Mental Health General

Had panic disorder for about 1.5 years. Finally can cope with it and control my attacks. I'm still not at an ideal point, and I still have to take fucking 1.5 sertraline per day, but I'm 1000x better off right now than I was a year ago.
The future is looking bright.

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have a psychiatrist appointment coming up where i think they're going to give me mood stabilisers
anyone on Veeky Forums on them?

bipolar?

life is shit, no significant others, been years since i even felt close to a grill, all my friends have graduated and got jobs while i'm still struggling in an engineering course i hate, video games aren't as interesting anymore, after 1 hour i'm bored to death, not to mention i've let myself go and gotten skinnyfat again

thankfully i'll be back to the gym tomorrow after 4 long months, so i'll at least be able to cope again

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Had a weird day today

I used to be poor and unsuccessful
One day a few years ago I didn't have a job, I sat at home and just decided to apply for some random IT job an hour away from home

I got a phone call, not 10 minutes later about that job posting. But here's the kicker and the event that changed my life forever. I got the call but they offered me something else that they felt I would be a good fit for. I had to interview remotly on a skype call and over the phone for a phone screen

Basically I got the job and the job turned out to be 2k miles away from home. I moved, got promoted within three months, became a lead trainer for a while, than a Security Engineer, than another lead security engineer in this field and now I'm at where i'm at today

Making over 100k
Traveling across the US every few months for business related travel
Working and designing new products and solutions for the company

I'm thinking about this today for some reason. and remember being the loser without a job years ago.

Veeky Forums I have one question, one simple question
If that day, I didn't apply for that random job posting, would I have ever ended up here?

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good on you for taking the leap user, i still fail to take it every time due to fear of failure

pretty well, have been masking the stress and depression with weed, lifting and practicing with my band

Badly, I'm stuck in a circadian rhythm of being awake well into the early morning. No matter what I do whether it's napping or doing all nighters and falling asleep at 6-9pm the next day, I always wind up stuck in this same fucking awful situation. Even when I unfuck my shit I still wind up like this after a few weeks or months.

yeah that's what the doctor thinks, though i've only had a few appointments with a doctor at a "wellbeing centre" and not an actual psychiatrist yet, but finally got the referral

I cant say if you would but I know that I wouldve ended up the same because I am a fighter at heart. took me a long while to realize this but I just never give up no matter how bad it looks I go hard until it gets better. and thats what makes me special, I might get knocked down and dont have the best genetics/connections or whatever but god damn I would rather die than giving up and I dont just say that.

Waste of money user

What's even more interesting is I was broke at the time and had to try something to achieve success

>Found job in June
>Lost job in July
>Had 2k left over and that dropped to $500 by August/Spet
>Than came the job offer
Ended up selling anything I didn't need
Had worked up to $1800
$1400 for first month rent/deposit
$200 for gas to get there
Mom made me lunch on my road trip there so I didn't need any food and didn't need to stop at rest stops to buy food
Ended up showing up to town with $200 left and a credit card
First night in town, bought some food and some other things around the house that I needed
I was out of money by this point, and started my new job Monday morning
Wow, i'm looking at the calendar now and remembering my journey
Anyway, Sept 30, I took off early in the morning, said by to my parents and headed out of town
Oct 2nd, I'm in town
>I found a place to rent/live in a basement of a house
I paid the lady, and lived there
Oct 4th, first day at work
Three months past
I began training people
Three more months, I got a promotion
Year goes by, found new place to live
Another year goes by, a new job at this point making more than 100k
I still don't understand, nor remember what job I originally applied for
The job was an hour away from home, I ended up taking another offer to move to another state and I made it

>Years have gone by
>I'm not sure why I'm now remembering/thinking about this stuff
>Was it luck all along? Or was it destiny?

Question, is your aversion to taking anti-depressants/anti-psychotic/anxiolytics based on your knowledge on the pharmacology and possible side effects or because of fear and misinformation about the effects and treatment plans?

I think I know why I'm thinking about this stuff
I just got another raise/promotion last week
I had to present some of my work in front of 30 people in my team in another state while traveling for business

What's going on with me today?

