Can't enjoy video games anymore at all

>can't enjoy video games anymore at all
>only like tabletop rpgs
>even then, I dont even like playing them, I only like running them for other people
What the fuck am I supposed to do with my worthless fucking life now? Can you explain to me what to do?

WAS I LITERALLY BORN TO BE A FOREVER DM??

>WAS I LITERALLY BORN TO BE A FOREVER DM??

Yes.

Just keep running those games. No need for the melodrama.

I've come to terms with having nothing in life besides running games. I have a scheduled 5e game on every day of the week except Sunday now, all of which I'm running.

Burnout and despair are all that await you on this path.

I know exactly how you feel. You wanna create something and have others appreciate it. However, most of your friends still think video games that, in reality, frustrate them most of the time and provide little else are worth while. At least that's my situation.

Then they give you the silent treatment when you so much as mention a session 0. I have one player that's actually respectable, and ironically I thought they'd be the biggest problem. But one player isn't going to be enough for the game I have in mind :C That is unless I want to have a bunch of NPCs escorting the solo player or rehaul my challenges entirely...

GMing is fun for me...the problem is finding opportunities to do so since your players either work themselves braindead or when they're off, ask you to share their shitty interests without giving anything in return after saying how badly they wanted to join your campaign.

FUCK.

...

Yes.

Let the pain out, OP. It's OK to cry.

>Player's Handbook
>Not DMG

...

Read some stories or books?

Work out?

Try learning to play music?

Try to forestall burnout by only playing with people who respect the effort you put in?

>What the fuck am I supposed to do with my worthless fucking life now? Can you explain to me what to do?
Find more groups, run more games, work a job that earns you just enough to get by and support your hobby.

>thinking that the crass mundanity of music and literature could ever compare to the deific magnificence of creating and running TTRPGs for other people

I'm like this except crippling anxiety sabotaging every attempt at GMing. I should probably just kill myself there is nothing left in life to enjoy.

>crass mundanity of music
I'm sorry the music you listen to is shit, and you've never experienced the wonder of playing the good stuff.

I'm pretty much bored dead with video games and the weekly highlight of mine is our one day of wfrp 2e session.

I like being DM, and I like running games. Though I also enjoy board games.

>WAS I LITERALLY BORN TO BE A FOREVER DM??

Either that or a game developer. Go try to learn you some C++ or C#, see if you enjoy coding video games as much as you enjoy running RPGs for people.

How is this even a problem?

Do you know how few good DMs there are out there? You could run as many games as you want and never run out of players. Good players, even, if you take your time screening them - and you can, because there's so many people looking to play out there.

>tfw you like designing and homebrewing more than actually running or playing games

play board games faget

>Try to forestall burnout by only playing with people who respect the effort you put in?

Who's this guy think he is? Respect ha We only sell pain and misery here

>when you end up spending most of your time divining setting details and creating npcs
>when all your players want to do is skirmish style battles

>We only sell pain and misery here
>here

That's the key word in this sentence. I don't think I'd want to run a game for people I met on 4chums.

>elitist anti Veeky Forums
>on Veeky Forums

k

heres a suggestion
kill yourself
faggots like you are a dime a dozen on Veeky Forums
>WAAAAA MY LIFE MEANS NOTHING ANYMORE ):

just fucking do it faggot

I'm exactly like you, except I can only play with my friends once a week. I'm extremely bored 24/7 the rest of the week.

>being creative yourself instead of sucking up other people's garbage
literally not a problem

get to know new people, faggot

problem, /plebbit/?

Actually enjoying being a forever DM is literally the opposite of a problem.

I've been forever GM for my group going on three years, and while I do enjoy myself I'd love to be a player too.

Thing is all my group members do shit like get jobs, have a life, get into stable relationships and shit. It's like I'm the only one who is willing to sacrifice all chances at a worthwhile existence to game.

Can't even play computer RPGs anymore. Having only the choices offered by the script bores me to tears.
TTRPG: You can do literally anything.
VGRPG: "Wow, the new Bioware game has like, three different endings! Also you can romance NPCs, buy a house and do your fantasy taxes! So amazing!!"

>confusing reddit with 4chum

Try out quest threads for a change.

It sounds like you're going through a period of existential depression that tends to be brought on by changes in life such as friends moving away from old past times and on with their lives and milestones points within life.

How is your self care? Are you looking after yourself ? I don't mean , brutal dieting and exercise I mean are you doing things for yourself that send a positive, affirming , message to yourself.

Here's some activities that might help.

>Take a walk in the park
>Take a bath
>Cook yourself a meal
> Go shopping for some new clothes
>Read a book
>Take a morning trip out for coffee and read a newspaper.

It feels counter-intuitive but honestly it will help.

I've got a dilemma I'll like to share.
I've ran a game for years with my friends. It's given us all countless nights of joy, art and memories as we all loved each other's company and the game that brought us together.

Unfortunately, it's gone the way all too many games go I believe. Some people don't have time any more. Some people fall out. Some people move away. All I'm left with now is one player who begs me to keep running it for them. Personally, I would like the story to get a proper ending, but with many of the hands who helped shape it missing it just doesn't feel right. Part of me either wants to shelf it, in the distant hope it can be revived sometime in the future, or to hamfist an ending.

What will you do, or what have you done in this situation/tg/?