I never really feel happiness, energy or enthusiasm. My libido is low, almost dead...

I never really feel happiness, energy or enthusiasm. My libido is low, almost dead. I feel fatigued most of the time despite 9-10 hours of sleep every day. I eat healthily and go to the gym 5 times per week and lift heavy. I practice mindfulness. I have seen 2 counselors and addressed any underlying issues that I have had though there isn't many. The counselors consider me as mentally sound. I have tried different medications for depression, no change. I have tried having a job for 7 months and I didn't feel any better despite the sense of structure in my day to day life. I have tried abstaining from masturbation, my libido tanked even further. I have tried abstaining from porn, no change. I have tried increasing masturbation frequency, no change.

I just want to feel something guys. I don't know what to do.

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Sky diving

Not kidding. Go get an Adrenalin shot. Just go google it up and find a place near you.

Or shooting guns for the first time works too.

You got cancer or some shit Tbh

Perhaps I'll give it a try. At least the shooting, my sister's boyfriend has a gun for shooting clay pigeons.

I don't know about that, but I do feel like natural selection wants to take care of me one way or another.

Shooting is hit or miss, you might get the Adrenalin or not. I was firing a .50 inside and the sound alone set me off.

But jumping out of a plane, that will work 100% of the time.

At the very least you will realize you can feel and want to get out more to feel other things.

Go on a keto diet first of all. Technically atkins diet. Meats with fat, veggies, etc. This gives you mental clarity and energy because your insulin doesnt spike anymore up and down leading to tiredness.

Secondly try everything. If life is pointless and boring then there's no reason not to go out and try absolutely everything. But i mean give everything you try a good effort not just faff about and accomplish nothing. Then you will find what mentally stimulates you.

I don't even enjoy my hobbies anymore. I lost my interest in photography and video games. All I do each day is go to the gym, eat food, browse the internet and sleep. The best part of my day is going to the gym and talking to the regulars about lifting.

I somehow doubt this will fix anything, especially considering carbs are your main source of energy.

Get your test levels checked, unironically

This sounds good except finding the motivation to do things is very difficult for me.

Hey fuckboy, do some research and listen rather than keeping yourself wading in shit.

bump

I have, test levels are low, but UK doctor says it's not extremely low so I'm fine.

are you me?
I feel like a girlfriend would solve these problems for me, but I think I'm too boring and my standards are too high.

Yes, you are me. I also thought having a girlfriend would fix things but it doesn't. Though I have only had long distance relationships so I have never experienced physical intimacy.

I also have high standards (mainly do to with values/integrity/ethics) and since most girls my age are unironically tinder thots, it's difficult.

First, stop taking any SSRIs. When I was younger I took them and I had the same problems you have now. Fatigue, low to no libido, and no exceptionally good or bad feelings at all; similar to a zombie. After a few weeks when you get over the withdrawals , It's time to rediscover novelty and I know the most efficient way to do that and it requires very little motivation. Get yourself some LSD (best way to acquire it is through the DNM which is so easy I did it at 16! but you didn't hear that from me) and take at least a dose of 300ug or more. This experience will last around 8-12 hours so expect to be busy all day and plan it so you won't be interuptes by anything. However you come out the other end, it will be better than how you are now. If you already have experience with psychedelics, double the highest dose you've ever taken and make sure you are in a comfortable place with no interruptions (I'm being redundant because that factor is very important!). Make sure you test everything before you ingest it and good luck.

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Thank you for your post user. The SSRI I'm currently on does not have the horrible side effects of killing my libido more than it already is, and the wooden feeling I had on other medication but not this one. It's citalopram 20mg and feels like I'm not taking anything.

I know you mean well about the drugs but I'm quite anti-drug in general because I don't want to become dependant on it in order to feel good. Plus my friends have gone down that path and turned into addicts and ruined their lives. I just have a bad feeling about it user I'm sorry.

Sleep a little less.
Go play a sport.
Learn a craft or trade.

You are a social animal. Act like it.

Maybe I will join a badminton club. I used to play during school.

What examples of crafts or trades would you recommend?

Are you me?

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do something dangerous, or exciting, or both

you're not feeling alive

try raping

did they get e2?

Yes but instead of fantasizing about suicide, I fight against it because I know it's possible to live a fulfilling life. Many anons are doing just that, right now. There is no reason why I can't do the same.

They only gave me one number, which was my Free Testosterone. I don't know what e2 is.

I've had enough relationships, but never been in love
basically this, hard to meet women my age who ain't roasties

damn, what you described sounds exactly like low e2, trt could help you raise it

pharmacom would be a good start, are you willing to self medicate?

It was a joke b0ss. I just enjoy dark humor. Suicide doesn't really line up with my personality. If I ever got to that point I'd just start doing reckless shit for my beliefs or give myself entirely to something that is good/worth doing.

I totally understand your hesitation. LSD and other psychedelics are worth researching still as they are pretty interesting. All hallucinogens (another more concise name for certain psychedelics) are physiologically harmless and are not addictive. LSD and other hallucinogens are the types of drugs many people take only a handful of times over their entire lives. Personally I only take the drug about 4 times a year and that is more than enough for me. Also it seems a bit hypocritical that you take pharmaceutical drugs that are both addictive and have a long list of side effects but you are also anti-drug. Also, the experience created by LSD is not a good or bad experience innately, which differs from drugs like cocaine which gives the user a huge spike in dopamine. The LSD experience is at the very least intense, and for that reason it is cathartic and therapeutic. LSD was the first drug I ever took, and it definitely turned my world upside down from dreariness and repetition to optimism and passion. Looking at myself shirtless in my mirror while under the influence of it is what motivated me to start lifting and I started the next day and I'm still going strong now years later. Even though you are hesitant it is worth researching for at the least academic purposes so you know that it exists.

I would check if I can get my e2 tested before doing any stupid self medicating. I know that once you start TRT you can't really come off since your body stops producing its own testosterone.

Thank you for not just calling me a pussy like I expected. When I was first diagnosed with depression, my doctor wanted me to go straight on SSRIs. I tried everything before going on them. And I still hate that I take them, but since I feel like the one I'm on isn't doing anything, I don't feel like it's damaging to me.

I will research LSD. I live at home with my mother so I don't think I could go on a trip without raising suspicions. I know my mother would freak out and catastrophize the situation and think I'm making very bad choices, and worrying about me 10x more than she already does which stresses me out.

Don't feel at all pressured to take psychedelics. I'm not insisting you do them, just be aware they exist. When it comes to LSD, if you don't have a proper environment to do it in, then the best thing to do is wait until another day even if that day is years from now. Good luck user.

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yep best of luck dude

Your main problem is your stupidity.

Try gay sex. Start with a super girly fem boy then go from there

Thank you.

Thanks.

Here's your (you).

I'm not attracted to boys, nor do I have self respect low enough to become a slut.

Op, I know this might sound a lil weird but how much sunlight do you get? You should walk outside for an hour with exposed skin taking in some vitamin d, also, cut the pr0n and jacking. And doing Atkins or Paleo or keto is usually great aswell. No need to get overwhelmed and do it at the same time, but make a start

Date my gf. You think your sad now just you wait m8. Youd probably get on with her she also has a shitty libido

Midfulness meditation.
It will bring you into the present moment in day to day life and greatly reduce any anxiety. You start to enjoy shit too.
Start with just 5 minutes a day, work up to 20mins a day. You start to feel like a kid again. Combine it with nofap for god-mode ascension from autism slumber.
Please do this, my man.

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If you want a quality trip go to a beach house or cabin with a couple of mates and drop it there with one of them under supervision. That's what I did and it was super fun