So here I am in front of the computer, crying, listening to sad songs and poping sleeping pills so I can sleep this feel away, getting fit didn't help, I'm not gonna make it, I can't hold this feel anymore. The loneliness is killing me, the emptiness and the heartaches it's just too much, I hate myself so much, I hate my life so much.
Sorry Veeky Forums I had to get it out my chest.
turn those gay emotions into motivation to lift fag. pick up heavy weights and set them down
What sleeping pills?
lift the feels away
Ambien and Zoplicone
I do it every day but is not enough, as soon as I get home and realize how fucking alone I am, t-those feels hit me as hard as they can
My oneitis has hit a new level. Every night as I’m drifting to sleep thoughts of /her/ run through my mind and my heart rate doubles and my adrenaline boosts. We’ve been broken up for years, it’s never hit this hard. Any tips on curing this
Ive been experiencing derealisation for 5 years now, you dont have a slightest clue of how lonely I felt even when there were people. But guess what, going through things is part life, the sad moments repeat itself and every time you manage to get through them you become stronger
I'ts been 10 years now for me, I have tried everything
How did yours start?
user if you really are looking for someone to talk to, I'm willing to help. You matter. Do you use kik?
when my family turned their backs on me when I turned 18, I have been alone since then.... no one have ever cared about me, everyday I cry while the sleeping pills kick in, I go to bed as early as I can, when I'm sleeping I don't feel pain, but lately I feel like I can't do this anymore, I go outside try to talk to people, got decent jobs, had several qt gfs but at the end, I found myself all alone again. So at the end of the day I poped a fuck ton of pills and pass out cause it gets worse when I get home
I don't use kik, but I can install it
user, please don't eat those pills. We're willing to listen.
Start doing drugs. I personally recommend stimulants of the amphetamine variety. You will be euphoric, productive, and motivated, as well as have a marked increase in sociability. I don’t recommend opiates on a regular basis, as having had a crippling opiate addiction I can tell you firsthand that being dopesick is like what you’re going through plus feeling like you have the worst flu ever.
But yea, you’re life sounds shitty anyway. Can’t hurt to give it a try.
Im 99% sure the pills youre taking are fucking you up even worse bro
Try coffee and cigaretes for a while, after that drop the cigs and stick to coffee and add ritalin
After that drop the ritalin and only use caffeine and do whatever you can to change that mindset. You are only as miserable as you claim to be.
that feel man
my routine is the following, a nice cup of brewed coffee, cigarettes and start eating the pills until I pass out
Any sad music recommendations I need to wallow in self pity for at least 3 hours
downloading
Seems pretty healthy bro, keep doing that youll sure live to be happy and fulfilled :-^)
It's not the end man. Seek and you shall find. Hopefully you copied my username.
Have you tried LSD?
O Arjuna, how has this delusion overcome you in this hour of peril? It is not befitting an honorable person. It leads not to the higher abodes, but to disgrace.
It does not befit you to yield to this unmanliness. Give up such petty weakness of heart and arise, conqueror of enemies.
sure I can share a few songs with you
youtube.com
youtube.com
Thank you and godspeed
I have done LSD 3 times in my life, it was magical but that shit is hard to get.
I don't know about arjuna
>You matter
don't lie to the boy
Hey, probably mods will delete this thread, but before it happens just let me tell you that you are not the only one that's having rough times, I'm too crying myself to sleep.
Just don't do drugs, it's going to be better in the long run that way.
I just messaged you man
>sad songs
Yeah, I fell into this trap. I was depressed so I surrounded myself with depressing movies, music, etc.- like attracts like in this facet of life.
Then, I figured out "positive in, positive out". Basically, I started listening to high energy music, watched some Marvel shit (its mindless fun), and some 'adult' cartoons like ATHF. I started being more upbeat, which made people happier to be around me, which made ME happy, and the cycle repeated until a string of bad relationships drove me into the dirt emotionally, but damned if I didnt WRECK some vagina before it all went tits up.
thanks! man
If you're fine with awful singers
youtube.com
awakebutstillinbed.bandcamp.com
>So here I am in front of the computer
>The loneliness is killing me
So you aren't meeting people while you are on the computer, it's almost like you have to go outside to meet people or do things.
Get off the computer, go get a hobby and stop being a sad cunt.
I can't get through sadness without a period of wallowing in it completely. But yeah if you're not self aware enough to realize when enough is enough you'll get caught for sure.
like I mentioned above, I try to be socially active, hit the gym, go to work, talk to people, but at the end of the day its just me and my fucking head
Not op, I am lonely too but I realized something, to others I am a shitty person I can't even talk about my ideas or beliefs with out some one looking at me like im the next Hitler.