In case you're not LARP-ing I say congrats to you man. Make sure you treasure it because it seems like you lucked into a big opportunity and make sure you don't waste it.

personally both
my mom has always been really distrustful of doctors and pharma in general and it definitely rubbed off on me
not sure if I should try and break the conditioning and trust doctors again, or if shes right and they really are trying to give us cancer etc so we have to pay money to the system

are you from the UK? i had a GP appointment and she thinks bipolar and i was supposed to get something in the post but it hasn't come yet. are you normally depressed or manic? what kind of symptoms do you have? with me, i've been impulsive since about september -nearly had a head on car collision due to a stupid decision, over drinking on nights out. the strangest symptom i had was the hallucinations; voices and faces that i heard/ saw when i woke up in the middle of the night

I know but they taste good.

Was going on a date in two hours but she called it off for her mam.

>tfw didn't realise it was mothers day

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Finally getting those anti depressamts soon. Fuck side effects and conspiracy theorists nothing can be worse than this.

Im drinking pretty heavy recently to cope. All I think about all day in work is suicide.

I was put on ritalin for ADHD as a kid and those who knew me before and after noted a dramatic change in my personality. Before it I was bursting with energy but the shit turned me into a positively boring zombie. I know there's a big difference between being medicated in your formative years and as an adult but it really bothers me and makes me wonder what I might've been like if my issues were treated some other way besides being sedated/medicated.

yeah im from the UK. I normally tend towards depressed but then for a few weeks/a month i get manic, can't sleep for days on end, get obsessive over certain stuff, waste money on shit i dont need and act generally much more impulsively etc. I've heard voices in the night before but i'm not sure if that's due to mental illness or just because of lack of sleep. Have never had visual hallucinations, the GP reckoned it sounds like cyclothymia or bipolar 2, whereas I think having hallucinations qualifies you as bipolar 1. How long have you had these symptoms?

wait isnt mothers day in may? you spooked me so i googled it real quick and it says may 13th is mothers day

Bad, been trying to convince a good friends gf to leave him for me all week
Now that its working, this shit is deppressing, hes trying so hard to keep her and when i side with stayong with him, its like she just wants me more.
Hes literally told her hed kill himself if she went with me, and im starting to believe him

don't do it, they'll destroy any emotion you have. you'll become a pathetic nihilistic shell of a person. and there's a huge correlation between anti-depressants and school shooters

good luck user!!!!I believe in you! Go get 'em!!!

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>Good friend
you are not his friend, you have no respect for him or the sanctity of a man's friendship. hope you and the whore die

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pls get me a job

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I see. I'm only a nurse but I can tell you from a lot of experience that we and the doctors working the floor really only care about helping people, if that means anything.

since about september. have been depressed on and off for a couple years prior but since september i've had intermittent euphoria and i've had so many ideas but keep nearly getting into situations where i could easily end up dying. i'm 19 and they say it starts in late teens. what's your age?

Youre right i dont. I was just going to take her and say fuck him. But seeing him like this and the things she says to him is killing me.

I tried Ritalin a few times and it made me super focused and I had my most productive days ever when I was on it. Granted I don't have ADHD (I think) so maybe it has a different effect on me. It's a fucking sick pre workout though. And it helped me at work when I was sleep deprived.

Im already those things user

I hope you were evaluated by a specialist or two prior. Ritalin isn't exactly something you start people on on a whim. The guidelines are also quite specific for children.

very similar, i had ocd/depression since i was about 11 and then last year (maybe two years ago) i started to get these massive bursts of energy that would last a few weeks, always followed by a horrible depressive crash. Apparently on average people who are bipolar are first diagnosed as depressed, then about 5 years later they finally get a bipolar diagnosis, so it's good to recognise it early and get onto a doctor about it. I'm 20. What kind of situations have you got into?

just fyi, if a chick left a guy for you, she will just as easily leave you for another. Hope you are only after a quick bang, cause that's what it'll be

Yeah, went through a couple doctors. I was a shithead of a kid. Definitely wish it turned out some other way. Before and after medication are like the defining points of my life, I was two different people. Was on the stuff in 3rd and 4th grade.
Like I said, there's a world of difference in the long term effects of drugs between kids and adults.

It's today user, i've just asked my mum

If you don’t care about your current job, quit it and work a blue collar, highly physical job like construction or warehousing. I did that, for out of my parents’ place and got married.
For whatever reason, heavily handicapping myself in the game of life is what I wanted to do and what gave me a sense of achievement.
Yeah, it’s retarded but it worked.

Yeah. At this point im kind of just hoping shes using me as an excuse to leave him and i just get to fuck a little bit. She straight up tore him apart yesterday and didnt look like she cared at all

do americans have a different mothers day? it's mothers day here in the uk

Nei, that was your break and you took it.

