on.

dumb story here

>work at a hospital
>a lot of times they leave breakfast foods out for people to take after patients eat them
>every day, take a few hard boiled eggs and a few boxes of bran cereal with milk
>eat the bran cereal at breakfast and then have the 2 eggs at lunch with whatever sandwich i make
>my small group of coworkers i work with always mock me for eating the same eggs and bran cereal every day, also because one of the girls' dogs she brings in every day also eats eggs they take
>while they are always eating some kind of candy or full sugared sodas every day
>always refrain from insulting them because then ill be the asshole so i just laugh along with it

Fasting and meditation. Dont take the kike pills. Start reading better books and stop talking to those kikes. Get a constructive hobby.

Stop taking speed too retard. You just need multivitamins and sugar free diet. Fast for at least 24 hours 3x a week and meditate as much as you can each day.
Walking meditation will probably be best for you, look it up.

Read Lao Tzu
Tao Te Ching

Muy date finally turned me off and it came out to light my father had another family all along and were sucking my mom's money.
> went knee deep depression and anger
> Ereased fb and social media accounts
> some friends noticed and tried to get in touch
> just my best friend and like 2 other people know
> people around care about me but I still feel like shit and seems like I cant feel joy anymore.

Fuck!!!!!!!!!

I did something you never do. I have tons of cousins
One of my counsins just popped into my mind somehow, decide to google her name and found her youtube page and some stuff from her college

Fuck found her brother post 8 years ago,, found his youtube page, he died 8 years ago, found his old comments, found some of her comments, she is still alive and i even found videos of her and her friends, fuck i should not be going down this rabbit hole like this

i haven't spoke to her in fuck, maybe 15 years, she just, she is different than other people

She's in her mid 30s and is a virgin, she believes in the pure life and she doesn't want to be a slave to society, has a great job etc.. but never wants to have kids and she is still single
fuck, why am i looking into her life, i have zero connection to her for 15 years now, she went a different path

and i dont know what to say

i lost my counsins, she lost her sister and her brother, they died years ago.

fuk, what is wrong with me tonight?

Apathy checking in.

I really want to have sex again
haven't gotten laid in 7 months and have only done things with one girl. saw this lady in a dress with gratuitous amounts of cleavage today and just wanted to go wild on her chest- normally i can beat off and convince myself it's close enough to the real thing but shit like that brings the sexual frustration back. stings because I'm at a point where I am fairly proud of my physical appearance now after years of gym

Tell me

Sociopathic is good, use it to rule the world you retard, and never take jew medicaments, if you wanna stay low take weed

I wouldn't be 3 months sober from booze and porn addiction if I hadn't started lifting as a replacement. I look better and feel better and am optimistic about the future.

2 days ago I asked my best friend to give me a chance, she did. Today she went back on her word. I'm shattered again. Mentally I am a wreck but physically I am more alive than ever. I hit the gym today and managed to hit front squat 225lbs for 4 reps. I can barely manage 1 rep on normal days. I hit 3 plate regular squat for 5 reps.

I don't want to leave the gym anymore. I don't want to sleep, I don't want to do anything but lift right now.

Nothing helps me cope better, not video games, not watching movies, not even chilling with my bros, all I want to do now after I get off work is hit the weights.

>tfw 6'2", kind of a lanklet but still good looking enough for normies to think i get laid a normal amount
>my close friends have said to me 'you're a good looking guy' unironically
>tfw 20yo virgin
>tfw i legitimately have aspergers (diagnosed)

I literally cannot seduce a woman, it is not possible for me to do, i fuck it up consistently every time

At least i am eating more now. I have not seen any progress on my lifts for ~3 months. I was slacking off a lot ant not eating enough but I am trying to get back into it.

Tore my Achilles tendon three weeks ago. Not allowed to do explosive movements before... November. I also got shoulder tendinitis from using the crutches wrongly, so I haven't been able to train upper body either. Body is going to be reduced to shit.

The thing I'm actually worried about is that my gf wants me to go to her graduation ceremony with her and her friends who I don't know. It's gonna be painful.

Your not a sociopath your just on speed and it's making you a sociopath and fucking up how your naturally supposed to be emotionally drop that shit before it's too late and abandon your psychiatrist their trained to give pills to make money for whoever makes them