I went on a date with some girl last summer, one comment she made struck me off guard. "your not an empathetic person are you?" I think it was in response to me simply saying no to a homeless person earlier. I responded that 99% of people, especially in America are responsible for their fate, fuck the homeless, drug addicts or criminals, I'd rather donate to girl scouts (which I do and I dont even eat their cookies) or some local school. Kids are the future, whats my 1$ going to do for that homeless guy other than encourage him to stay begging and likely use it for alcohol?
Then I think the discussion went on to something like refugees and how I believe we should turn away every one who hits puberty except women because they assimilate better.
Needless to say there were no more dates after that, but she ended up dating a fat ass coworker. I was jealous and in my flawed logic I thought it was because I was not fit enough. Now I realize people dont like me for who I am, and fuck them
stop cry fren
Sorry to read about your sadness, OP. I feel the same and have been lifting for a couple of years now but same as you, getting fit didn't help at all. I have tried everything to beat this pain I feel inside me. Coffee, cigarettes, weed,pills,drugs of any kind, cocaine,hookers,steroids. Life seems meaningless and I am only 20. Sometimes I do feel like I am going crazy and would murder someone just for the fun of it.
that feel bro, I started at 20 just like you
Have a listen to the originals mirrors edge OST, it’ll calm ya down buddy
let me give it a try
Everyone on fit is lonely. Suck it up dude! Everyone here is going through some shit. Don’t project. Stop taking pills and hit the gym. Use your aggression from hating life to fuel your workouts. That’s what I do.
Read the bible.
God loves you.
you guys i just fucked up bad at work while exercising.
>im a super skelly virgin autist
>decide to start using some exercise equipment my work has
>using one of those machines that has the stack of weights you put the metal stick into
>beautiful petite coworker i always try to flirt/banter with says "user dont break the equipment i hear the plates hitting the stack, you cant get all those muscles in one day"
>comes over and looks at me and says "see user look your arms are all red"
>i tell her "i think it will be easier if you sit in my lap while i do it"
im gonna get fired arent i
Yes
I am defintely going to sound like a total nerd, but life itself reminds me of the matrix movie.
You see, there is this character, Cipher, who is aware that the matrix is a lie, that there is an actual real world outside of it; yet, he still despises it: for him, real world is horrible, his whole life is to perform some maintenance to a tiny space ship that feels like a coffin, eating some semen-looking paste, no sex, no proper food, no space, no nothing. In the movie, his plan was to wipe his memory out and get into the matrix again, to return to his inocence and live that "better" life.
Like him, I think that our lives is like that. Veeky Forums has told us that if she breath she a thot and relationships are a meme, that we need to lift and sort our lifes because it's the only thing that will matter in the long run, that we should give up on drugs, to always keep on self improving...
Haven't you sometimes wished that none of this wasn't real? To go back to our childish inocence in which we thought that life was going to be amazing no matter what? That no matter if you kept on eating pizza, not lifting, and wasting your time on videogames, the world would still provide you with a loving family, gf, entertainment and pleasures?
There is no way back, of course, there is that "something" that keeps us moving forward, away from mediocreness; it is just painful sometimes. I'm like the puppet of a dead carcass being moved by some kind of strings.
But in the end that is just escapism. I'm not OP, and i am going trough some similar situation, but focusing on hobbies is mere escapism. The actual issues are still there.
Even at 15 years old before I started involving into "degeneracy" and was somehow innocent or clean,I was unhappy at all times.People have always seen me as an unlikable guy and now it's worse as I have nothing in common with anyone and almost everyone who I at least tried being nice to, have fucked me over and betrayed me. Now that I am 20, after all the experiences I have had ,I feel completely detached from humanity. I couldn't care less about my family because they only see me as a burden.You could say I am a walking corpse with no hopes left.
>Stop jacking off
>stop watching porn
>take vit D
>stop cutting hard
>eat more fat
>go outside for an hour a day
>turn off all electrical devices at 10pm
This will cure depression 100% if you do it, depression is a choice unless you have severe brain damage.
This
Do you have a house? I can move in with you and pay some rent as well as judge you for your terrible drug reliance. I need to relocate anyway
You are being stringed by the call for struggle.
Because to struggle is to be human.
That's just a typical woman shit test. If you gave money to the guy, she would have just said something like "wow he just scammed you." The fat ass coworker might have just not responded to her comment so seriously and played it off.
>Haven't you sometimes wished that none of this wasn't real? To go back to our childish inocence in which we thought that life was going to be amazing no matter what? That no matter if you kept on eating pizza, not lifting, and wasting your time on videogames, the world would still provide you with a loving family, gf, entertainment and pleasures?
this is literally the reason why I have burning hate every single day for society and my parents. They knew what life was really like but instead of telling me, they bullshitted me. There was no reason for it.
>I’m not gonna make it
We’re ALL gonna make it.
One day at a time brah, one more rep, 2.5 more lbs than last week. Slowly, don’t think too far ahead or in the past. Stay in the present and try to do just a little bit better than yesterday if you can. If you can’t, then the bar is set even lower. It isn’t a race, just keep trying.