Anxious, keep getting panic attacks in social situations at uni, not sure how I’m gonna cope in a house of 6 next year

Not great. This time of the year is always the worst for me. It's been like 4 solid months of winter already and it'll be at least another month before it starts to consistently warm up and get sunny. Depression is definitely settling in like it usually does this time of year.

Found out my grandmother passed away today. She was the only thing keeping my family together. They told me via text this morning...

>Feelsbadman.jpeg

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If you are in Hueland like me, mother's day is in may

mainly near car crashes trying to overtake cars on windey country roads in a 1 litre car, road rage and alcohol abuse at social events like the works christmas do especially. i'm easily agitated as well and mood changes so fast

I'm the user who you probably were going to tag in your post. Anyways I'm afraid of SSRIs because of brain zaps (I know they don't happen in every case but my mom had them when she was on antidepressants, not sure about my sister) and because I've read that they have long-term deleterious effects on memory as well as libido. Maybe I'm just irrationally paranoid because I'd be fine with taking antipsychotics and anxiolytics. I've been beginning to think I've started turning schizo due to reality seeming "dreamy" which spikes my anxiety up. I got screened by a therapist beforehand so I guess they'll evaluate everything and determine what's up.

Life seems really shit right now. A little bizarre in retrospect since wealth-wise I'm in a decent spot, I'm sad and lonely despite that but I'm too poor at socializing to get friends and I'm not even sure if I'd be willing to put in the responsibility that comes with maintaining relationships. I've regressed to a fantasy world in my head which is fulfilling yet leaves me feeling strangely empty.

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Chicago-fag here.

Seasonal depression is real but being proactive about the gym, getting outside and being around other people works wonders. I can't wait until summer is here and I can go to the beach.

Something else that has drastically improved my mental health is abstaining from booze. 3 weeks sober and I can feel my emotions coming back online and mood improving a lot.

Had to study so hard recently, I sometimes even had to skip meals.
Gains stopped, I even lost weight and some muscle.
Not just did I plateau for over 3 months, but I got even weaker, my physique is shit now and I got body acne (fucking bacne man).

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Haven't lifted in months, no motivation to start again.

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You have legitimate concerns about side effects which is good. If you were just one of those people that have no faith in drug therapy because you expect it to be the one magic pill that fixes everything in your life with zero effort on your part I'd be more concerned. Make sure you address these concerns with your psychiatrist. Their only job is to persrcibe medications anyway so I'd expect them to know their shit. Remember that there are different kinds of anti depressants.

I've recently started martial arts classes and that has seemed to help a little bit. Gives me something active to do besides work out alone in the basement. Really I just crave the sun though, and there's no way to get much of that in Michigan this time of year.

>Something else that has drastically improved my mental health is abstaining from booze. 3 weeks sober and I can feel my emotions coming back online and mood improving a lot.

I'm considering giving that a shot for other reasons. I'm getting ridiculously sensitive to booze these days. 2-3 drinks and I have a mild hangover the next day. With certain drinks 1 is enough to give me a splitting headache.

Thanks mate!

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bready good
ive been meditating for a couple of years and that helps with the stress alot . and now that i started taking cold showers i dont take the ambien anymore ! the cold showers worked better than the meditation . they work great together . also ive been loosing weight and that makes me feel better about myself !
low carb omad ftw ! and ocasional days of water fasting !
you fags should try this shit im not memeing

pic somewhat related , not me tho

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I listen to KPOP every day and I'm in a good mood all day. Highly recommend it.

>work a blue collar, highly physical job like construction
I agree with this user. Working construction will make you into a man. You dont have to do it forever, but it gives you a good idea of the other half of life. It also teaches you how to interact with different types of people (eg. you dont talk to construction people the same way you talk to people in an office).
Every man should work a manual labour job at least once in his life

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Thanks and yes I'm aware. My mother was on sertraline and she was given fluoxetine but didn't take it. I'm usually passive but I'll be sure to talk with my psychiatrist about this.

I hate myself, I see no worth in me and I literally cannot have an engaging conversation with a person because I'm miserable and insecure all the time

I've missed the best years of my life being sad

fucking KILL ME

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>I've missed the best years of my life being sad

iktf.

I'm actually doing a lot better. I got rejected, my dog died, and my mom left on a business trip all in the same month. It was pretty shitty, but I've regained my composure and am ready to kick ass.

> via text
fuck , sorry for your loss mate .

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Agree 100%, men should do at least 12 months total of full time manual labour work when they are 17-22 years old. It broadens your shoulders, increases your tolerance for shit work, makes you into a real man.

