Read tons of communist works

>read tons of communist works
>still can't bring myself to become a communist

I don't know, but despite the fact I love checking it out, I am unable to identify as such or even want to fight for their cause.
Anyone else know these feels?

i can't wait for this thread to go to shit

fuck off

I was in your position until I began reading the anarcho-communists. Then it clicked.

>I don't know, but despite the fact I love checking it out, I am unable to identify as such or even want to fight for their cause.
what are you looking for? what would make a cause worth fighting for or "identifying" with? and for that matter, what are you looking for and enjoying in the communist books you're reading?

You don't have to be a communist. Communism will happen whether you want to or not, whether you're here to experience it or not. Be one, or don't be, the contradictions will resolve themselves.

I guess the same reason I like reading Christian and Judaic theology? The same reason I like studying Neoconfucianism and so forth.
I guess I love huge metaphysical projects which end up influencing millions of people and are able to stand the test of both time.
Communism seems to be the only one in modern times, next to fascism, which offered such a grand perspective unto the future and man's place in the universe.
I can't bring myself to really take this leap of faith. I don't even know if one should, because it's blinding yourself for all these other vista's. But it makes you think about how one must be when he fully agrees.

>I guess I love huge metaphysical projects which end up influencing millions of people and are able to stand the test of both time.

Is that a reason to be committed to it though? You can be a theologian without being a theist, or a communist-scholar without being a communist. The difference of course is that communism isn't just a metaphysical project and explicitly encourages political action as a necessary component of what its saying. But if you can in good faith read communist thought disinterestedly in the way you seem to be interested in, there isn't much wrong with that. You can even believe, and not act, on it. That'd be doing about as much as most people do politically. And thinking a certain way does not require any leap of faith if you're confident enough with yourself.

If you want to be a revolutionary though, that requires a leap of faith and necessarily requires blinding yourself to other vistas. Same with any political ideology. You can't be committed to a political philosophy and be an impartial objective observer.

What would you fight for? We haven't witnessed the emergence of a critical ideology that could be mediated to todays population. The old models of communism have proved themself as failures. So what kind of communist would you be like? Of course, you ccan appreciate this and that about the theory, agree with it's principles but maybe what makes you unable to identify as one is the absence of a promising contemporary communist project

lmao, I hope this is bait
I can't believe people are still reading diamat into nature

A new ideology is emerging:

An unholy alliance of NRx, the alt right and other neo-fascists will bring about the singaporization of the world through meme magick ( the Outer Ones are on their side ), while leftists stand KEKED.
It's Umberto Eco's UR-fascism come to being ( ironically, Evola had his Ur group, but I doubt Eco knew this ), but as the most effective ism to have ever enraptured the world.

I didn't intend there to be written "keked", I wanted it to be "cucked".. I'm actually a little bit shocked now seeing this.. Even if I was only half trolling.

it's just a meme anyway, who cares

Bruh...

>I didn't intend there to be written "keked", I wanted it to be "cucked".. I'm actually a little bit shocked now seeing this.. Even if I was only half trolling.

Literal autism.

>move to Muslim country for work
>start dating a Muslim
>never interested in converting to Islam
>spend all of my time researching Islam
>read the Qur'an
>develop basic understanding of arabic (enough to vocalise the script and a smattering of vocab)
>study Islamic philosophy
>still don't believe Muhammad was more than an epileptic warlord merchant
>still don't believe that an angel dictated the Qur'an to him
>still don't believe he rode to "heaven" on a donkey

You can learn about something without believing any of it.

>Anyone else know these feels?

Yes, actually. I feel like it's perfectly reasonable. Marx (and other philosophers in the Marxist tradition) provide an extremely compelling critique of capitalism and subsequently propose a solution (communism). I feel like you can recognize value in the critique without being a communist. It has made me so fucking cynical though. Specifically Althusser's essay in ideology and ISAs which I just read is ruining my life. Everything is an ideological state apparatus now. I wish I was less susceptible to this shit (I usually am, but Marxism has a strong appeal for me).

>Communism will happen whether you want to or not
you have said this for 150 years

NRx and the alt right are fundamentally opposed though

>I am unable to identify as such or even want to fight for their cause.

There is no pressing need to be a communist. All you have to do is be a historical materialist; the rest follows quite naturally.

read Civilization as Divine Superman: A Superorganic Philosophy of History, good shit

I agree. Nrx is considered an alt-right position and gets grouped together with incompatible ideologies like national socialism and fascism.

A school from Frankfurt would like to teach you a lesson.

Well, communism isn't meant to be metaphysical, its a way to structure society around Marx's economic system

Maybe try out fascist works next. Or traditionalists. Or anarcho-primitivist.

name of essay by Althusser?

Ideology & Ideological State Apparatuses