One chance at life

what? Is this something about willpower?

Nah, metabolism.

sounds like an excuse that probably isnt valid.

True, I suppose human willpower can overcome biological limits?

can you explain the problem with your mitochondria?

Nah, I think it is willpower, I just wish it was a better reason. :/

I'm the same with Counter-Strike

I was actually curious but I guess you had the answer.

I realized my lack of willpower was because of ADHD (inattentive type)

Symptoms:
miss details and are distracted easily
get bored quickly
have trouble focusing on a single task
have difficulty organizing thoughts and learning new information
lose pencils, papers, or other items needed to complete a task
don’t seem to listen
move slowly and appear as if they’re daydreaming
process information more slowly and less accurately than others
have trouble following directions

Only takes me small doses of legal speed to get something done. Sad that this is what it takes but it helps.

>tfw too many hobbies to focus on studies
>making music, drawing, programming, screenplay writing, cinematography
>want to pick up martial arts

how do i get gud at one thing?

>always got good grades
>was on honor roll all through high school and graduated college with magna cum laude without much effort, though with an easy degree
>never really had much motivation and prefer to do other things than school or work
Planning on getting a masters in something that could get me a good job soon though so I hope I can turn this around.

I thought it was the same so I bought some adderall and took some speed and nothing happened except I got cold and a little hyperactive on one occasion of trying it.

I have finals all week this week and I haven't started studying for a single one and I'm in a position where I desperately need to as well. And as the years go by it becomes harder and harder for me to even study not easier.
What is wrong with me why was I born in this body

For the record I meant I only take Adderall, not meth at all.

The first few times you take it is WAY different than when your body gets acclimated to it. But then again, maybe you don't actually have ADHD. I was the same way in HS where I just got lucky that when I took classes they were easy and I could pass with A's on tests without studying and not doing homework.

I also suffered from depression and other medical issues, but I know what its like to live with a fucked up body. Its hard as fuck. Sometimes studying or small chores can feel like fucking torture.

I think you should see a doctor anyway and see what they think. There's too much stigma around mental health making it hard to convince yourself to get a doctor visit but don't worry about it. It took me 10 years of knowing something was wrong to make myself visit and its put my life back on track. Just tell them your problems when you go and see what they think. ADHD isn't the only issue out there, and there are many medications you may need to try before one works.

I know somebody will comment saying drugs are the lazy way out and we're just piles of shit, but if you've never lived though it you'd never understand.

I have Asperger's syndrome, not ADHD, they thought I had ADHD and put me on ritalin from between the ages of 12-15 before telling me I didn't have ADHD, but Asperger's syndrome at the age of 18.

>tfw dumb and lazy

>tfw diagnosed with 160 IQ

>file name
What the actual fuck?

Well Asperger's has its own set of issues that I can't say I know much about. Do you do well with subjects that you actually enjoy at least? Are you able to study for those or is it still the same shit? Maybe you just have to suffer and grind though the shit to make it to something bearable in a year or two.

Either that or maybe traditional school isn't for you. Its crafted to work for normies after all

If I ever saw anything like that by accident I would have to get a brain transplant.

Also as a side note what I do is study at a library or stay after work late and study in the office. I can't do shit at home. Try studying literally anywhere else but your house

How do you feel about the idea that ADHD is an atrophy of willpower caused by the lifestyles we live these days?

>tfw born smart
>never even had to flex the old skullmuscle
>secondary education on cruise control, zero fucks given
>begin playing vidija heavily, spiral into porn addiction and malnutrition very hard (lots of basic carbs, lots of fat, little protein, scurvy-tier absence of vitamins) during a-levels
>end with an a in english (german btw), a d in CS and an f in electrical engineering

>i never felt smart again
>all of my achievments now bank on my past knowledge gobbling attitude
>i can feel my head
>it feels like wet sand inside
>i am now 20 and a self-centered, lazy, half-braindead, cynical wreck before i'll even start working properly

Is there still hope? Can i regain my spark?

It's up to you.

>one chance at life
>have no ambition

its just that you've convinced yourself that you've lost your spark.

>tfw to smart too do anything xDD

I feel you man, it feels worthless to me to achieve anything, it's not like I'll be remembered, it's not like I'm going to save the world by having a high-tier job, money will not make me god.

I dont care about being remembered or not, i just want to have fun. Maybe i'll get a nice nip car, an rx7 fd, a honda s2k or a subbi brz, once my trusty Audi A2 (>muh aero) retires. I've found that driving is one of the few activities that really calms me down.
>inb4 FnF meme replies

>tfw have thousands of reason to think i have adhd(even had a neurologist told me and took ritaline)
>tfw think this adhd cripples my life in every single aspect even socially
>tfw family wont let me take ritaline because i smoke weed
>tfw even if they let me i wouldn't take it
>tfw don't want to use the only treatment avaliable

Define super genius.
Remember media meme pushers do not count.

>frog
>umbilical cord

>take multiple IQ tests, online, offline, school issued and official
>test 135, 142, 146, 150, 155+ with highest on an official test
>mind is always on
>20% of thoughts are useful

I understand IQ's a meme, but this is abhorrent, how the fuck does an undergrad in IT with an IQ like this do something that matters?

Even the most intelligent people can get fucked over by personality flaws and a somewhat dodgy upbringing / schooling. Just try to remember that it's never truly too late to make something of yourself. People aren't remembered for how young they were when they achieved something, they're remembered for achieving at all.

>one chance at life
>aborted

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