Hate being in the city surrounded by so many soft-as-butter soy boy faggots.

I'm sorry for your loss breh

Whoa

Those digits

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I'm tiered of failing and mediocrity.
I hit a wall in my education. Cant seem to get past the last few exams. I've hit a wall in my training. Cant seem to get better, so I have to wait it out until I compete with older people. I feel like I'm stuck in a well.
also met a qt few days ago. Really feel like we clicked. Later on learned from friends she a lesbian. So theres that to brighten up my day I guess.

I'm a bartender and constantly surrounded by expensive wine/liquor that's all free for the taking in my role.

I was blacking out a couple times a week and generally depressed/bored with life. Cutting out alcohol changed my life the last few weeks. No more hangovers, sleeping until noon and have tons of energy and motivation.

I too miss the sun. I need a tan really bad

im alright, still trying to find work even a shitty retail one would do me fine at this point

>meet up cute tomboyish petite girl
>she's into weeb shit and video games
>martial arts, we start jogging together
>2 month later discover she's lesbian

it hurts far more than it should

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the manlet meme spiral has gotten to me, I'm 5'9 and I wanna kill myself now

>tell her you want to show her a new leg-lock or sth
>accidentaly slip dick out of shorts onto her lips
>???
>she not homo anymore

Pretty well, been working a job for three months now and serving customers for 5 hours two or three times a week has really helped me get more confident in talking to people and less socially awkward/anxious. Work with all girls too so there's some experience in it.

Quite often though one small thing will happen though and I'll be thinking about it the rest of the night when I get home and it can kind of bring me down.

Not doing so well in anatomy and physiology. And I might have to wait another year before I make it into the Physical Therapist Assistant program

I know that feel, found my oneitis and she's a a fucking lesbian apparently.. ended up getting with her when we were both shitfaced together though sooo idk what to think

the best years are yet to come, it is always darkest before the dawn
those of us who were sad bois while young still have a chance to be happy men

i am going to apply for PTA as well user

Best of luck my guy. My A&P 1 class has been going pretty shitty so far, but I think I can pull off a B still.

i know this feel my man. i have lived probably the most pathetic life a guy can live in a first world country, typical Veeky Forums aspie life. 25, kissless virgin never been on a date, no friends since i was 12, been a shut in most of my life, college degree but shit job, yadda yadda yadda. thing is though it isn't like im unsocial and just sit in a corner. i mean sure i really dont have hobbies but i actively talk to people at work and have always been able to make people laugh easily with "observational" humor and quick comebacks and all that, people have always told me i should be a stand up comedian and iget compared to bill burr a lot.

but i can literally never have an engaging conversation with a person because of how insecure i am about my complete lack of life experience and my shut-in-ness. any time i talk to a person i always have to just try to make jokes. and because of being miserable i just come off as weird and angry all the time as well, which im sure is what had driven people away from even wanting to be friends with me. in fact just the thought of having a date with someone, asking out a girl and sitting at a restaurant having an engaging conversation, gives me a ton of anxiety.

I feel lost, ive been a neet for 3 years now and my parents arent showing any signs of forcing me to leave, but i know i cant stay like this forever. The only problem is i dont have a fucking clue where to go from here, and im worried that at this rate ill spend the rest of my live wageslaving, coming home everyday too tired to do anything but sit around, only to die having lived a pointless existence. I've been working on getting good at drawing since a career in comics and animation has always interested me, but it always feels like im never making progress, that ill never be good enough, i look to the future and cant imagine ever being good at art. But i keep going anyway because its the only hope for the future i have left.

>jogging together
The fact that we went thought the same thing makes it somehow feel better, user. Thanks.

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this. I had a career in a very famous ballet company and I quit and went into construction it was the best thing I ever did

Kpop makes me sad because they are so happy and beautiful lmao

i just want a cute tomboy to exercise and play vydia with, i even had a "date" scheduled with her before i discovered

why do they all gotta be lesbo

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Hope youre not still talking to her.

fuck her man

Feeling pretty neutral, relaxed. Taking a step back and looking at my fitness goals and reevaluating myself and what I want. Got some planning and work to do on that. Other then that I’m on spring break right now, hanging with some buds. Going to be a fun week and going back to work life with a new attitude.

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At least they knew they were lesbian before being in a hetero relationship with you for 3 months

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lesbians don't exist, they're just confused women with daddy issues. you can make her straight lad

fuck off